The following diary is to record some of her life in Germany, those seemingly trivial but difficult days.
Seeing the harshness revealed in her words, Linghan also felt heartache.
At first, she was in Germany and did not understand German. She could only stand in the crowd like a fool as she watched people coming and going, feeling helpless and lonely. Later, she worked hard to learn German, although she was laughed at a lot.
She was deliberately embarrassed by others, but she persisted one by one.
Ling Han concentrated his mind and clicked through one article after another:
As Ling grew up, I gradually discovered that he was very smart. Although he was only three and a half years old, his IQ was no less than that of older children. I sent him to school, and he was very happy to play with a group of children at school.
My son has been in school for half a year, and I am very relieved about him. I have worked hard to give him a better education.
But on this day, my boss suddenly gave me a lot of work and asked me to go to his office and said he would give me the work.
But as soon as I entered, he closed the door, and his words and actions became wild. I was so scared that I wanted to run away, but he grabbed me, pushed me against the desk and tried to violate me. I was so scared that I resisted with all my strength.
But he scolded me with contemptuous eyes.
"Bitch! You are just a widow who has been played by a man. Why are you pretending to be noble? I like you to give you face. I will cooperate with you and give you a good life. If you don't cooperate, I will let you know what it means to reap the consequences!
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Seeing this, Linghan's nerves tensed up, his teeth clenched tightly, and his eyes followed the words below.
His words were like a thousand swords, piercing into my heart sharply and mercilessly. I forgot how painful and humiliating it was when I heard these words, but the feeling of suffocation was so heavy that even my heart felt heavy.
Never forget.
A woman who has been abandoned by a man turns out to be so casual and so erotic in the eyes of others.
He pressed me on the table and tore off my clothes. I screamed for help, but my throat was hoarse and I still couldn’t call anyone. In desperation, I grabbed the ashtray on the table and smashed it with all my strength.
On his head, he struggled a few times and then fainted.
I pushed him away in a hurry, and when I saw his appearance, I was so frightened that I fell to the ground. There was blood, and his head was full of blood!
It was smashed by me. I hurt someone. What should I do? I hurt someone. I was so scared that I fell down and crawled out. I ran out desperately and leaned on a big tree. My hands and feet were trembling with fear.
!I feel so guilty, I hurt people, so much blood... The sky is dizzy, the sky above my head is covered with dark clouds, I am scared, I don’t know what to do, I really don’t know what to do? Do you want to go?
Will I go to jail if I surrender? I was so frightened that I fell to the ground and cried. The phone in my pocket rang many times before I realized it. I gathered myself together and answered the phone pretending to be calm, "What! Temple had a fight in school.
It’s gone!” I was shocked when I heard the teacher’s report.
I rushed to school in a hurry and saw the red and swollen cheeks. I was heartbroken and angry. I suppressed my emotions and apologized to the other parent. I took him home and asked him to explain why he was fighting, but he said nothing.
Don't say anything either.
I became angry and yelled at him, "I asked you why you were fighting, and you were disobedient, weren't you! Why can't you be obedient! Why!"
He turned away angrily and stubbornly retorted to me, "I want to fight, and he deserves to fight!"
I sucked in a breath of suffocation, pulled him over and spanked his ass hard, "Even you want mommy to have a hard time, isn't it? Even you don't understand mommy, right? Why did I raise you? I'm going to spank you now."
I'll kill you!" I hit him one after another, and tears fell from my eyes. I felt so miserable, so painful, and so resentful.
Ling burst into tears and shouted, "He said I am a bastard because I don't have a father! He said I was a bastard, and said my mother was shameless! He should be beaten, and I will beat him! Wuwu..."
My hand that hit him suddenly stopped, and his loud cry struck my heart, like a knife twisting flesh and blood, so painful, so sour, so helpless and aggrieved.
I hugged him tightly and couldn't help crying anymore, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Mommy didn't hit you on purpose, I'm sorry, Mommy, I'm sorry for you..." I comforted him distressedly, and I didn't know until he fell asleep.
What a big mistake I made.
Even if I suffered a lot of grievances outside, I shouldn't take it out on Ling.
The boss was fine and was only slightly injured. Mu Tianxiang is a lawyer and he easily solved the matter for me. I also changed my job at a company, but I was more careful than before.
I know that from now on, only Ling will be my dependence on my life.
Ling Han's heart clenched and his eyes were a little misty. It was his fault that he failed to protect her and made her suffer so much.
Four years ago, he only knew how to protect her and push her away in his own way. But he ignored her feelings and thoughts. He thought it was for her own good. Little did he know that he was already hurting her, and the hurt was getting deeper and deeper.
No woman has ever heard her man say that he stayed with her because he sympathized with her and made her feel better.
Linghan wanted to know more about her life, so he continued to click on the diary below.
When I got home from work that day, Mu Tianxiang invited me to a restaurant for dinner. He looked very mysterious. Even Ling gave it to Grandma Mu to take care of him and refused to let him follow.
He booked a high-end couple's restaurant and booked the whole place. As soon as I walked in, I was shocked by the romantic scene.
The entire place was large and gorgeous, with the same elegance and charm as the White House. Countless roses were placed in a heart shape in the center of the glazed floor tiles, and a small milky white table was placed in the middle, with candlelight swaying around it.
, the melodious and melodious sound of the violin lingers in my ears like a dream. Standing in it, I feel like I am surrounded by beauty, which makes me forget myself.
Mu Tianxiang took my hand and walked inside. His palms were broad and warm. I could always find a sense of security in his palms.
We walked to the heart-shaped center. There was a delicate purple box on the small table. Mu Tianxiang picked it up and opened it. A beautiful ring shined in front of me.
My heart skipped a beat and I felt a little nervous.
And he still said those words.
"Xier, after all these years of getting along, I have fallen in love with you irresistibly. I want to be a real wife with you. Are you willing to give me a chance?" His eyes were as gentle as water, almost melting me.
I hung my head in panic, a little at a loss. I knew that Mu Tianxiang had been very good to me over the years, and I owed him a lot of kindness. He was a good man and a good home for women. But at this moment, my heart couldn't calm down.
I raised my head and said to him, "I am not worthy of you. I have a son. You should marry a better girl."
He took my hand that was trying to escape and said, "I don't mind this or what others say. As long as you stay by my side, I can feel happy."
I saw the seriousness in his eyes, but my heart ached inexplicably. I knew I couldn't deceive him. "Give me some time..." I answered him.
He said, "I will wait and forget with you until you empty your heart and let me live in it. I believe there will be such a day."
My eyes welled up all of a sudden. I was touched by his tolerance, generosity, understanding and care. The better he was, the more I felt sorry for him.
It's time to let go of Linghan. Ling needs a father. He can't be laughed at by others because of me, and he can't suffer with me. Mu Tianxiang is a good man. I should try to open my heart to love him, and maybe accept another relationship.
, those past events are naturally deleted from memory.
I forgot that there is a lot of time, enough for me to forget you...
Seeing Ling Han's heart sinking, he felt sour, jealous and a little panicked.
He closed the blog, pondered for a moment and turned around, only to find that Leng Ling next to him had his mouth half-opened and his dark eyes wide open as he stared at the computer with unsatisfied interest. He was so distracted that he actually forgot that there was a little person next to him.
Son.
Ling Han turned off the computer and hugged Leng Ling's small body, and said with a smile on his lips, "It is wrong for children to peek at other people's sex."
"Then you still read it! It's you who's wrong!" Well, it's all because this annoying guy turned the pages too fast. He could only read a few words in a hurry, but he couldn't see the whole content clearly! The annoying guy is so annoying.
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"I am an adult, and whatever you do is right." Ling Han twitched his lips, his smile was very sinister, but it was also so handsome that it made people's hearts flutter.
Shameless! Leng Lingzi murmured in his heart, but there was no need to worry about this with him now, because he had more important things to figure out. He moved closer to Linghan, opened his bright eyes, and asked expectantly
He said, "Can you tell me what your name is?"
"Linghan!" Linghan was very generous and gave the answer immediately.
"Wow!" Leng Ling's eyes suddenly shone and widened, and her little breasts were excited, "Your name is really Ling Han!" He had seen this name no less than three times in his mother's diary just now.
"Yeah." Ling Han nodded again in confirmation.
"Then you are really me...hahaha..." After waiting for so long, the superhero in his mind really appeared. He was so excited and excited that Leng Ling burst into laughter.
"Hey... keep your voice down, don't let your mommy hear it. She will be unhappy if she knows we peeked at her things." Ling Han made a silent gesture.
Leng Ling suddenly panicked and quickly closed her laughing mouth, "Then don't tell mommy, and I won't tell mommy either. This is a secret between the two of us, Lagou Gou..." Leng Ling
Stretched out his little finger.
Ling Han looked at Leng Xi and smiled, and stretched out his little finger to wrap his little hand, "It's a deal, only the two of us know."
Leng Ling bared his teeth and snickered, "Wow, I've met my daddy. He really has a daddy!" After Linghan brought Leng Xi back last night and hired someone to heal her injuries, Leng Ling already
He had changed his view on Ling Han, and now he was confirmed to be his father. He was so excited that he was rolling on the floor, "Hehe...haha..." He was so happy that he couldn't bear it anymore.
Seeing how happy Ling Han was, he smiled and let him roll on the chair.
"What are you laughing at? What happened?" Leng Ling was laughing happily when Leng Xi's voice suddenly came from the door.
Leng Ling was startled, turned over and sat upright, "You're not laughing at anything, we two have no secrets!"