"I need time to adjust myself. Now I don't know how to stay by your side. I'm sorry, Chang Mian, I can't... I feel that I, I, have lost the ability to love and be loved... It's very confusing
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His eyes were so hot that she didn't dare to spit out the words she had in her mouth.
She bit her lip tightly. It wasn't that she didn't love him, but she loved him so much that she couldn't stay by his side confidently.
She has low self-esteem.
She despised herself.
She hates herself.
Many, many emotions prevented her from having the courage to accept his kiss, his hug, his favor, his kindness... All his expressions of love were a burden on her, weighing heavily on her shoulders, like a five-finger mountain.
Makes you breathless.
She remained silent for a long time, and Chang Mian also suffered in this silence.
"How long do you want to leave? A week, a month?" Chang Mian clenched his fists. He felt that one month was his limit, and he couldn't afford any more.
Chang Shang suddenly spoke in a low voice:
"When you catch the real culprit, come back to the United States to find me."
"Che'er, I'll take him away. I don't dare to keep him. I'm afraid that if he stays with you, something unexpected will happen one day... He is my life. I can't, can't leave him to you."
"Are you going to break up with me?"
He finally, finally heard the meaning of her words.
The bones of his clenched fists creaked as he tried his best to stay calm and rational, "You are forcing me to give up on you if I don't find the real murderer, right?"
"If you insist on saying that, then forget it. I don't want to live such a panicked life." She endured the pain in her heart and said more cruel words: "...the divorce agreement is on the table, and I have...
...Signed."
boom!
A loud noise exploded in my head.
what did she say?
divorse agreement!
She actually wants to divorce herself!
"You want to divorce me?" Chang Mian clearly saw the cruel determination in her eyes. At that moment, the coldness in his heart instantly froze him, and the pain could not be increased. He grabbed her wrist without knowing the weight of it, and held her body down again.
He bit her lips and said, "You actually... actually divorced me?"
Chang Mian grinded his teeth hard and squeezed out a sentence from between his teeth. "There is no word... divorce in my world, it is absolutely impossible!"
Men don't shed tears lightly, but at this moment, Chang Mian's tears couldn't stop dripping down. What did he do wrong? She actually wanted to divorce him!
How could she say such cruel words?
It would be better to just stab him in the heart with a knife.
Chang Mian was going crazy from the pain in his heart. He didn't know how to persuade her or make her give up her mind. If she had dared to say such things before, he would have punished her severely and he would have beaten her.
Kill her.
But now, he sadly discovered that he... he had let her down too much, and he was not worthy to convince her not to leave... His failure made him unqualified to be confident; he also felt that he could not hold his head high in front of her.
He really didn't know what words to use to express the complicated pain in his heart. He was so clumsy that he could only hold her and forcefully kiss her.
Holding, kissing, touching... this was used to express how important she was to him, and how could she say the word divorce so cruelly.
How is it possible to say these two words lightly?