Chu Mohan sat next to Shao Yatong and reached out to hold her hand. It was cold. He guessed correctly that this little woman was pretending to sleep. She must have heard his footsteps just now.
"Girl..." Chu Mohan called tentatively, but got no response for a long time. Well, she can just pretend to be asleep. That's good. She won't "fall asleep" to refute what he wants to say.
Then he can take this "opportunity" to talk to her about what's on his mind.
"Girl, actually I have always wanted to say a word to you, but I couldn't say anything. I seem to have really fallen in love with you. In fact, you have to ask me how I fell in love with you, when did I start falling in love with you, and why did I fall in love with you?
You...I can't answer, not even a single question, but I know clearly that this feeling is
It's love! Yes, I'm in love with you." Chu Mohan held Shao Yatong's hand. He felt that his hand was cold, and even the palm of his hand was wet and trembling slightly. He said these words really
He was a little nervous. That's how people are. The more serious you are, the more nervous you become. Chu Mohan was more cautious and serious than ever at this moment.
Shao Yatong's long eyelashes trembled twice, and she felt that her heart was about to jump out of her mouth. What did he say? Did he say he was in love with her? Can he believe it? If he loved her, how could he hurt her like that? Her
My heart no longer has the strength to love anymore, I’m so scared...
"Girl, I know I've done too many things to hurt you, but it's also hurting myself. In A'an's words, I'm very ill. If I could have listened to him early and faced my own heart,
Then we don't have to walk so hard." Chu
Mo Han knew that Shao Yatong could hear it, so he paused and continued: "I just want to tell you what's in my heart. I don't have to get your forgiveness. You can always hate me. This is your freedom, but you have always been bored."
If I don’t say it in my heart, I will go crazy.”
Chu Mohan still grabbed Shao Yatong's hand and squeezed it. "The reason I didn't want to marry you at first was not entirely because my heart belonged to me, but mainly because you were the one chosen by grandpa for me. For many years, I have always followed grandpa unconsciously.
Being against each other seems to have become a habit. Grandpa and I both have a knot in our hearts, and that is my eldest brother Chu Moyan.
The shadow of my brother has always been between me and my grandfather. When I was a child, my grandfather often made me kneel in front of everyone, mainly because I was not his best eldest grandson. I love my brother, but I also hate him and hate him for being so irresponsible.
left me. No one would understand that kind of feeling. I thought many times, if I died at that time
If it were me, then there would be no trouble. Later, I accidentally discovered my uncle's ambition, and I speculated that the death of my eldest brother was not an accident at all. I was afraid that I would become the second eldest brother, so I hid my edge and could only
I secretly work hard to become the pride of my grandfather, hoping that one day he will recognize me. But in order to confuse my uncle
My uncle's family, on the surface, I can only fight against my grandfather to the end. At first, I thought this marriage was specially arranged by my uncle to test me... In fact, I know this is more like an excuse, okay, I won't explain it, if it's wrong, it's wrong,
There is absolutely no way I can ask for your forgiveness for what I did to you. But there is one thing I must say..."
Excuses! They are all excuses! Shao Yatong screamed in her heart. She really wanted to jump up and point at Chu Mohan's nose and scold him for being hypocritical. These were all excuses he made for himself. Isn't it the trauma he caused her that he just said these few words?
Can it be explained?
Chu Mohan paused and spoke again with difficulty: "It's about contraceptive pills. It's not that I don't want to have a child with you. This is also the pain in my heart. I'm afraid that I don't have the ability to protect the child..."
When it came to the child, Shao Yatong couldn't bear it anymore and sobbed softly, her poor child!
Chu Mohan leaned down and hugged the sobbing Shao Yatong hard. He knew that it had aroused her sadness again, but if these words were not spoken, the knot between them would never be opened.
"Excuses...all excuses..." Shao Yatong cried, but did not push away Chu Mohan who was holding her. She was so cold, really cold.
"Yes, they are all excuses! I am a complete bastard..."
"Bastard - bastard -" Shao Yatong cried and raised her hand to beat Chu Mohan's shoulder, comparing her strength with each other. Her cry became louder and louder. She wanted to vent all the grievances in her heart.
"Girl, you go ahead and fight, I should fight! After beating and scolding, can you accept my sincerity towards you?" Chu Mohan put his hands on both sides of Shao Yatong's body and looked down at Shao Yatong.
The light was originally dark, and Chu Mohan had no light at his back. Shao Yatong couldn't see his expression clearly, but she could still feel his sincerity. She stopped unconsciously. Sincerity, his sincerity to her? Shao Yatong pushed slightly.
Open Chu Mohan and turn around
She hugged the quilt and buried her face in the quilt. Even if he was sincere, so what, such a man was destined to be something she couldn't love. The consequence of her opening her heart was that she was completely hurt. She should have something to reserve for herself. She
You should protect yourself.
Chu Mohan didn't want to force Shao Yatong to accept him. After all, he couldn't let go of what he had done. He lay beside her, gently held her in his arms, and held her quietly like this.
When he was with her, he felt at ease and satisfied.
Gradually, Shao Yatong no longer felt cold, and forgot the feeling of loneliness. She closed her eyes quietly and finally fell asleep.
In the morning, in front of the floor-to-ceiling window of the living room where Shao Yatong got up and came downstairs, it was already late autumn. It was getting cooler day by day. Shao Yatong wrapped herself in clothes and looked at the garden. It was no longer full of life. Only the two chrysanthemums were still blooming proudly. When
When she turned her head, a bright blush filled her eyes, and the fragrant fragrance hit her nostrils. Shao Yatong opened the bouquet and saw Chu Mohan's slightly red face.
"Send it to you." Chu Mohan was a little embarrassed. He suddenly felt like a young boy who had just started to fall in love. At this time, he opened his mouth and was too stupid to say anything.
These two simple words made Shao Yatong feel sore in her nose. She once saw her sister's suitors always sending flowers and placing them in her bedroom, but she never did. When she was in school, she also saw other classmates receiving flowers and feeling happy.
But she never envied her expression, because when she and Qiu Haoyu were sketching outside,
He picked a random wild flower and gave it to her, and she was very satisfied. But now when she saw the big bouquet of bright red roses in front of her, her heart was throbbing for some reason. Looking at Chu Mohan's expectant eyes, she still hesitated.
I dare not take the first step, fearing that if I move forward, I will fall into the abyss of eternal destruction.
"I'll plug it in for you." Chu Mohan was a little embarrassed to hold it up like this. He seemed to have never encountered such a thing, because he never had to please anyone like this, even if he was in a good mood, he would give someone a small gift.
, and all I got was grateful feedback.
"Why haven't you gone to the company yet?" Shao Yatong also felt embarrassed and asked casually.
"Oh, I'll go right away." He was going to the company, but when he walked to a flower shop and saw the flowers that had just arrived, he bought a bouquet on a whim and sent it back in a hurry to make Shao Yatong happy, but he didn't want to
She didn't have the happiness she imagined at all.
Chu Mohan arranged the flowers and rubbed his big hands, not knowing what to say. In fact, he wanted to exchange this bouquet of flowers for a hug. At this moment, he wanted to hug Shao Yatong but couldn't even say a word.
Shao Yatong looked down at his toes and didn't know what to say.
The two of them were silent for a long time. Chu Mohan cleared his throat and said, "Well, um...I'm going to the company first, and I'll be back with you in the evening...to have dinner with grandpa." After saying that, he walked to Shao Yatong and stood up.
He grabbed her shoulders, patted her lightly after hesitating, and walked towards the door.
Shao Yatong turned to look at the bouquet of bright red roses, and couldn't help but step forward to fiddle with it. The petals were so full that they looked like they were about to drip out of water. Shao Yatong couldn't help but bend her head and smell them. The fragrance was full of sweetness.
When Chu Mohan walked to the door, he turned around and saw Shao Yatong bending down to bring the rose to the tip of his nose and sniffing it. He couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth and smile with satisfaction.
Early the next morning, Chu Mohan visited the flower shop again and bought a large bouquet of red roses. He personally sent them home and put them in a vase before going out to work.
After Shao Yatong went downstairs, he also found the bouquet of flowers and a card inside, but there was only a smiley face on the card without any words.
Shao Yatong fiddled with the attractive roses and counted them out of boredom. "Fifty-seven?" Shao Yatong seldom came into contact with flowers, so naturally she didn't understand the language. She had only heard that sending roses in different numbers had different meanings, but she
In the impression, ninety-nine or nine hundred and ninety-nine flowers represent eternity, so what does the fifty-seven represent? She curiously took out the
I checked it on my mobile phone and was shocked by the four words "I love my wife". Did he mean this? Did he mean to tell her these four words by giving the rose? Shao Yatong suddenly burst into tears. She
She never thought that she would have a husband who loved her, especially after "marrying" Chu Mohan, but she couldn't adapt to this sudden change.
"Sir, you are here again. Your wife is really happy." The flower shop proprietress was already warm to Chu Mohan when she saw it for the third time. "Is it still fifty-seven flowers?"
"Yeah." Chu Mohan held the pen and looked at the card in a daze, and finally drew a smiley face.
"Sir, will you come again tomorrow?" the landlady asked when Chu Mohan paid and was about to leave.
"Um?"
"I don't mean anything else. What I mean is that if you need it, you can leave your address and we can deliver it to your home." The landlady suggested.
"Oh, thank you, no need, I will come again tomorrow, in person!" Chu Mohan felt that it was better to do this himself.