When I first saw her, I knew she was the best tool that could help me destroy the Lan family. To use her, I had to train her first, which was much easier than I thought.
In my eyes, she is not incredibly beautiful. She is not as sexy as Keqin, nor as bright as Lin Jiu. Her teenage appearance is still a little green, but the more I look at her, the less I can look away from her.
Move away from your body.
I'm trying my best to control the emotions that are about to surge in my heart. I'm just an Avenger, how can an Avenger have feelings?
I watched her stumble along the way, watched her suffer from insomnia all night long, watched her not regard herself as a person, and almost pushed her limits to the extreme in order to study.
Being cruel to others is not called cruelty, being cruel to oneself is the real cruelty.
I think I was attracted to her.
I told Keqin that we should divorce.
Keqin was making coffee at the time, and the hand pouring the coffee shook, and the hot coffee spilled on Bai Xi's skin, but she remained indifferent.
I turned a blind eye.
"Why?" she asked.
"I want... to protect her cleanly." When I said this, I couldn't help but feel ridiculous.
At first, I just wanted to take advantage of her. I even lied to her that I grew up in Florence and didn’t speak Chinese. I deliberately spoke broken Chinese, but she didn’t even suspect it.
But now I actually want to make myself clean to protect her. Isn't this ridiculous?
Keqin put down the coffee pot and looked at me intently, "She is just a stupid woman who has been played by a man!"
"The stupid woman in your mouth who has been played by men is now carefully kept by me." I said with a smile, but there was a chill in my eyes.
I don't like others to humiliate her like this, even Keqin who is extremely kind to me.
"Sign the divorce agreement as soon as possible." As I said that, I turned around to leave, but Qinqin hugged me fiercely from behind. I didn't push her away. I looked down and saw her reddened skin, and I didn't feel any distress at all.
However, as soon as I saw her, I felt terribly distressed.
It turns out that this is the difference between liking and disliking.
I like Si Lan, I want to protect her, and even redeem her, but from the beginning to the end, I understand that her redemption is not me, not myself, but the man named Lan Sichen in the Lan family who I want to destroy.
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When Lan Sichen and I met, there was no tension or confrontation, because in his heart, he knew that he had lost; and in my heart, I knew that I had lost.
We all lost at the hands of a woman named Slan.
She helped me destroy the Lan family, and I saved Lin Jiu, He Lianze, and Nun Ni for her, the people she cared about.
The price is - my life.
What can I do in half a year? I have been thinking about this question.
Can I make her happier in half a year? Can I pave a smooth road for her in half a year? No deception, no darkness, no calculations and no harm.
My forever only has half a year left.
I can only leave it to my girl to see her own heart clearly.
Is the person in the heart that does not belong to her called Lan Sichen or Xu Ningmo?
All that's left is to find someone who can take my place, save her, protect her, take care of her, and save her from being homeless for half her life, saving her from pain for half of her life, and saving her from pain and suffering for half of her life.
I pretended to go to South Korea to perform a mission, but in reality I was just waiting to die.
I love her, so I can't bear to die next to her.
During the days when I slept with her, I always had a dream. I dreamed that I was sleeping next to her, died in my sleep, and was covered in blood. She woke up next to me, crying uncontrollably.
I don't want this dream to become a reality and leaving her will become the only thing I can do for her.
Lan Sichen was not dead. I asked Keqin to save him and hide him in South Korea for secret treatment. His life was saved, but his face was ruined.
That face looked somewhat similar to mine, but it was completely different.
He asked me why I wanted to save him and why I didn't just let him die.
I sat in a wheelchair and sneered: Lan Sichen, you made my girl like that, what qualifications do you have to say death?
Sure enough, Si Lan is his fatal weakness. If he catches his guilt towards Si Lan, he is the best chess piece to exploit.
At the beginning, I could easily communicate with my blue phone and video chat, but soon my body began to deteriorate, I often fell into coma, and often bleed...
Finally, I had to say, break up and let her stop waiting for me.
Keqin said, since Lan Sichen has died in this world, why not let Xu Ningmo live? Ke Zhidao.
It is a good proposal to turn the dead Lan Sichen into the living Xu Ningmo.
Lan Sichen has no reason to live anymore, but Xu Ningmo is still eager to live and to redeem my Lan.
I said, Lan Sichen, live a good life for me and treat her well. Whether you love her or atone for your sins, I want you to be her slave for the rest of your life, live and die for her.
Whether selfish or cruel, for my blue, I am willing to be a devil who can only go to hell for his heinous crimes.
Lan Sichen didn't speak for a long time, staring out the window with eyes that were almost similar to mine. After a long time, he whispered "Okay."
After intensive surgery, Lan Sichen's face turned into Xu Ningmo, and my body became weaker and weaker, but now I can't fall down.
After the operation, Keqin and I wanted to tell Lan Sichen everything, whether it was my life experience, hobbies, joys and anger, or even every word I said to Silan, every scar on my body, he must have
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During this period, I don’t know how many times I fainted and went to the emergency room, but every time I was thinking, Lan Sichen can’t do Xu Ningmo well yet, my Lan hasn’t found happiness yet, I have to hold on.
, do a little more for her, even just a little.
Lan Sichen asked, is it because you love Asi or because you want to make up for your previous use of her?
I asked instead, are you willing to give up everything about yourself, including your soul, to love my blue or to atone for your previous sins?
He didn't get the answer he wanted, and I didn't get the answer I wanted.
Perhaps, we all understand in our hearts.
What he fell in love with was Scorpio who I trained with my own hands, and what I fell in love with was not just myself in the mirror.
Silan is a mirror to me. We both hate the Lan family and struggle in hell, and finally give up. She is like the white hair on my head. Although it hurts to pull it out, it still hurts.
Don't pull her out...
Lan Sichen finally became Xu Ningmo. He was somewhat similar to me. He was made to look like me. The scars on his body were even in the same position. I taught him my speaking speed, final pronunciation, and preferences; Ke Qin
I found a voice for him and taught him to imitate my voice. Finally, he became more and more like me. Sometimes when I looked at him, I felt like I was looking in the mirror.
When he finally became me, I couldn't get out of bed and fell into a coma all day long, with very few waking hours a day. Even when I woke up, my consciousness was blurred, and I would occasionally mistake Ke Qin for Si Lan.
I know, I really want to see her.
That morning, the sky was full of morning glow in the east, red and blood-red, and my spirit suddenly became very good. I could sit in my wheelchair and watch the sunrise from the window.
A person's life will come to an end as he goes.
In the dazzling sunlight, I seemed to see my Lan smiling at me. If I hadn’t been Xu Ningmo and she hadn’t been Si Lan, would we have just been the two most ordinary people among the billions of people?
An unexpected encounter, an ordinary love, and an ordinary life.
In this life, we have not fallen in love with the person we want to love.
My blue, if there is an afterlife, I hope that you, the blue bird, will be a fish, hovering above you from generation to generation, guarding the huge ocean, and guarding you.
When the sun rose that morning, it was shining brightly, and the gentle man slept in the darkness.
Keqin returned to the ward and was the first person to notice that he had left. He did not cry, and did not shed a tear from beginning to end. He was so calm that he was almost cold-blooded.
She arranged for Xu Ningmo's body to be cremated, erasing all information about his case and traces of Lan Sichen, leaving only a brand new Xu Ningmo alive in this world.
Xu Ningmo's last wish was to bury his ashes in Florence. No need for a tombstone or a name, just let him stay quietly at the place where he first met Slan.
Keqin went against his wishes for the first time. Before going to Florence, she took Xu Ningmo's ashes back to the city of Silan and stood downstairs in the company, watching her from a distance.
Holding the urn in his arms, he gently stroked the cold box with his fingers, "Ning Mo, have you seen it?"
"That is the woman you love most. Don't you want to see her one last time? I brought her to see you, so you won't have any regrets anymore?"
Silan walked out of the company in a bad mood. He didn't notice anyone looking at him from afar, with such affection and desire...
Silan's car slid past, Keqin looked down at the tight wooden box in his arms, and smiled bitterly at the corner of his mouth——
Ning Mo, your death made her and Lan Sichen happy, but who will make you and me happy?
Later, Keqin returned to Florence with Ning Mo's disappointment and placed his ashes in the back garden of the house where he and Slan first met.
I bought a cemetery plot in a cemetery and erected an unnamed tombstone. It will always be there alone, with no one looking at it or paying attention to it.
What if Ning Mo loves Silan again?
So what if Si Lan is grateful to Ning Mo?
It is impossible for them to meet again in this life or in all eternities.
Si Lan, the biggest punishment for you taking Ning Mo away from me is that you will never see Ning Mo, even his ashes.
Ning Mo, my deepest and deepest love for you is to take revenge on the woman you love most, and I will never be able to see you.
Many years later, the words were finally engraved on Gu Qing’s tombstone:
——The Tomb of Xia Keqin.
He will never marry and will never love anyone again. Most of all, he will stay in the scenery he once loved, look at each other with him, and forget each other.
Ning Mo, you who love Si Lan, have you ever thought about how I, who love you, would feel facing the living Lan Sichen?
Love and hate, no one can tell clearly in the end.
Those dark and austere years have finally passed.
The stories that belong to us, good, bad, good or not, finally come to an end.
Young Master: The next chapter is waiting for them. A new story and a new beginning. The era belonging to Slan and the others has finally passed...