"Extra" Sisi Qingting: The truth?. "Extra" Sisi Qingting: Your child
The child cannot be saved and can only be removed...
——You have lost your right to be a mother forever!
Su Weixi did not make a single sound. The child is gone and there will never be one again...
Is this the punishment God gives me?
Because I fell in love with someone I shouldn't have fallen in love with.
Cold tears slipped from the eyes, frostbitten the young skin; the fingers subconsciously wanted to grab something, but they were so weak that they couldn't grab anything, nothing...
Love, children, self-esteem...
She has nothing left, everything has been reduced to ashes. She knows that she is like a moth flying into a flame, but she still kills herself...
The bloody mass in the trash can was a mess of flesh and blood. It was the child she had lived with who would come to this world and become the cutest little angel as long as he was ten months old.
——Unfortunately, he is not so lucky.
Su Weixi completely lost consciousness and fell into the endless dark and cold abyss. Her eyelashes wet with tears were still trembling violently, her pale face was without a trace of blood, and her breath was weak, as if it would disappear in the next second.
All hope is gone——
Nothing better than this.
***
Lan Ruixiu sent the things to the hospital, went back and changed his clothes, and went to the company to explain the matter; Su Weixi still did not return to the company, and there was no one at home. Near noon, Lan Ruixiu rushed to the hospital.
Si Lan fell into a coma, her face was as pale as a piece of paper, and her breathing was frightening, and she was afraid that she would stop breathing in the next second.
"Eat something and rest for a while. Otherwise, who will take care of her if she crosses the body?" Lan Ruixiu patted him on the shoulder. Lan Sichen originally refused to leave, but after hearing what he said, he sat aside
On the sofa.
He had no appetite to eat. When his worried eyes moved towards Si Lan's oval face, he forced himself to swallow the food. He didn't even need to chew it, just swallowed it. He had to maintain his strength so that he could always be by Asi's side.
Take care of her.
Lan Ruixiu impatiently moistened her dry and peeling lips with the soaked cotton flap. When she glanced at Lan Sichen with her peripheral vision, she hesitated a little, "My child, are you okay?"
Lan Sichen's movements paused. As soon as the two children were born, Lan Sichen never saw them again except for a glance outside the operating room. The nurse bathed them, put them in the oxygen tank, and took care of them carefully;
I only care about Silan, I just want to stay by Silan's side, and I don't want to leave even half a step.
"The doctors and nurses are taking care of them, so they should be fine." Lan Ruixiu said solemnly, "The nurse also said that Silan was just in a coma caused by excessive blood loss, and it is not life-threatening... Don't worry too much."
Lan Sichen put down the food, walked to the other side of the bed and sat down. His fingers gently rubbed Silan's delicate and cool skin, with a smile on his lips, "I really shouldn't...shouldn't let her do this to me.
People take such big risks.”
If he had known that "giving birth to a child" would cause such great harm to Slan, he would never have wanted a child at all...
Absolutely not.
Lan Ruixiu frowned and scolded in a cold voice: "Don't say such things in front of her!"
"She is very happy to be able to give birth to a child for you! She loves children so much, and she is willing to suffer no matter how much hardship she has to have your child! Don't you know her best? Don't you even understand this?"
Although Si Lan is not a professional doctor, she has undergone two surgeries on her body, and she knows her body better than anyone else. She almost miscarried again and again, but she wanted to keep the child, which shows that she really wants to have and Lan.
Si Chen’s child…
So even though she knew that pregnancy would be harmful to her body, she still insisted on giving birth to the child!
"I know..." Lan Sichen murmured to himself in a low voice, with deep affection in his eyes, "I feel bad because I know, how could she be so stupid... to give birth to a child for a demon!"
Lan Ruixiu's stern eyes are only dark. Because she loves you, she is willing to be stupid.
Lan Sichen's eyes finally moved from Si Lan's face to Lan Ruixiu's face, "Have you found Su Weixi?"
Lan Ruixiu shook his head: "Maybe he has a guilty conscience and is hiding."
"She is your wife, you should believe her!" Lan Sichen held Silan's hand and put it against his face, "She is really not a woman with evil intentions!"
"I also want to give her a chance to explain. The problem is that she is missing." Lan Ruixiu glanced at her, the displeasure in his eyes fleeting; "Her ID card, passport, school, information, and even her place of birth are all
Fake."
Fake? Lan Sichen was stunned.
"I don't even know if her name is Su Weixi. I can't believe this woman!" Lan Ruixiu told Lan Sichen the results of his investigation. There was no need to hide it at this moment, "I thought
As long as I find a woman to marry, you and her can get married... I just didn't expect that this would cause Silan to have difficulty giving birth..."
"I can't forgive her..."
Fortunately, Si Lan was okay, otherwise Lan Ruixiu was not sure whether he would kill Su Weixi!
Doubts flashed across Youtan's eyes. Lan Sichen pondered for a moment and said, "We still have to wait for Asi to wake up, or for Su Weixi to appear and give us an explanation!"
Lan Ruixiu didn't speak anymore, just sat with Lan Sichen in the ward, quietly accompanying the comatose Silan.
The secretary called, and Lan Ruixiu hurried back to the company; Lan Sichen wiped Silan's body, and the nurse wanted to do a physical examination on her; Lan Sichen went out for a walk, and walked nonstop to the baby area;
Through the glass, I saw the two babies placed in the oxygen tank. They seemed to be in good spirits.
After being washed, you can see the color of the facial features and skin, which are not wrinkled or dark; the eyes are wide open, the eyeballs are as black as black stones, sparkling and dazzling, the eyelashes are very long and curly, a bit girly...
Lan Sichen stood in the corridor watching this scene, his eyes were inexplicably moist...
This is the child of myself and As, who gave birth to two healthy children for herself.
He once despaired that he should not have come to this world, and despaired that he was not worthy of having a child; but now he is still alive, has As, and a child; this is a gift from God.
Lan Sichen placed his fingers on the glass, narrowed his phoenix eyes slightly, and showed a slight smile, "I am daddy, son... I am your daddy..."
The two little guys didn't seem to buy this father's account at all. They rolled their eyes in a circle, closed their eyes, and seemed to be sleeping!
Mom, did you see it?
This is my child, my and As's child. She did not destroy me, but reborn me.
——The heart is higher than the sky, and life is thinner than paper.
If these eight characters refer to Asi, I would be happy to do so.
Lan Yunsheng and Helianze ran over panting, their foreheads covered with glistening beads of sweat. Helianze said breathlessly: "Baby...baby...how are you doing?"
"I'm still in a coma. The doctor said it's not life-threatening. I just need a good rest."
Hearing Lan Sichen's words, both of them felt relieved. Lan Yunsheng looked into the baby room and asked curiously: "Children...which two are your children?"
"That's my son in the two oxygen tanks!"
"Two sons?" Helianze was furious, and the next second he said: "Then my child is going to be gay!"
Lan Yunsheng and Lan Sichen's faces turned dark instantly...
"Shut up! If you don't speak, no one will think you are dumb." Lan Yunsheng rewarded him with a stir-fried chestnut.
Helianze held his head and complained: "Originally, I wanted to give birth to two daughters in my baby's family, and my son would choose one of them as his wife. But now it's better, what are the two sons doing if they don't become gay!"
"Please stay ten meters away from my child." Lan Sichen said in a cold tone. He did not intend for his child to become a homosexual. Of course, he was not discriminating against the same sex, but he just did not want his son to be gay.
Lan Yunsheng knocked on his head: "Are you planning to leave us with no grandson to hold? You're a bastard!"
Uh... Helianze touched his head, and suddenly his eyes lit up, "Hey, isn't there a girl in Lan Ruixiu's family? Let's decide that girl will be our daughter-in-law... Let the two brats from Baobao's family do it
base……"
Lan Yunsheng was speechless.
Lan Sichen resisted the urge to throw him out, and said calmly: "Lianlian's household registration is still in Silan's account." Because of the child.
Helianze, after all, that girl is still their girl! When he was about to please Lan Sichen, he only heard his slow words, "Brothers, I believe you will always fall in love with one of them."
Helianze was petrified and weathered...
Lan Sichen, you are planning to raise Lianlian as a child bride so that you can benefit your own son in the future! It really won’t happen if your fat goes to an outsider’s field!!!
***
Su Weixi, who had been receiving infusions, finally woke up, staring blankly at the ceiling, motionless and silent; like a puppet on strings, without a soul and only a shell left.
Mo Pei opened the door and saw her waking up. Without much surprise, he sat by the bed and wiped the sweat from her forehead and palms with a towel.
"I have informed her that they know everything. The special plane may arrive within 36 hours, and she may come to pick you up in person."
For a long time, the room was silent. Su Weixi seemed to have heard nothing and had no reaction at all. Even her eyes did not blink, and her fine eyelashes were still...
The child is gone, and her heart is dead.
Mo Pei put down the towel and stared at her numb expression with his cold eyes, "How long will you continue to act willfully? Do you have to make your father hold a gun and point it at his head to force him to love you? Is it possible?
?”
The thick eyelashes suddenly trembled violently, and the dull eyes finally found some focus, falling on Mo Pei's face one by one like a machine. His chapped lips opened and closed, and his voice was hoarse and weak, "I'm sorry."
"The person you are most sorry for is yourself!" Mo Pei said coldly, "If you don't love yourself, no one in this world will love you."
"Yes." Su Weixi made a low, hoarse voice from her throat, indescribably sad, "I understand."
"You have a good rest. Within 36 hours, a special opportunity will come to pick you up on the rooftop. After you leave, forget everything about this place; never come back again..."
It's like I will never go back.
Su Weixi didn't speak, just closed her eyes. She didn't refute, resist, or nod in agreement.
When Mo Pei left, she slowly became afraid. Every joint in her body seemed to be rusty, and the stinging pain continued. She numbly pulled out the needle on her hand, and the blood returned to the ground drop by drop along her pale skin.
…
She picked up the coat on the side and put it on. On the table were her wallet and her mobile phone that had been smashed to the point of being useless——
While the nurse on duty was going to the bathroom, Su Weixi stumbled out of the clinic with her wallet and stopped a taxi.
The driver asked her where she was going. Su Weixi sat in the car, feeling faint. She was silent for a long time and uttered a sentence.
The driver couldn't help but look at her one more time and asked with concern: "Miss, are you okay?"
Su Weixi did not answer, and looked sideways at the scenery outside. Her two thin lips were pale, and her eyes were dull and gray, without any vitality of a living person.
The driver didn't say much and took her to the hospital. Su Weixi handed him the money, without even asking for change, and got out of the car and stumbled towards the hospital.
Si Lan almost had a miscarriage. When she came here, she knew that Si Lan would definitely be in this hospital. Lan Sichen had already booked the ward and specialist for her.
Many times, she really envied Si Lan. She envied her because Lan Sichen held her up to the sky and loved her a lot; Lan Ruixiu, a man who was so aloof and disdainful of everything, also treasured her in his heart. She had it.
What a blessing.
You are so lucky that you can't help but be jealous.
Su Weixi finally found Si Lan's ward and gently opened the door. Lan Sichen was not there at the moment. Only Si Lan, who was still unconscious, was left in the empty room. He was still receiving nutrient solution. Crystal water droplets passed through the transparent
Transmit light into Slan's body.
Su Weixi had just had a miscarriage, and she didn't even have a good rest. Her body was extremely weak. She could barely get out of bed, and running to the hospital with such force was already her limit.
As he walked towards Silan step by step, his steps were staggering, as if he would fall to the ground in the next second and never get up again——
In the last step, Su Weixi's steps were unsteady and she fell directly to the ground; the pain in her arms and knees was nothing to her at this moment.
She felt dizzy for a while, and even a dark scene appeared in front of her eyes. After a long pause, Su Weixi forced herself to stand up, pressed her hands firmly on the edge of the bed, and sat suddenly on the bed. The hospital bed shook, as if it was about to
Collapse.
Su Weixi's eyes kept looking at Si Lan, with guilt and anxiety flowing in her eyes. The corners of her mouth were raised mechanically, her voice was hoarse and scattered like sand that couldn't be grasped, "I'm sorry... I'm really sorry... I'm not
I deliberately wanted to hurt you and the child...I'm sorry!"
"I know, you want Lan Ruixiu to know about my pregnancy, and to make him sincerely accept me because of the child! But -" the voice choked up, and the tears in his eyes couldn't stop falling...
…
She thought she could no longer shed tears; now looking at Silan who was about to fall into a coma, she couldn't stop sobbing.
"You don't understand him! Even if I am pregnant with his child, he will not accept me from his heart because of the child! He will even ask me to get rid of the child..."
"Because in this world, he only loves a woman named Slan. He said that she is the only one qualified to give birth to a child for him."
"Even if there are a million people in this world who need me, even if every one of them is willing to fight for me, if the person I love doesn't want me, I would rather all those million people die... You simply don't
I can't imagine how deep and profound his love for you is..."
Every word pierced Su Weixi's heart like a needle, oozing bright red blood...
"I thought that as long as I could persevere and persist in loving him more than he loves you, I thought that my tolerance could touch him. I thought that I could make up for the emotional gap that you brought to him. I thought that I was strong enough, but I couldn't.
I feel despair every day... because I am too naive, thinking that there will be a miracle in love..."
"Slan, I lost... I lost this game of gambling on love in marriage; I lost not to you, but to him... I lost to his feelings for you. That was the result of all my efforts.
You can’t exchange it for a penny.”
"Perhaps I shouldn't have had expectations from the beginning. The expectations would not have become extravagant. Without extravagant hopes, there would be no despair in the end!"
"I'm sorry!" Su Weixi held Si Lan's hand, tears falling drop by drop on her hand, cold and sad, "Thank you and the child for being okay, otherwise I will never forgive myself for the rest of my life... I wish you the best."
And Lan Sichen, we will never leave each other in life, and we will never abandon each other."
Su Weixi put down Si Lan's hand and covered it with a quilt. Her frail body stood up unsteadily, turned around and walked towards the door of the ward step by step...
Si Lan was sleeping quietly, with thick and curled eyelashes covering her eyes. Suddenly, she trembled, and a crystal tear slipped silently from the corner of her eye, soaking the pillow, but no one knew about it.
After Lan Sichen saw the child, he went to buy a bouquet of flowers for Silan and planned to put them in the ward to drive away the smell of disinfectant. When he walked to the door of the ward, he found that the door was ajar and he had closed the door when he left.
alright.
A nurse passed by, and Lan Sichen grabbed her arm and said in a deep voice: "Did anyone or a nurse come to see her just now?"
The nurse shook her head: "It's not time to take the temperature yet. No nurse has come. I didn't see anyone coming in."
Lan Sichen let go and said, "I know." He turned around and walked into the ward. There was no one except Silan on the bed.
But when Li Miao saw Si Lan's hand being put into the quilt, his eyebrows furrowed. Sure enough, someone had come to see Si Lan.
Who is it?
Su Weixi held on to the wall and walked towards the baby area step by step with difficulty. Her face was as pale as a female ghost. Sweat oozed from her forehead and soaked her hair roots. Her back was also soaked with sweat. Her clothes were sticky against her skin. She breathed.
He was in disarray, his fingers were stained with the plaster on the wall, and he looked particularly embarrassed.
Finally, seeing the cute children in the room through the glass, Su Weixi stopped and her eyes immediately became moist...
There are so many cute little angels, but none of them belong to me.
Seeing the two children in the oxygen tank, Su Weixi was sure at a glance that they were Si Lan's children because their eyes were exactly the same as Si Lan's.
Si Lan and the child are fine. He should feel at ease and not feel uncomfortable or sad...
If he knew that his child was gone, would he——
Su Weixi shook her head, with a bitter smile on her lips, "No, Su Weixi! What are you still hoping for? He won't be sad."
Lan Ruixiu, I finally understand that this is what you want most...
…
Lan Sichen hesitated for a moment and called Lan Ruixiu: "Su Weixi seems to have been here."
Lan Ruixiu, who was in a meeting, was startled. He ignored the manager present and narrowed his eyes: "What did you say?"
"I just went out, and someone came to see Asi. My intuition told me that it was Su Weixi!" If Su Weixi hadn't come to see Asi, why would there be tears in the corners of Asi's eyes?
"Wait a minute, I'll be there in ten minutes!" Lan Ruixiu cut off the phone decisively and said to the managers filling the conference room: "The meeting will be postponed to tomorrow."
Before the words were spoken, the figure had disappeared into the conference room. Everyone looked at each other. They had never seen the president show such an expression.
Tianlan Company is a fifteen-minute drive from Silan's hospital. Lan Ruixiu drove all the way through a red light. Ten minutes is enough... His strong fingers tightly grasped the steering wheel, and the veins on his forehead were looming...
Damn woman, finally willing to show up...
The car parked directly at the gate of the hospital. Regardless of what the security guard said, he rushed directly to Silan's ward. When he saw Lan Sichen coming out, he immediately asked: "Where is she? Is she gone?"
"I just asked the nurse. I saw a woman who looked like Su Weixi in the hospital. She probably hasn't left the hospital yet. Let's look separately. Maybe she is still in the hospital!" Because the nurse said that the woman's condition was not very good.
Well, but I don’t want to go to the emergency room for treatment.
He didn't tell Lan Ruixiu this because he wasn't 100% sure that the woman was Su Weixi.
Lan Ruixiu narrowed his eyes, said nothing, nodded, and immediately turned around and left. Lan Sichen's voice came from behind -
"elder brother……"
Lan Ruixiu stopped suddenly and looked back at him.
Lan Sichen looked calm and his eyes were pure black and clear, "Don't hurt her."
Lan Ruixiu looked stunned, and immediately understood the meaning of his words, and nodded: "I know what to do."
If he could really find her, he would control his temper, not scold her, not ridicule her, and listen quietly to her explanation.
Lan Sichen and Lan Ruixiu searched everywhere in the hospital for a woman named Su Weixi. When they caught the nurse, people passing by asked about her, but everyone said they had never seen her.
Lan Ruixiu's face became darker and darker. He stopped and looked at the long empty corridor. The pictures in his mind flashed. If she really came and saw Si Lan, where would she go?
where?
——Pink baby bottle.
Lan Ruixiu looked up suddenly, he probably knew where she would be.
She strode toward the baby area with swift steps; her deep voice was full of majesty: "Su Weixi, come out! Su Weixi..."
Su Weixi's spine stiffened as a familiar voice lingered in her ears, wondering if she was hallucinating. But the second voice told her that it was not her hallucination.
How did he know he was here? How could he...
Su Weixi's body was trembling with fear. He must still be angry. He must be very angry. He didn't know how many sharp words he would use to ridicule and hurt himself...
I don’t want to hear it anymore, enough is enough, everything is enough.
This unrequited love was the fault of myself. She was entangled with him because of my own wishful thinking. I deserved to be punished. Isn't this punishment enough for a child who cannot have children in his life?
Don't hurt her anymore, really don't...
When Su Weixi was panicked and helpless, she didn't care about anything else and immediately opened the door and hid behind it. The nurse who was changing the baby's diaper was startled and was about to scream...
Su Weixi curled up on the ground, covering her mouth with both hands, looking at her with tearful eyes, shaking her head desperately; begging her not to speak, not to drive her out...
The nurse was silent...
Lan Ruixiu's voice came from outside the door, "Su Weixi, come out! Su Weixi, I know you are hiding here, come out quickly!"
Damn woman, it must be here, it must be!
Lan Ruixiu stood in front of the window, looking around for the sound to no avail; but at this moment, Su Weixi was hiding behind the door, in the blind spot that could not be seen from the window, biting her fingers tightly, with tears streaming down her face.
At this moment, the distance between them was less than five feet, but when they turned around, they were at the end of the world.
Lan Ruixiu frowned. Just when he was about to open the door and come in, the nurse couldn't bear it. She stepped forward to open the window and said sternly: "Sir, please lower your voice, don't scare the baby! Besides, this is a sterile room.
, you can’t come in casually. What should I do if I infect the babies with bacteria?”
Holding the cold metal hand, Lan Ruixiu hesitated; no matter how arbitrary he was, he couldn't be arrogant in the face of so many newborn children...
From the corner of his eye, he saw the two little guys in the oxygen tank through the glass. The doctor said that due to Si Lan's physical condition, the health of these two little guys was not very good when they were born. If he went in and brought the bacteria in,
Make them infected and sick...
The strength of his fingers loosened little by little. He hesitated for a while and finally gave up the idea of going in.
In this life, he will never know that the distance between him and her is just a door.
The moment he gave up and opened the door, missing it was destined to be a lifelong regret.
Lan Ruixiu glanced at the nurse, lowered his eyes, paused for a few seconds, and the tall and straight voice turned and faded away...
Su Weixi listened to the footsteps and stood up slowly. Through the glass window, the mist in front of her eyes blurred his back, and lost the last trace of "possibility" between them.
"Miss, are you okay? He has left..." The nurse looked at Su Weixi who was crying uncontrollably and asked kindly.
Su Weixi shook her head, wiped the tears on her cheeks carelessly, and said in a vague voice, "Thank you."
Open the door and leave... The nurse wanted to say something else. Looking at her thin and trembling back, when her eyes fell on her pants, her mouth couldn't help but open wide to form a very ungraceful "o".
The white trousers reflected the dazzling bright red. The contrast between red and white was the most vivid and shocking.
Su Weixi stumbled out of the hospital without being noticed by anyone. A car suddenly stopped in front of her. The window rolled down to reveal Mo Pei's cold face. He looked at her with cold eyes, as if to say: I'm just here.
Know you'll be here.
Mo Pei got out of the car, held her in his arms and took her into the car, then ordered someone to drive.
"Damn it, don't you know how bad your body is? Why are you running around??"
Seeing the redness on her pants, the indifferent Mo Pei was so angry that he wanted to strangle her to death. Fortunately, she was not his daughter, otherwise he would really do this!
Su Weixi lay quietly in his arms without saying a word, but her eyelashes wet with tears trembled slightly...
Mo Pei sighed secretly and said in a cold voice: "There is still one hour left and the special plane will arrive; they are all here just to take you home alone."
Su Weixi's dull eyes finally came back to her senses, and she said in a hoarse voice: "They are here to kidnap me and take me home."
"Are you still here?" Mo Pei raised the corner of his eye.
Su Weixi shook her head invisibly, "I'll go back with them, and I can marry whomever they want me to marry."
As long as someone doesn't mind her incompleteness and the disability of being unable to be a mother throughout her life.
Mo Pei's cold eyes showed traces of distress, and he rubbed her soft hair with his fingers, "Don't worry, even if you can't be a mother, they will find a good home for you."
"Yeah." Su Weixi felt so cold that she couldn't help but shrink into his arms, clasping her fingers tightly on his sleeves, "Brother Pei, will you meet them?"
Mo Pei stiffened, and a cold voice came from far away: "If possible, I don't want to see you again in this life."
Su Weixi raised a sad smile on her lips, "I understand."
Just like I never want to see Lan Ruixiu again in my life.
***
Lan Ruixiu returned to the ward to join Lan Sichen, "You didn't find her either?"
Lan Sichen nodded, "No." No need to ask, Lan Ruixiu must not have found it either.
"Shit!!" Lan Ruixiu couldn't help but curse, "Damn woman!"
"Si Chen... Si Chen..." An invisible voice came into his ears. Lan Si Chen was shocked. He turned around and saw Si Lan's eyes that were trying to open. He said with joy: "As, As,
You finally woke up..."
Lan Ruixiu's eyes flashed with relief, and she finally woke up.
When Si Lan opened his eyes, they were blurry at first, and he could vaguely see the outlines of the two people. Gradually, it became clearer, and when he saw Lan Sichen's face clearly, he felt inexplicably moved in his heart——
I thought I would never see him again in this life.
"Asian..." Lan Sichen held her hand and kissed her fingers repeatedly in emotion, "It's okay, the child is okay, you are okay...don't worry!"
Silan breathed a sigh of relief. Although he had been sleeping, he vaguely heard their conversation and knew that the child was fine.
Because she had been in a coma, except for nutrient solution, Silan had not eaten anything. She had not spoken for a long time, and her vocal cords were dry and painful. She looked at Lan Ruixiu with anxious eyes, and vomited out two words with difficulty: "Weixi..."
Lan Ruixiu's face darkened involuntarily, "Don't mention her, you have a good rest."
Si Lan blinked his eyes, and many pictures flashed through his mind. His eyelashes trembled violently, and his eyes became more anxious. He wanted to speak, but found that he didn't know how to speak...
Lan Sichen straightened her hair, took a glass of warm water, inserted a straw into it, and said in a gentle voice: "Asian, don't be in a hurry, drink some water and speak slowly."
Silan took a sip of water and took a few deep breaths. The pain came from the wound, but she could bear it. She stared at Lan Ruixiu closely for a long time, and finally squeezed out the words she had always wanted to say -
"Weixi is pregnant with your child."
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