However, her hesitant tone and evasive eyes said everything!
Li Xiaoran laughed miserably. Sure enough, she still loved that man! Even if he was sorry for her, even if he abandoned their mother and son, as long as he was willing to come back and wave, she and Enen would still follow him and never look back!
"Do you really love him that much?" He asked again quietly! His gaze pierced her heart, wanting her to force out all the words deep in her heart!
"I..." She didn't know what to say. She had feelings for Leng Yunlin. Maybe it wasn't as sunny and transparent as when she fell in love with Mo Shaochen, but she did.
Indeed, I fell in love with Leng Yunlin.
Seeing her hesitant look, what else could be said? She had never forgotten her love for that man. Even if he failed her and abandoned Enen, her mind had never changed!
"Xiao Ran, you deserve better." She waited for a long time before she opened her mouth to speak, "I have an affair with En En, and I am entangled with him. You are young and promising, and I, I really don't deserve you!"
Li Xiaoran just smiled and shook his head. Was he given the good guy card? He was not forced to marry, he just... clearly understood her intentions!
"Qingyu, you know, I just like you." His expression was gentle, with a hint of pain, "I'm worried that that man will treat you badly."
She couldn't predict Leng Yunlin's reaction yet. It might be shock or acceptance. But, whether it was good or bad, she could understand it!
"I know......"
Seeing her lowering her head in front of him, her gentle and innocent look left him speechless.
He knew that she didn't love him from the beginning. However, he originally thought that three years of companionship and three years of care would leave something more or less in her heart.
"I'm sorry." The matter had come to this point, and that was all she could do. Instead of dragging it out without clarity, it would be better to confess to him. She didn't want to drag him down, nor did she want to make him regret it in the future.
"You don't have to say sorry." Li Xiaoran shook his head: "Everything is of my own free will." He said, clenching his fingers into a fist, and then suddenly letting go.
"Actually, I didn't ask you for anything, and you're not my girlfriend. I can only say that I came too late..."
He came five years late. He didn't meet her at the beginning. He didn't become Mu Shangen's father at the beginning. He didn't make her fall in love with him...
"No, Xiao Ran, you are very good, but I am not good enough for you..." The more he blamed himself, the more uncomfortable she felt. It was her fault that had nothing to do with him!
After the two said those words, they were silent for a long time. There was no conversation between the two for a long time.
The milk was already cold. She swallowed the cold milk into her belly one mouthful at a time. Suddenly she felt dizzy.
It took a long time until she supported the table and slowly swallowed the milk in her mouth. When she got up early in the morning, she was busy preparing her son's breakfast, dealing with the nurse's dressing change and Mo Shaochen's ward rounds, but she took a sip
Didn't eat.
Is it hypoglycemia? She thought, seeing the steak on the table and smelling it, she just felt a little nauseous.