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Zhou Yun looked at Bai Zihan tenderly. She originally had an inexplicable affection for "Bai Zihan" in the novel, but now this affection has completely transferred to the real Bai Zihan. She wanted to ask Bai Zihan clearly
What is the relationship with her? Is it true that they are a couple as stated in the book?
Bai Zihan hesitated. This question was really hard to answer, because it was already in the past. Wouldn't it embarrass everyone to bring it up again? After all, Zhou Yun is now dating Lu Qiming, even if it proves that they were lovers in the past.
What can be done? Is there something to be saved?
Zhou Yun is a smart woman. When she saw Bai Zihan's hesitation, she also thought of this question. For her who had lost her memory, she and Lu Qiming were her first love. But now that she knew the truth, she realized that she and Bai Zihan were her first love.
, then what should Lu Qiming do? Do you want to break up with him and then renew your relationship with Bai Zihan? But isn’t this unfair to Lu Qiming? Think about it carefully, this is really a mess, no one can say
To know who is right and who is wrong, it can only be said that fate is playing tricks on them.
"I'm sorry!" Zhou Yun suddenly apologized. Bai Zihan was stunned and said, "I'm sorry for what?"
"Because I forgot about you. We were lovers, but I dated Lu Qiming again, so I feel sorry for you. I heard Zhang Qianqian said that it must have been very heartbreaking when you asked me about Lu Qiming.
Wrong? You must hate me so much!" Zhou Yun lowered her head. After knowing the truth, she felt that she had cheated on her. To put it bluntly, Hongxing was cheating on her.
Bai Zihan sighed, "It's not your fault, and to be honest, even if you didn't lose your memory, maybe we would break up."
"Ah? Why?" Zhou Yun asked.
"Because I was useless in the past. I felt that I was not worthy of you, so when you and Lu Qiming got closer, I was afraid and flinched. To be honest, Lu Qiming is so good that he dazzled me.
I'm ashamed of myself, so I don't dare to expect that you can continue to be with me." Bai Zihan said truthfully. He thought about it carefully. With his own personality at the time, even if he was not involved in the incident with superpowers, he and
Zhou Yun will not have a good outcome either.[
Zhou Yun did not expect that Bai Zihan would describe herself like this. In fact, after losing her memory, her impression of Bai Zihan only came from two aspects. One was the novel she wrote, and the other was the real person she had witnessed with her own eyes.
In the novel, Zhou Yun beautified and processed her boyfriend Bai Zihan at the time. After all, it is understandable to be in love, and she poured her best emotions into the book. Therefore, the shortcomings of Bai Zihan at that time were diluted and the advantages were improved.
Zoom in, thus constructing a character that even readers like.
So if we only interpret Bai Zihan from the novel, then he is a boy who has shortcomings but more advantages, is introverted but gentle. Zhou Yun, who has no memory, "interprets" Bai Zihan's character and personality through the novel.
"Sex", naturally I think he is excellent.
Now she added Bai Zihan, whom she had seen with her own eyes. He was modest and unfazed when things happened. He was a little more calm and experienced than his peers. What's more important was that he had supernatural powers and had an extraordinary quality in his movements.
A refined taste. Zhou Yun could never forget that Bai Zihan's power in intercepting a car with one hand was simply a majestic hero in the eyes of girls.
Through the combination of the two, Zhou Yun completely created the image of Bai Zihan in her heart. Such a person is not even a bit better than Lu Qiming. It is difficult for her to believe that Bai Zihan said that she is useless. If he was like this in the past
Why is this useless person now a completely different person? What has he experienced?
Zhou Yun said gently, "You don't have to belittle yourself. If you were really that useless, how could I have fallen in love with you in the past? Although I have lost my memory, I believe in my own vision. There must be something in you that attracts my attention."
Advantages, if you deny yourself, aren't you denying my vision?"
Bai Zihan couldn't help but be stunned, "Then what attracts you to me?" Bai Zihan vaguely remembered that he had asked Zhou Yun before why he dated him. People with low self-esteem also have low self-esteem about relationships, but Zhou Yun didn't say it clearly at the time, so
Now he couldn't help but ask again, because he had never understood the question. But when he asked it, he hurriedly said, "I'm sorry, I forgot that you don't remember the past, let's forget this question."
Zhou Yun burst into laughter, like a lily blooming, and said, "Let me tell you a story! There was once a pair of lovers who lost their memory for each other due to an accident. They didn't remember who the other person was, but coincidentally they were by chance.
Once they met, they fell in love at first sight, fell in love with each other, and finally came back together."
"What does this mean?" Bai Zihan scratched his head. He was very slow about emotional matters.
"It means that the essence of a person will not change. Even if you lose your memory, you will still be attracted by the same qualities when you meet again." Zhou Yun said with some emotion, "Although I can't remember why I liked you in the past.
, but I think the reason for liking you now must be the same as before."
Bai Zihan was surprised. He didn't expect Zhou Yun to say that he liked him in person. He watched Zhou Yun unable to turn his eyes for a long time.
"Don't look at me like this..."
"Actually, I lost my memory. After I dated Lu Qiming, I always felt that something was missing in my heart. At that time, I thought that I loved the 'Bai Zihan' created in my novel too much. I was obsessed with my fictional character.
The characters are so incapable of being emotionally invested wholeheartedly..."
"I like the character Bai Zihan in his book. I like the way he hides behind the bookshelf and looks at me affectionately. I also like the glass of milk he brings to me in winter. I like that he would always rather suffer a loss.
His sincere behavior towards others, I like his way of thinking about others but never saying it clearly. I like many, many things about him... His good qualities were all written into the novel bit by bit by me, and I can feel my love for him while writing.
Strong love cannot be let go easily..."
"But, it was a fictional character after all, so I once asked myself to forget it. Then I accepted Lu Qiming. But now there is no need to forget it, because you really appeared, and that illusory feeling really existed.
So... my liking for you is also true."[
"Maybe it's unfair to Lu Qiming to say this. But I can't deceive my heart. I have always liked Bai Zihan, and I like you!" Zhou Yun looked at Bai Zihan tenderly, as if saying something very happy.
Thing, his eyes were as tender as water, as if he were looking at the person he loved most.
The once erratic feelings finally found their way at this moment. She had been searching hard and finally found the emotional sustenance that was lost in her soul, so Zhou Yun's confession was natural and sincere.
Zhou Yun's words echoed in Bai Zihan's heart, it was heavy, painful and very strong!
Bai Zihan didn't expect Zhou Yun to be so affectionate. Even if he lost his memory, he still remembered love. He loved Bai Zihan who should have been forgotten. Why didn't he find it in the past? No. No... Bai Zihan couldn't help clenching his fists.
, it’s not that he didn’t discover it, it’s just that
It's because I'm too pessimistic. I deny myself everywhere, feeling that I don't deserve to have Zhou Yun because she is so gentle, beautiful, and considerate. How can I accept her feelings, so I always tell myself that this is impossible?
Then don't have any expectations.
It’s so useless! What a waste!
Bai Zihan felt extremely bitter in his heart. He felt ashamed of his past self. Facing such a good girl, a girl who was so devoted to him, how could he feel inferior again and again? How could he not dare to love? If he felt that he was not worthy.
She should strive to become someone worthy of her instead of feeling sorry for herself and giving up on herself...
After Bai Zihan left and experienced various events, he finally understood... Happiness is not something you have to wait for, but something you should strive for. Bai Zihan regretted the past. If he had been braver at that time, maybe he wouldn't have
These things happened today.
You have already missed it once, do you want to miss it a second time? Do you still want to watch her disappear from your eyes?
"Zhou Yun..." Bai Zihan raised his head and looked directly at Zhou Yun. Zhou Yun said "yes" and looked at him, her eyes seemed to be full of water, as if she was expecting and waiting. Bai Zihan gently held his hand
She held her hand and said softly, "I like you, more than anyone else in the world, but... I can't be with you now..."
Zhou Yun was very happy to hear the first half of the sentence, but the second half was like a pour of cold water, extinguishing all her fantasies and extinguishing her expectations. Zhou Yun felt as if something important was flowing away from her heart.
She asked, "Why? Do you have a girlfriend?"
"It's not like that, because we are already people from two different worlds." Bai Zihan painfully recounted his experience after he left, telling Zhou Yun that he had been in exile in Japan, fought constantly, shed blood, and then lost his beloved.
Li Wenmin.
Zhou Yun couldn't help but shed tears as she listened. Ever since Bai Zihan gained superpowers, nothing ever happened that made him happy. Superpowers only brought him pain and torture.
"Now you know, right? I have superpowers. I no longer belong to the world of normal people. My world is full of terrible enemies and crises. If we are together, you will continue to encounter dangers. Just
Just like Li Wenmin..." Bai Zihan couldn't help but shed tears
Tears, not being able to protect Li Wenmin was the pain of his life. He choked and said, "I like you, that's why I can't be with you! You should fall in love, work, get married, and live happily like ordinary people, but
These are the lives I can give you now."
Zhou Yun wiped her tears. Is this lost relationship going to wither before it can start again? Zhou Yun doesn't want this. The relationship she has been pursuing so hard already knows where it started. She doesn't want it to end so quickly. She is interested in
Bai Zihan said, "What if I don't care? I am willing to face all the sufferings with you. I believe you will protect me and prevent me from getting hurt, right?"
"I'm sorry!" Bai Zihan lowered his head and apologized. He still couldn't involve Zhou Yun. He had already lost Li Wenmin and couldn't lose Zhou Yun again. He said, "We can't be together now, but... if possible, can you
Give me some time? I still have some important things to complete. When I finish everything, I will give up my identity as a superpower. I will become an ordinary person and no longer use superpowers for the rest of my life. By then... if
You don’t despise me as a useless person, I hope you can leave the rest of your life to my care, I will work hard, get a promotion and a salary increase, and then give you happiness!”
After hearing Bai Zihan's last affectionate confession, Zhou Yun covered her mouth in disbelief and burst into tears!
The so-called love is that heavy responsibility, not selfishness, not possessiveness. Bai Zihan hopes that one day he can put down the lightning in his hands, hold Zhou Yun's gentle hands, and calmly appreciate every sunrise and sunset together.
