."Extra" Intangible love (1) I don't love you

The strength in his fingertips was lost little by little, and his watery eyes were misty, with no expression, but his lips were pursed tightly. In the doctor's helpless and affirmative eyes, the stiff arms drooped down, crossing the lonely path in mid-air.

Curved, and finally left alone beside me.

"Ms. Lin, please wait a moment. I will make arrangements for you immediately..." The doctor did not say too many words of comfort, and no words at this moment could bring any warmth to her heart.

Lin Jiu sat blankly on the sofa, feeling like the world was spinning. The scene in front of him gradually blurred. It seemed that something was flowing out of his eyes, covering his cheeks with warmth, and when it touched the corners of his mouth, there was a hint of bitterness.

He wiped the corners of his mouth with numb fingers and found hot and wet liquid, and then realized that he had cried at some point.

It was very cold around me, and my body couldn't help but shiver. The chill came up from the soles of my feet and spread throughout my body, every cell. Even if the warm sunshine fell on my body, I would still feel cold.

The thin eyelashes were wet with tears and trembled slightly, casting a melancholy light and shadow. Should I be grateful at this moment? No one knew. Even if I was sad, I was just alone.

"Ms. Lin, it's okay...please follow me to the operating room."

The doctor came in again.

Lin Jiu didn't know how she walked into the operating room, let alone what the doctor was saying. She was lying on the cold operating table, and the light shone on her cheek. The strong light made her unable to open her eyes and she squinted.

I could vaguely see the doctor opening and closing his mouth, as if he was saying something, but his ears could not hear a single sound.

"I'll ask the nurse to prepare anesthesia for you. Just take a nap and you'll be fine when you wake up." The doctor gently patted her shoulder, trying to make her relax.

Because her expression was too numb and her eyes were hollow as if she had no soul. No matter what others said, she couldn't hear them. It was like a person was thrown into a beautiful, transparent but cold glass room. They could obviously see each other, but they couldn't.

Can't hear what others are saying.

The nurse prepared the anesthetic and was about to inject Lin Jiu. Lin Jiu stood up suddenly and grabbed the nurse's wrist. The strength was so strong that it almost crushed the nurse's bones.

"Ah! It hurts! Let me go...let me go quickly..." the nurse screamed in pain.

The doctor was surprised, "Ms. Lin, what are you doing? Lie down quickly..."

"I can't take him away..." Lin Jiu said blankly, as if he was saying it to the doctor, more like saying it to himself.

"Ms. Lin, you must undergo surgery as soon as possible so that you can preserve your fallopian tubes and be able to..."

"If he is destined to die, at least let me die with him and let him die in my body." Lin Jiu yelled crazily, pushed the nurse away, got out of bed and grabbed his bag, ID card, and surgery next to him.

Agree to just stuff it into your bag.

"Ms. Lin... you can't leave... it's too dangerous for you to do so."

The doctors and nurses tried to stop her, but she couldn't listen to anything. No one or anything could stop her determination.

Lin Jiu pushed them away, stumbled out, ran to the parking lot, immediately got in the car and left this cold and desperate place.

She couldn't do it, couldn't do it and killed her own child with her own hands.

This is her and Ling Jiuyue's child.

Tears overflowed on his pale and colorless cheeks. He held the steering wheel tightly with both hands and stepped on the accelerator as low as he could. He was speeding crazily on the road, frightening the passing vehicles.

No one could tell her, no one could tell her what else to do, at this moment.

The car stopped, Lin Jiu grabbed her bag and hurried home, opened the door, and placed the bag on the shoe cabinet. It was not stable and fell directly to the ground. The things were scattered all over the floor. She ignored it and ran directly to the bathroom, turned on the faucet and held it in both hands.

Wash your face with water, wash away the tears on your face, wash away the despair and helplessness on your face...

Lin Jiu, who was silent in his sorrow, did not notice an additional figure in the silent house. He walked silently to the entrance, bent down to pick up something on the ground, took the surgery consent form with his fingertips and saw the signature area.

, Juanxiu’s two characters “Lin Jiu” suddenly came into view, and her whole body stiffened...

Lin Jiu stood in front of the mirror and looked at the person in the mirror. He was no longer calm and calm. There were water stains on his cheeks. He wiped the water drops with a towel. Thinking of himself sneaking out, Silan and the others must be extremely worried at this moment. They should give

They return a call.

Turning around and walking out of the bathroom, she was startled when she saw the figure standing at the entrance...

"Jiuyue..." Lin Jiu couldn't help but speak out. When his eyes fell on the list in his hand, his words suddenly stopped at the throat, and his face suddenly changed.

Ling Jiuyue, who was supposed to be still in Linshi, suddenly came back with the surgical drape in her hand for the abortion...

He knows.

He knew it all.

Lin Jiu's eyes were filled with mist as she looked at him, not knowing what to say. Even if the child was in her body, sooner or later, she would have to leave...

Ling Jiuyue's expression was unusually calm, her fingers were holding the surgical drape tightly, her veins were looming, and there was a smile at the corner of her mouth; when she looked at her, her eyes were uncertain.

"You still don't want him after all."

Lin Jiu pursed her lips and wanted to speak, but thousands of words reached her lips but not a single word came out. His reaction was too calm, so calm that it made Lin Jiu's heart tremble...

His fair and slender fingers had clear bones. He calmly folded the surgical drape into a paper airplane, and gently lifted it in front of Lin Jiu. His voice was as calm as ever, "It turns out that no matter how hard I try, you can get pregnant with my child."

It's useless. Because you never thought about having a child with me from the beginning. But, I'm very curious... Since you are willing to marry me, why don't you want to have a child? The reason is Liang Moge, or

You never thought about being with me for the rest of your life."

"As long as you don't have children, you can leave anytime you want; once you have children, you will be bound for this life? Huh?"

This is Ling Jiuyue. No matter how angry or angry he is, he can always speak in the calmest tone and attitude, as if everything has nothing to do with him.

No, it's not like this... Lin Jiu screamed crazily in her heart. She had said that when she married him, she never thought about divorcing him or marrying someone else. How could she not be willing to give birth to a baby for him?

The paper plane curved in mid-air, but finally landed gently at Lin Jiu's feet...

"I'm really curious. If you really don't want to have a baby, I won't force you. Why do you promise me, but secretly take birth control pills behind my back? I will never force you to do anything, right? You would rather waste it.

My body is unwilling to tell the truth to me, why is that?"

Lin Jiu's sad eyes suddenly froze, and she subconsciously said, "Did you know that I was taking Chinese medicine?"

Although I didn’t tell Ling Jiuyue specifically about taking Chinese medicine, I also didn’t deliberately hide it from him. I just didn’t expect that he would already know about it, but he wouldn’t say a word...

The doctor's words flashed through his mind, and his hazy eyes were filled with disbelief. He looked at him in disbelief, "You knew this earlier. You deliberately changed my Chinese medicine."

"Yes." Ling Jiuyue admitted frankly what she had done, "It's just that I didn't expect that you would rather ruin your body than keep him."

"Ha..." Lin Jiu sneered inexplicably, pinching the corners of his clothes tightly with his fingers. Looking at this handsome man, he smiled half-heartedly, but his heart was so painful that he couldn't continue.

Ling Jiuyue didn't understand what she was laughing at, her handsome brows furrowed, and she continued calmly: "I'll give you time to see your heart clearly, is this how you see it clearly?"

Lin Jiu faced him with a calm expression, and the tears welling up in her eyes were forced back. Her throat seemed to be stuck with a needle. It hurt so much, so uncomfortable, as if she couldn't breathe. It took all the strength of her body, as if

He was mumbling to himself, and his voice was so calm and sad.

"Ling Jiuyue, you have always asked me to learn to trust you, but it turns out...it turns out that you never believed me from the beginning to the end."

Ling Jiuyue's eyes were complicated, and she took a step forward, trying to catch Lin Jiushi. Unexpectedly, she would step back and quickly avoid his hand, leaving him in vain.

Lin Jiu looked at him and suddenly realized that she had never really understood him. Even though she slept in the same bed every night, even if her bones were broken every night, she never thought that he had never believed in her.

"You have never believed me...never." If so, how could you think that I don't want your child? If so, how could you forget what I said, that I never thought about divorce when I married you?

, I clearly said that.

I originally thought that marriage was not about love, that peace of mind and trust were enough, but it turned out that was not the case...

It turns out that this marriage was wrong from the beginning.

"Xiaojiu..."

Ling Jiuyue wanted to take a step forward, but Lin Jiu avoided him and walked towards the door with messy steps. Lingchi's heart felt like being hit by a sharp knife, and she was in extreme pain. Every joint in her body seemed to be rusty and stiff.

It will fall apart at any time, like a bracket without screws and nuts, which will completely collapse.

"Where are you going?" Ling Jiuyue stared at her back and asked eagerly.

"We should all give each other some time to calm down." Lin Jiu said, opening the door and striding out alone without taking anything...

"Lin Jiu!" Ling Jiuyue said, her face darkened, but Lin Jiu did not stop or look back and say another word.

Ling Jiuyue stood there, her eyes falling on the surgical drape. Her face was pale and haggard, as if she might fall into coma at any time. He had almost finished his work in Linshi, but when he was about to come back, he was suddenly tripped. He immediately realized that something was wrong.

, rushed back overnight...

Unexpectedly, it was still too late.

It's still too late....

Ling Jiuyue bent down to pick up the paper airplane on the ground, and walked to the window to look for that slender, thin figure...

Lin Jiu stumbled out, with nothing on him, not even a mobile phone. He stood at a loss, not knowing where he could go or where else to go. The oncoming wind, biting pain, and vague stomachache

It hurts.

I can't tell if it really hurts or if my subconscious is hurting...

Lin Jiu put his hands on his stomach, frowning, the sting became more and more obvious, sweat oozed from the pores, and a thin layer was on his forehead; his dry lips had no trace of blood, and his eyes

The pain is self-evident.

Suddenly a black car stopped in front of her, Liang Mo got out of the car, his dark eyes surrounded her, full of worry, "Xiaojiu, Xiaojiu... what's wrong with you?"

Lin Jiu raised her head and looked at him with helpless eyes. She was swaying and about to fall. Liang Moge hugged her with both hands and quick eyes. He didn't notice the deep concern in his voice, "Xiaojiu, what on earth are you doing?"

What's wrong?"

"Take me away..." The hoarse voice was exhausted, "Get out of here."
To be continued...