046: Love and hate can't be done 046: Love and hate can't be done
"The first time I saw you, I knew you were the one who could destroy the Lan family! But I couldn't bear to see Si Chen continue to suffer. I wanted to give him a dream and hypnotize you! But I didn't expect...you wouldn't...
It just destroyed the Lan family and also destroyed Si Chen."
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"Third Young Master, I found out that Jing En was sent to an orphanage by your mother. Just now she made an appointment with Si Lan to drink tea at Lan's house. And -"
Lan Sichen raised his head and looked coldly at Ji Fengwen, who was about to speak but hesitated, "And what?"
"Furthermore, your mother went to the doctor to prescribe a bunch of medicines. I asked the doctor that these medicines cannot be taken together, as it will be life-threatening."
Life is in danger!
The four words were like a hammer striking a clock. Lan Sichen stood up suddenly, a trace of uneasiness flashed in his deep eyes. What on earth did she want to do, why did she go to Silan, and why did she prescribe so many medicines?
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——As.
Lan Sichen's heart tightened, and his anxiety continued to spread more and more, "As... As..."
The thin lips wriggled several times, but could only whisper Si Lan's name again and again, as if they had lost the instinct of speech.
"Third Young Master..."
"Go to Lan's house."
Lan Sichen came back to his senses and spoke decisively. Ji Fengwen didn't say much, just nodded and immediately went to get the car keys.
His hands hung slumped on both sides of his body, clenched tightly. Wen Wanrou, you'd better not do anything else, don't let Asi get hurt again, otherwise——
Otherwise...I really don't know how to forgive you.
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Helianze was pressed on the bed and engaged in a life-long love affair. Lan Yunsheng's movements were rough but gentle, and she always whispered in his ears again and again, those sweet words and shy words of love.
.
Helianze wanted to seal his mouth, why was he so wordy!
But the long words made his heart beat violently, as if it was about to jump out of his body, as if it was about to be torn into pieces.
Lan Yunsheng bit his earlobe intimately and murmured: "Xiao Lian..."
"You are so wordy, please shut up, young master... um..."
Before the words were finished, the lips were captured again! The tongue was wrapped, and it had no other function except lingering. Love is Chen Ta.
The phone was buzzing by the bedside, over and over again tirelessly. Lan Yunsheng ignored it and continued to exercise healthily. Helianze couldn't stand him. He had been doing it for so long and he still hadn't finished it. His mouth was numb from the kiss.
, pushed him away, found the mobile phone and handed it to him: "Answer the phone for me! It's so noisy!"
Helianze turned over and pulled the quilt to cover himself from head to toe. He couldn't help but rub his buttocks. It hurt. If he continued like this, his anus would hurt even if he ejaculated.
Don’t you perverts know how to write the word “temperance”?
Lan Yunsheng knew that he was angry, and the corner of his mouth raised a rare arc. He originally wanted to cut off the call, but when he saw that the number belonged to the Lan family, he hesitated for a few seconds, answered the call, his face instantly darkened, and he uttered a sentence coldly.
: "I understand, I'll go back now."
Helianze heard something was wrong in his voice, which was completely different from before. He stuck his head out from the quilt, opened his curious eyes wide, and asked: "What's wrong?"
"My mother asked me to go back and said there was something important."
Since knowing Lan Sichen's life experience, he has not been back to the Lan family, nor has he seen Lan Aotian and Wen Wanrou, and he doesn't know how to face them. He held the phone with strong fingers, and his face darkened again and again.
"Oh." Helianze drawled out plainly, slowly got up, and held his hand, "I'll accompany you."
No matter what happens, I want to be by this person's side; even if I can't share the pain in his heart, I can at least face it together, no matter what...
When her black eyes looked at him, there was a hint of joy and comfort. She lowered her head and kissed his lips: "Thank you."
He Lianze's face couldn't help but blush, and he felt a little embarrassed. He kicked Lan Yunsheng out of the bed and said, "Thank you, sister! You're so verbose. Please give me a bath and change my clothes!"
Lan Yunsheng was sitting naked on the floor and was not angry. She stood up and hugged him in her arms. Her deep voice was particularly charming: "Yes, my young master."
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"I was not the one who ruined Lan Sichen's life..." Silan said in a low voice, looking at Wen Wanrou with heartbreaking and complicated eyes: "It was you, you single-handedly ruined your son. You...
In the name of love, they took revenge on Lan Yuanmo and destroyed the Lan family they had worked so hard to build, even at the expense of their own children. Wen Wanrou, seeing the Lan family and Lan Yuanmo today, have you ever been really happy?"
If we talk about hatred, is Wen Wanrou's hatred for Lan Yuanmo any deeper than her own hatred for Lan Sichen?
I hate a person so much, hate everything about him, and try my best to get revenge on him, but in the end I find that revenge on a person cannot make me happy, nor can I be free...
So, what’s the point of such crazy revenge?
Wen Wanrou's fingers froze as she put down the teacup. The water in the teapot stopped boiling and gradually cooled down. The white mist also dispersed little by little. After the dense mist disappeared, it became deserted and lonely. The light softened her perfect contours.
The eyes are full of loneliness and depression...
Happy?
Have you ever been truly happy in these years?
"I seem to have...never been...truly happy..."
"Because you were wrong from the beginning. Neither love nor marriage should be what you thought."
Love and marriage should not be as simple as we think, and we are not as indestructible as we estimate. Wen Wanrou thought she could endure such a marriage, but in the end she wasted her best years in this marriage, and this is also the case
I lost myself in my marriage...
Without love, only hate remains.
"Slan, I have no way to look back..."
Wen Wanrou seemed to come out of her memories, her eyes looked at Silan with great tenderness, complex, compassionate, and full of clarity. It seemed that she had never been so awake in her life... The past events were still vivid in her mind, and she seemed to be unable to forget them, even more so.
appeared clearly before my eyes.
Is it wrong? After being Mrs. Lan for so many years, she is still wrong after all.
"Your heart is sick. Being sick for so many years has destroyed everything you love."
Wen Wanrou sighed deeply and nodded in agreement with her statement: "Yes! I have been ill for so many years and ruined everything. In fact, the person you should hate the most is me. Without me, so many tragedies would not have happened.
Si Chen owes you a life, I will help him pay it back! Don't hate him anymore, torture him and torture yourself..."
"Actually, I have..."
Si Lan lowered his eyes and interrupted her lightly. He no longer hated Lan Sichen and did not want to continue this revenge game... But before he finished speaking, he smelled a trace of blood and looked up to see Wen Wanrou.
There was a fruit knife stuck in his abdomen, and blood flowed out like a river, dyeing the white skirt red...
"...You!" Si Lan was shocked, his eyes were filled with bright red, and the strong smell of blood flowed under his nose. His breath was sad, and death seemed to be everywhere.
"Why are you doing this?"
Si Lan opened and closed her lips for a long time, and finally found her voice. Looking at her smile, it was beautiful, peaceful and quiet.
"I'm really...tired." Wen Wanrou's weak voice came out slowly, her eyes looked at Silan, with relief. She experienced the taste of death again and again, and this time she could truly shake hands with death and hold hands tightly.
no longer let go.
On the surface, she is a genius psychiatrist. She has a distinguished status, the wife of the Lan family, and the only hostess. People only remember the superficial things she has, but forget that she is just an ordinary woman, and all she wants is her husband.
Care and protection, she just wants to wait for that person to come back, but no matter how she waits for so many years, she can't seem to wait...
Waiting, waiting, and despairing.
Two cars stopped at the door of Lan's house at the same time. When Lan Yunsheng and Lan Sichen got out of the car, they saw each other, and their eyes flashed with surprise, and they had a very bad feeling in their hearts.
"Why are you back?" Lan Yunsheng said in a low voice, Helianze stood beside him.
"She found Asi, and I'm worried that something will happen to Asi." Lan Sichen replied concisely and walked towards the Lan family hall.
Silan? Helianze's face froze, and he asked in surprise: "Why are Silan here?" As he said that, he followed Lan Sichen, leaving Lan Yunsheng behind.
Lan Yunsheng followed behind him without saying a word.
Seeing the three of them walking in with a vigorous and resolute manner, the housekeeper immediately said respectfully: "Miss Slan is in the tea room."
Lan Sichen and Lan Yunsheng looked at each other, and both walked towards the tea room in tacit agreement. Helianze didn't know where the tea room was, so he had to follow behind them.
Wen Wanrou did it on purpose. She went to find Si Lan on purpose. She deliberately told Ji Fengwen that she had bought many kinds of medicine, so that she came over worriedly, and then notified Lan Yunsheng to come back.
What exactly does she want to do?
"As..."
Lan Sichen opened the door of the tea room and looked around for Si Lan's shadow with worried eyes. But when he saw the scene in front of him, he couldn't help but froze...
Lan Yunsheng walked up to him with a puzzled look and followed him with her eyes. When she saw the scene in front of her, her expression suddenly changed. She pushed Lan Sichen away and rushed to hug Wen Wanrou: "Mom...
Mom...why...why do you do this?"
Lan Sichen stood there, looking at the scene in front of her and unable to react for a moment. She never thought that she would choose such an extreme way to seek relief.
Seeing her two sons appear in front of her eyes, Wen Wanrou's smile became even more charming and satisfied. She touched Lan Yunsheng's cheek with her fingers and said in an apologetic tone: "You always blame me for being too good to Si Chen... You think no one cares?
You...Actually not...Actually...I really love you very much..."
I love you very much, but I just don't know how to face you.
I love your father, but he doesn't love me. He keeps hurting me like this... I love you, but how should I love you... When I see you, I can think of his ruthlessness, even his body
The agreement is just a perfunctory attitude...
He has never even kissed me tenderly.
Lan Yunsheng's eyes were startled, and he hugged her thin body more tightly with both hands. When did this gentle, quiet and noble woman become so thin, she lost all her weight.
"I'll take you to the hospital, Mom, stop talking... I'll take you to the hospital."
"No." Wen Wanrou grabbed his clothes and shook her head invisibly, "Let me go."
Lan Yunsheng didn't understand what she meant by her words. He just felt like his heart was cut by a knife, and he couldn't help but watch her die in front of his eyes.
Even if she did so many wrong things, he didn't know how to blame her, because she was the one who brought him into this world.
"I have been suffering from heart disease for so long. I have been using my identity as a psychiatrist to cure other people's heart diseases, but I have never been able to cure my own heart disease. The more I go wrong, the more wrong I go, the more I go... I am full of resentment.
Tortured, suffered all the pain in this world, let me go, Yun Sheng..."
She stared at Lan Yunsheng with gentle and soft eyes, tears as big as peas fell silently, and her wet eyelashes trembled slightly. She had no makeup today, and had a plain face with light wrinkles, but it did not affect it at all.
She is as quiet and beautiful as a chrysanthemum.
"Mom!!!!" Lan Yunsheng growled, his pupils turned scarlet, and he looked incomprehensible, and he didn't understand in his heart why he chose to end it in this way.
Why must "death" be used to end it all?
Si Lan sat quietly, watching the scenes happening in front of him. Blood was flowing on the ground, creating a poignant scene.
So what if I hate Lan Sichen so much? He is just a pawn used by Wen Wanrou to take revenge on Lan Yuanmo; so what if the initiator of all this is Wen Wanrou? All the pain she has suffered is all caused by Lan Yuanmo...
From beginning to end, fate never spared anyone, nor did it treat anyone kindly.
Looking at this miserable scene in front of me, how can I feel resentful?
Wen Wanrou looked at Lan Sichen, and her tears fell even more fiercely. Her fair skin was washed away by tears, and the tears streaked the corners of her mouth with bitterness. Her voice was hoarse and she spat it out weakly: "I'm sorry... I'm sorry... Si Chen
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Even if I brought you into this world just to use you to take revenge on the people I love, you are still my child and I have no way not to love you.
Lan Sichen stood stiffly, without responding. The woman in front of him, who was no longer young, was the one who brought him into this world. Deep in his memory, she once hugged him tenderly and gave him warm motherly love.
To this day, I can still vaguely remember the scent of her body, the scent of my mother.
He thought he wouldn't be in pain anymore, but when he saw her eyes full of blood, his heart was stabbed hard, and the pain swept through him, making him unable to suppress it.
Wen Wanrou raised her arms with great effort, wanting to touch Lan Sichen who was standing at the door. Her fingertips trembled in mid-air, and her voice seemed to be absent - forgive me, Si Chen, forgive me...
Lan Yunsheng's red eyes looked at Wen Wanrou's eager and atoning eyes, looking towards Lan Sichen...
Until now, Lan Sichen still hasn’t been able to forgive?
Si Lan's eyes full of pity moved from his gentle fingertips to Lan Sichen's body. He lowered his eyes for a few seconds, stood up slowly, walked to Lan Sichen, and said calmly: "In this world, blood is the only one who has blood ties."
Constantly, don't let yourself regret or leave any regrets. Lan Sichen, you have never hated her, have you?"
If Lan Sichen really hated Wen Wanrou, he would not bear Lan Yi's death on his shoulders; if he really hated Wen Wanrou, he would not keep the secret secret.
That was his mother, and he couldn't hate her.
It's just that I can't face it at this moment, I don't know how to deal with it. What about the calm and wise Lan Sichen, in front of Wen Wanrou, he is just a child who longs for his mother's love.
Si Lan held his hand and pulled him to the front of Wen Wanrou. He turned his head and saw Lan Sichen's complicated eyes trying his best to suppress the emotions that were about to collapse.
Silan put Lan Sichen's hand in Wen Wanrou's. The temperature disappeared little by little, and the palm of the hand was terrifyingly cold. The moment it touched Lan Sichen's hand, Wen Wanrou looked at Silan, her lips trembling continuously,
But he couldn't make any sound, and his silent mouth seemed to be saying - thank you!
Lan Sichen looked at her mother, unable to love her and wishing she could not. After suffering for so many years, she finally chose this way to free herself.
Wen Wanrou felt Lan Sichen's warmth, and wanted to hold Sichen's hand tightly, but her fingers moved, but she couldn't use any strength; Lan Sichen noticed what she wanted to do, hesitated for a few seconds, and wanted to
When holding her hand——
The fingers covered with blood suddenly lost their strength and fell rapidly...
Lan Sichen stiffened and watched helplessly as Wen Wanrou's arm dropped down and landed hard on the floor, but he was unable to catch her...
She spoke subconsciously, her voice full of confusion and uneasiness - "Mom..."
The moment Wen Wanrou's eyelids fell, a faint smile appeared at the corner of her mouth, as if she heard Lan Sichen call her "Mom". Since Lan Sichen turned eighteen, she has never heard him call her "Mom" again.
Being able to hear this long-lost "Mom" on my deathbed has no regrets in my life...
"Mom...Mom...Mom..." Lan Yunsheng hugged her stiff body tightly and roared hysterically. Tears finally shed from his dry eyes, unable to accept her departure at all.
Lan Sichen's pupils lost focus, and he stared at everything in front of him, helpless. His red eyes could not shed a single tear, he really couldn't, but the tears in his heart kept flowing silently, and he couldn't stop them no matter what.
live……
Si Lan turned his head and looked at Lan Sichen's expressionless face, which was so sad that he subconsciously bit his lip.
The unfortunate marriage between Lan Yuanmo and Wen Wanrou caused countless tragedies and made Lan Sichen live in hell. Now Wen Wanrou is freed from selfishness, but what about Lan Sichen?
He will continue to bear the notoriety of being a product of pornography and live alone in this world, not knowing what else he will experience and face...
He can only be alone.
Helianze stood at the door, watching everything, seeing Lan Yunsheng's painful look, he wanted to speak, but for a moment he found that he could not find a word to comfort him. All the words at this moment were pale and powerless, without any words.
The method is to relieve Lan Yunsheng's pain.
Silan stood up without saying a word, walked to Helianze, and said in a numb voice: "Let's go."
"But..." Helianze looked at Lan Yunsheng with worried eyes, leaving now and leaving the pervert alone?
Don't worry.
Silan walked out of the tea room, turned his back to Helianze, and looked at a blur of light coming from the window at the end of the corridor. It should be bright but he couldn't see anything clearly.
"This is the Lan family's business. Don't forget our identities."
Helianze's spine stiffened and he immediately reacted. No matter how worried and distressed he was, he could only restrain himself at this moment. He looked at Silan's lonely back and left the Lan family step by step without saying a word.
Xu Ningmo was waiting for them outside Lan's house. When he saw Si Lan coming out, he immediately got out of the car and walked up to her, placing his big palm on her forehead. He noticed that her face was pale and in a daze, and he said in a concerned tone: "What happened?"
What happened?"
After being notified that she was at Lan's house, he came over immediately. Seeing Ji Fengwen outside, he knew that Lan Sichen was also here. When Lan Sichen came, he didn't worry about anything happening to Silan and kept waiting outside.
Silan opened his eyes wide and looked at the man in front of him who was only gentle to him. His heart ached inexplicably. If it weren't for Ning Mo, he might... be like Wen Wanrou. Blinded by hatred, he didn't know what else he would do.
Crazy things.
"Wen Wanrou... committed suicide." Si Lan said with difficulty.
That genius psychologist committed suicide and died.
Xu Ningmo raised her eyebrows slightly, followed her outline with his fingers, held her cold fingers, and said in a cold tone: "Everyone has the right to choose, this is the path Wen Wanrou chooses to take.
.Lan Sichen has to learn to accept it no matter how painful it is. He is too forbearing and eventually hurts himself."
After the sound fell, Feng Mu glanced at the distracted He Lianze, and knew without even thinking that he was worried about Lan Yunsheng.
And Si Lan - is she acting like this right now because she is worried about Lan Sichen?
Subconsciously holding her hand, his deep voice had a hint of displeasure, "I don't mind what happened before, and I won't mind if you don't love me, but if your heart chooses to be with me, don't do it anymore.
I never forget the past. I don’t like it when you are by my side but still thinking about others.”
"I didn't." Silan spoke reflexively. There was a trace of confusion when looking at him with her watery eyes, but the slight unhappiness in her heart was suppressed: "I'm a little tired."
She shook off his hand, grabbed Helianze's hand, and sat in the car.
Xu Ningmo frowned, but soon recovered; he vaguely heard the noise in Lan's house, probably knowing that Wen Wanrou's death was causing chaos.
What did Wen Wanrou say to her that could put her in such a dazed state?
Helianze's palms were sweating, and he was not paying attention while driving. His eyes glanced at Si Lan intentionally or unintentionally. When Wen Wanrou died, she was the only one present. What did Wen Wanrou say to her? How painful it must be to lose your mother to a perverted person...
It's a pity that now I can't stay in the Lan family or stay by his side.
All the original plans were disrupted because of Wen Wanrou's death...