Countdown to the whole book: Loving you and life are equal (7) Subtly

"You're right." Lianlian choked and said, "Ji Xian, I'm selfish. I selfishly enjoyed Ah Que's twenty years of dedication to me. I selfishly relied on your tolerance of me to love Ah Que confidently.

, thinking about Ah Que..."

"But I told you when we got married that I might never forget it in this life. You said you don't mind. Have you forgotten it?"

I haven’t forgotten, I just can’t do it anymore.

Human desire is extended little by little. When you don't have it, you are eager to have it. When you have it, you are greedy and want to have more. The desire will never be filled, and it will only keep expanding...

Lianlian casually wiped the tears on her cheeks, sniffed, and turned around to continue packing her things!

"Sang Yu!" Ji Xian held her hand again to stop her movement, "Don't go! Don't leave me!"

"Ji Xian, let go! I don't want to stay here, I don't want to see you, I don't want to see anyone...get out of the way!" Lianlian shook his hand away hard, but Ji Xian held on tightly and was too anxious to do anything.

Then he opened it and bit his hand.

Ji Xian frowned in pain but refused to let go, letting her bite his hand until the smell of blood filled the cavity and slowly flowed out from the corner of his mouth. Lianlian looked up at him, tears falling continuously.

, he sat on the ground slumped, "What do you want from me? How do you want me to face you and Ah Que if you want me to stay?"

You have put me in such a selfish position and put me in such an embarrassing situation. How can I continue my current life with peace of mind knowing what happened to Ah Que.

Ji Xian watched her sobbing helplessly like a child, her heart being ravaged by something. He didn't care about the wounds on his hands, he slowly squatted down and slowly wiped away the tears on her cheeks with his fingers.

He said softly: "It's my fault. I shouldn't lie to you with Xi Ting. You can hate me and try your best to get back at me, as long as you don't leave me! Sang Yu, I can't bear the pain of gaining and losing.

I can’t accept you leaving me!”

It was as if Lian Lian had not heard of it, but she just kept crying, as if the tear fountain was broken, and she couldn't stop it no matter what.

Ji Xian looked at her pale cheeks without a trace of blood, feeling overwhelmed. After hesitating for a long time, he took out his cell phone from his pocket and dialed the number, "She knows, talk to her yourself!"

As she spoke, she put the phone into her hand, stood up slowly, and walked out of the room step by step like a robot. Her back was lonely and cold, and she was indescribably gloomy and helpless! She was slumped on the sofa,

The wound on his hand kept bleeding and he ignored it, and his dark eyes flashed dimly.

He just didn't want to lose her, he just didn't want to see her unhappy, he just wanted to give her happiness! But his selfishness still hurt her in the end, and made her sad...

The plan versus the potential. Sang Yu, if I had a slight choice, I would not want to become so despicable, but falling in love with you is destined to become like this. Is it lucky or unfortunate?

Lian Lian held the phone with stiff fingers and slowly put it to her ear. The low sobs passed through the radio waves and reached Xi Ting's ears, which made her heart ache.

"Lianlian, please don't cry, okay? It's Ah Que's fault. He shouldn't have lied to you. Don't cry and don't blame Ji Xian. He is the man who really loves you!" Xi Ting did not defend himself, but instead replied

While helping Ji Xian to say good things, he knew that Lianlian would be angry and quarrel with Ji Xian when he found out. He didn't want that.

"Aque...Aque...Aque..." Lianlian called her name over and over again but didn't know what to do and couldn't say a word.

What else can I say and what else can I do.

"I'm here, don't be afraid Lianlian. I won't die. The doctor said that I will get better with just an operation. You are also known by the doctor. There is a high chance of recovery with initial treatment." Xi Ting's low voice was extremely gentle.

He coaxed her, "I promised you that I would pamper you forever, have you forgotten? I keep my word!"

Just because Lianlian is a doctor, he understands very well that even if such an operation is successful at the time, he still has to go to the hospital for regular check-ups and take good care of his body, otherwise the chance of recurrence will be very high. What's more, they have performed so well together before.

After a scene, Lianlian at this moment felt that she was too unbearable and could not face them at all.

Everyone selfishly strives to achieve their own greatness, and she selfishly achieves her own peace of mind. But now that Ah Que is in this situation, what should she do?!

Lianlian cried even more when she heard his voice.

"Lianlian, be obedient and don't cry and don't quarrel with Ji Xian. Do you remember what we said before? I will find a handsome man for you. I will never marry a wife and will only treat you well. I have been working hard to do it.

If you still cry like this, I won't know what to do." Xi Ting's low voice revealed tiredness and helplessness.

He didn't want Lianlian to cry. Every time he saw her crying, he felt like his heart was going to die.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

I'm sorry, forgive me for being so selfish.

I'm sorry, forgive me for saying such selfish things.

I'm sorry, forgive me for putting you in a dilemma.

I'm sorry, forgive me for never understanding your pain.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry ten thousand times.

Xi Ting wanted to say something else, but the phone was suddenly taken away, and Mu Ze's disdainful voice came over the radio, "Lan Sangyu, didn't I tell you to let Lan Xi Ting go? You greedily enjoyed him like this

After years of hard work, now it’s Ji Xian’s turn. If you want to bother Ji Xian, it doesn’t matter how much you bother him now that he is your husband! Lan Xiting has never owed you anything. Just be merciful and let him feel at ease.

Is it possible to go to the operating table?"

After speaking in one breath, he threw the phone to the ground and smashed it into pieces. Xi Ting's face immediately darkened, and he looked at Mu Ze with warning eyes, "This is my business, you have gone too far!"

"Am I going too far?" Mu Ze raised her slender eyebrows and squinted at his pale and sickly face, "I really can't stand it! You and Ji Xian got used to her becoming like this! She's not too young anymore.

, you should know what to do and what not to do! What is it like now? What do you think of Lan Xiting? What do you think of Ji Xian?"

"We are happy." Xi Ting pursed her lips coldly and said two words.

No matter how selfish Lianlian becomes, no matter how excessive her demands are, he and Ji Xian are willing to do it and treat each other like no one else.

Mu Ze put his hands around his chest, his slender voice was straight and handsome, and he sneered: "Okay! It's up to you to be a bitch, it's none of my business! Forget me, Lan Muze, to be a bitch today and to meddle in other people's business!!"

When the sound fell, he turned around and left.

Xi Ting knew that he had gone too far, and Mu Ze was concerned and felt sorry for him. He stood up immediately, not even caring about the infusion in his hand, "Mu Ze..."

The needle was pulled out and blood came out. When he stood up, he was unsteady and was about to fall to the ground. Mu Ze turned around and was startled. He turned around and ran over to hug him. He couldn't help shouting, "Lan Xiting,

What on earth are you doing? You don’t know that you are getting an infusion, so you can’t move! Do you still want this life?!"

"I want it." Xi Ting smiled faintly with a pale face, and he helped him sit on the bed, "But you are angry!"

Mu Ze glared at him fiercely, his evil eyes were indescribably beautiful, "I'm angry, do you care?!"

"I don't care." Xi Ting replied calmly, "You are my best brother! I know you care too much about me, but Mu Ze, Lian Lian is the woman I hold dearest in my heart. She will be for the rest of my life!"

Mu Ze held the tourniquet on his hand, and raised his phoenix eyes to look at him, with the haze and worry that could not be brushed away from his eyes, "Xi Ting, Satan will never forgive me in this life, and other people also despise me. In my case,

When a gun was pointed at my head, you were the only one who risked your life to save me... You are my best brother, what would you have done without you?"

It was you who saved me from a decadent life. I dare not ask for anything. I just hope that you can live well and be my brother for life!

Xi Ting coughed a few times, his face became paler, and he held his hand tightly, with worry flowing in his dark eyes, "I said that I am the eldest son of the Lan family, and I will take care of you all my life. I won't be so...

It’s easy to die. Don’t worry, I will definitely walk off the operating table alive!!”

Mu Ze nodded and stared at him with dark eyes, "Lan Xiting, if you dare to die on the operating table, I will step on you every time I pass by your grave!"

"Asshole!" Xi Ting couldn't help laughing, but the haze in his eyes couldn't be swept away.

"Lie down, and I'll ask the nurse to give you another infusion!" Mu Ze helped him down, covered him with a quilt, and then turned around and walked out of the ward.

The smile on Xi Ting's lips gradually disappeared, and he had no strength to pretend. He had always known Mu Ze's kind nature, so he always wanted to bring him back. The road of life is still so long. It doesn't matter if he made a wrong start at the beginning. He can correct it.

Came here.

If possible, he also hopes that he can walk off the operating table alive and continue to take care of these children. Xi Mo, Mingzhu, Mu Ze, Ji Xian and Lian Lian still exist. As long as they are happy, he can rest assured.

But now he has to live. If life stops on the operating table, Lian Lian will never be able to forgive Ji Xian in this life. This is the last thing he wants to happen!

For the sake of love, I have to continue living!!

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Ji Xian didn't know how he fell asleep, but his hand had been bandaged when he woke up, but he searched the whole house and couldn't find Lian Lian.

Also disappearing was the suitcase, but she left after all.

Ji Xian punched the coffee table with his injured hand. The glass shattered and the bandage on his hand was stained red with blood. There was no emotion on his face, only indifference and anger.

Immediately ask the assistant of the law firm to book a flight back to Beijing. She must have gone to Beijing!!

Ji Xian went to the hospital immediately after getting off the plane. Lan Xiting was shocked to know that Lianlian was gone, but Lianlian never came to see him.

"If she's not here to find you, where can she go?" Ji Xian frowned. Xi Ting was about to undergo surgery. Won't she come to accompany Xi Ting?

Xi Ting's lowered eyelids and curled eyelashes cast a faint green shadow. She pondered for a moment and smiled lightly, "You don't understand her. She doesn't want to see me at all now."

"Why?"

"Because she's afraid." Xi Ting spoke in a low voice, looking at Ji Xian helplessly, "She doesn't dare to come see me, let alone listen to my news. As long as she doesn't know, she can keep pretending that nothing happened.

I can deceive myself and tell myself that I am still living well in this world."

Ji Xian was stunned, with a silent bitter smile on his lips. After all, the only person in the world who knew her best was Xi Ting!

"The days ahead are still very long..." Xi Ting murmured in a quiet voice, "As time goes by, you will slowly understand her. In fact, she is still a child at heart."

"I know." Ji Xian said in a deep voice, looking at him with concern, "Don't worry about her, take good care of yourself."

"I'm not worried about her." Xi Ting pursed her lips and chuckled. She didn't know whether she was really not worried or just deceiving herself. "She is your responsibility now, not mine. Ji Xian, since I gave her to you, you

You must take good care of her! No matter what happens, you cannot abandon her or leave her alone!"

"What if she abandons me?" Ji Xian asked.
To be continued...