026: Digging out the truth (3) 026: Digging up the truth (3)
"I'm sorry..." Silan bit his lip and lowered his eyelids. He was once again willful, which made it difficult for him. "Actually, you don't have to do it for me..."
Before he finished speaking, there was a soft touch on his lips. He glanced at the face that was close to him. There was indescribable tenderness and affection in his eyes, as well as his faint breath, which was never willing to force himself.
Xu Ningmo did not bully her excessively. He brushed past her like a dragonfly, rubbed her red lips with his fingers, and said in a low voice: "The most intolerable thing between men and women is the word sorry. So, always,
Don't say sorry to me."
I have done so much for you, not just to hear you say sorry to me.
Was she crying? Si Lan hesitated for a few seconds and nodded gently.
"I'll probably be back soon. I still have a lot of things to do. You should rest well, your face has looked very haggard these days." Xu Ningmo rubbed her hair with his warm palms, with a gentle smile at the corner of his mouth.
. His eyes shifted to Lin Jiu, who had been eating breakfast quietly: "Help me take care of her."
Lin Jiu nodded: "You don't need to tell me, I can do it too."
"Be obedient and have a good rest." Xu Ningmo's deep eyes looked at her with tenderness, and the soft light of the amazing years floated between his eyebrows.
Silan nodded obediently, maybe he should rest for a day or two.
Xu Ningmo went out and Lin Jiu packed her things. Seeing Silan still sitting on the sofa in a daze, she stepped forward and said, "Go back to your room and rest. Are you afraid of nightmares? I'll stay with you."
Silan heard the voice, looked up at her with worried eyes, and immediately shook his head: "I'm fine, you don't have to accompany me. You go find Ling Jiuyue, you haven't seen him for several days."
If it weren't for him, Lin Jiu would be with Ling Jiuyue now.
Lin Jiu shrugged indifferently: "I will get tired of looking at him every day, so it's okay."
Silan pondered for a moment without saying a word, then suddenly stood up, held Lin Jiu's hand, and raised a forced arc at the corner of his mouth. His pale face looked haggard no matter how he looked.
"Although you are not my biological sister, you, like Nun and others, are all relatives to me. No matter what happens in the future, remember not to do anything impulsive that hurts the people who love you. Also, help me.
Look at Jing Eun."
"Don't worry, I know what to do and what not to do. I will also take care of your sister just like I take care of you." Lin Jiu said in an extremely serious tone with no hesitation.
Silan nodded: "Thank you, I'm going to take a rest. You don't have to worry about me, I'll be fine."
"Okay. Call me if you need anything." Lin Jiu let go of her hand and watched her go back to the room. Her back looked so lonely and lonely.
Silan closed the door, Juanxiu frowned, walked to the bedside with unsteady steps, got the chocolate bottle on the bedside, opened and closed it, and after several repetitions, finally poured one out and swallowed it into her mouth, with difficulty
Swallow it.
Opening the drawer, he saw that the button Lan Ruixiu gave him was still stained with his own blood. He rubbed it gently with his fingers for a while. In fact, Lan Ruixiu really didn't miss anything. What was wrong was just time, opportunity, and the encounter.
The occasion and location were wrong, so everything is wrong until now.
I once wanted to use him harshly and then throw him away; but in the end I didn't because I didn't want to become numb and blinded by hatred.
Loving someone is as difficult as hating someone. I hated him so much that I wanted to use everyone to take revenge on Lan Sichen, but when I saw Qin Xin, I suddenly realized that if I really did that, what would be the difference between him and Qin Xin?
.
I can't love, I can't hate, I can't do many things.
Lan Sichen, what secrets are you hiding? I really want to know.
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Lan Sichen had been sitting on the ground with the painting, watching quietly. All he could think about was Xu Xiaozhe's smile, thinking that he was leaving this world while he was still so pissed.
Silan was right, if he had not provoked Xiaozhe back then, maybe he would still be alive and well now.
Why? Xin'er, why are you doing this? The person you hate should be me, even if you want to retaliate, it should be me. Why would you hurt such an innocent child?
His throat hurt, his mouth was filled with the sweet and fishy smell of blood, and his cracked lips were bleeding. He looked like a man waiting to die, always.
The door was suddenly pushed open. Even if the door was not locked, Lan Sichen would not go out. Where else could he go now, and where else would he be willing to take him?
The woman put the food and water beside him, her watery eyes were covered with a shadow, she bit her lip and looked at him, her heart clenched in pain. The raised hand was stiff in the air for a long time, and finally fell on his knee.
Above: "No matter what happens, eat something. Do you want to die like this?"
Lan Sichen stared at the painting intently, his stubble was looming on his chin, which was dark, and his expression was decadent and confused. His deep eyes showed despair, and he also hated himself deep in his heart.
If the person who died was me when I was 18, then everything today would not have happened.
Si Lan will not become like this, Xin'er will not become like this, An Su will not die, and Xiao Zhe will not...
All of this is caused by your own existence.
"Eat some." The woman's voice was choked with sobs, and she couldn't bear to look at him, with looming tears in the corners of her eyes.
Lan Sichen's long and thick eyelashes finally moved, as if he responded to her voice. He slowly turned his head and locked his eyes on the unfamiliar faces one by one. He said in a hoarse voice: "I was born
Is it really a good thing?”
Is being born really a good thing?
If so, why do so many tragedies happen?
The woman looked stunned and looked at him. Tears flowed down unknowingly. The crystal tears rolled across the corners of her mouth, and a bitter taste spread in her heart. I don’t know why, I don’t know why I felt heartbroken when I heard his words.
Lung pain.
What happened to him? Why did he question his own birth into this world? Why did he think that being born was a bad thing?
I really wanted to ask him, but the words couldn't come out of my mouth. I just looked at him and shed tears quietly.
Lan Sichen looked at her tears indifferently, wondering why this person was crying in front of him. Do you feel sorry for yourself?
What is there to be pitiful about people like yourself?
People like me don't deserve anyone's tears, they don't deserve anyone's sympathy, and they shouldn't be in this world.
——Buzz, buzz...
The phone kept vibrating in her pocket, and the woman squatted on the ground without moving for a long time. Tears blurred his outline, and the mist made the world upside down.
Lan Sichen looked down at the painting in his hand. There was himself and Xiaozhe, but there was no Silan. It should be said that there was only half of Silan, and only half of Silan was painted. He was immersed in his own world and put everything into it.
All forgotten...
The phone vibrated wildly, as if to hold on until she was willing to answer. She bit her lip, wiped the tears on her face randomly, and answered the phone. When she heard the voice on the other side, her whole body froze and her face turned pale.
, the eyelashes wet with tears trembled slightly...
Lan Sichen had no reaction.
"Si Lan..." Her lips collided tremblingly, her voice trembling, and her eyes kept looking at his thin side face, in a haze.
He finally reacted when he heard the word "Si Lan". He slowly looked up at her and saw her mouth saying: Si Lan, disappeared.
Lan Sichen's face was shocked. He loosened his fingers and gently fell to the ground. A feeling of uneasiness arose. Something happened. Something must have happened to her...
He stood up suddenly, his body was stiff because he hadn't moved for a long time, and he hadn't eaten for several days. When he stood up suddenly, the world was spinning. Even the scene in front of him was flickering in and out, and the room seemed to be tilted.
The woman stood up, quickly supported his body that was about to fall, and said in panic: "What are you going to do?"
"I'm going to find her! I'm going to find her..." Lan Sichen seemed to be saying to her, more like saying to himself. He didn't know where he got the strength to push her away and stumble towards the door.
go.
The woman stood there, looking at him, heartbroken, sad, tears floating in her eyes...
Finally, I took heavy steps and followed behind him.
…
Xu Ningmo received the call and rushed back immediately. Looking at the empty room, his face was cold, his sharp eyes fell on Lin Jiu, and his tone was bad: "I asked you to take care of her, and you took care of her."
?”
Lin Jiu looked apologetic, "I'm sorry...she said she wanted to rest. I saw that she really fell asleep, so I went down to buy something. I didn't expect that when I came back, she was gone."
Even with this explanation, Silan disappeared after all.
Lan Jing'en looked anxious and said worriedly: "Now is not the time to blame anyone. Think about where my sister will go? What will she want to do?"
"The phone call can't be connected, and the signal of the tracker I originally placed on her has been blocked, so I can't contact her." Helianze lowered his hands in despair, with a look of helplessness and anxiety on his face.
Xu Ningmo looked from the room to the living room and then to the shoe cabinet, his eyes darkening again and again.
"If she went out on her own, I wouldn't worry... But if she didn't go out on her own..."
Without saying anything, everyone's eyes fell on the shoe cabinet. Silan didn't have many shoes. It was impossible not to wear shoes if she went out. Even - her slippers were still beside the bed!
This shows that she did not go out on her own, but was kidnapped by someone.
When Lan Jing'en heard this, she was so anxious that she almost cried: "What should we do? Who kidnapped my sister? Where did she take her?"
Helianze frowned and gritted his teeth: "It's bitch Qin! It must be bitch Qin!!! But where did she get the ability to kidnap Si Lan? Even if Si Lan fell asleep, she was in such a light sleep, and someone came close to her