Countdown to the full book: I only wish you a bright life 11 will be sick
Countdown to the whole book: I only wish you a bright life (11) even though you are sick
"What he wants to tell me, I don't need to ask. What he doesn't want me to know, he won't tell me no matter how much I ask." A thin and helpless smile appeared on his thin lips.
Muze looked slightly startled. Although Mingzhu had not been with Xi Mo for a long time, there was no doubt that she knew Xi Mo very well, and even knew something hidden deep in Xi Mo's soul better than anyone else.
"Xiao Mingzhu, you have always hated him for not keeping his promise, but have you ever thought that he almost died just because of your damn promise!"
Mingzhu's calm face showed no reaction, she just raised her chin slightly, her eyes fell on the quilt without focus, and she listened to him slowly speaking with an indifferent expression.
"You can't imagine how difficult it was for us in Florence that year. In order to fulfill his agreement with you, that damn agreement, he ignored all the consequences. Our people escorted him all the way to the airport, but
What you didn't expect was that the other party's people had already laid an ambush in Beijing, waiting for him to come in. When you hated him for breaking the promise, he was hovering on the edge of life and death. At that time
How many people tried to persuade him not to leave. No one could guarantee his safety outside Florence, but he just refused to listen... Did you know that the car was deformed after being hit? He was shot three times and lay in the hospital for half a year.
How many times did I almost fail to save him? What were you doing at that time? Xiao Mingzhu, how could I not hate you! Just because of your words, he even took his life!"
Only he knows how much pain and hardship these difficult words bring. In those days, he stayed by Xi Mo's bed day and night, watching him being pushed into the emergency room again and again. Every time, he was more afraid that this man would never come back again.
Can't get out.
Every time he comes out because he can't bear to leave the girl who has been waiting for him.
Xi Mo saw these things and felt pain in his heart.
"Later, he finally recovered, but he still wanted to come back! I stopped him, and I said that if he wants to be with you, he must first clear the obstacles in front of you. How ridiculous, only when he mentioned you, he would be so kind
In order to prevent you from being put in danger, he agreed to stay. After clearing all the obstacles in front of him, Xi Mo was born for the underworld. His cruelty and ruthlessness made people tremble, and almost no one would not be afraid of him. Under him
When he had the best chance to stand at the top, he suddenly
Ran said to me, Mu Ze, I'm tired, these things are not what I want. It's just a sentence, but with this sentence, he came back without hesitation. He gave up the world he single-handedly built and returned to you. Xiao Mingzhu,
I am really jealous of you; I have been the one who has accompanied him from birth to death all these years, and I have been the one who has accompanied him in pain and suffering... What have you done in these years? You have done nothing, but you have easily taken away his heart.
Occupying it, it makes people despair just by looking at it..."
The eyelashes as thin as cicada wings trembled violently, casting a green shadow slightly. She never knew what Xi Mo had gone through, and he almost didn't survive.
In fact, Mu Ze is right in what he said. The person who accompanies Xi Mo through life and death is Mu Ze. But what has Xiao Mingzhu done? She has done nothing in these years, but she has occupied Xi Mo's heart, making it impossible for anyone to leave.
Go in.
Xiao Mingzhu, how virtuous and capable are you?
They seem to be living under a bright sky, but in fact their lives are also full of twists and turns and darkness. Mu Ze is the same, Xiao Mingzhu is the same, and Xi Mo should have stood in the sun, but he gave up for the pearl, and he was willing
Go into the darkness.
Everything between them has been abnormal from the beginning, so much so that even their emotional entanglements are now abnormal. They actually listen to a man who has hurt him talk about the past of the man he loves.
Zhu, you are in the clear. "Mu Ze, actually Xi Mo is not suitable for darkness, he has never been suitable." Ming Zhu said faintly, but he put himself in the darkness, so that everyone thought that was what he wanted.
Mu Ze glanced at her in surprise. Before he could speak, the door was pushed open, and sharp eyes fell on him. He tensed up and pursed his thin lips, "Get out!"
Xi Mo was dressed casually in home clothes, his cheeks were pale and bloodless, and he seemed to be about to faint at any time, but his stern eyes were hard to ignore.
A wry smile flashed across the corner of Mu Ze's lips. In his eyes, he was afraid that he was saying something and hurting Xiao Mingzhu.
Look at this man, he is cruel to everyone, but to Xiao Mingzhu, he is gentle to the extreme.
When he stood up and walked out of the room and passed by Xi Mo, only the two of them heard his low voice, which was extremely decisive, "Don't come near her again and challenge my bottom line."
"Your face looks very bad." Xi Mo walked to the bed and sat down, staring at her tenderly, tenderly.
Mingzhu remained silent for a long time, then she suddenly sat up straight, touched his cheek with her fingers, and murmured in a low voice: "Momo, it was almost, almost I couldn't touch you."
"You can still touch me now, Mingzhu." Xi Mo held her hand.
"You knew about Su Luo a long time ago, why didn't you explain?" Although she understood him, there were some things she still couldn't figure out.
Xi Mo held her hand, kissed her palm, and kissed her intimately, "What's the difference between explaining and not explaining? The hurt you received can never be changed, whether it's Su Luo or Mu Ze, anyone who has hurt you
, I will never forgive.”
"Su Luo...is she still alive?" Mingzhu asked in a low voice. Although she hated that woman, she was still a mother after all.
Muze longs for maternal love just as he longs for mommy. To be honest, he and Muze are in the same boat.
"Don't worry, she's still alive." Xi Mo answered her calmly. Of course Su Luo is alive, but it's just a life worse than death. She wanted to die, but Xi Mo wouldn't allow it; because if she died, even Xi Mo wouldn't be able to do anything about it.
Therefore, those who have harmed the Pearl are better off living and suffering a long life!
Mingzhu didn't speak for a long time, and finally just sighed like the wind, "Momo, I have hated you for five years, and hating you has become a part of my life. I thought I would hate you for a long time to support myself.
Live, after being forced by Mu Ze again and again, I also want to use my own death as punishment.
You, it’s just that I can’t do it more and more. Momo, what do you think I should do? I live in the darkness, I can’t do anything, I make every excuse, use love and hate to support my life
What should I do now that I cannot hate or love anymore, my heart is broken, and I am terminally ill?"
What should you do if you have always loved me who is sick?
Your tears burned my skin that night, how could I continue to hate you? But the person being tortured didn’t look like a human being, the ghost didn’t look like a ghost, and there was a monster living in my heart, what could I do?
Xi Mo's dark eyes became deeper and deeper, staring at her deeply, his fingertips trembling slightly as he touched the scar on her wrist. This ugly scar would follow her throughout her life, turning into loess and white bones.
"It doesn't matter, you can continue to hate me... Mingzhu, I don't care whether you love me or hate me, because as long as you give it to me, it is happiness to me." She separated her fingers and intertwined them with each other.
, like two entangled and indistinguishable ivy, his voice was low and firm, "There is a thin line between hate and love. You are sick, you can't see it from your eyes, and you can't see it from your eyes."
I know Xiao Zimo is your father. You have been sick since Mu Rujuan'er left. I have been sick too. I don't even know when I got sick. This kind of illness will make me crazy, irrational, and devoid of any humanity.
.I don’t know if I can cure your disease, but I know that only you can cure my disease. If you refuse, then I will either go crazy or die..."
"Momo..."
"Shh." Xi Mo put his finger on her lips, with tenderness in his eyes, and murmured in his voice: "Listen to me, if I don't say some things now, I don't know if I will have the courage to say them in the future."
"I used to be really afraid of your death, afraid that you would leave me alone, but now I'm not afraid, death is no big deal, you die, I die, you live, I live, that's it. You live in the darkness, I will accompany you
Living in darkness, you say you can't find the support to live, you can't love or hate, your heart is broken, it doesn't matter if you are terminally ill, you can't heal your broken heart, in the worst case, use my heart
Let's live on, let's live on with the same heart."
Xi Mo took her hand and put it on his chest. His fingertips touched the strong heartbeat, which represented the freshness of life. Mingzhu's other hand fell on her chest. It was really strange. She couldn't feel it.
to your own heartbeat.
"Momo, you always feel hurt by me, doesn't it hurt?" You, who are so proud and arbitrary, watch me care about you and ignore you because of you, don't you feel uncomfortable?
If it hurts, why don't you let go?
"It hurts, but I am willing." Xi Mo lowered his head and pressed his forehead against hers, feeling the warmth of his skin. "The hurt and pain I receive from you are a kind of satisfaction. Xiao Zimo actually said something wrong,
'Being loved is really too luxurious. No matter how much I love you, there will be a bottom line. Who can allow the girl he likes to be at odds with him for a lifetime. But Mingzhu, even if you are really at odds with me for the rest of your life, I will still love you!"
I have never had a bottom line when it comes to loving you.
"Fool Momo." Mingzhu put her hands around his neck and said in a choked voice, "What a fool!"
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The atmosphere of the New Year's Eve dinner was a bit strange. Muze looked calm and indifferent. Mingzhu sat in the host seat and showed no emotion. Xi Mo sat next to her, Lian Lian sat on the other side of her, and Xi Ting sat next to Lian Lian.
.
"Thank you all for coming to celebrate the New Year with me." Mingzhu picked up the cup in front of her and stood up suddenly. Her expression under the glazed lamp was not as gloomy as before, with a smile between her eyebrows. "I hope all the bad luck will leave and we can all find ourselves."
The right path to take.”
Xi Mo stood up with a cup in hand and was the first to clink glasses with her. Nothing could be better than now, he and she were together.
Lian Lian was second, Xi Ting was third, and then everyone's eyes fell on Mu Ze. Mu Ze's dark eyes rolled around, and he slowly stood up, holding up the cup, pulling his lips and smiling self-deprecatingly,
"There's no right path for people like me... That's it..."
When the sound fell, I raised my head and drank it all.
Several people took a sip and glanced at Xi Ting from the corner of their eyes. She really wanted to have a drink with him. Considering their current state, they might as well forget it.
After dinner, Lianlian was about to set off fireworks. The sky was already dark, and the fireworks continued outside. The beauty bloomed in the mysterious sky, and the beauty withered in an instant.
Xi Mo was afraid that Mingzhu would catch a cold, so he asked Sister-in-law Rong to get her a thick coat and button it up for her gently and properly. Mingzhu touched his arm with her fingers, "You should also wear more clothes."
"Okay." Xi Mo couldn't help but smile, and he was in a good mood.
Holding her finger and walking out slowly, Mu Ze inexplicably turned into an errand boy. The servants arranged the fireworks neatly, and he lit them one by one...
There were continuous explosions and the sky was lit up with colorful lights. It felt good to stand in the yard and watch the fireworks in the grand era.
Mingzhu couldn't see it, could only hear the sound, and tried hard to search for the appearance of fireworks in her memory, but it had been so long that she really couldn't remember it.
"Fireworks are beautiful, aren't they?"
"Well" Xi Mo held her hand tightly and said in a cheerful voice, "You also have to look at the people around you. If you are standing with someone else, no matter how beautiful the fireworks are, it won't matter."
Mingzhu pursed her lips and smiled, her palm still held by him without breaking away. His body was shielded from the cold wind, and she could smell the faint scent of lavender on his body, which made her feel at ease and comfortable.
Lian Lian hung her hands on both sides of her body, looking up at the colorful fireworks in the sky. Her eyes were filled with darkness and light. When she glanced at Xi Ting, who was standing aside, her peripheral vision dimmed a bit. Her fingers were frozen stiff, numb, and...
Just no sense.
But what about the heart? Why can’t it be frozen to the point of numbness and loss of consciousness? Wouldn’t that make it less sad?
People subconsciously like to abuse themselves. They know that they will be sad after watching it, but they can't bear to watch it.
After the fireworks were set off, Xi Mo held Mingzhu's hand and walked in. Mu Ze went back to the room early and yawned; only Lian Lian still stood in the snow reluctant to go in, thinking about the fleeting beauty, why can't it be frozen into eternity.
"Go in." Xi Ting didn't go in either. He stared at her with deep eyes and swallowed thousands of words in his mouth.
Lianlian came back to her senses, not daring to look at his eyes, and nodded. When she turned around, her feet were numb and she almost fell to the ground. "Be careful!" A low hoarse voice sounded, and his warm hands grasped her hand, and the fingers were tight.
Buckle, the hot temperature seems to seep through the skin and flow into the blood.
Frightened, she turned her head to look at him, and instantly fell into his deep eyes. Xi Ting looked at her intently, her fingers tightly intertwined and unwilling to let go, her hands were so cold that she felt heartbroken.
The suppressed crazy emotions finally burst out uncontrollably at this moment, and he hugged her in his arms without hesitation, without a trace of strength, without any words, a hug had already expressed everything...
Lian Lian's body stiffened, and she leaned into his arms, kissing his chest sideways, feeling his heart beat like a drum, crazy and intense, and her heart was trembling with pain...
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