"If Ru'er didn't have unspeakable pain in her heart, how could she have the heart to ignore her own flesh and blood?" Zheng Xianlun sighed.
"What's her reason?" Lin Xiner asked.
"Forget it, Ru'er is dead. I don't want to mention the past anymore. You are just curious about Ru'er's whereabouts. Now I have told you." Zheng Xianlun said.
"What were the concubine's last words before her death?" Lin Xiner asked, "Just because she didn't want Ximen Jingxuan to know about her death?"
"Ru'er knows that due to her own reasons, she has always been sorry to her children. She has been such a cruel mother, hoping that her son can hate her and not regard her as his mother, so that her son can also
Live a little easier." Zheng Xianlun said.
Lin Xiner nodded lightly. What she said was correct. If Ximen Jingxuan could completely regard Concubine Ru as an enemy, it would be a kind of letting go and only living for himself, but he still had some thoughts in his heart.
Like the concubine's stubborn knot, deep down in his heart he still thinks that she is his mother, and thinks about the mother's love that he has never received. In fact, in his heart, he has never stopped longing for his mother.
"Although Ximen Jingxuan grew up beside Jiang Ziyin, Ru'er didn't care about him at all. Looking at the little eyes he sometimes looked at her, Ru'er understood that he really wanted her as his mother, but
Her heart was blinded by hatred at that time, and she did not want to care about the son who did not want him to come into the world. Her indifference hurt her son again and again. And she herself was always living in the pain of struggle, only
Hiding in the dark, silently crying for her and her children." Zheng Xianlun said.
What exactly is the hatred that makes Concubine Ru have such an attitude?
Lin Xiner thought silently, without asking, waiting for Zheng Xianlun's explanation.
"When Ru'er fell into the hands of another woman full of hatred created by her hatred, she gradually woke up after being tortured again and again. But it was too late, her life ended in that
She was in the hands of a woman, but she had no regrets, and told me not to let Ximen Jingxuan know the truth about her death. She was afraid that Ximen Jingxuan would avenge her, and she didn’t want Ximen Jingxuan to never get her love.
Then I will have to bear the responsibility for her death." Zheng Xianlun continued.
"Would Prince Xuan avenge such a mother-in-law?" Xingyao couldn't help but ask.
"Yes, he will definitely do it." Lin Xiner said, "His painstaking search for Concubine Ru shows how much he cares about Concubine Ru. He is not looking for Concubine Ru to vent his hatred.
He just wants to find the love he has never had before, but he actually has a glimmer of hope. If the concubine dies, the smallest hope will be shattered. He will inevitably turn the various emotions accumulated in his heart into anger.
Vent it on that enemy and avenge the woman who only bears the identity of his mother and concubine. Even if it is just an identity or a name, he will not allow anyone to destroy it."
Zheng Xianlun nodded, looking at Lin Xiner with something strange flashing in his eyes, "You really know Ximen Jingxuan."
Lin Xiner smiled faintly and said nothing.
She understands him because she loves him, puts herself in his shoes, considers issues from his point of view, thinks about what he thinks, and thinks about what he thinks.
She loves him so much...
But now after this conversation, she really couldn't break her oath and tell Ximen Jingxuan the whereabouts of Concubine Ru.
If the concubine was really thinking about her son before she died, as his mother-in-law, she still understood him.
Now Ximen Jingxuan is still looking for Concubine Ru with hope. If she knows the circumstances of her death, she will really feel hatred. Although she doesn't know what Concubine Ru has experienced that makes her feel hatred, but she must have felt it.
The hatred is terrible and she doesn't want her son to make the same mistake again.
Hatred is terrible, even if it is only a trivial one, it will be infinitely magnified if someone takes the bull by the horns. In order to ensure that Ximen Jingxuan will not be swallowed up by hatred, he can only hide the news of Rutai Concubine's death from him and let him continue
Search with hope.
Lin Xiner believes that although she has experienced hardships and lived in an imperfect environment, she has always allowed herself to have a generous heart, and her attitude towards Liu Suixiang and her daughter, as well as Lin Bo's indifference towards her,
If you care and have no hatred, you will be able to find the joy of living.
Moreover, she has a master, brothers and sisters from Shuiyue Palace, and she has another happy family.
Since entering Shuiyue Palace, she has increasingly believed that Shuiyue Palace is her real home. With Shuiyue Palace, she has everything, so she can look at the rights and wrongs of the Lin family indifferently and not care.
Compared to Ximen Jingxuan, she is really much happier. The only thing left for Ximen Jingxuan now is the hope of finding his biological mother, and this mother has never given him anything except life.
Therefore, she wanted to save this little bit of hope for him...
"Did you just say that Concubine Ru has a pair of children?" Lin Xiner thought for a while and asked again.
"Yes, she is Ximen Jingxuan's sister. If she were still alive, she should be about the same age as you." Zheng Xianlun said.
"Is she the daughter of you and Concubine Ru?" Xingyao asked, because she had never heard of a princess in the palace.
"Don't tarnish Ru'er, Ru'er and I are innocent!" Zheng Xianlun said seriously.
"It's because the man is in love and the woman is unintentional," Lin Xiner said.
"Yes, I have always loved Ru'er. As long as I can love you, that's enough!" Zheng Xianlun said, "This is all my wishful thinking. Don't slander Ru'er. She is indeed a little princess, but just after she was born, the palace
Everyone thought he had died in infancy, and because it was unknown, he was hastily buried outside the palace, and such news would not be allowed to spread. After so many years, even fewer people remember it."
"Actually, the little princess is not dead?" Lin Xiner asked.
"Yes, I was afraid that the little princess would suffer the same fate as Ximen Jingxuan. She had to watch helplessly without her mother's care since she was a child. Therefore, I faked Ru'er's daughter's death and transferred her daughter to outside the palace.
He was raised by a family with good conditions, but later the family was suddenly stolen and the child was lost. His whereabouts are still unknown."
"I did this alone, and Ru'er didn't know it. It wasn't until she showed deep regret before she died that I told her the truth. In fact, her daughter might still be alive. You are a smart woman.
, now you know the reason why I would rather suffer Ximen Jingxuan's inhuman torture than die?" Zheng Xianlun asked.
"You still want to find the little princess." Lin Xiner replied affirmatively.
"Yes, this is also Ru'er's wish." Zheng Xianlun said.
No, Ximen Jingxuan still has a younger sister, but it’s not certain whether she is alive or not. This matter cannot be told to Ximen Jingxuan at first, as it gives him hope and then makes him deeply shocked.
Therefore, Lin Xiner decided to hide these two incidents.
"Let's go back to the Holy Palace." Lin Xiner stood up and said.
At this moment, she no longer thought about it. She was destined to abandon Ximen Jingxuan. She took Zheng Xianlun away and could not give any explanation to Ximen Jingxuan.
Moreover, it is impossible for her to hand over Zheng Xianlun to Ximen Jingxuan again.
Zheng Xianlun gritted his teeth and pretended to be deaf to keep the secret that the concubine was dead, but he still wanted to find the little princess alive. If he couldn't persist, he would probably tell Ximen Jingxuan everything, since she also
Deciding to hide it, he could only help let Zheng Xianlun go.