[Decisive Battle in the Illusion of Soul Cultivation] Clever【102】
"Only we know that you are the smartest among us. You are so good at everything you play. You are first in Go, and even amateur 3-dan can't beat you; first in tractor, whoever plays against you wins; in mahjong,
Not to mention, with you here, we are very satisfied if we lose less; each of us has been beaten seven stars by you in billiards. In fact, what I admire you most is CS, "Counter-Strike" you are the first to play from the Internet cafe
Learn it, and then teach each of us step by step. I know that only you among us can become a world-class top player, defeating the best team, sk, 3d, it is no problem. The first game of the last game was against Tsinghua University
, the four of us were ruined, but you killed them all against four. Only the world's top masters can achieve this level. Only I know your ideals and your strength. I know that your biggest regret is that you have never had
I spent money to buy a pair of earphones for listening and positioning, but you always told me that the earphones were too tight to cover your head and you didn’t like to use them. Of course you didn’t like to use them when playing with us, because you could beat us with a broken mouse from an Internet cafe.
But with headphones, your success rate of throwing a gun to the head can reach more than 50%, and your self-esteem is always so strong. On December 24th last year, it was your birthday, and I gave you headphones as a birthday gift.
, you didn’t want it, I gave it to you as a Christmas gift, but you still don’t want it. In the afternoon we were at the Internet cafe, and you still played as bravely as usual. We defeated the fake strong team of the Institute of Planning and Design. You said that was your birthday gift.
.I remember eating mutton kebabs together on the street after we won. You were very happy, because it was you again at the critical moment, always you, who saved us all. I really regret that we spent money on the preliminaries of the national competition.
You got a name, but you didn’t practice well. During the competition, four people dragged you down. If you hadn’t been with us, you might have become a professional player long ago. Now you can even run the South Korean trot. That time you blocked three enemies.
You beat them until they couldn't even lift their heads, they just ran around. In the end, you wiped them out. Everyone thought we won. You started to shoot into the sky to celebrate the victory, but in the end we still lost. It was me who failed to complete the task.
At the critical moment, I found that I had spent all my money and could not afford to buy an unpacker - but you didn't blame me at all afterwards. If we had succeeded that time, we might have become the national champion - because Tsinghua University at that time was
The strongest thing - this is the thing I am most sorry for."
Hua Zi's tears suddenly flowed down. Before Hua Zi spoke to Gao Qiang, he didn't expect that he would cry, but he still cried. Those were the tears of youth, bitter, abundant, endless, gushing, like venting,
Also like - anger.
Yes, it's anger.
It is a kind of depressed and simple logic of youth, as if it is asking a question: If life exists, why is there death? If there is death, why should there be life?
Now, tears were shed on all four faces, a little shameless, a little broken, a little unscrupulous, anyway, that was it.
Four hands holding together.
As usual, Lu Tao said the last words: "Today is June 3rd, the CS team, "Sand in the Wind" has been disbanded, Gao Qiang, we commemorate you. We will no longer play games, because when we play, we will think of you -
-Gao Qiang, we have graduated and we are going to work. On this day every year, I will tell you the things we have encountered so that you will not feel lonely over there. I hope you still think that we are your friends.
.My mind is suddenly confused now. I have never thought about the value of my life or how to spend it. I just follow fashion and play cool, thinking that I have character, but no one is as cool as you. You will die if you want.
, without saying goodbye to us, you are the most amazing person among us, no one has as much character as you, no one is as cool as you - your death suddenly reminded me that life is so fragile, and death is so close to us.
I want to go back and think about how to spend my life and what kind of person I want to be. When you died, I suddenly felt that everything was meaningless unless you let me know why you left.
Let's go? Now I'm most afraid of passing by the Internet cafe, because your voice is everywhere there. I hear you calling my name, telling me to go to the right, telling me to go to the left, telling me to rush--and now, in my heart,
All the monitors in the world are turned off, there is no more cs, no more you--"
Lu Tao covered his face and couldn't speak any more.
"Let's go!" Hua Zi said. He didn't want to cry anymore. He had cried enough. His heart was clogged and his throat felt uncomfortable, as if his head was pressed under water. He wanted to go out and get some air.
The four people walked out together until they reached the yard. They saw the people attending the memorial service talking and laughing with each other, the sky, and strangers entering the yard one after another. They also saw other funeral processions standing in a row.
In the parking lot of a new car, the driver was smoking, and he saw a few people huddled together and crying. In the middle of the yard, there were a few children playing, and they were throwing black veils at each other.
Running, they don’t understand death at all. They are more childish beings. They only have novelty and laughter. Everywhere is their playground.
However, the four people walking were confused.
Behind them, Gao Qiang will be reduced to ashes by raging fire. The most unacceptable situation happened. They also saw people's death rituals, routine-like funny and confused. As for them, they left Gao Qiang, and they all
Knowing that this time they were leaving forever, they walked out of the funeral parlor, only to find themselves in confusion.
Lu Tao was determined to forget about Gao Qiang's death, but he still couldn't do it after a week. He is a sensitive person, and he noticed a very uncomfortable problem from Gao Qiang's death, "Live and then die, but
What’s the point of all this?”
This question confused him, and it was difficult to explain this confusion to others. Now, he was sitting in front of his desk in a daze, with strange screen saver graphics flashing on the computer monitor next to him.
I don’t know how long he was stunned, but Lu Tao changed his seat. Behind him were two bookshelves that reached the ceiling. Lu Tao was sitting on the floor in front of the bookshelves. The bookshelves were filled with books. In addition, there were books on his front, back, left and right. The books seemed to come from
The books flowed out from the bookshelf and poured into all corners of the room. This was what he had been reading crazily in the past few days. He suddenly wanted to know what life was for. But to his disappointment, there was nothing in the book about this issue.
There was no answer. A terrible thought circled in his mind: Have people never thought about this problem? Have all living people never thought about what life is?
My girlfriend Mi Lai's call came: "Lu Tao, Lu Tao, Lu Tao."
Lu Tao looked up, and Mi Lai walked in, squatted next to Lu Tao, and hugged him.
For a moment, Lu Tao felt that Mi Lai was so kind and her hands were so gentle. For another moment, he felt that Mi Lai was strange and intrusive, interrupting his thoughts.
"What are you thinking about? Let's go. It's almost late. Do you want me to wait until you finish putting on your makeup before leaving?" Mi Lai said with a smile, and patted Lu Tao's head affectionately with his hands.
Lu Tao glanced at her and lowered his head.
"What's wrong? Why are you so dazed lately? What are you thinking about?" Mi Lai stopped laughing and asked him.
Lu Tao glanced at Mi Lai blankly, and then said after a long time: "I'm thinking about my future."
"Aren't we about to talk about your future? Get up, it's time to go. My dad is a busy man, and it's rare for him to say who he wants to meet. Let's go -" Mirela Lu Tao didn't pull, Mi
Lai squatted next to Lu Tao again: "What's wrong with you?"
"I'm not talking about the kind of future you mentioned."
These incomprehensible words made Mi Lai anxious. She tugged Lu Tao's hair: "Oh - please don't talk like this, I can't stand it. I just want to share a future with you. I will go wherever you go. Listen.
No?"
Lu Tao looked at Mi Lai.
Mi Lai patted his face with her hand, grabbed Lu Tao's head with both hands and shook it: "I want to be with you, do you hear me?"
Lu Tao hugged Mi Lai and the two kissed.
Lu Tao stood up and walked out. Mi Lai followed, picking up a new linen suit from the hanger at the door and chasing after Lu Tao: "Wait a minute, wear this one, wear this one, your rag should have been thrown away long ago."
.Look at it, I’ve made you wear it hard. If you don’t know, you’d think you’re secretly practicing at home!”
Lu Tao was changing clothes and walking out. Mi Lai followed behind and took out the perfume from his bag and sprayed it on Lu Tao. After spraying, he lay on Lu Tao and smelled it.
"I'm not doing it for your own good! It smells so good, so good. Handsome, you smell so good. It makes even a beautiful woman like me fascinated - hahahaha -"
Mi Lai's laughter suddenly comforted Lu Tao. It was a habitual attachment. They had been well for three years, and they might be well forever. That's how life was.
When the taxi was approaching Mi Lai's house, Mi Lai still hugged Lu Tao: "Kiss me, kiss me, I won't be able to kiss you when I get to our house."
She always wants him to kiss her, it's her only hobby.
He kissed her. The taxi stopped in front of a noble community where the Millais lived.
The security guard came over, Mi Lai stuck his head out, took out a community card, and the taxi was released.
"There are three steps, one post, five steps and one sentry around your house. Are there more bad people living inside or outside? Huh?" Lu Tao said sourly.
Mi Lai hugged Lu Tao and gave him a fierce kiss: "There are so many sentry posts because I'm afraid you might snatch me away from our house at night!" After saying that, he looked at Lu Tao again and added uneasily, "Our community is called Troy, I think.
Who do you think I am?”
"Trojan virus!"
"Beauty Helen!"
"Okay, Helen will be Helen."
Miley smiled.
"But were you robbed or eloped on your own initiative?"
Mi Lai smiled even more happily: "If you treat me well in the future, I will be snatched away; if you treat me badly, I will elope."
Lu Tao glanced sideways at Mi Lai: "Stop bragging."
Mi Lai hugged Lu Tao again: "I'm bragging, I can't live without you for a minute, I'm completely fascinated by you."