043: I miss you and I think about it 043: I miss you and I think about it
Helianze grabbed his hand and put it into her clothes, sucking his Adam's apple with her lips, and his low voice was full of temptation: "You pervert, come in... I want to feel you..."
Lan Yunsheng's eyes trembled, and she stood up suddenly, turned him over and pressed him on the bar, tore off his clothes, and also tore off his last barrier...
Helianze was lying on the cold marble table. The pain was sudden and raw. He frowned in pain and bit his lower lip tightly to prevent himself from making any sound.
Feeling his pain and suffering, confusion and helplessness seemed not enough. The pain in his body was far less than the pain in his heart...
What a pervert, what should I do...I like you so much.
No matter how rudely Lan Yunsheng treated him, Helianze never yelled a word. At this moment, he was willing, but other than that, there was no way to feel his heart.
If they don't do this, it feels like the relationship between them will really... be over.
Fragrant sweat dripping, heavy breathing, and the lingering throbbing deep in the soul that bound the two people tightly together.
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The moon is bright and the stars are sparse, the branches of the cherry blossom trees in full bloom are swaying gently in the wind, and the pink petals are falling, dancing all over the sky, falling lightly on her hair and shoulders. Her long hair hangs down like a waterfall, and the tips of her hair are
Floating, her fair skin was like condensed fat, and her pair of black pupils were exhausted, hidden behind her bangs.
Lan Sichen stood in front of her, with one hand in his pocket, his gentle eyes always looking at her intently. Her young face and the flying cherry blossoms were reflected in his dark eyes.
"sorry."
In the quiet night, he spoke quietly, his low voice was soft but full of charm, and his sincere expression showed no pretense. "I'm sorry, because I dragged you into these abyss. Not only did I cruelly take away the most important thing from you.
Things that put you in danger again and again."
Si Lan's watery eyes looked at him calmly, her heart still, without love or hatred. Now, she could finally face this man who made her love and hate her calmly.
The fingers he took out of his pocket had clear bones and the thin and slender fingers held a recording pen and handed it to him.
Lan Sichen was startled, looked at the recorder and shook his head: "That's not what I meant."
Si Lan grabbed his hand and placed the recording pen in his palm. His fingers were cold, no different from his own body temperature, but the texture on his palm was very fine.
Some people say that young people should not have too many wrinkles on their palms.
"I finally understand why Ning Mo never stopped me from taking revenge on the Lan family and you."
Silan raised his head and looked at him without any obstruction. His tone finally lifted the weight from the past, as if the big stone in his heart had finally been lifted.
Lan Sichen looked at her, his fingers were stiff and did not move for a while, like a perfect statue.
"There is a kind of rebellion in human beings. The more you are told not to do something, the more you will want to do it. If Ning Mo had stopped me, I think my revenge would have been even crazier and the situation would have been even more out of control than it is now.
Ning Mo didn't stop me, he indulged my willfulness time and time again, and helped me clean up the mess every time. I really can't bear to hurt such a person again."
Although Lan Sichen felt extremely bitter in her heart, she had to admit that everything she said was right.
Xu Ningmo paid too much for Si Lan, and he hurt Si Lan too much. In comparison, he seemed even more despicable.
"I don't want to hurt the people around me anymore because of your Lan family. Lan Sichen, I stabbed my sharp sword in your chest. I thought this was the best revenge for you; but I never knew that, in fact,
There is no need for me to take revenge on you, because you have been living in hell. And my greatest revenge on you is to no longer love you or hate you!"
Lan Sichen's eyes were startled, and he uttered two words with difficulty on his lips: "As..."
How can you not hate me!
The corners of Si Lan's mouth slightly raised, and a light flashed through his bright water eyes, and he whispered softly: "What happened back then had a great impact on you. Originally, Qin Xin was your favorite woman. But because of yourself, you let your beloved
When a woman is in trouble, all your reason and calmness disappear. The only thing you can think of and do is to save her, no matter how many people you hurt or the price you have to pay. You are like a trapped animal fighting.
I just broke into your territory unintentionally and became a target."
"If it were me, I probably wouldn't have done any better than you. Anyway, I already know that I am the first person to be liberated now, not you. This can be considered a kind of retribution."
The original plan was to announce Lan Sichen's life experience to the world, so that the whole world would know the ugliness of the Lan family. But what was the point of doing so? It was just a mistake made by the previous generation, but they let Lan Sichen bear the burden of this alone.
The pain that made him guilty always exists.
This is the greatest revenge God gives him.
Wen Wanrou once said that Lan Sichen’s heart is as high as the sky and his life is as thin as paper. This is true.
Lan Sichen held the recorder tightly, a trace of guilt flashed in his eyes. When he raised his head and looked at her again, he seemed to see her before. His eyes were so pure and clean that people couldn't look away.
"Asian, let me hug you again."
Without waiting for Si Lan to nod in agreement, Lan Sichen stepped forward and hugged her tightly, leaving no gap. Her body was so thin that she was just a little bit in his arms, as if she was as heavy as a ball of cotton.
He lost his way and entered a dead end, struggling all the time and unable to find an exit; but Slan gave him a direction and an exit, so that he could finally escape from the whirlpool that was about to suffocate him.
Silan didn't move, but felt his heartbeat, beating powerfully.
Lan Sichen has been struggling hard, and has always wanted to know whether it is a good thing to be born into this world with the crime of adultery. It is undeniable that without Lan Sichen, none of the tragedies might have happened.
But if we think about it from another angle, does he have a choice if he can come to this world?
The previous harm has been magnified and mentioned all the time, so that the Lan family and Lan Sichen are forced to fight against each other; making themselves only remember the harm caused by Lan Sichen but forgetting what they have; Ning Mo
She is not alone, but has a group of friends who treat her sincerely.
Without Lan Sichen, how could she have been lucky enough to know these people.
And Lan Sichen, at the age of eighteen, was originally a brilliant and flowery age. He should have been radiant and the proud son of heaven, but he fell into the coldest darkness in his life. At the end of the road, he made the worst decision in his life.
It was a crime worthy of death; but neither the Lan family nor he had been punished since.
If you insist on not letting go, using your identity as a victim to seek crazy revenge and wanton harm, then what is the difference between you and Qin Xin and Lan Sichen?
Forget it, Slan, that's it.
Lan Sichen tightened his arms and hugged her hard, his gentle breath sprayed into Silan's ears, and he said in a low voice: "Asi, you must be happy."
Maybe, this is the ending between him and her.
Even if you don't want to let go, you have to let go. Because there is too much hurt and blood between them. There is no way to go back to the past. Without going back to the past, those things will disappear, but they will not be forgotten.
Si Lan stood there quietly, watching his back disappear into the night. The stars were twinkling in the mysterious sky, and he raised a slight arc at the corner of his mouth and murmured to himself: "Ning Mo, thank you."
If it weren't for Ning Mo, how could she have awakened at this last moment to let go of the hatred in her heart and free herself from the whirlpool?
Lan Sichen seemed to hear her whisper, his steps stagnated slightly, and the corners of his mouth curled up in a bitter arc. It was a kind of bone-gnawing pain. From the moment he fell in love with her, he was destined to be doomed.
If it were Xu Ningmo, she didn't seem qualified to say anything. If it was Xu Ningmo, she would be happy.
With this thought in mind, he quickened his pace and left without looking back at her again, fearing that he would be reluctant to leave and let go like this.
When Si Lan was about to leave, he turned around and saw Wen Wanrou standing behind her with two glasses of red wine, smiling brightly and sparklingly. Although her eyes were red from crying before, it did not cover up her charm at all.
"Drink a drink with me." Wen Wanrou handed her a full glass of wine.
The petals fell lightly into the wine glass, and the blood-red liquid rippled and spread out in circles. Si Lan hesitated for a few seconds before taking the wine glass.
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Lan Sichen held the recorder and didn't know what to do with it, whether to destroy it or keep it... Standing at the end of the corridor was Lan Aotian, his lips pressed tightly, his deep pupils staring at him tightly, his expression solemn and not angry.
And mighty.
Lan Sichen didn't stop for a second when he passed by him. A cold voice came from behind: "Lan Sichen, I am your father after all."
--Father?
For Lan Sichen, these two words are too heavy and full of darkness.
He stopped and turned his back to him but did not look back. Lan Aotian walked up to him with small steps and said sternly: "No matter what, you are my son, and my blood is flowing in your body. Don't do anything for me anymore."
Meaningless people do meaningless things.”
Lan Sichen's cold eyes met the sharp point, and he sneered and retorted: "Having a son with your own wife gives you a sense of accomplishment, doesn't it?"
"...You." Lan Aotian's face froze, and he gradually turned red with anger, but he just stared at him, pursed his lips and said nothing.
"Don't try to do anything to her again, unless you want my life."
Lan Sichen made a low voice and had already spoken decisively.
Silan is already his life, hurting Silan is equivalent to taking his life.
"Lan Sichen!"
Lan Aotian shouted coldly and wanted to scold him, but Lan Sichen had no intention of listening and strode away from the place.
Everything has become clear, no matter what decision Si Lan makes, he will not care; and now they have no reason to hurt Si Lan, unless they can kill Ling Jiuyue together.
Lan Sichen shook the recording pen in his hand, maybe it would be more appropriate to hand it over to Ling Jiuyue for safekeeping.
At least it can become Si Lan's talisman when necessary. That fool knows how to let go of his hatred, isn't he afraid that Lan Aotian will hurt her again? She doesn't want such an important thing if she doesn't want it -
How stupid.
But if she wasn't so stupid, smart and naive, it seems like... she wouldn't be so deeply in love...
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Hospital phone number, Lan Jing'en's operation was successful, the bullet was successfully removed, and she was transferred to the ward out of danger. Ye Haoyu stayed by her side to guard her. Xu Ningmo had his own matters to deal with, and Si Lan also
Haoyang had to go to the company to deal with the matter, otherwise Tony wouldn't be able to handle it alone.
The Lan family only had peace and quiet for a while, because although Jing En was fine, Tang Ling was dead after all, and Lan Yuanmo was nowhere to be seen. Lan Aotian seemed to have really listened to Lan Sichen's threat and did not do anything else.
action.
No one knows what happened that night except them. Lan Sichen's identity is unknown to the outside world, and they still regard him as the third young master of the Lan family, a deceased person.
When Si Lan saw Lan Ruixiu, she was not surprised at all. The two companies originally had her shares, and now they are in a cooperative relationship. It is inevitable that they will sit together to discuss some things. Before, it was because of Ye Haoyu that
We didn't meet in the name of work.
Lan Ruixiu was also hit hard by Lan Sichen's life experience. Coupled with the company's affairs, he kept looking for trouble with Lan Yuanmo, which made Lan Ruixiu exhausted mentally and physically, and his arrogance could not hide his tiredness.
"As for the details, we can leave them to the assistants on both sides." Silan closed the document. This negotiation was about funding.
In terms of Haoyang's financial resources, this is not a problem at all; but Silan will not be stupid enough to easily agree to inject more funds. In business, she has to face the best in the market.
Lan Ruixiu nodded, and when he saw Silan standing up to pack his things and seemed to be leaving, he frowned and said, "Let's eat together."
"I still want to go to the hospital to see Jing En." Si Lan declined politely.
"She is not taken care of by Ye Haoyu, why are you joining in the fun?" Lan Ruixiu said in a bad tone, always feeling that she was deliberately avoiding him.
Silan didn't want to argue with him about such a boring thing, so he just pressed the internal line and told his secretary the rest. When he was about to leave, Lan Ruixiu held her hand and held it tightly without letting go, his voice was angry and angry.
Hate "Are you planning not to say a word to me except for work?"
"If possible, this is the best." Slan made no secret of his thoughts.
Regarding the Lan family, she really didn't want to have too much contact with them.
"Why?" Lan Ruixiu frowned and stared at her closely: "Why can you even forgive Lan Sichen? Is it so difficult to say a word to me?"
Si Lan tried to break free from his restraint but failed, so he remained in a stalemate without speaking or moving.
"Or do you think I won't be sad?" Lan Ruixiu pinched her joints with his fingers. This woman is so thin, but she always makes people feel powerful.
"Sad?" Si Lan only felt funny when he heard this word.
Lan Sichen has been burdened with so many sins and suffered so much pain and has never said the word "sad". He, Lan Ruixiu, is also an illegitimate child, the child of Lan Yuanmo and another woman, and he and Lan Sichen are obviously the same.
The same fate, just because he was born from a woman, so he is destined to be cast aside?
Why should he say he is sad?
Lan Ruixiu raised his brows, his sharp eyes filled with coldness: "Now I even wonder if it was wrong to let you go in the first place?"
If I didn't let her go half a year ago, what would happen now?
Silan looked at him, speechless for a moment. No matter what Lan Ruixiu's decision was, he would definitely leave half a year ago.
Lan Ruixiu saw how thin she was. She had been running around the hospital and the company in the past two days. She didn't seem to be in good spirits. His hard heart couldn't help but soften. He sighed secretly. He seemed to be unable to be cruel to her. Raising his hand to touch Silan's face, Silan turned his head to avoid the big palm, leaving it frozen in mid-air.
"Have you ever thought about me in the past six months...?"
What Lan Ruixiu wanted to ask originally was "Have you missed me?" But it turned into a confused question, "Have you missed me?" He is such a proud person, but at this moment, facing Si Lan, his pride and self-esteem are also... Little by little it was disintegrated and collapsed.
Ask her if she has missed her, and her answer will definitely be no, but she has thought about it! "Miss" and "thought about" distinguish the feelings too clearly.
Si Lan turned her head to look at him, bit her lip and said, "I have decided to be with Ning Mo, and Si Chen also knows it."
"Don't mention them." Lan Ruixiu tightened her fingertips, and a hint of displeasure flashed across her expression. He desperately didn't want her to mention those people. Without them, things wouldn't be like this between him and Si Lan. "Xu What's good about Ning Mo? Whatever he can give you or what he can't give you, I can give you everything! Wouldn't it be better to stay with me? "
"I plan to sell Tianlan's shares, do you want to buy them?" Si Lan answered the question in a different way. He decided to let go of the past and should not keep Tianlan's shares in his hands.
"Si Lan!" Lan Ruixiu shouted coldly, staring at her with Yin Vulture's eyes: "Can't you give me a chance? Do you dare to admit that you really don't have any place for me in your heart?"
"It has happened before." Slan could only say this.
When I first came back and found out about him, it would be a lie to say that I wasn't moved. It would also be a lie to say that I wasn't touched when I saw how persistent he was, but being moved and touched are not feelings. From the moment I decided to leave here, I knew that there would never be anything between them. I don't care about you.
What stands between them is not the past, nor the Lan family, nor Lan Sichen, but that Lan Ruixiu is not suitable for him; they are not from the same world at all. Lan Ruixiu is too conceited and ambitious. A man, how could he be suitable for me!
The word "once" pierced Lan Ruixiu's heart like a sharp knife. He glared at her with angry eyes and wanted to strangle her to death. Why did she always find a way to use the most direct and cruel method to pierce his last line of defense.
"It has happened before, and it can happen again."
She couldn't reconcile herself to Lan Sichen and Xu Ningmo. She was obviously the first person this woman met, wasn't she?
Why did I have no chance at all in the end?
Si Lanjuanxiu frowned slightly, looked up at him, pondered for a moment, and suddenly said: "Do you really want me to choose you?"
Lan Ruixiu said nothing and just nodded.
"Okay!" Silan didn't break free from his hand, but took the initiative to hold his palm. His eyes were so bright that even the stars were dimmed. He pursed his red lips and said, "Take me away now! Anyone can find me." A place where we are not known, there is no Lan Sichen, no Xu Ningmo, no Lan family, just you and me. Let go of everything here and start over somewhere else."
Lan Ruixiu's face froze. He didn't expect Silan's change to be so big. He couldn't react for a moment——
Silan grabbed his hand and walked towards the door. After taking a step, he found that Lan Ruixiu was standing still, looking at him with an extremely complicated look. He didn't even have that much strength to hold his hand.
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Lan Ruixiu stood still, Si Lan's pink cheeks reflected in his pupils, and a faint smile appeared at the corner of his mouth, full of self-deprecation and bitterness.
Silan looked at the hands they were holding together. They were not firm at all. As long as he let go, their hands would loosen...the fingers pulled away little by little, and finally hung slumped by his side.
"You seem to have never said you love me."
A faint smile appeared on Si Lan's lips. The fact was already in front of her eyes. Although it was very old-fashioned, it was the best way to test a man.
"Your persistence towards me is incomprehensible. Maybe you are sincere, but these sincerities are nothing compared to the Lan family and your career. There is no way you can give up these things for me."
"Is it okay if the surname is Xu?" Lan Ruixiu was still unwilling.
Silan took a deep breath and said calmly: "Lan Ruixiu, don't let me look down on you."
Lan Ruixiu didn't say anything. Because it was indeed despicable to question another man like this. So what? He couldn't let go of everything here, but he couldn't let go of her either!
When Si Lan turned around and was about to leave, Lan Ruixiu also stepped forward, but he was not walking behind Si Lan but on the wall of the door. Si Lan's back was reflected on the white wall, with shallow traces of loneliness.
It's also dark.
Lan Ruixiu gently touched the figure with his hand and murmured: "Give me some time, give me some more time. I...I am willing to give up these things for you. Are you willing to follow me?"
Si Lan caught his movements with his peripheral vision, his heart tightened, and he immediately looked away. He couldn't bear to look any further - he opened the door, looked at the empty corridor, and said softly: "Actually, if you hadn't let go of me just now,
I'm willing to go with you."
It's a pity——
You let go of your hand.
Lan Ruixiu was shaken, and the figure with dull eyes disappeared from his eyes...
She is so cruel!
Si Lan was sitting in the carriage, looking at Xu Ningmo's handsome profile, her heart felt a little soft and warm, and her fingers couldn't help but want to pull his sleeves.
"What's wrong?" Xu Ningmo felt something strange about her and did not drive. Instead, he turned his head and looked at her seriously.
"I just told Lan Ruixiu that if he didn't let go of my hand and took me away immediately, I would really be with him."
Silan spoke without any concealment, she would not lie to Ning Mo.
Xu Ningmo was not angry, but there was a slight smile on his lips, "You dare to say such things only because you are sure that he will not give up everything here."
"Because I think no one can be better than you."
Who else in this world would sacrifice more for her than Ning Mo.
"Then how are you going to repay me?" Xu Ningmo picked her chin with his fingertips and asked with a smile.
"Please eat fat intestine dry pot."
"..."
Xu Ningmo smiled, started the car, and drove to the hospital. Si Lan turned his head to look at the scenery passing by outside the car window. He was silent for a long time and then suddenly said: "Ning Mo, if one day I am no longer here, will you be very sad?"
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"Yes." Xu Ningmo replied concisely.
"Will you always remember me?"
Silan looked sideways at him and asked seriously.
Xu Ningmo thought for a while and nodded.
Si Lan's eyes dropped, and a hint of darkness passed through. She put her hand on his and murmured: "If one day I am gone, don't be sad, and don't remember me forever. You have to live a good life.
, it would be nice if I could be with Keqin, she is a good woman."
"What are you talking about?" Xu Ningmo had a bright smile on his lips, held her hand, but kept looking forward, and asked: "If I am gone, will you be sad? Will you?"
Always remember me?"
Si Lan was silent for a long time and shook his head. Seeing him frowning and looking unhappy, he explained: "I will be very sad and I will remember you. But I won't be sad for a long time. I will remember you, but
I won’t miss you very hard. I will find someone who is willing to spend the rest of my life with me.”
Such thoughts are very selfish, but humans are inherently selfish animals and they only want to make themselves feel better at any time.
This world is not one that cannot survive without the other. She will still survive without Xu Ningmo, she just needs to change her way and meet different people.
Xu Ning Mo Hui smiled heartily, just relieved, but then he frowned because he heard her talking to herself.
——"But I still want to be with Ning Mo most."
There is no intense emotion, no strong love, just a simple sentence "But I still want to be with Ning Mo most" is enough.
A lifetime of indifference is better than a moment of passion or confusion.
Si Lan leaned forward and leaned her head gently on his shoulder. She suddenly wanted to marry Ning Mo, wanted to be with him, live an ordinary life, have children for him, and live like an ordinary woman.
, the husband is like jade, and the children are in groups.
I don’t know which writer said that the difference between love and marriage is that love obviously makes your heart beat fast, but you don’t want to continue; and marriage makes your heart beat obviously not fast, but you really want to continue.
Lan Sichen was once her love, which made her heart beat very fast, but she couldn't continue even if she didn't want to. Ning Mo obviously didn't make her heart beat fast, but it made her want to continue.
marriage?
Wouldn't this be too selfish?
Si Lan lowered her eyes and leaned on his shoulder, as if she had fallen asleep.
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Lan Jing'en looked at Ye Haoyu who was sitting by peeling an apple, and she couldn't help but feel a little jealous. This guy even had a handsome posture when peeling an apple. No wonder the nurse was particularly diligent in doing rounds every day.
"I have nurses taking care of me in the hospital. You don't need to stay to take care of me. The company is so busy, you should go back to work."
"Si Lan asked me to take good care of you." Ye Haoyu said without raising his head, his attitude of not returning to the company was extremely firm.
Lan Jing'en puffed up her mouth, her sister had really caused a big trouble for herself. Normally she wouldn't have time to hide, but these two days she had to face Ye Haoyu day and night. He did everything by himself, and even had to carry her to the bathroom...
If this continues... I'm afraid it will be difficult to resist.
God knows how much effort it took for me to resist his tenderness.
Ye Haoyu cut the apple into small pieces on the plate, took a toothpick and handed it to her: "It will be good for your health to eat more fruit."
Lan Jing'en held the fruit plate, feeling a little at a loss and flustered. She couldn't go on like this. She really couldn't let herself covet his tenderness like this anymore.
"Ye Haoyu, I told you I don't like...well..."
The rest of the sound was buried in the gap between her teeth. Lan Jingen stared at the enlarged handsome face in front of her eyes. Except for the first time she took the initiative to kiss him passionately, this was their second kiss. Ye Hao met with a very gentlemanly touch.
It usually passes by without any excessive intrusion.
"Don't treat me like a fool. I can tell whether a woman loves me or not. Don't deny the fact that you like me."
Ye Haoyu gently held her hair with his fingers, and a gentle smile appeared at the corner of his mouth.
Lan Jing'en's pale face had a suspicious blush, and she lowered her head slowly. She had lived in an orphanage since she was a child, and no one had ever really cared about her, and no one would treat her sincerely.
No longer bullied, no longer humble and pitiful...
I approached him at the beginning just because he was good-looking, had a good temper, and had a good family background, so he was the best person to get close to. But why did the closer I got to him, the more panicked I felt... I even felt that someone like me would be confused when standing next to him.
Dirty the surrounding air.
"It doesn't matter what happened in the past. I will take care of you and protect you in the future, and I will never let you suffer again." Ye Haoyu smiled lightly, took her into his arms, and carefully avoided her wounds.
A happy and sweet smile, a solemn promise.
Although Lan Jing'en didn't push him away, she never hugged him from beginning to end. She put her chin on his shoulder, but she couldn't laugh at all. There was a big stone on her heart, and she couldn't breathe.
Si Lan and Xu Ningmo stood at the door of the ward. Seeing such a scene, they couldn't bear to go in and disturb them. As they walked outside, Xu Ningmo held her hand and suddenly said: "Do you know much about Lan Jing'en?"
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"I asked Xiaojiu to check her previous affairs. Are there any questions?"
Xu Ningmo shook his head, remained silent for a while, and said, "I just feel that you two have a bad fate. You love her too much. Sometimes you should cherish yourself more."
"Maybe it's because of the relationship between twins. I can't help but want to be nice to her and make her live a happier life." Si Lan thought of the shot Jing En took for herself and couldn't express her guilt.
If it weren't for Jing Eun, the one who is lying in the hospital now and doesn't know whether he is dead or alive should be him.
"Have you heard the rumors about twins?"
Si Lan looked at him in confusion and shook his head. "What rumors?"
"It is said that the eldest twin is the heart, and the second twin is the root. If the heart dies, the root can still live; if the root dies, the heart cannot survive."