010: I feel so much pain that I don’t even want to live. 010: I feel so painful that I don’t even want to live anymore.
Si Lan took another sip of wine, and the cold liquid flowed down his esophagus into his body. He looked at Xu Ningmo and wanted to get an answer, "I thought about it for a long time and still don't understand why she wanted to kill a child.
She hates me for taking away Lan Sichen, and hates me for destroying Lan Sichen. What she hates is me, what does it have to do with Xiaozhe? It’s not a harm to my wife and children, and it’s not a crime to the clan, right?"
"Si Lan..." Xu Ningmo's voice paused as she opened her mouth. He wanted to comfort her but couldn't find the words. "You saw Qin Xin."
If seeing Qin Xin hadn't aroused her yearning for Xiaozhe, it wouldn't have aroused the suppressed hatred in her heart.
She still hates Qin Xin and Qin Xin who killed Xiaozhe.
Silan smiled sadly, raised his head and poured half a bottle of red wine down his throat. His tears had dried up and he couldn't cry. He couldn't express the pain in his heart either.
Why, why should I let myself meet that woman again when I decided to put aside everything in the past?
If I hadn't seen her, if she had left completely and never saw each other again, maybe I wouldn't think about Xiaozhe's death again, and I wouldn't hate her anymore.
The bottle was empty. Si Lan bent down and put the bottle on the ground. He rolled a few times and stopped under the street lamp. The crisp sound lingered in his ears. The bottle was empty, and his heart was almost empty.
He squatted down slowly, covered his cheeks with his hands, and murmured in confusion: "What should I do? I can't kill Qin Xin, and I can't face Xiaozhe's death. What should I do with Qin Xin?"
"Go home." Xu Ningmo knelt down, took her hands away, and looked at her seriously: "I'll take you home."
Si Lan looked at him with confused eyes. In the dark night, these sharp eyes shone with endless darkness and an invisible abyss. His fingers were held in his palm, as if he would never get lost again.
"Let's go home." Xu Ningmo's voice was very soft. When she raised her thin lips, her dimples were exposed, and her fingers swept away her covered bangs. "No matter what you do, I will be by your side."
Even if you really kill Qin Xin with your own hands, it doesn't matter, I will stay with you.
Silan opened her arms and threw herself into his arms, hugging him tightly. It was the first time she hugged him so hard. Compared with the salvation she once longed for, she relied more on the warmth Xu Ningmo gave her at this moment.
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They felt at ease. Such warmth made it impossible for her to fill her heart with hatred, and she couldn't let herself be cruel...
Because cruelty, ruthlessness, and hatred are not worthy of this warm embrace.
Xu Ningmo, why are you so warm and why are you so kind to me? Such kindness will make me addicted and become a habit that I can’t quit.
So what should we do?
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During the meal, Lan Yunsheng answered a phone call and then went out and didn't come back until late at night. Helianze didn't ask him where he was going, but kept staring at him. When he sat on the bed, he kicked him in the back and said, "Huh?"
, have you done what I said?"
Lan Yunsheng paused while wiping his hair with a towel, then turned around and said, "Why are you so interested in this case?"
"You don't care about us! Anyway, it's up to you to help or not!" Helianze hugged the pillow and glanced sideways at him.
Lan Yunsheng sat upright and continued to wipe the water from her hair, "I will help you ask tomorrow."
"Remember not to let Ann know!" Helianze warned quickly.
Lan Yunsheng responded in a low voice and waited for her hair to dry and was about to lie down next to him. Helianze couldn't help but asked: "Where did you go when you were eating?"
"I've been holding it in until now, why don't I hold it in for a while longer?" Lan Yunsheng said softly, with a smile in his black eyes. Ever since he came back, he had noticed that Helianze had been looking at him with inquiring eyes. He didn't I just wanted to know where I was going, but I was too embarrassed to ask.
Helianze pulled his lips: "Are you going to tell me or not?"
Lan Yunsheng turned over and pressed on top of him. He found the condom box from nowhere, and said in a hoarse voice: "I will tell you the answer when these are all used up."
"……you!!"
Helianze was furious, and the rest of his words were swallowed back into his stomach. Lan Yunsheng grabbed his lips, sucked and licked them hard, and penetrated his pajamas with her big palms...
A certain white-faced man desperately tried to resist, but to no avail.
The blue bodyguard successfully captured the fortress, his dark eyes full of heat and enthusiasm; it was just that the hidden complex light was not captured by Helianze, who was addicted to lust.
….
"Welcome, feel free to take a look if you like..." When the woman looked up and saw Si Lan standing in front of her, she was stunned.
This is a boutique store that sells women's accessories and supplies. The decoration is very warm and there are many cute things. The store owner is none other than Qin Xin.
Qin Xin was wearing overalls today, and a military green coat over a loose-fitting shirt. Her hair was tied up, and her facial features were straight, which only made her look more relaxed. Due to long-term drug use, her complexion turned yellow, and she had long lost her previous noble and elegant image.
The store was small and the atmosphere was solemn. Occasionally, customers came in to look at it and then left; the two of them looked at each other without saying a word.
In the end, Qin Xin bit her lip to break the peace, "I knew you would come again when I saw you yesterday. No matter what you want to say, please sit down first, okay?"
Qin Xin placed the plastic stool in front of Si Lan, turned around and replaced "on business" with "on lunch break". She poured water for Si Lan from a disposable cup, placed it on the counter, and then sat down.
"I know you still hate me. What do you want me to do when you come here today?"
"You should have known that the boss of Yunding is Jing En." Silan's calm voice sounded, and he looked at her with hollow and indifferent eyes, and his cold and threatening aura was like that of a Scorpio swallowed by hatred.
Aiden, I was tricked into taking drugs, prostituted, and even raped. I lived a life there that was worse than death."
"I won't tell you, gritting my teeth and supporting myself to survive is just waiting to see how painful it will be for you to see your sister's true face one day! Yunding was seized by the police. Jing En originally wanted to imprison me in another place, but I succeeded in escaping halfway. I kept hiding. I hope you will know the truth one day so that I can see you in agony."
"Jing En killed the old man, Ye Hao Yu, and almost killed more people; I know that my own sister is a twisted and dark pervert, and I am in pain; are you satisfied?" Scorpio asked, with a stern look in his eyes. Like a sharp knife, it wanted to cut her into pieces.
Qin Xin pursed her lips and smiled, nodding: "I can imagine how painful you are in your heart! But... this is no longer my concern."
"If you could have known earlier, I think I would be very happy, but now it doesn't matter how painful you are." Qin Xin looked at Si Lan with a dark gaze, without any emotion, as if he had already taken this lightly. Everything in the world is calm and calm, and the clouds are calm and the wind is gentle. "Si Lan, maybe you have encountered the cruelest thing in the world. But now, compared with me, what have you experienced?"
"If it were me, I would rather dig out my heart to the man I love most than get involved in drugs; I would rather die than be raped every day! You will never understand, they hold your hands and feet
, making you unable to move, they are brutal and rough when they enter your body... one after another, you can't even remember how many there are! They are like vicious snakes, entering your body from your vagina, entangling bit by bit, one after another.
Devouring bit by bit..."
"Such a feeling will teach you that you can neither survive nor die."
A chill ran down Si Lan's spine, and Qin Xin's expression was too calm, so calm that it was eerie.
Qin Xin smiled and said, "You don't have to be so guarded. I don't have any ability to hurt you now. I finally quit drugs and have this store. I want to live a new life. I didn't expect you to bump into me. Tell me!"
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"How can you let me go?"
"Surrender." Si Lan opened and closed his lips and said two words, coldly and decisively, "I can't forgive you for killing Xiao Zhe. If you surrender, I won't have any objection no matter what the judge decides. I only want you to be Xiao Zhe."
He is responsible for Zhe’s death and will be punished by law!”
Qin Xin smiled, her eyes turned into crescent moons and shook her head; "Sorry, I can't surrender. At least - not now!"
"Do you still think you are right?" Silan frowned, his eyes glowing with coldness, and the dangerous aura became stronger.
"There is no such thing as right or wrong in this world. From the perspective of what you call a good person, I am a heinous person and deserve death. But from the perspective of a bad person like me, I naturally have no fault." Qin Xin curled her lips and smiled.
Er, "Slan, I have been fighting with you for so long, but it's a pity that you have never regarded me as a real opponent."
"Whether it's Qin or Lan Sichen, you always win easily."
"Don't make it sound like I'm the third party in your relationship. The difficulties between you two existed before I came along. Is it right to let me take the blame for your failure to be together?"
Silan sneered, even if he didn't show up and didn't come back for revenge. With Lan Sichen's mentality at the time, he had already given up his belief in living, how could he marry Qin Xin, with a happy ending like a fairy tale.
"If you hadn't appeared again, maybe nothing would have happened. The Lan family wouldn't be what it is now. Do you still think your revenge is natural and just?"
Si Lan narrowed his eyes, "If the revenge I thought was just, you wouldn't be sitting here talking now. No one in the Lan family should be able to survive now."
True revenge does not require hesitation and hesitation, as long as everyone falls into the abyss of death.
Silan didn't do this, and she didn't even think about wanting anyone in the Lan family to die. All she wanted was Lan Sichen's apology, and it was just the truth that the Lan family had always wanted to hide.