No matter how good a person's acting skills are, there is one person in this world that he can never deceive, and that is himself.
If you are used to pretending to be happy, the optimism you perform will be like a coat. It seems that only by wearing it can you become normal and dare to leave the house and walk into the crowd.
The young man was surprised by what Han Fei said. He felt that the words were talking about himself.
As a relatively famous comedian, he always behaves so happily in front of the public, but no one knows that he made all the audiences laugh, but he could not make himself laugh.
"Have you seen the content on my phone before?"
Han Fei knew what the young man was talking about and nodded.
Seeing Han Fei's admission, the young man breathed a sigh of relief. It seemed that he had been acting for a long time. When he was exhausted both physically and mentally, the director finally informed him that he no longer needed to act: "A comedian who brings happiness, but he thinks about it countless times late at night.
It’s really ironic to leave.”
The young man looked at the medicine bottle on the desk that he had not yet put away. He no longer wanted to hide anything in front of Han Fei. This was a very strange feeling, as if the stranger who suddenly visited him had had the same experience as him.
, they are the same people.
Neither of the two people in the room spoke again until there was mourning and music outside the room, and cold wind blew into the room through the half-open windows.
The young man shuddered, but he still did not close the window. Instead, he looked at the night sky outside the window. It seemed that the boy who had left was greeting him there.
"I have a question, I don't know if I should ask?" Han Fei looked at the comedian next to him who was similar in size to himself.
"you say."
"You have successfully had everything in your dreams and realized all your wishes, why can't you still laugh?" Han Fei was really curious. The comedian in 4064 is like another version of himself, one who has not been exposed to "Perfect Life"
, who finally realizes his dream through hard work.
"I lost my smile when I was very young. I think smile is the most precious thing in the world, so I want to make more people smile and see their smiling faces. Maybe I can also find my own smile.
I did think so at first." The young man slowly adjusted his emotions: "But that doesn't seem to be the case. I have been performing in groups for a long time. I have no outstanding appearance or any background. I want to
To stand out among many competitors, the only way is to work harder. I have tried many funny ways, but people don't laugh. They seem to have seen through my essence. I am a boring person at heart."
"Then what made you so angry?"
"Because of an accident, it was a performance accident. There was an error in the props team. The size of the seven-meter-high stage set off the ground was wrong. And I strictly followed the script. As a result, I took half a step back.
I fell from a height of seven meters. Because I was tied with a safety rope, there was only a slight bump, but the feeling of being solemnly reciting my lines and suddenly disappearing was quite dramatic. I was dangling in the air with the safety rope tied on.
It must have been the first time in a long time that someone couldn't help but laugh out loud while watching my performance."
Looking at the movie posters on the wall, the smile on the young man's face was a little stiff.
"I know very well that the audience is not malicious, so I thought it would be good to be a tearful clown at the time. I comforted myself mentally like this, but then I became more and more anxious, thinking about new jokes every night, and gradually
I started to suffer from insomnia, as if someone suddenly pressed a switch in my mind, and one late night I suddenly felt that the world was covered with a gray veil." The young man has become accustomed to smiling in front of outsiders, and his face
The muscles remember what a smile looks like, so you don’t have to be happy at all and you will still smile.
"Maybe it would have been better if you had been a horror movie actor."
Han Fei sincerely suggested to the other party, but the young man shook his head. In some aspects, he was as stubborn as Han Fei: "I didn't do comedies because I wanted to be an actor. I worked hard because I like to see smiles."
To become a comedian."
During the conversation, the young man's cell phone vibrated again. The group friends in the Happy Community did not chat in the group. They seemed unwilling to turn the group chat into a place to vent their bad emotions. They only asked the young man in private.
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The cold light of the mobile phone screen reflected the young man's face as he patiently replied to messages from group friends.
Han Fei stood nearby and stared at the young man, as if he was standing in front of a mirror, looking at himself in the mirror.
Under the guidance of the previous building manager, Han Fei became the building manager of Building 1 of Xingfu Community and inherited the manager account.
He may lose his life at any time, but he is also doing his best to save the residents of the Happy Community.
The deep world is always shrouded in darkness. In the boundless darkness, Han Fei is like an inconspicuous firefly.
"Sorry, there are a lot of messages today." After the young man apologized to Han Fei, he began to reply again.
Maybe many people think that he is doing meaningless things, but he knows that it is precisely because there are people in the world who insist on doing these meaningless things that many people who almost choose to leave will change their minds.
It’s not about right or wrong, nor is it about being pretentious or not.
They just understand a truth because they keep experiencing one thing.
For some people, you have actually seen them for the last time, but you just haven't realized it yet.
Twenty minutes after the young man replied to the message, he was very sincere to every group friend without any impatience. He seemed to have used all the words he had saved in reality in chatting with the group friends.
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"Most of the group chats in Xingfu Community are patients. They hide in the corners of the world and rely on each other's remaining warmth to survive the cold winter of their hearts. What I can do is help them keep this home."
"Do you always use this reason to convince yourself to live seriously?" Han Fei's words were not gentle. This was the first time he used such a tone to talk to the "ghosts" in the deep world.
"A reason to live?" The young man shook his head: "I'm not afraid of death, and I don't need a reason to live."
"Death is not terrible. What is terrible is that you are already ready to leave before you have lived a good life. If you miss something, you really miss it. You will never do it again. You don't even have the chance to regret it."
Han Fei looked at the man. He seemed to be persuading the comedian, and he seemed to be talking to his past self.
He has never had such an opportunity, an opportunity to face his own soul and his heart.
Regarding the question of whether "Perfect Life" is a healing game, Han Fei thought he had found the answer at first, but now he has changed his mind.