She suddenly felt that she didn't want to go back.
She wants to be here because there is Lu Zhan’s shadow here and Lu Zhan’s love for her.
She sat on Lu Zhan's chair and shook her body gently.
On top, there was also a faint smell of cologne perfume on his body. She hugged herself in it, as if he was holding her... Her face was slightly hot, she reached out and stroked her stomach, and said gently: "Baby, mom misses daddy, have you miss him?"
She shook her body gently, her expression on her face was moving, not at all like she had done something cruelly.
"Baby, dad is so handsome! He especially likes to wear white clothes."
"From the future, my baby will definitely look very good in white." She smiled gently, imagining their child's appearance... and then she fell asleep.
In the dream, she saw Lu Zhan, but he was still lying there and did not die.
His face was covered with gauze and his body was covered with bandages, while his legs were hanging under him, not as powerful as before.
Lu Zhan struggled to sit up, but his legs were useless.
His eyes appeared in despair and he looked straight at the crystal outside the dream, just like the look he looked at her when he left that day.
Crystal shook her head, in great pain, she didn't want to see him like this.
He must be in pain!
A doctor appeared, holding a syringe tube in his hand. The syringe tube was very large, and he walked towards Lu Zhan...
Lu Zhan waved the needle from the doctor's hand vigorously, but more doctors walked in, pressed him firmly, and put all kinds of strange instruments in his body...
Lu Zhan let out an animal-like howl from his throat... and it really hit Crystal's heart.
She suddenly woke up, the room was still this room.
There was no Lu Zhan, only her own slight breathing sound.
There is a sound of water flowing in the bathroom, and someone is using it?
Her heartbeats faster and she walked over softly, "Lu Zhan, is it you?"
Inside, a man was in front of the bathroom, carrying her on her back, holding a towel in his hand.
Hearing her words, the expression on Crystal's face immediately dimmed, and her body leaned softly against the door panel, "Is Lan Shaofeng you? When did you come?"
He smiled softly, "I just arrived, and I saw that you were sweating profusely. I guess I was dreaming, thinking of twisting a towel for you to wipe your sweat."
He came over and handed her the towel.
Crystal held it but didn't wipe it. She looked at Lan Shaofeng and said quietly: "I dreamed of him, dreamed of him not dead."
Lan Shaofeng's eyes flashed almost inauspiciously. He looked down at the towel in his hand and said softly: "Crystal, you miss him too much."
He reached out and leaned her face lightly against his shoulders, knowing that Crystal needed his comfort.
"Lan Shaofeng, do you know? If it weren't for his absence, I don't know that he had almost no friends." She choked and said softly, her eyes were already red.
He patted her back speechlessly, "Crystal, Lu Zhan has something. I, you! And Qin Pei, he didn't say it, but in fact he didn't hate it so much, because of you, he let go of his previous cynicism, and he... wouldn't regret everything he did for you."
Shui Jing always felt guilty and felt that she had harmed Lu Zhan.
This is exactly what Lu Zhan doesn’t want to see the least. A man loves a woman must hope that she is happy and happy.
Maybe one day when you watch her snuggle happily in another man's arms, you will be lost and heartbroken, but you still don't regret it.
Since you love her, you have to give her the best. If you can't give it to her, you will naturally let her fly freely until you meet the man who can give it to her.
Lan Shaofeng had no doubt that if there was really one day, Lu Zhan would jump out and personally verify that the man was incompetent - even his sexual ability had to pass the test with Lu Zhan to get the crystal as he wished.
And how cruel and unfair this is to Lu Zhan.
But that's love, isn't it?
Lan Shaofeng's expression was a little gloomy. Lu Zhan had at least a choice, but he didn't even have the chance to choose! The right to be a father was taken away by that ruthless woman.
Crystal leaned against him, and the two stood for a long time...
He spoke softly: "Crystal, go back!"
She was silent for a while before sighing, "Yes, it's time to go back."
Two days later, Secretary Huang came to France to pick up Shui Jing, while Lan Shaofeng stayed in France to deal with some subsequent events.
After returning to China, she returned to the garden first.
All the servants in Xiyuan knew about Lu Zhan's death, especially Aunt Li, who took the bag in Shuijing's hand with red eyes and thought for a long time before saying, "No matter what, the lady will give birth to the child. We will all love this child."
Crystal nodded lightly and walked in.
But she did not go directly to the main house, but instead went around to the cemetery behind.
"Miss, take a break before going!" Aunt Li knew what she wanted to do, so she persuaded her.
Crystal shook her head, "I'm fine, I want to do some things first."
Secretary Huang hesitated a little. Shuijing looked at her and smiled faintly: "Let's go in together!"
Aunt Li had no choice but to say, "I'm ready, so I won't go in. I'm watching outside. After that, I'll have someone covered it."
She looked at Secretary Huang next to her again, "Take good care of her!" As she said that, she turned her face away and wiped her tears.
Thinking about it, she regretted it very much. If the son-in-law came to see him last time, she would not be so sad now.
Once a person leaves, many things are too late to compensate.
Seeing Aunt Li so sad, Secretary Huang whispered: "Get in!"
This was her first time to come to the Xi family cemetery, because she was either from the Xi family or when Mr. Xi left, she couldn't cry, which was a pity.
When he arrived inside and passed by Mr. Xi's grave, Shui Jing said softly: "I want to stay alone for a while."
Secretary Huang knew that she was deliberately asking her to fulfill her filial piety in front of Mr. Xi’s tomb, so he nodded, "I’ll go there later."
She looked at Shuijing forward, squatted down and placed a bouquet of flowers in front of Mr. Xi's grave. After a long time, she asked softly: "Dad, are you still used to it there?"
The photos of Mr. Xi are still so majestic, just like him on weekdays.
In fact, she was not close to Mr. Xi, and she knew in her heart that if Mr. Xi had not been drunk overnight, her mother would not have had the chance to get pregnant with her.
This is probably the pain that Mr. Xi has suffered throughout his life!
Just imagine, Shui Jing's father, the man she should be called Big Brother, has been in love with a Japanese woman for so long but has not been forgiven, let alone Mr. Xi's greed for one night!
She knew that her father did not really love her, but just fulfilled his responsibilities, because she was a stain on his life.
But, he did enough.
They were all well-fed and fed. Even though he rarely came to visit her, it is undeniable that he took good care of them and no one had ever seen her with strange eyes.
Because she went to the best schools and even went to study in the United States.
When she returned to China, she thought that Mr. Xi would put her in a difficult position to train, but he did not, so he directly placed her as secretary.
Secretary Huang raised his head. She didn't know why he was so confident in her and thought she wouldn't force the ward. However, as time went by, she had to admire his arrangement.
It seems that she was because she got the right person to know her personality.
Let me ask, who is safer than an aunt without ambition!
She did not cry because Mr. Xi had never taught her to cry. She had never cried for as long as she could remember.
On the contrary, another crystal, who was treated as an heir, has never stopped tears since he became infected with the Qin brothers, especially after Lu Zhan left.
Her eyes were dark, and she looked at the crystal over there, and then looked at Mr. Xi’s photo, “If I had known that this was the result, would you have such an arrangement?”
Of course, Mr. Xi could not answer her words, only the birds that occasionally flew by the cemetery, chirping, and sounding, with a sad smell.
In front of the crystal standing was a small tomb with the lid open. She squatted down and put a small crystal box in it. The transparent material could be seen clearly. There was a star-shaped silver necklace inside.
"This is what you gave to me. When you tell me to cry, take it and tell yourself not to cry! Lu Zhan, I won't cry anymore. So it will accompany you!"
She took out a telescope from her side, "I don't know if you need it. France is too far away. Do you hate me to leave you there? If you are too far away, use it to see me."
She stood up gently, "I know you have always been alone, so I'll let Grandpa be with you."
There were tears in Crystal's eyes, but she raised her head and held back, but said with a little choking: "You can play chess together, but I remember that my grandfather has a bad temper. You have to pretend to lose a game frequently before he will be happy to continue playing with you."
He was here, and she felt at ease.
When she gets old in the future, she will also come here and be with him forever.
"Lu Zhan, don't say anything that will make me find happiness. Don't you know that it's hard to fall in love with someone in your life, but it's even harder to forget someone, let alone you left me in that way." She suddenly turned her face away, "Lu Zhan, you have never asked me if you are willing to make such a sacrifice."
But she knew that she had no choice, and Lu Zhan would not give her a choice - because she had children, she had to survive.
I covered my face with my hands, but my heart still hurt so much. I clearly told myself that I should be strong. From then on, no brother Lu came by my side to protect her.
A pair of hands fell on her shoulders, and she turned her head gently, which was Secretary Huang's smiling face.
"Crystal, be stronger! Only then will Lu Zhan feel at ease, right?" she said seriously.
Crystal raised her head, "I know, I will do it, too."
At the end, she looked at the two things nostalgically, and it was supposed to make him sleep forever.