063:The truth in the heart063:The truth in the heart
My heart is sinking bit by bit, sinking endlessly, like a piece of ice being thrown into a water glass, slowly melting into a glass of water. After surging for a few seconds, it becomes as calm as a pool of stagnant water.┗ #_
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His body was cold, his hands and feet were stiff, and he couldn't move. Under the ambiguous orange light, hatred and unwillingness flashed in his unbelievable eyes, as well as indescribable anger.
People all have such a strange mentality. If there is a person who has always liked you, for a long time, you will subconsciously treat him as your own possession; when this possession falls in love with someone else one day, your heart will
You will start to become angry and feel that your things have been taken away. Even if you never love him, you don't want him to love others, but always love yourself. (Young Master: It seems that most people do.
I’ve ever had such funny emotions.)
Lan Yunsheng's blurred eyes were unfocused, but he lowered his head and kissed her densely on the cheek. Seeing that she was no longer resisting, he murmured more affectionately: Xiao Lian, Xiao Lian, Lian...
His big palms penetrated deep into her clothes with scalding heat, and he didn't seem to notice anything was wrong at all. He followed a man's instinct to kiss and proceed with the next thing...
Qin Xin did not resist, but looked at the bedside light with blurry eyes. She stretched out her arms and struggled to touch the light switch - after a snap, the whole room fell into endless darkness.
The gasping sounds became clearer each time...
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Helianze sat in the car, the knuckles of his fingers creaking from the pinching of his fingers. He looked sideways at the street. Many neon lights had gradually dimmed. The quiet night seemed to be covered with a veil, and everything was hidden.
It's unclear.
After hesitating for a long time, he still opened the car door. The ground was covered with cigarette butts, but in just a few hours, he had smoked more than half a pack of cigarettes.
He hates Lan Yunsheng's defense of the Lan family. Even though the Lan family makes him live such a useless and useless life, he still defends the Lan family wholeheartedly! He is stupid as hell, but he feels pitiful.
When a person is born, he obviously has a family, but he never gets a trace of the warmth of home. He works hard to do so many things just to get warmth, and there is nothing wrong with it, right?
If it were me, maybe I would do more to get that little bit of warmth!
Forget it, he drank a lot tonight, what's the point of being a drunk? He looks stingy!
Helianze walked into the bar, and the people had gradually dispersed. Only a few people were left, drunk and staggering around. The waiter was cleaning and packing the bottles. He walked to the bar and knocked on the bar.
Several times at the bar: "Where's the man who came to drink with me?"
"Leave early." Helianze is a regular customer here, so the bartender naturally knows him.
"Leaving?" Helianze raised his eyebrows.
The bartender nodded: "He left a long time ago, but it's okay. Don't worry. I went out before and saw him leaving with a woman..."
The words speak for themselves…
"shit!"
Helianze couldn't help but curse in a low voice. He had worried about him in vain. He actually drank too much and ran to hug a woman. It seemed that he was going to be a good man. At least he didn't hug a man!
He walked out of the bar without saying a word. When he sat in the car and fastened his seat belt, he looked at the dim street lights in front of him and felt a little unhappy.
What's this? I drank with him and got angry. I worried here for several hours. It's better for him! He went to play with women!
Damn it, as expected, no one in the Lan family is good!
You pervert, go to hell!
When Helianze got home, Silan was still awake. He was sitting on the sofa with his computer in his arms. He didn't know what he was reading. He leaned forward curiously and laughed: "Are you thinking that I can't sleep?"
Si Lan's eyes squinted: "Didn't you go to book a room with Lan Yunsheng?"
"Bah!" Helianze's face suddenly changed, and he looked at her with an annoyed look: "You, why do you keep all these dirty things in your mind?"
"If you turn it on once, it's on. If you turn it on twice, it's on." Si Lan's calm voice, his eyes focused on the screen.
Helianze walked away, went to the kitchen to get two cans of beer, came out, and handed one to her: "You know what Ann asked me to do."
Silan put down the computer, took a long sip of beer, and took a deep breath: "He has always done whatever it takes to achieve his goals. Ever since you were able to get along with Qiao Xue, you knew what he took you to be."
Helianze's face froze, and he didn't know if it was because of the lighting, but his face turned slightly pale. The smile at the corner of his mouth was unnatural, and he leaned on the sofa and said: "Everything is of my own free will. In order to complete the task, we have already risked our lives."
Already."
"If I didn't want to see the high-rise Lan family collapse in an instant, I would definitely not be alive! But what about you? Why are you living?" Si Lan turned his head and looked at him with cold eyes, full of pity.
My fate today was all brought on by myself, and I deserved it, but what about Helianze and Nun? They could have lived like ordinary people, but why did they become like this?
In order to achieve the goal, he does not hesitate to sell anything, body, self-esteem, self...
Is this kind of life worth it?
Helianze raised a free and easy smile on his lips, drank the cold liquid in one breath, held the can with his fingers, and made a harsh sound that echoed in the silent living room, lonely and empty.
"Slan, everyone wants to live, but the way of living is different! Maybe you have always thought that Ann is a very deep-rooted, cold-blooded and sinister man. He uses us as tools to make us work for our lives and betrays everything! But!
If it weren't for him, I and I wouldn't have lived so well, and would have died long ago. When we were preparing to follow him, we had decided to give everything to him, not even caring about our lives, let alone our self-esteem, self, and body.
something.”
Helianze paused for a moment, looked sideways at her, smiled, licked his lower lip and continued: "These are just the prices we have to pay for survival."
Isn’t the price of living like this too cruel?!
Si Lan didn't know what else to say, because they all did this voluntarily for Xu Ningmo. Even though he didn't agree with it, he couldn't express any opinions because at the moment, he was just relying on the strong support Xu Ningmo gave him.
Just dealing with the Lan family.
They can sacrifice their lives for Xu Ningmo without any reservation, but what about him? If one day, he wants him to do those things, can he do it?
He lowered his eyes, sighed secretly, and curled up into a ball involuntarily. How could he do this?
Helianze turned his head and saw Xu Ningmo standing at the door of the room. His cold face showed no emotion, but the flowing light in his eyes betrayed his calmness. He stood up and shrugged innocently, indicating that he had not said anything.
, and walked directly to Tang Nun's room!
Xu Ningmo walked over to her and sat down without making a single sound. When his eyes fell on her, he was somewhat disappointed.
It turned out that she was so miserable in her heart. She already knew that she hated herself, but she didn't know that she hated herself to such an extent.
She was afraid, afraid that he would ask her to do things that would betray her.
But how could I be willing to let her do that? How could I be willing to ruin her when I didn't even have time to cherish her!!
"After you find the information this time, you can go."
After a long time, he murmured, his voice was so soft that it seemed like an illusion, his expression was indifferent, and the eyes he looked at her were clear but never bottomed out. His tone was the same as usual, without any abnormality.
Si Lan turned his head, a hint of disbelief flashed in his eyes. He would let her go so easily?!
"You are different from Helianze and the others. You don't know anything. I can protect you and let you escape unscathed."
Xu Ningmo's affirmative tone and his gaze met hers with determination. All this time, he had not allowed Helianze and Tang Yun to mention their specific identities, nor allowed them to reveal the secrets of the information, in order to protect her.
Safety.
Because the more you know, the more danger you have!
He never thought of letting her get involved in their affairs, because she could die at any time. They were born to live in darkness, but she belonged to the sun, and she still had the right to look up to the sun!
Si Lan didn't say a word, but his heart was violently twitched a few times. He stared at him intently, wondering how much of his words were true and how false.
What reason does he have for doing this?
Xu Ningmo stretched out his hand, his gentle palm was like a father rubbing a child's head, gently stroking her soft hair, with an elegant curve at the corner of his mouth, "Don't look at me with such eyes, I know you don't
Believe me! It’s your right not to believe it, and it’s my right to do whatever you want! My blue, your eyes like this always make me panic.”
"People always have some thoughts to live easier, and have you ever thought about how you will survive after the Lan family falls? There are some things that you need to think about for yourself. I will always wait for you.
Answer." Xu Ningmo withdrew his finger, stood up, and returned to the room.
Silan sat alone on the sofa, staring at the place where he had just sat, a little confused because of his words.
She knew that Lan Yuanmo was going back to the city; things were getting more and more complicated, but she vaguely felt that maybe all the mysteries could be solved when several members of the Lan family gathered together. But this truth made her feel...
A trace of fear that this ugly truth will send everyone to hell.
Lan Sichen may not be the only person who is beyond redemption.
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Lan Yunsheng felt like his head was dry. Before he could open his eyes, he raised his hand and tapped his forehead. He frowned and opened his eyes. Seeing the unfamiliar environment, his mind went blank.
Where are you? I shouldn't have been drinking at the bar last night, so why are you here...
He sat up, vaguely heard something, and slowly turned his head to look at the corner of the bed. The first thing that caught his eye was his flawless white feet and calves. When he looked up, he saw curled up in the corner holding tattered clothes and crying.
Qin Xin felt as if he had been struck head-on, the pain spread throughout his limbs, and a chill slowly climbed up the back of his spine...
Qin Xin's messy hair and fair skin are covered with love kisses, her face is full of tears, her eyes are already red and swollen, her shoulders exposed to the air are trembling slightly, and her body is naked; and there is no trace of her body.
What happened last night is self-evident.
Lan Yunsheng's brows knitted together, he couldn't believe that he was right...but the facts were before his eyes, and he couldn't help but not believe it.
Didn’t I drink at the bar last night? How could I show up at Xin’er’s house, and why would I do such a thing to her!!
My mind was groggy and blank, and I couldn't figure out what happened.
"Xin'er..."
When Lan Yunsheng stretched out his hand to touch her, Xin'er's body couldn't stop trembling, and she kept shaking her head: "Don't touch me... don't touch me... go away, go away..."
Tears swept over me again, spreading on my fair cheeks, the crystal clear teardrops shining with endless sadness and pain...
Lan Yunsheng's heart tightened, and regret welled up in her heart from her toes. She couldn't forgive herself at all for how he could do such a thing to her... Looking at the hickeys on her neck and the bruises on her arms, they must have been there yesterday.
When Wan was too rough and ignored her wishes, he forced her to stay!
"I'm sorry, Xin'er..." Lan Yunsheng said awkwardly, but hesitated.
Even if he apologized, it would not help. He actually used force on her, and he really deserved death.
Qin Xin just cried without saying a word. Tears washed her cheeks over and over again, her lips were bitten again and again, and her mouth was full of the taste of blood. She was like a frightened little animal, curled up in the wind and rain.
was trembling.
"Xin'er...I..."
"Don't say anything, go away, I don't want to see you!" Qin Xin choked with sobs, her voice broke, and her tears became even more surging.
Lan Yunsheng knew that she was angry with him, even if she hated him to death, she should be.
"I'm sorry! It's all my fault, I drank too much. Xin'er, you have a good rest, I...I will..."
The word "responsible" is stuck in his throat, and he doesn't know why he can't say it out. If it were another woman, maybe he would just throw a check, or maybe say a few words of apology and it would be gone, but facing Xin'er,
I was filled with guilt and wanted to take responsibility, but I couldn't say such words.
Qin Xin bit her lip, wiped away the tears on her face with both hands, raised her head, her eyes were filled with tears, and her voice was hoarse.
"You are not allowed to tell anyone about this. Just treat what happened last night as nothing happened. Nothing happened between us."
Lan Yunsheng was startled. He didn't expect that she would say this at all. He thought she would make him... take responsibility! When he heard her say this, he was relieved instead of feeling disappointed!
"I'm not a little girl of seventeen or eighteen years old, asking someone to take responsibility for my first loss! You know, the person I love in my heart has always been Si Chen; what's more, she was my Ruixiu's fiancée before, and then Si Chen
Girlfriend, even if you don’t think about me, you should think about the Lan family. It’s not good for anyone if such a thing spreads. Just pretend that nothing happened. I... I will also forget what happened last night.
.”
Lan Yunsheng naturally knew the stakes involved. He pondered for a moment and nodded: "I know. I'm sorry. You should have a good rest."
Qin Xin turned her head away from him and hugged herself with both hands, curled up and motionless.
Lan Yunsheng lifted the quilt and was about to get out of bed, but out of the corner of his eye he saw the blood red stain on the bed, as if a dull knife was scratching his heart. The pain was unbearable, and his movements stagnated slightly, but he still got out of bed and picked it up.
Put on the clothes on the floor one by one.
His shirt and coat were all wrinkled, and he looked a little embarrassed when he was wearing them, not to mention his face was not very good. Standing by the bed, looking at Qin Xin, his mood was contradictory and complicated, and he had no idea why it was like this.
He actually wanted Qin Xin for the first time. He was her first man. He should have been happy, but at this moment he was not happy at all.
Even, he hates himself. How could he do such a thing!
After hesitating for a long time, he turned around and walked towards the door. It was useless to say anything at the moment. He didn't want to hear it. He just felt tired and didn't want to say anything more.
He opened the door and turned around hesitantly. Seeing Qin Xin's tears, he felt extremely uncomfortable. He sighed secretly as if he was sighing away the depression in his chest, but it turned out to be in vain.
Qin Xin raised her head and looked at the slender, depressed figure at the door with tears in her eyes. The tears gradually stopped, leaving only two teardrops hanging on her cheeks. She watched his back move with her own eyes, and the door slowly closed...
At the moment when the door was about to close, the shadow in the gap was blurred and intercepted in two; Qin Xin pursed her lips and raised an arc with unknown meaning...
The metal made a crisp sound, separating the two people into two spaces, each with his own thoughts.
Lan Yunsheng walked downstairs, and the golden sunlight pierced him so hard that he couldn't open his eyes. He walked to the dark corner of the wall and stood there, leaning back and rubbing his temples tightly with his fingers. He still didn't understand how he could appear in his heart.
at home.
Seeing her crying so hard, it was hard to ask any more questions at this moment.
I vaguely remember that I drank a lot last night, argued with Helianze for a few words, and then he left. I drank a lot more, got drunk, and then gave him money to leave.
My memory seems to be broken at this point. Even though I try hard to recall it, I still can't remember it except for having a headache.
Damn it...how much did I drink? How could I forget what happened?
When he walked out of the bar, he seemed to want to call Helianze, but he called Helianze...
Lan Yunsheng seemed to have thought of something, and immediately groped around on his body, and finally found his mobile phone in the pocket of his suit pants. When he opened it and flipped through the call history, his eyes were startled, and his soul seemed to have been knocked out of his body...
The last call record displayed on the screen is - Xin'er.
The headache became more and more severe, and scattered fragments appeared in my mind. It was because I was drunk, and I originally wanted to call Helianze. Helianze's number and Xin'er's number were the same...
One is Xiaolian and the other is Xin'er. Both of them start with "x", so they are naturally connected together. However, I drank too much and actually dialed the wrong number.
He obviously wanted to find Helianze, but he called Xin'er instead.
When he heard a woman's voice, he thought Helianze was in the woman's bed and cut off the phone. However, when Xin'er saw it was her call, she suddenly hung up again, worried that he would run out to look for her...
The result is...
Lan Yunsheng probably knew what happened in the middle, and he felt extremely uncomfortable and annoyed... His solemn face was full of annoyance, disgusted that his behavior was out of control, and he could not control his tightly clenched fists and hit the plaster wall hard.
, completely unaware of the pain.
I wanted to find Helianze, but ended up calling Xin'er, so that something like this happened. If Helianze came to find me at that time, then...he would have stopped thinking about it.
This thought flashed through his mind, and Lan Yunsheng was shocked. He was so surprised that he even forgot to breathe...
The person he wanted to find last night was Helianze. Xin'er's words this morning made him feel relieved. What did these things show?
I didn't want to marry Xin'er, but I...the person I was thinking about at that time was actually - Helianze.
How could this happen? When did my feelings for Xin'er change? My feelings for Helianze... became increasingly clear.
The two people got to know each other because of a mistake. The first time they used force on him was the way he dressed up as a woman, the way he laughed at himself again and again, the way he drank with her, and every bit of their previous experiences.
What appeared in his mind was extremely clear, but what happened between him and Xin'er became increasingly blurry...
"Haha..." Lan Yunsheng pressed his hands on the wall, the white wall stained with bright red blood, and he kept laughing to himself.
I actually fell in love with Helianze.
I really fell in love with a man.
What Helianze said was absolutely correct. He was a pervert in his heart. He used to just like to tangle with men's bodies, but now he actually fell in love with men. He became a complete pervert...
After he had his heart, he discovered that he no longer loved her, but fell in love with a man whose position was different from his own!
Who else in this world is more stupid than him? He didn't know it until now... He didn't realize it until now...
His heart began to hurt slowly, and the pain became more severe as time went by; the hands pressing against the wall were tightly retracted, veins were bulging, and gloom surrounded him.
If possible, he would never want to recognize the truth in his heart for the rest of his life, because they had no possibility before. Apart from Helianze not liking men, as a member of the Lan family, he must not let anyone know that he is gay.
Or, this is a great shame for the Lan family.
Falling in love with Helianze was just a shame for him and made him unable to forgive himself.
No wonder he felt very uncomfortable every time he saw Helianze with other women. It turned out to be because he was tempted. But if he had a choice, he would rather not be tempted so that he and Helianze could continue.
Be a drinking buddy…
Now, how should he face Helianze, and how should he face... Xin'er?
Young Master: Okay, I admit that I want to die. The following plots will become more and more perverted. I will honestly admit that I am a psychopath, so please don’t complain that I am twisted in my heart. Also, Ruixiu’s fans
, don’t worry, the poisonous tongue man will make a glorious comeback when he reaches 500,000 words. Some readers said, why did the ranking of the monthly ticket drop so much? This question made me feel sad... I hit the wall!