"All the reasons can't excuse me." Lin Xiner said, "The moment we fought in Shuiyue Holy Palace, I had already torn the relationship between us to pieces with my own hands. Even if everyone said they would not blame me,
Only I will never forgive myself."
"Have you not calmed down and figured it out after so many days?" Ximen Jingxuan hugged Lin Xiner tightly, clearly feeling the force of her arms pulling away, but he refused to let go.
"It's because now that I'm rational and clear-headed, I've figured everything out." Lin Xiner tried a few times, but was unable to break away, so she stopped trying. "As the Young Palace Master of Shuiyue Palace, I judge
Something went wrong seriously, causing an irreversible situation in Water Moon Palace. At the most critical moment, I was disturbed by family affection and lost my mind. I was like a madman. Thinking about it now, I feel funny and hateful. A person like me is not qualified to lead at all.
Shuiyue Palace has failed Master's expectations. And you..."
Lin Xiner paused, took a breath, and continued, "After everything that happened, and the fact that I deceived you first, although you are angry, you don't have the same unreasonable and angry appearance as me.
You still have affection for me and have always been tolerant of me. In this matter, I saw your sincerity and mind, but I am not worthy of accepting your heart and being with you."
"Xin'er, don't talk about yourself like that."
Lin Xiner's self-blame made Ximen Jingxuan even more heartbroken when he heard it, "We are not saints, who can have no faults? There is nothing wrong with you or me. As long as I love you, that is the reason why you can be with me.
, no one or anything can stop you. I love you, even if you have countless shortcomings, I will still love you. And I have hurt you mercilessly before, and now I think about it, I regret it."
"It's different." Lin Xin'er shook her head gently, "Your regret is insignificant, but my regret cannot be made up for. My lord, let it go. After all this is over, we can go our separate ways, and then... No
See you..."
Never meet again...
The cold voice seemed to ripple back and forth in the secret room, lingering for a long time.
"Xin'er!" Ximen Jingxuan pulled Lin Xiner's body and asked her to face him.
He knew that Lin Xiner's legs were not feeling well, and she was always on one leg, and her remaining leg was weak, so he held her against the wall to give her more support from the wall.
"Xin'er..." Ximen Jingxuan stared at Lin Xiner.
The glory of the past is gone, and there is only unspeakable sadness on her calm face, and all her determination for revenge is only hidden in the deep sadness, and there is no trace of hatred on the surface.
At this time, she was a calm, sober Xin'er who knew what she should do.
"Are you blaming me for deciding to marry Lin Ke'er?" Ximen Jingxuan asked.
Lin Xiner chuckled and shook her head, "How much does this have to do with me? You have always protected her, and her existence has a different meaning to you."
"But, I was wrong." Ximen Jingxuan said every word, staring at Lin Xiner closely.
Why did she hide the truth from him one after another? Did she have so little confidence in him?
The hand caressing Lin Xiner tightened unconsciously.
Even if she had no confidence and no hope for their future before, as she said, now that she knows his sincerity, why should she hide it? What's more, if she had told him about this earlier, the situation would definitely be different from now.
"Your Majesty is right, I was wrong." Lin Xiner said.
"You are wrong, and so am I." Ximen Jingxuan said, "Why don't you tell me? In fact, it was you who saved me in Northern Xinjiang, not Lin Ke'er!"
Lin Xiner's pupils instantly dilated.
"Do you think it's incredible?" Ximen Jingxuan saw her surprise.
"You already know?" Lin Xiner asked puzzledly.
Isn't there no clear evidence? When did he know it? Is it because he knew the truth that he had a deep affection for her and decided to marry Lin Ke'er just to provoke her?
"The hateful thing is that I just found out." Ximen Jingxuan said, "If I am still kept in the dark, how long do you decide to keep it secret? For a lifetime? Just like what you just said, we will never see each other again and have nothing to do with each other?"
"Before, I wasn't sure how far we could go, so I didn't want to say it or ruin the memory of that year. Then when I wanted to say it, it was already a little late. I didn't know how much you could believe me. But now
, I don’t even need to say anything..."
Although Ximen Jingxuan's answer made her secretly despise her doubts about his feelings again and touched his sincerity, this question was no longer important.
After experiencing the tragic incident, she originally had no intention of telling Ximen Jingxuan the truth, so she just let him think that the person was Lin Keer, who had nothing to do with her and had never had any fate.
"Why is it not necessary? How could I allow myself to admit the wrong person?" Ximen Jingxuan asked back, which was also a question.
Lin Xiner's head was pressed against the wall. At that time, she was pressed against the wall by Ximen Jingxuan. At that time, she didn't know that he was the one in her memory.
If he was not "him", would she fall in love with him?
There are no ifs, only facts. The fact that we have reached this point and can no longer look back.
It's not because the past is unbearable, but because she can no longer have it.
"Do you want to know how I know?" Seeing that Lin Xiner didn't speak, Ximen Jingxuan continued, "Before I decided to marry Lin Keer, I asked her some things about those years, but her answers were problematic. I
I remember that there was nothing outside the cave entrance, but she said that the grass that covered me was taken from outside the cave. Later, I found the painting that had been kept in the scroll in Moyaxuan. That painting must be of you
It was filled in when Mo Yaxuan lived there, and the process of collecting grass is clearly drawn on it. Only those who have experienced it personally can draw it."
Lin Xiner understood. In fact, she revealed it inadvertently.
At that time, she pulled out the painting out of boredom, and was surprised to find that the painting was about the situation back then, so she couldn't help but fill it up. She had forgotten her mood at that time, and she must have wanted to leave something for the truth.
Bar.
Oh……
Lin Xiner secretly laughed at herself. She was deceiving herself again. She had always decided not to say anything, but she just kept the painting.
"Also," Ximen Jingxuan continued, "that day in Jinhuayuan, I remember you mentioned that you were pushed off the cliff by Lin Ke'er, but I was very angry at the time and didn't pay more attention to it. Later, I thought more about it.
I think what you blurted out at that time must be the truth. This is completely inconsistent with the image of Lin Keer in my memory. In other words, Lin Keer has changed over the past eight years. However, she saved me and harmed you.
The time is very close, one good and one evil should not be so different, and when I went to Wangyue Tower to find you, Huangfu Yanchong also mentioned the word eight years, but was later interrupted by Lin Bo's appearance. All this
Everything that happened before and after can only confirm one question, the person who really saved me back then was you, Xin'er!"