Countdown to the full book: I only wish you a bright life 13 Painful love
Countdown to the whole book: I only wish you a bright life (13) painful love
His words also shocked Mingzhu.
"I don't like him always pestering you." He is clearly coveting his woman.
Mingzhu's face was slightly pale, the corners of her mouth curved in an unnatural way, and she said calmly: "Tai Dai is still a child, and I will have a good talk with daddy about his future. We can't let him waste time not going to school all the time.
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Xi Mo calmly took in the instinctive reaction of her body into his eyes, and there was an unknown fire in his heart. Originally, Mingzhu should be healthy, but it was just invisible to his eyes.
But Mu Ze and Su Luo forced her to this point, and the pain was suppressed deep in her heart. Even if she could face Mu Ze, she could not control the instinctive fear in her body.
He gently twirled her hair with his fingers, and his voice was as gentle as ever, "Mingzhu, would you like to come to Florence with me?"
"Well--?"
"I'll take you on a trip, and I'll also make some arrangements there."
"I can't see, and my English is not very good. It will bring you a lot of trouble..."
Before he finished speaking, Xi Mo lowered his head and kissed her lips, "It doesn't matter, it's just a week. I won't leave your side for half a step."
"Okay." Mingzhu held his hand and said if he wanted to go by himself, he would go by himself.
Xi Mo originally planned to leave in two days, but Mingzhu was worried about his health and insisted on waiting for a week before leaving. He originally wanted to spend more time with Lian Lian so that she would not have to think about it alone, but Lian Lian insisted on leaving on the third day of the Lunar New Year.
On the fourth day of the Lunar New Year, the weather was very good and the sun was shining brightly. The white snow that fell on New Year's Eve gradually melted. Mingzhu was sitting on the swing in the garden. The sun was shining on her body but she couldn't feel any warmth. Momo was obviously by her side, but she couldn't feel it.
There is still constant fear and constant panic, which comes from the bones, like a psychological disease.
In fact, she has been ill for a long, long time.
Six years ago today, she experienced the most terrifying thing in her life, which made her live in hell for the past few years, struggling, suffering, helpless, desperate, and unsaved. She once thought, why should she continue to suffer like this?
If you are living in this world, why not die? But there is something in your heart that pulls you so that you can't let go, and you keep holding on?
——It’s Momo.
She once even wondered in her mind if something had happened to Momo, otherwise why wouldn't she come to find her.
Suddenly, her body was surrounded by warmth. Someone held her cold and trembling hand, put it under her lips, blew hot air, and said in a concerned tone: "Are you okay? Your face doesn't look too good."
"It's okay, maybe I didn't sleep well last night." Mingzhu replied lightly, wanting to force out a smile that made people give up, but the muscles on her face were so stiff that she couldn't control it.
"I'll carry you up and rest for a while."
Mingzhu nodded, Xi Mo bent down and picked her up, walking slowly and steadily towards the house, holding her carefully for fear of hurting her to death.
Xi Mo put her on the soft quilt, pressed the corners of the quilt, lowered his head and kissed her forehead, and said in a low voice: "Go to sleep. I'll be by your side."
His body was shaking uncontrollably, his face became paler, and his voice came out harshly, "Momo, can you turn up the air conditioner temperature? I'm cold."
Xi Mo picked up the remote control of the air conditioner. The temperature was already at 30 degrees. Even a person wearing a thin shirt would feel hot in the room, but she was so cold. But in order to give her some peace of mind, Xi Mo still whispered "Hmm"
, press it a few times in a pretentious manner, and put it down.
"Can I sleep with you?"
"No, no need." Mingzhu licked her almost bloodless lips and refused firmly.
Xi Mo looked helplessly at her trembling look with distressed eyes. He tried his best to suppress himself and hide his huge sadness. His heart seemed to be torn into pieces. His warm fingers gently wiped away the scars covering her cheeks. Hair, whispered: "I'll wait until you fall asleep before leaving."
He clasped her fingers without any explanation, firmly, and was not allowed to let go.
The warmth in the palm of her hand continued to seep through her skin, and when it flowed into her body, it disappeared instantly without a trace, leaving only the coldness and hollowness in her bones. It seemed that nothing could be filled...
There are some people that we can’t wait for in our lifetime; and there are people that we don’t know how to cherish when they come. It’s so rare to meet someone who likes you. But it’s so easy to lose someone. In a blink of an eye. In a short time, it will disappear without a trace.
He once thought about why he had to cling to this thin girl, couldn't others do the same?
He is born with a cold personality and a taciturn person. He will not be as sunny and gentle as Xi Ting, nor will he be as gentle and elegant as Ji Xian. He lives in his own world most of the time, without needing company, understanding, or even He doesn't need friends and relatives, he only needs Silan. But this doesn't mean that he won't be lonely, growing up alone in a silent world, watching the changes in the world, and watching the thousands of masks worn by adults. , will also feel lonely and boring.
When she gave herself her first smile as a baby, his heart suddenly seemed to be filled with something. He was no longer lonely, but as cold and lonely as a pool of stagnant water without any ripples.
I still remember that when I was young, I didn't understand that love in this world could be so torturous, painful and joyful. He only knew that he longed for this smiling face to warm his lonely and cold world. He wanted this smiling face to never be seen again. Lose your splendor.
On the way home that day, he once asked Silan a question: How can I stay with someone for a long time?
Silan answered without hesitation at that time: If you want to be with someone, you must grow up and become strong enough to protect the people around you and the people you want to protect.
The four words "grow up" and "be strong" are like a seed that was planted in the heart of Xi Mo at a young age. He worked hard to learn to grow up, to learn hard to become strong, and to become strong enough to protect what he wanted to protect. thing!
After going through the baptism of a long time, not only Xi Mo grew up, but also the seed in his heart grew like a towering tree; the only thing he didn't expect was that he ignored her growth during the growth process.
He wanted to protect her wholeheartedly, but he let her suffer the most extreme harm because of him; he wanted to see her smile, but she would never have such a clean and innocent smile again; he wanted to protect her for the rest of his life, even if Even hatred will be entangled together until death; but she doesn't even have hatred anymore...
How painful she has been in these years, silently enduring the harm caused to her by the outside world, suppressing herself to the point that she has no sex, suppressing herself to the point that she is no longer a normal woman...
The plan was to cause pain. Thinking of this, the corners of my eyes dropped uncontrollably.
Who is he Xi Mo?
Satan, who survived almost death without even frowning, who could stand upright even if his legs were broken, looked like Satan to everyone - he cried.
The first time was because Mingzhu committed suicide. He thought he was going to lose her. The fear of loss made him deeply afraid, and his tears fell uncontrollably. But this time he saw her so depressed and endured the pain in her heart.
, unable to express my feelings, I couldn’t help crying because of my distress.
Such pain and great grief, he wanted to bear it for her a thousand times more. He would rather suffer the pain of thousands of arrows piercing his heart, and would rather trade his life for her health and safety. But he can't, he is not omnipotent.
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The most important thing is that her pain happens to come from herself.
Such pain and grief almost tore Xi Mo to pieces. He held her hand tightly and dared not let go. His face was cold, and there was hot flow under the corners of his eyes, falling drop by drop on her cold hands.
On the surface.
Mingzhu seemed to have had several bizarre dreams in her confusion. She dreamed that her eyes could see, and she saw her Momo standing on the edge of the cliff, only half a step away. If she took another half step, Momo would fall.
He tried very hard to call him whether he should step back, but Momo couldn't hear him. He ran over anxiously and wanted to catch Momo, but instead he grabbed his hand and threw it hard. He was caught off guard and threw it to
Crossing the abyss, the sound of wind whizzed past my ears, the pain was scratching my bones, my body kept falling, and kept falling. The silhouette of Momo standing on the edge of the cliff was cold, ferocious, and blurry, making it difficult to see clearly.
He fell heavily to the ground. He didn't notice the extreme pain, but he felt that it hurt to the core. He couldn't struggle and call for help. Looking around, he saw a desolate area with no breath of life, but there were countless snakes entangled around it.
The snake has a slender and cool body and spits out a red core, which is gloomy and terrifying.
Mingzhu kept screaming and retreating, but there were red and gray tongues everywhere on the rocks, stone walls, and dead trees. They were approaching her, and the vicious snakes were devouring her skin inch by inch.
Death is never the most terrifying thing in this world.
The terrifying thing is that I am tortured by nightmares day and night, my spirit is on the verge of collapse, I want to go crazy but cannot go crazy, I want to die but cannot die.
Life is worse than death, what do these four words mean?!
"No, no, let me go, please, let me go. It hurts, it hurts..."
In her sleep, Mingzhu screamed desolately, and her tears kept falling down. The crystal clear tears under her eyelashes fell down in large pieces. In her sleep, her subconscious hands pinched her neck tightly, and her face turned crimson.
Extremely painful.
It was impossible to tell whether the breath of death was a dream or reality.
The knuckles of her hands squeezing her neck were bulging out, her fingertips were sickly pale, and her veins were looming. She couldn't breathe in reality, and the pain of being bitten in her dream was superimposed, and it was almost killing her.
Xi Mo went to the bathroom to wash his face, and when he returned to the bedroom and saw such a scene, he was shocked.
Mingzhu on the bed had her eyes closed and she was obviously sleeping, but her hands were pinching her neck tightly, tears were falling down, her cheeks were very red, she had no strength to shout for help, and her difficult voice was weak.
I can no longer hear what she is saying.
"Mingzhu!" Xi Mo's deep voice revealed a lot of grief and helplessness. He stepped forward and pinched her fingers hard, his voice choked with tears, "Mingzhu, don't be like this... please don't be like this... don't
Hurt yourself... Mingzhu, it's okay, I'm here! Mingzhu, let go, you will hurt yourself..."
He finally understood what Sister Rong meant, why she hated winter so much, why she hated Chinese New Year so much, and why she hated the fourth day of the Lunar New Year so much.
What kind of torture does she go through and how much pain does she endure on the fourth day of every Lunar New Year? Why does fate do this to her, and why does it do this to him?
He really couldn't imagine how much she had endured in her heart, and he was not even sure whether living was a good thing for her.
Mingzhu's fingers were very hard, almost squeezing her neck stiffly, trying to kill herself. Xi Mo's tears swept over him again, blurring his vision, and he opened her fingers one by one with force, his voice choked with sobs.
He coaxed softly, "Mingzhu, it's okay... I'm right by your side, Mingzhu... I'm Momo... I'm here..."
What on earth was she dreaming about and why did she hurt herself like this!!
Her fingers were opened one by one, and she could finally breathe normally. Tears flooded her cheeks. Her voice was painful, and her hands began to wave in the air, "No, no, go away, no, it hurts, it really hurts."
Such pain..." 13acv.
Hearing the broken voice, Xi Mo wished he could give her his heart, so that she would not be in such pain and would not push herself to death.
"Don't sleep, Mingzhu, don't sleep... wake up... Mingzhu is not sleeping, please wake up, okay?" Xi Mo lowered his head and his tears dripped on her cheeks, joining her tears together, and his cold lips touched each other.
Touching her white lips.
What a desperate and helpless kiss.
It turns out that kissing can be so desperate.
In a daze, Mingzhu heard a familiar voice, frowning brows, tears, and some hot liquid burning her skin. She wanted to open her eyes, but she had no strength at all.
Whose voice keeps echoing, sometimes far and sometimes near, with a bitter taste on my lips.
"Pearl..." 15530561
The eyelashes moistened by tears trembled violently, like butterfly wings that fell in the mud, unable to free their wings and fly again. Tears fell along the corners of the eyes, with tear stains all over the face, and the heartbroken from crying...
Something swallowed her up, and her soul seemed to leave her body. She saw the snakes coiled on the pile of white bones, in various shapes, and their vicious looks were like dragging her into hell. She had no way out.
Can escape.
My soul seems to be scattered little by little, and I seem to disappear completely, my soul is scattered, right?!
She suddenly opened her eyes full of tears, her voice choked and sad, "Momo..."
"I'm here." Xi Mo leaned forward and put his forehead against hers. Hot tears dripped on her cold skin, as if they were going to flow into his heart.
Mingzhu's body was stiff, she felt wetness on her face, and when she pulled her lips, her throat felt like needles pricking her, "Momo, you're crying."
Why does my throat hurt so much? Why is Momo crying?