Countdown to the full book: Love you and life are equal 2 life and death side
Countdown to the whole book: Loving you is equal to life (2) Life and death
A month later, Lianlian and Ji Xian came back from their honeymoon. Xi Ting did not come back from Beijing and had no contact. Everyone received the gifts from Lianlian, except Xi Ting.
Their new house had not been decorated when they got married. Although Ji Xianren went on a trip, he did not forget about the decoration of the house. Naturally, he wanted to live in their wedding house when he came back.
The room Ji Xian arranged for Lianlian was exactly the same as her room in the Lan family, both in style and layout...
For a moment, Lian Lian thought she was back in her own room at Lan's house, and the feelings around her were so real. Unfortunately, the person beside her had changed.
The room in the Lan family was specially designed by Xi Ting for Lian Lian. After living there for twenty years, it has become deeply familiar to me.
This is how a new life begins. Life without Xi Ting is not the first day, and Lian Lian doesn't have much emotion.
Ji Xian is not as busy as Xi Ting before. Maybe he has given up a lot of work specifically for her and spends a lot of time at home with Lian Lian. Even so, Lian Lian doesn't spend much time with him. Most of the time she just wants to stay in her own home.
room, and Ji Xian has either stayed in the guest room or in the study since he came back.
Ji Xian said that he had loved her for too many years and was reluctant to force her to do anything. All he could do was wait for the day when she was willing to open her heart to him.
Having said that, Ke Lianlian herself is not sure whether she will be able to do it one day. Or maybe she will never be able to do it.
For half a year, Lianlian still couldn't help but want to call Xi Ting, but every time she dialed the last number and gave up. She kept practicing forgetting him and giving up on him in her heart, but every time she picked up the phone
The excitement in her heart reminded her that it simply couldn't be done, it couldn't be done!
Several times, Ji Xian saw her sitting in the room in a daze, holding her mobile phone in despair, her eyes dimmed a bit, her thin lips curled up and she never said a word, just sighed deeply.
Finally one day, when Lianlian gave up dialing again, Ji Xian came over and took her cell phone, pressed out the last digit, connected the phone and handed it to her!
"Ji Xian, you..." Lianlian was startled, but before she could finish her words, a "Hello..." came from the other end of the phone. The deep voice sounded a little tired, but the trace of flesh and blood was still there.
Lianlian was so excited that she almost held the phone, her hands couldn't help shaking, and even her voice trembled, "It's me!"
You could almost hear the almost inaudible sound of surprise on the other end of the radio wave. After a pause, he slowly said, "How are you doing?"
A soft, unquestionable affirmation hit Lian Lian's heart hard. Lian Lian didn't speak, but listened silently. The excitement, frustration, and frustration in her heart instantly turned into ashes. At this moment, his voice can be heard.
, seemed to be the most luxurious thing. She actually counted these days day by day.
Since when did he feel so important and humble in my heart that it would be good to breathe the same air as him.
Perhaps everything was doomed from the beginning.
"Sister..." Xi Ting's voice came out slowly and desolately, "I think Ji Xian must have taken good care of you. As long as you live a good life, I, brother, have no choice for you."
Wrong person."
Xi Ting was talking to himself, saying all the words that made him heartbroken.15530561
"Ah Que!" Lianlian interrupted him suddenly and paused for a long time, "I miss you...I really miss you..."
On the other side of the phone, his breathing suddenly stopped. After a long time, he gasped slowly, "Sister, I...sorry...there are still a lot of things to deal with here. If you have anything, I'll talk about it next time."
Without waiting for Lianlian to speak, Xi Ting cut off the phone, and Dudu's cold voice struck Lianlian's desolate heart hard one after another.
My eyes were sore, but I couldn't shed tears.
There is a grave in the heart, where the survivors live.
Ji Xian took the mobile phone away from her hand and held her in his arms with long arms. His low voice was filled with helplessness and powerlessness, "Sang Yu, you still can't forget? He didn't even see you.
He doesn’t even have the courage, what else do you want to force him to do?”
force?
Lian Lian's eyes trembled, she raised her head and looked at him with clear eyes, shaking her head, not believing what he said. When had she ever forced Ah Que?
I just want to take a look at him, just want to hear his voice, but that's not okay, is it?
"He is destined to take over Tianlan, but with you here, he doesn't dare to come back. He would rather move Tianlan Company to Beijing to avoid you. Don't you understand? Lan Sangyu?" Ji Xian said in a low voice.
His voice was heavy.
He doesn't blame Ah Que, nor does he blame Lian Lian. He knew before they got married that they truly loved each other, and he was the third party who had to forcefully intervene between them!
She only complained that the person who had been with her for twenty years was not herself.
Lianlian looked at him with dull eyes and her voice trembled, "Ji Xian, I...I...what else can I do?" She was helpless and confused, like a child who was lost and couldn't find his way home.
"Sang Yu, can't you try to accept me?" Ji Xian placed a hand on her cheek and gently stroked her skin. His dark eyes were deep and nostalgic. It was so painful to have suppressed feelings for so many years.
, this pain is no less than Lianlian and Xi Ting.
"Sangyu..."
A low hoarse voice slowly sounded. He lowered his head and pressed his lips against her red lips. With the soft touch and faint fragrance, he tried to pry open her teeth with his tongue, reaching in to search, stir, and suck...
…
Lianlian did not push him away or close her eyes. Instead, she opened her eyes wide and looked at his majestic face magnified in front of her eyes. She could feel him kissing her, could feel his temperature, his affection, and his desire.
, but the only thing I couldn’t feel was my heartbeat.
After a while, Ji Xian paused, put his forehead against hers, and smiled silently, "You really don't have a place for me in your heart..."
Before Lianlian could say anything, Ji Xian had already turned around and left.
This was the first time he kissed her, and the result was that she didn't have him in her heart.
It's not that Lianlian doesn't know Ji Xian's depression and helplessness, but she is more helpless about herself. She doesn't feel anything about Ji Xian's kiss, and she can do nothing about it.
Late at night, the lights in Ji Xian's study were still on.
Lianlian made coffee and pushed the door open. Ji Xian looked through the documents that were going to court the next day. When he saw her figure, he was stunned for a moment and said, "Sang Yu."
Lianlian put the coffee in front of him, "I see that you haven't slept yet, so I made coffee and wanted to give you a cup."
Ji Xian smiled and said apologetically: "Thank you, but I never drink coffee at night, only wine."
White smoke from the coffee curled up between the two people, blurring their vision, and the rich aroma of coffee lingered in their noses.
"It's not that you dislike drinking at work. If you talk too much after drinking, you will make mistakes..."
His voice stopped abruptly, his expression was apologetic, and the series of words he spoke were almost instinctive responses without any thought.
Ji Xian's body was obviously stiff, and he looked straight at her. The disappointment in his eyes was obvious, and there was also helplessness that could not be concealed.
"I'm sorry." Lian Lian bit her lip and said apologetically. Those words were what Ah Que once said. I didn't expect that I would remember them so deeply.
"It doesn't matter." Ji Xian quickly returned to his usual calm and gentlemanly manner, and said with a smile: "I have to go to court tomorrow, and I have to read these documents. It's getting late now, go and have a rest."
"I won't disturb you anymore." Lianlian nodded, "Good night." She turned around and left.
"Sang Yu..." Ji Xian suddenly stopped her.
"Huh?" Lianlian looked back at him.
"Can you... give me a good night kiss?" Ji Xian pointed to his cheek, his dark eyes looking at her expectantly with warm light.
Lian Lian frowned, and after a moment of hesitation, she walked over to him, leaned forward and kissed him on the cheek, "Good night, Ji Xian."
"Go and have a rest. Good night." Ji Xian couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth, looking at her leaving back, his eyes were gentle and infinite.
In fact, it's not that difficult, is it? Ji Xian, give her more time and wait for her. She will always keep up with you, at least she is still by your side now!
Ji Xian won the lawsuit very well the next day, so he specially booked a restaurant and called Lianlian to come out for dinner to celebrate. He originally wanted to drive home to pick her up, but Lianlian insisted that he could go there alone, so Ji Xian had to go to the restaurant to wait for her.
Lianlian was not late, it was just raining and her clothes were a little damp. Ji Xian saw this and frowned, "If I had known, I should have picked you up."
"It's okay, it's just a little wet." Lianlian wiped the water from her forehead with a towel and said nonchalantly: "Don't always treat me like a child, okay! It's not like I haven't lived alone."
Ji Xian sighed helplessly. She had lived alone, but she had never taken good care of herself.
After enjoying the dessert, Ji Xian took out a velvet box from his briefcase and handed it to her.
Lianlian opened it and saw a pair of earrings. She looked at him and smiled, "It seems that you agreed to the lawsuit today, so I should give you a gift." In the past six months or so, Ji Xian has given her many gifts, including necklaces, bracelets, and rings.
There were really countless hairpins, but she had thrown them all into the jewelry box and never worn them. But Ji Xian still happily gave them away.
This plan is a good idea. "It doesn't matter, I just want to give you some gifts when I'm happy." Ji Xian said lightly. Although Sang Yu would laugh every time she received a gift, he could tell after all that she didn't really like them.
Not really happy.
Lianlian put the box into her bag again.
Ji Xianjie stood up after paying the bills and said, "Let's go back."
Lianlian stood up and nodded, but when she walked to the door of the restaurant, the rain became heavier and heavier. Ji Xian handed her the bag, "Wait for me here, and I will drive the car over to pick you up." It wasn't raining when he came, so he didn't bring it with him.
Umbrella, the car is parked far away, and if you run too far now, your clothes will definitely get wet.
"No, I'll go with you." Lianlian didn't take his briefcase, "It's just a little distance. Anyway, my clothes are a little damp, so it's okay! I don't get sick that easily..."
Seeing her persistence, Ji Xian couldn't resist. He took off his clothes and put them on her body, holding her hand and running to the parking lot.
Most of her clothes were wet. When she got home, Ji Xian pushed her into the bathroom and asked her to take a hot bath. When she came out, Ji Xian had already taken a bath and prepared ginger soup.
"Drink something to prevent a cold." Ji Xian coaxed her softly.
Lianlian couldn't help but shake her head when she smelled the taste. She didn't want to drink something so unpleasant.
"Sangyu..."
Lian Lian shook his head stubbornly, "Don't drink! I won't catch a cold. I'm a doctor and I know better than you! I'm going to rest!" After that, he slipped back to his room without giving him a chance.
Ji Xian looked at the closed door, smiled helplessly, and had no choice but to drink it himself.
She didn't know whether she was too fragile or God was deliberately playing a trick on her. The next morning, when Ji Xian called her to get up, he found that she had a high fever and her body temperature was alarmingly high.
Ji Xian didn't want her to have a hard time, so he specially invited the best doctors to treat her.
The doctor prescribed medicine and gave Ji Xian a few words to leave.
Ji Xian sat by the bed with a solemn expression, looking straight at Lian Lian, who was suffering from a high fever and kept calling "Aque" in a daze, a feeling of powerlessness welled up from the bottom of his heart, completely defeating all his defenses.
The doctor said that her illness was not a virus or inflammation, but was caused by excessive stagnation for a long time. She was usually anemic and malnourished, so the illness came like a mountain and went away like a thread. She would not be able to recover well if she did not recover for a long time.
Ji Xian usually paid a lot of attention to her diet and sleep, but unexpectedly, just six months later, she became anemic and malnourished. He found that her appetite was not as good as it was in Beijing, but he didn't expect it to be in such a bad state.
Since Lianlian fell ill, she spent most of her time in bed. Ji Xian didn't do much work and stayed with her all the time. How could the things he had worked so hard to make come in and be taken out? Ji Xian persuaded her, but
In the end Lianlian really couldn't eat anything.
With the sound of footsteps, Lianlian heard someone knocking on the door and looked at the alarm clock beside the bed. Ji Xian should be working in a law firm at this time, and he should be a doctor. He turned over and didn't want to talk. He came to check his body every day, but
High fever always comes back and forth, and the doctor can't do anything, and she can't do anything either - doctors don't treat themselves.
The door was knocked twice and then pushed open. The footsteps were so soft that they were almost inaudible. Even with her eyes closed, Lian Lian could feel how hot the eyes were looking at her. The familiar cologne sounded the familiar tangy smell.
Coming here is something I have been waiting for for a long time...
Lianlian suddenly opened her eyes, seeing familiar outlines, gentle eyes, and frowning eyebrows...
"Ah Que!" Lianlian shouted in surprise and sat up excitedly. However, after being sick for a long time, his body was too weak. As soon as he sat up, he felt dizzy and lay down uncontrollably. Originally, he thought
I would fall on the bed, but after bursts of dizziness, I felt someone supporting me.
Lianlian slowly opened her eyes, and hurriedly grabbed Xi Ting's clothes with both hands, as if she was dreaming, and her fingers couldn't use any strength. Is she dreaming? Or has she been sick for too long and started to hallucinate? If it is really the case
, then please don’t let this mirage disappear in an instant. Stay a little longer and take a few more glances, just a few glances.
"It's just that we haven't seen each other for more than half a year. Why... why are you so unwilling to reassure me?" Xi Ting's words were severe reproaches, but mixed with helplessness. He held her hand and wrapped it tightly, but he didn't dare to
Use force and be careful...
Lian Lian felt the warmth and tenderness that only belonged to him. He looked at himself, his eyes filled with distress.
Xi Ting's face has lost a lot of weight, and even some sunken eye sockets have become deeper and deeper. He seems to have aged a lot in more than half a year, and his whole person has become haggard.
Lianlian hugged him with all her strength, trembling uncontrollably, and her tears fell silently in an instant, falling on his body and slowly seeping into his clothes.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to get sick... I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you so worried..."
Xi Ting seemed to feel the heat and coldness of tears, and hugged her with his backhand. Listening to her cautious words, his heart ached. He hugged her harder, almost wanting to rub her into his own bones and blood. What else could he do?
The long-term depression broke out in an instant, and I became more and more excited. Lian Lian was no longer sobbing gently like before, but crying loudly. Maybe only now can I cry like a child. Everything accumulated in my heart is now.
They all seemed to come out in droves.
"I thought, thought you would never see me again... I thought we would never meet again!" Lianlian lay on his shoulder, crying and shouting in a hoarse voice.
Xi Ting's eyes were red, and he patted her back gently, as if coaxing a child, "How could it be? How could I not see you..."
"You didn't see me off when I left... You didn't call me, you didn't send me text messages, you didn't even come back when my aunt was born... I called you, but you hung up in a hurry...
I was so scared, afraid that you would really never see me again. Ji Xian said you were afraid of seeing me... I thought you would avoid me for the rest of your life, and you would never be able to see me again for the rest of your life..."
"Lianlian..." He finally stopped calling her sister, his voice paused, and he gently wiped away the tears on her cheeks, but the tears in the corners of her eyes couldn't stop.
He was getting closer and closer to Lianlian, and he could even feel his hot breath spraying on his cheeks. Finally, his forehead was pressed against hers, and he suppressed and kissed the tears in the corners of her eyes. He just gently wiped away the tears in the corners of her eyes. Voice
Hoarse and broken, "Lianlian, don't be like this...seeing you like this...my heart hurts..."
His forehead was pressed against his forehead, muttering in pain.
Now, she is Ji Xian's wife, and he cannot cross that line.
When Lianlian was immersed in this long-term longing, the door of the room was pushed open unexpectedly.
Xi Ting's body visibly stiffened, and his hands stiffly let go of Lian Lian, but she held his hand and refused to let go, holding it tightly.
Ji Xian couldn't find any surprise when he looked at their calm expressions, as if everything was expected.
"I thought when I called you this morning, you wouldn't arrive until the evening at the earliest, but I didn't expect it to be so soon."
"I'm just worried. Look at her, I'll leave in two hours." Xi Ting replied in a deep voice.
"I thought time could change everything. I even told Lan Ruixiu firmly that it took you twenty years to win her heart, and I can win her heart in forty years. As long as I have enough patience and time,
As time goes by, things will change. But I didn't expect...she loves you, and it has already penetrated deep into her bones." Ji Xian looked at Lianlian and Xi Ting with helpless eyes, "I love her after all, and I can't bear to see her like this.
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Halfway through, he couldn't continue, so he sighed deeply and continued, "This is the divorce agreement. Please take her away."
The last sentence was almost said through gritted teeth.
"No! I can't take her away, I..." Xi Ting paused mid-sentence. 13acv.
"Xiting, no one of us loves her less than the other! If possible, do you think I don't want her to stay with me? She stays with me, and she is not happy even a day. Looking at her unhappy, I
Can she be happy? She will only die if she stays with me. Only you, only by your side will she be happy and live a better life. Even if we cannot be together openly, at least she will stay by your side and be able to look at you.
It's also good for her." Ji Xian said and handed the signed divorce agreement to Lianlian, "Sign it. After signing, go to Beijing with Xi Ting. Seeing you like this in the past six months, I really don't want to
I have a little more confidence.”
Lianlian didn't reach out to take the divorce agreement, so Ji Xian put the divorce agreement directly in front of her, "Take it, don't let me be the villain who broke you up. Instead of the three of you dying together, it's better to let me escape alone."
"
Xi Ting stood up, looked at Ji Xian, and then at Lian Lian, his deep voice filled with guilt, "Sorry, Ji Xian! I didn't mean to come back to disturb you, I just wanted to see her! I want to go back
Please take good care of her!!"
As he said that, he didn't dare to look at Lianlian again and walked towards the door in a hurry.
Lian Lian looked at his lonely and thin back, and her tears fell down, soaking the divorce agreement...
Ji Xian turned around and said in a deep voice: "Lan Xiting! Can't you just be a man for once? What about siblings? What about the Lan family's reputation and moral ethics? Is that all you love for her? It can't even compare to these.
Up?"
Xi Ting paused in his steps and did not look back. His back was obviously stiff, and a slightly cold voice sounded faintly, "Yes, my love for her cannot compare to these."
She loves him and he loves her, love is very heavy, but lighter than fate.
Destiny is going to tease people like this, who has the ability to resist?!
Xi Ting came and left in a hurry, just like a farce. Who fell in love with whom, and who hated whom. The gap between what was in the heart and the reality was always so big and so far...
When his back disappeared from the door, tears of love flooded his cheeks, making him feel almost worse than death, and his heart felt as gray as death.
Even Ji Xian let go, even Ji Xian could give up, but he never had the courage to take her away. He was afraid of the four words "people's words are scary", afraid of the morality and ethics of this world, afraid of this sophistication...
Ji Xian sat down slowly, stretched out his hands to hold her tightly in his arms, and said in a low voice helplessly, "Silly Sangyu, what should you do? What should I do with you?"
Lianlian cried heartbrokenly in his arms. He held her cheek. In a daze, Lianlian felt his hot breath coming closer. His warm lips kissed the tears at the corners of her eyes. All her movements were so gentle and careful...
"Don't cry, don't shed tears for him anymore..."
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