Countdown to the full book: I only wish you a bright life 4 Desperate love
Countdown to the whole book: I only wish you a bright life (4)
In the end, Xiao Zimo's ashes were not buried next to Mu Ruqu'er's tombstone, but were sent back to his hometown city.
Mingzhu said, he never loved my mommy for a second during his lifetime, so what's the point of putting them together after death? Send him back, even if he can't have her, it's good to see her; he wants to look at his godmother,
I know.
Xi Mo sent Xiao Zimo's ashes back, but Mingzhu and Daidai didn't go back, or even told Lin Jiu and the others.
Xiao Zimo is such a proud and charming man. He once said that he did not want to see Lin Jiu and Ling Jiuyue holding hands again. It would hurt their self-esteem too much.
He chooses to leave quietly alone because he doesn't want anyone to send him off and he doesn't want to experience separation. Then let him go quietly without being surprised or disturbed.
It was snowing heavily outside, and the room was warm and quiet, as if it was enclosed in an airtight bottle. Mingzhu sat on the sofa, thinking that not long ago she was sitting on this sofa waiting for Xiao Zimo to come back from get off work. In the blink of an eye, the sky People are separated forever.
Human time is over, but the world is still very long.
Although it is said that it is better to die than to live, for Mingzhu, every second of living in this world is a kind of torture in disguise. After all, he has experienced displacement, separation of life and death since he was a child, and he feels that the person he is closest to is a
A person leaves you, but you still have to live strong. Who can endure such separation of life and death repeatedly every day?
Ling Xi was as lazy as a noble Persian cat, elegantly eating tender purple grapes, spitting the grape skins into the trash can accurately. Suddenly she said, "Mingzhu, let's elope together!"
Mingzhu was slightly startled, her face expressionless, as if she didn't hear what he said.
"I know that you and the man named Lan are registered for marriage, but from the looks of it, you are no different than if you were not married. Why don't you get divorced and be with me!" The bright eyes were shining with a clear light, and the thin lips opened and closed, showing no seriousness at all.
It’s not like I’m joking. “I don’t believe you don’t know I love you!”
"Stop joking, it's not funny." Mingzhu said calmly, her voice was calm and there was no feeling at all in her chest, which was as calm as a pool of water.
"I'm not kidding! Seriously, I love you and want to ask you to be my wife! It's best to have two more cubs so that you won't feel lonely!"
"I am your sister, five years older than you. I can't see you. You treat me with sympathy, not love. Don't confuse love with sympathy. Don't do such unethical things! Daddy and fuck
Mom will be angry!"
Mingzhu spoke calmly and patiently explained to him.
"It's not just a pair of broken eyes, or a five-year difference, I want to love you, but the Jade Emperor can't care less!"
"Wait, you are my younger brother, you are my younger brother!" Mingzhu reiterated the relationship between the two people! There is no other possibility except brother and sister!
Perhaps, there is another kind - strangers.
"Ha!" Ling Xi sneered, pulling her lips and saying sarcastically: "I'm not. Your surname is Xiao, and my surname is Ling. What kind of bullshit siblings do you think they are?"
Mingzhu lowered her eyes, her face as calm as a lake, without any emotion, and her faint voice echoed in the hall, "Don't say such things again. I will be angry, really angry."
Stand up and walk slowly towards the stairs.
"Do you know what Lan did to me? Do you know how I got here this year?" Ling Xi spoke lightly, narrowed her eyes, her expression was stern, and her body involuntarily exuded a coldness that filled the living room.
The temperature is getting colder and colder, almost suffocating.
"I know." Mingzhu stopped, held her fingers on the railing, turned her back to him, and did not look back, "I am sorry for you, and Momo is sorry for you! No matter what kind of compensation you want, you can!"
"Then I want you to be with me!"
"impossible!"
Mingzhu answered simply, without any hesitation, "Wait, don't say such words again, if you want to never see me again in your life."
Ling Xi's eyes darkened, cold and intense, "Would you rather not see each other for the rest of your life than be with me?"
Mingzhu didn't answer and acquiesced.
"Ha!" Ling Xi curled her lips and sneered, mocking either Mingzhu or herself. "I want you to divorce Lan Ximo."
Mingzhu's hand that fell on the handrail secretly tightened, her back was straight and straight, and her pale and weak back fell down and was intercepted into pieces.
After a long time, she started walking and said one word, "Okay."
The smile that filled the corner of Ling Xi's mouth was complicated and cold. Her beautiful peach blossom eyes stared closely at her thin and stubborn back, and her eyes became gloomy as she smiled.
The next second, he grabbed the ashtray on the coffee table and smashed it to the ground, breaking it into pieces without even blinking his beautiful eyes.
When Mingzhu opened the door, she heard the sound of things being smashed, and sighed slightly. Whoever's child is so violent must not be treated by her.
Daitai is a kind and lovely child.
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Lan Ximo single-handedly handled Xiao Zimo's funeral and also handled the affairs of Xiao's enterprise. Before Xiao Zimo died, he made a will and left all the equity, movable and real estate, capital and real estate to Xiao Mingzhu alone. Because
She had an eye disease and was unable to handle the affairs of Xiao's enterprise. Her husband Lan Ximo took over the position of president to maintain the normal operation of Xiao's enterprise.
Xiao Zimo has the largest shareholding, and he absolutely has the right to appoint the next president; what's more, Lan Ximo's identity and status are placed there, and other shareholders dare not have any objections no matter how unhappy they are.
Florence's affairs were left to Xiao Chen, and he supported the entire Xiao Company by himself. No matter how powerful Lan Ximo was, it was still very difficult at the beginning. After all, there were no people like him in the Xiao Company, and many things were accomplished.
It is very difficult to implement. Some people hold on to the world they have conquered with Xiao Zimo, rely on their elders and betray them, and do not give Xi Mo face at all.
Since Xiao Zimo had just passed away, Xi Mo didn't want to touch these old guys so quickly. He had been patient with them and waited until the right time to kill them all.
Lan Ximo can no longer remember how many days it has been since he returned to Xiao's house, and how many nights he has not had a good rest. Every day is full of conferences, small meetings, documents, reports, and one after another major and minor errands waiting for him.
It’s not that he doesn’t want to go, it’s that he doesn’t want to go. Most of the work is left to the manager and people he can trust.
Even if I don't dare to see her, I don't want to be too far away from her.
If we can't be together, whether we are close or distant, it will be a kind of torture.
Lan Ximo finally realized the meaning of this sentence and understood it deeply.
In the early morning, the winter night in Beijing was so cold that it seemed like someone was going to die. Lan Ximo stood in front of the office window and looked at the cold lights of the city. The scorpion lurking in his heart stung invisible wounds, which was extremely painful.
Although I haven't seen her these days, I talk to Rong's sister-in-law on the phone every day and know that she is doing well. Ling Xi has not been affected by the past and is still the same arrogant monkey who can cause trouble wherever he goes.
With him here, Mingzhu's mood should be much better.
There was a faint ring of smoke on the cigarette butt on his fingertips. Yu Mingzhu felt that he was powerless and exhausted. He could not give her happiness and joy. This was his greatest frustration and powerlessness.
He even began to doubt his own existence.
After struggling and conflicting for a long time, he turned around and walked to his desk, crushed his cigarette in the ashtray, picked up his coat hanging on the back of the chair and hurriedly walked outside.
The ice and snow melted, and the cold wind hit the biting ice blades, blowing on the cheeks again and again until the entire face became numb. Xi Mo walked into Xiao's house, and Sister-in-law Rong was startled, "Sir, you are back!"
"Hmm." Xi Mo took off his windbreaker and handed it to her, "They... rested?"
"Yes!" Sister-in-law Rong nodded and hung the clothes on the hangers while saying, "Sir, are you hungry? I'll go to the kitchen to make you some midnight snacks. It's too cold. Eat something to warm yourself up."
"No, I don't have the appetite." Xi Mo replied calmly, walking towards the stairs, "It's okay, you should go to bed early."
Lan Ximo walked involuntarily to the door of Mingzhu's room, stood in front of the door, hesitated for a moment, held the cold metal with his fingers, and did not move.
Hesitation and complexity flashed across his eyes, and hundreds of emotions surged through his heart. They were clearly a couple and should be the closest people in the world, but they were as indifferent as strangers.
She would never show such a bright smile in front of her as she did in front of Ling Xi.
Extremely sad.
Finally, the fingers gradually pulled away, hanging slumped by his side, clenching them in loneliness, turning around and walking slowly back to his room.
As soon as he opened the door, Xi Mo was stunned.
Mingzhu was sitting beside his bed, her eyes were unfocused, she sat there quietly without any expression, and she didn't know what she was thinking.
Xi Mo didn't dare to move or make a sound. He just stood like this in the quiet early morning, looking at her with a glance that lasted for thousands of years, just like when they started.
Why is the destined fate so shallow?
"Why are you here so late?" After an unknown amount of time, Xi Mo spoke calmly, with an imperceptible harshness in his voice.
Mingzhu came back to her senses after hearing the voice. When she stood up, she held something in her hand and looked at him, but she couldn't meet his eyes. She didn't expect him to come back, so a trace of surprise flashed on her cheeks.
"I didn't expect you to come back. Are you busy with a lot of things in the company recently? You seem to have never come back." Mingzhu's voice was stammering and a little unnatural.
Xi Mo was slightly stunned. Did she come to her room every night to wait? Otherwise, how would she know that she had never come back?
"There is a lot going on in the company? Are you looking for me if you have anything?" Xi Mo walked towards her very slowly, his eyes falling on the thing she was holding in her hand.
"I, I..." Mingzhu hesitated for a long time, not knowing how to speak.
"If you need me for anything, you can call me! Otherwise, you can ask the driver to go to the company to find me. Why wait like this every night? It's not good for your health." Xi Mo picked up the shawl she dropped on the bed and held it for her properly.
Put it on. "The temperature is very low at night, so don't catch a cold."
"Momo——" She suddenly raised her head and said in a cold and decisive voice: "Let's get a divorce."
Xi Mo's fingers holding her shawl stiffened, and his face showed no emotion or anger under the glass lamp. His deep eyes had no waves or ripples, and were as calm as a dry well or a bottomless black hole.
"Didn't you say that you want to torture me for the rest of my life?" His voice was low and emotionless, "Is it because of Ling Xi?"
How sad that even though he is hated and tortured by her, he still doesn't want to be separated from her.
"Even if Ling Xi didn't mention it, I would still choose to do this." Mingzhu did not deny that it was Ling Xi's suggestion, but she had already decided on this idea after Xiao Zimo's death, but she could never find the right time and opportunity.
He talks.
"Because you hate me." Xi Mo said in a low voice.
Mingzhu shook her head gently, groping with her fingers in the air for a long time, and finally found his cold cheek, "I hate you. The best way to treat you is to kill myself. My death is the greatest punishment for you."
It's just Momo, what I'm most afraid of is that I can't even hate you. It's very hard to hate someone who loves you and the person you love. I really don't have the strength to hate anyone anymore.
.”
"Then don't divorce, don't separate." Xi Mo held her hand, his hoarse voice filled with humility. Even if he lived with her like this, living in a room with two beds for the rest of his life, he was willing to do so.
"Momo, I can't go on like this in private anymore." Mingzhu's low and hoarse voice revealed the exhaustion of not being able to do what she wanted, "I don't want to torture you or myself anymore. I hate how you treat everything you have to do, Ming
Knowing that he designed you first, you
It was because he was so angry that he was blinded, but he is still a child after all. After all, you were not really hurt by him, but you really hurt him! I understand all these principles, I understand them, but understanding and doing them are two different things.
.Do you understand?”
"I know." Xi Mo stared at her tightly with his black eyes, his love was as deep as the sea, his true love had no regrets, his cold fingers fell on her pink cheeks, and he reluctantly said, "You really can't give me a little more time.
Forgive me?"
In front of her, he had long lost his self-esteem and self.
"Momo, if you do something wrong, you will be punished! It's not your fault that hurts Taitai, it's also my fault. I can't pretend that nothing happened and be with you, nor can I completely ignore Taitai's feelings.
In fact, people like me who live in darkness and already feel like monsters inside really don’t deserve love.”
"Momo, you are so good, you will definitely be able to find a girl who is better than me and can make you happy. It doesn't have to be mine..."
His hoarse voice was choked and speechless.
Yes! In such a big world, there are so many women, and maybe any one of them is better than you, but that’s not you, it’s not you, so what does it mean to me.
"Momo, leave me. If you leave me, you will be happier than you are now." I am a person who will only bring disaster to the people around me. If you continue to stay by my side, only unfortunate things will happen.
The hoarse voice and every word hurt Xi Mo's heart. She would not understand that leaving her was the greatest punishment for herself and the cruelest retribution in the world.
"I have already signed the share transfer form of Xiao's Enterprise. I know this is unfair to you. Let me be selfish one last time and beg you to run the business that my father has built throughout his life well and don't let it disappear."
Holding the divorce agreement and equity transfer document in her hand, after thinking about it for so many days, she thought she would be able to speak out calmly, but she didn't expect that her heart still ached hopelessly.
"I signed, will you be happy?" Xi Mo pursed his lips, and every word seemed to be squeezed out from between his teeth.
Mingzhu was stunned, her eyes filled with mist, "I don't know if I'm going to be happy or not, but I know that if I don't sign, none of us will be happy!"
"Okay, I'll sign." Xi Mo took the thing in her hand, walked to the bedside table, took out the pen from his breast pocket, turned to the last page, and signed the man's signature with a flourish.
own name.
I said, as long as it is what you want, I will give it...
If you want to get married, then get married. If you want to get divorced, then get divorced.
After signing, he stood up, turned around, took her hand, and put something in her palm. His voice was as cold as a machine, without any ripples, "I will run Xiao's enterprise well, and someone will come to take care of me tomorrow."
Move your things out. The annual dividends will be transferred directly to your account..."
"No, I don't..."
"That's it. If you don't want me to leave Mrs. Xiao alone, don't say anything." Xi Mo interrupted her coldly, her eagle eyes flashing with despair and brokenness that she couldn't see, "I have already
I tried my best..."
I will try my best to give you what you want, I will try my best to let you go, I will try my best to be indifferent to you and Ling Xi, and I will try my best to let all the pain only torture myself.
Mingzhu, can you not be so cruel, even cruelly rejecting the kindness I can only give you in the end.
Mingzhu was stunned for a long time, with sadness and coldness flowing on her haggard face. She nodded slowly, "Okay. Whatever you say will be whatever you say, I will listen to you."
The two people stood face to face, their hearts filled with desolation and sorrow.
Sometimes, separation is not because you don't love, but because you don't know how to continue to love. You will understand in seconds.
How should we continue to hurt other people's love like this?
Such deep love is already suffocating both of us, how should we continue?
"It's getting late, you should go to bed early." Mingzhu held the equity transfer document and divorce agreement tightly in her hands, finished speaking in a low voice, turned around and left.
Just after taking two steps, Xi Mo hugged her tightly from behind, so tightly that there was no gap left, so tightly that it seemed as if he wanted to rub her into his own bones and blood and merge into his soul.
"Mingzhu, I love you, I love you, I love you..."
The low, hoarse and choked voice echoed desperately in my ears. This love overflowed in my heart, and if I didn't say it out, I felt like I would die.
"I know, I know... I've always known it." The tears that I had been holding back finally burst out of my eyes, falling silently down my cheeks, feeling so bitter and weak after passing through my lips.
Xi Mo turned her body over to face him, hugged her tighter, lowered his head and pressed his forehead to hers, and gently sucked away the hot tears on her cheeks with his cool lips.
Mingzhu, let me do one last selfish thing.
"Give you to me, okay?" The hoarse voice revealed confusion and heartbreak, a desperate request. He gently placed his hand on her waist and said softly, "Tonight, let me be a real man again. Be a man."
Get your man back."
Mingzhu's body was stiff, like the game she played when she was a child, one, two, three, wooden figure. Her body was as stiff as a stone.
Where Xi Mo held her waist, goosebumps spread from her waist like a contagious skin disease and spread to her entire body. Then, Mingzhu's whole body began to tremble unconsciously, and her teeth also reacted, like
The nightmare of grinding her teeth in her sleep, the equity book in her hand was like an old man suffering from Parkinson's syndrome shaking erratically, gradually falling to the ground.
"Don't be afraid, I won't hurt you. Mingzhu, I'm Momo, I won't hurt you." Xi Mo noticed something strange about Mingzhu, and he let go of his hand around Mingzhu's waist. Mingzhu's expression was reflected in the glass lamp
It was filled with deathly paleness and fear.
He had never seen the pearl in such a state, and his heart ached.
The experience five years ago had turned her into an abnormal woman, and she could no longer behave like a normal woman and have normal reactions.
"I've known for a long time that I'm different from others. I can't tell you what's different. But I know that a certain part of me is abnormal, as if it's dead. I can't think about it like a normal woman.
If I want, I can’t have children, and even if I get married, I can’t hide the abnormal part of me.”
"Stop talking, Mingzhu!!" Xi Mo's hoarse voice was begging, "It's my fault. I shouldn't have made such a request! I thought I could cure you and make you forget that painless period.
remember!!"
Forget, these two words are so beautiful.
That kind of pain was engraved in her bones and soul, and it had completely destroyed the part of her that belonged to women.
In addition to fear, the only thing left is fear, and there is no desire.
"Mingzhu, I want you because -" Xi Mo held her cheek and stared at her helplessly with his affectionate eyes, "It's not just women who want to give their first time to their most beloved man, men also want to give their first time to their most beloved man.
Same. I just want to give my first time to the woman I love most."
Mingzhu was shocked and didn't react for a long time. Tears swept over her again. Her voice was hoarse and apologetic, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Momo."
"Shh!" Xi Mo gently kissed her salty tears away, "Don't say sorry to me, just let us preserve our beauty for each other. I love you, have loved you for so many years. No matter what I do for you,
It's so sweet. Whether it's my soul or my body, they only belong to you, and they belong to you alone."
Whether I leave you or stay with you, I will never fall in love with another woman, nor will I touch other women.
It's like you can't act like a normal woman. In front of other women, my love and sex are both incompetent.
Mingzhu cried even harder after listening to his words, almost unable to breathe. Her eyelashes wet with tears trembled violently. Her heart felt like it was being stabbed with a knife. Every cut was dripping with blood. The pain was so extreme that she became numb.
"Good boy, don't cry." Xi Mo wiped away her tears gently and rubbed her hair with his fingers, "I will stay with you for the last night, and I will wait until you fall asleep before I leave."
After saying that, he picked up Mingzhu and placed her on his bed. He lay beside her and covered her with a quilt.
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