70. The fierce (cute) beast who broke free from the cage
"It's all gone."
In a wing room in the northwest corner of Jinyang Prefecture Mufu.
This place was originally just a very ordinary wing, but since the news of Lu Zhi's assassination reached Bingzhou, it has become what it is today - a temporarily converted mourning hall, enshrining Lu Zhi's memorial tablet.
In the past few days, every evening in the evening, Li Shushi would come here and sit on his knees for a while, quietly, without making a sound. At first, he would recall his past experiences with Lu Zhi, but later it would be blank.
Just sitting there on his knees in a daze.
Behind him, there are usually Su Xiaololi, Zhen Xiaololi and another loli. Ma Qing, Cai Yan and others can often be seen, but it seems as if a forbidden spell has been cast here.
Usually, no one wants to say anything.
Except that Li Shushi would occasionally say one or two words of expulsion after finishing his daze.
Under the service of Zhen Xiaololi, Li Shushi's daze was far from over as he took off his pale filial piety clothes.
And it has been a long time since I received the news of Lu Zhi's death.
Let everyone who cares about him see it in their eyes and worry in their hearts.
But this kind of thing is not internal or external injuries. If the medicine and stone are not enough, you can still use strong acupuncture, let alone those magical spells. Li Shuzhen's current problem is nothing else, it is all in his heart. No matter what kind of external force, he will eventually have to deal with it.
Come out on his own.
Li Shuzhen's current mood is indeed sad, but more importantly, he still feels a little confused.
Although he was a human being in two lifetimes, he had experienced so many things that could even write a legend. Especially since he had experienced so many firsts in his life after time traveling, what happened before him stung the fragility of his heart.
It’s not like Li Shushi has never seen dead people.
There is no one who has come down from the battlefield who has never seen a mountain of corpses and a sea of blood. Even an ordinary person in his previous life has seen the seven aunts and eight aunts more than once in just over thirty years and those who have vague impressions.
The death of a classmate.
However, except for the first time he went to the battlefield and saw the brutal killing, which made him very frightened, the death of other people no longer caused him much discomfort at all, and at most he frowned.
He has always thought so.
But when the news of Lu Zhi's death came, he realized that he had obviously overestimated his endurance.
After all, Lu Zhi was obviously different to Li Shushi compared with the deceased who could be regarded as strangers.
As an ordinary person in his early thirties, although he has gone through some ups and downs, he has both parents. Even if his body is not very strong, no matter how you look at it, Li Shushi can still be under their knees for ten or eight years. As for other relatives, who are they?
The age of money is just like what Master Ma said - the relationship between people is a naked money relationship.
This is true between relatives, but what about between teachers and students?
This society is very big, and naturally there are teachers who make him admire him, and there are also fuckers who make him grit his teeth and want to eat his flesh raw. But no matter which category he is, he can live a good life within the scope of what he knows - or continue
Work hard for your students or career on the front line, or enjoy a comfortable life after retirement.
This is especially true among classmates. Except for a limited number of people whose names are vaguely remembered but whose faces are no longer familiar to each other, they are familiar strangers who died young for various reasons. It makes people sigh when they talk about it in the wine table communication.
Outside of speaking, I spend most of my time busy working on my future, and even stopping to briefly review the past has become a luxury.
Li Shushi's health before time travel was not in good shape. He suffered from many minor and major ailments. He even had the honor to walk a few steps in the front porch of the Palace of Hell several times. Naturally, he could not walk into the legendary palace.
In the military camp, the best place for people to grow into men.
In addition, the place where Li Shushi lives on weekdays is the urban-rural fringe created by urban expansion, and most of the people around him are local villagers or dreamers from other places, but there is also a bit of cunning in him.
The straightforwardness of a native.
Therefore, although various media sang southern and northern tunes, Li Shushi felt that life seemed to be quiet and peaceful.
Therefore, even in this turbulent era, Li Shushi still hopes to protect the peace in his heart.
With a little idealism and a little conscience, manage your own happiness.
He knew that this was a very selfish idea. He should have great ambitions like those time-traveling fairy shells, and use great perseverance, great wisdom, and great courage to conquer a huge territory and benefit a huge palace.
Well, actually when you think about it when dreaming, such an achievement can still make people a little excited.
It’s no wonder that the senbei people continue to fight at all costs.
But compared to those senbei who have IQs of two hundred and fifty, various doctoral certificates, and numerous auras, he is a scumbag with an intellectual potential of only over 30. Although he has passed the remaining four attributes.
Guozi's training has also improved, but after all, it is just the beginning, and even the qualitative change line of half a hundred has not been crossed yet.
To put it simply, Li Shushi still feels a little inferior to himself.
So no matter what I do, I will always be trepidatious and carefully calculating behind my back.
Because he knew that compared with the elites of this era, he was nothing more than a scumbag.
But even Zhan Wuzha has still come this far.
At this point, if you want to say that Li Xue and Li Shushi, the famous generals and warlords in the late Eastern Han Dynasty, felt that their abilities were so poor that they had low self-esteem and wanted to go back to practice again. I guess this would be incredible except for a few insiders.
And the reason why this can be achieved is because of the support of several people, which cannot be circumvented no matter what.
Tong Yuan, Su Xiaoluoli, Lu Zhi, and the late emperor Liu Hong, who had a similar affinity with Li Shushi.
Except for the last one who had too few opportunities to get along with each other and only met a few times and felt that the other person was very suitable for him, the remaining three all had an extremely huge influence on him. This influence was even slightly inferior to Lu Bu.
Tong Yuan, Li Shushi’s old shopkeeper, is the foundation for everything he has and the stepping stone for him to integrate into the world. Su Xiaololi is subtly transforming Li Shushi’s heart with her tenderness. As for Lu Zhi, although they have been together for three years,
It is the shortest among individuals, but it is also extremely important to Li Shushi and his growth.
Because, to Li Shushi, Lu Zhi was his teacher.
A teacher who made him feel almost perfect.
A teacher preaches, teaches and resolves doubts.
Lu Zhi is such a master. As a student of Ma Rong, the scholar leader, he is naturally a great scholar with profound knowledge. Even if he is not from a wealthy family, his family background is definitely enough for Li Shushi, who has been promoted to a commoner, to look up to him. Such a person is willing to work hard.
Teaching Li Shushi, it can be said that this book is Li Shushi’s blessing.
More importantly, although Lu Zhi was obviously better than Li Shushi in all aspects, he could be said to teach students in accordance with their aptitude. He did not force him to change Li Shushi's thinking habits. He only influenced Li Shushi's judgment in a subtle way.
Even if his views on certain things are still extreme and not comprehensive enough, even if he hears different opinions, he is unwilling to accept them and thinks that this is his own insistence. However, the old man does not make much rebuttal, just when he has time.
Sometimes I tell Li Shushi stories - there are legends from ancient times that have never been spread to modern times, and there are also interesting anecdotes that people today have never recorded on media.
So, many years later, after experiencing some things and making some decisions on his own, Li Shushi gradually understood the true meaning of the stories the old man told back then. Perhaps for him, who was fighting against the five scum, many stories were already regarded as
He had forgotten all about it, but Li Shushi, who understood the truth, had already begun to try to give up some persistence and adopt some more flexible methods.
Of course, some things still have to be insisted on, because after all, the soul in the body is a soul from the future, and it is also a soul in his thirties that has already had certain social experience. Let’s put those things that may be a little weird in the eyes of today’s people.
Keep it as your last link to the future.
Although parents in that world would probably be very sad.
Lu Zhi is such a person. He may sometimes be a bit grumpy, and may sometimes say words that people of this era are accustomed to but feel uncomfortable with Li Shushi, a soul from the future. But compared to Li Shushi,
For most people I have met in this era, Lu Zhi's character and personality are undoubtedly extremely noble.
Therefore, he moved and influenced Li Shushi, and tolerated that lonely heart together with Su Xiaoluoli. Therefore, even though the situation in Shuozhou under his rule was still complicated, it convinced all the forces. Therefore, even if he only relied on Xihe's
Wealth slowly eroded the once unruly Hu people and turned them into the swords in the hands of the big man.
Master, Master, everything Lu Zhi did was like a loving and strict teacher, and also like a responsible and dignified father.
Li Shushi's respect for such a person undoubtedly comes from the bottom of his heart, for such a respectable old man.
Therefore, when he learned that such an elder had passed away because of a conspiracy, Li Shushi felt as if his parents had passed away. The pain might not be expressed in a heartbreaking way, but it made him feel a sudden pain in his heart.
There was an empty space, which represented the collapse of one of the spiritual pillars that supported him. The uncomfortable feeling caused by the huge gap was the reason why he was often sluggish.
Naturally, he had no time to take care of those emotions in his daily work. The heavy work and physical exertion made it a luxury for him to even think about those feelings. In fact, he didn't have time to do that.
Only when he was in the mourning hall, could Li Shushi relax a little and then fall into the gap in his heart.
So, is it true that this is the path that a carefree naughty child must take to grow into a xx young man?
After finishing the day's work, it was already midnight.
Li Shushi has been so busy at work during this period. Lu Zhi's death had a greater impact on him than he imagined. However, this is not the whole reason for his busyness. Another problem that cannot be ignored is that Lu Zhi's death
The passing has made the already unstable situation in the west even more elusive.
The affected areas ranged from Bingzhou in the east to Liangzhou in the northwest, from Shuozhou in the north to Yizhou and Jingzhou in the south. It can be said that because of one person, more than half of the territory of the Han Dynasty was involved.
Li Shushi, who has a close relationship with Lu Zhi, is at the core of this storm.
It is probably not an exaggeration to say that his decision at this time may determine the future direction of the Han Dynasty.
No, maybe he has already made a decision, and chaos is coming. What he has to do is to see clearly what this chaos will bring, and what Bingzhou can get from this chaos.
Don't blame him for not thinking everything through before making a decision, not only because even the top wise men of this era like Jia Xu can't figure everything out, but more importantly, such a decision is, without exaggeration, completely
An inevitable choice - as long as Li Shushi plans to take advantage of this troubled time to seek more power to protect himself and those he values.
Therefore, those courtiers in the court who tried their best to attack him must disappear, especially Wang Yun, an old politician who in Li Shushi's eyes, even if he was not the mastermind behind Lu Zhi's death, was definitely the biggest suspect.
A guy who doesn't have much political wisdom but always likes to play conspiracy tricks, but is very good at forbearance. Although he may not make much achievements in governing the country, he will become an extremely unstable time bomb. Anyone who ignores him
Everyone will be hurt by him. Especially since this person is so stubborn and disgusting, Li Shushi, who is already hostile to him, cannot let him stay.
It can even be said that even Li Shushi, who is in charge of Yuan Shao, can accept it, because under certain conditions, there is still a chance for reconciliation between the two people. Even if Li Shushi takes a step back, the sea and the sky can be brighter between the two. But now Wang Yun and Wang Yun.
The relationship between Li Shushi and Li Shushi will only end in a fight to the death, because Li Shushi cannot see any possibility of compromise.
In other words, even the temporary compromise was just to accumulate the decisive blow against Li Shushi and Bingzhou.
Originally, when Dong Zhuo was still alive, Li Shushi used Wang Ling and other members of the Wang family in Qixian County to send friendly signals to Wang Yun in Chang'an, and received a positive response from the other party at the time. This somewhat made Li Shushi somewhat agitated.
He relaxed his vigilance towards Wang Yun, thinking that even if the other party did not value him as highly as Yuan Yuan and Cao Cao, at least he would not be an enemy.
Fortunately, because Wang Yun suddenly gained great power and became so complacent that his true nature was exposed, Li Shushi had the opportunity to realize that this man was destined not to be a friend but an enemy of Bingzhou.
It's not too late to make amends.
Moreover, wasn't there a man who planned to "revenge" Dong Zhuo?
Even if Xiliang generals like Li Jue and Guo Si are extremely ambitious, with this buffer, they can at least ensure that there will not be a second Wang Yun in the court. And in the foreseeable historical direction, Li Shushi feels that after this
After this experience, maybe I should consider reviewing some of my previous thoughts.
As a Chinese, as a Han nationality, Li Shushi naturally has a unique fondness for the Han and Tang dynasties, followed by the Ming Dynasty, which is a bit annoying. As for the Song Dynasty, which many people admire, of course
There has been amazing economic development, but the roots of this country have actually been broken since the sound of the candle shadow and the axe. The spirit passed down from Guo Wei to Chai Rong to Zhao Kuangyin was reversed and turned into a
A completely opposite country from before.
This is Li Shushi's understanding, and this is also the most fundamental reason why he is willing to support this dynasty.
People of this era may not be able to imagine the pride Li Shushi felt when he mentioned the name of this country. This was not only because of the country's past strength, but also because Li Shushi lived in an era where countries could only endure humiliation and bear the burden.
A huge sense of frustration.
Being strong but not hegemonic is simply the most bullshit joke. It is because of this mentality that the surrounding small countries dare to provoke unscrupulously. It is not because of the so-called strength behind it, but simply because they know that even if they take advantage, they cannot lose anything.
What. It can be said that I value you strategically but despise you tactically!
How to cut off this kind of greed, then only excessive revenge. Direct revenge, murder for life, and huge crime costs are the best means to curb this kind of taking advantage of others. And isn't this a manifestation of domineering?
Can you achieve dominance?
It is a pity that the leader of the country is Gou Jian and Li Shimin who faces the Turks next to the Wei River.
It can be seen that a great politician is really not something that ordinary people can do, at least not a common man who only knows how to be angry.
However, Li Shushi, who lived in this era, did not have to be so aggrieved. Even though the Han Dynasty had declined to a very low level, Li Shushi could still take the most drastic measures against the barbarians in the north, and later led an expedition to the Western Regions to frighten the Western Regions.
Countries, he can thoroughly implement his beliefs and take action.
Moreover, behind him there are people like Dong Zhuo and Lu Zhi who can understand him and continue to give him all kinds of support.
Now, these people have passed away. Looking around, it seems that the princes in the world can no longer find a prince who can continue to give him such support, even the one who once made up his mind to engrave on his tombstone "the former general of the Han Dynasty who conquered the west"
The man's biggest wish right now is to gain a firm foothold in Yanzhou and gradually expand his influence.
Lu Zhi's death indeed broke a spiritual pillar in Li Shushi's heart, but if you think about it from another angle, wasn't it just like breaking a crutch that Li Shushi had always relied on?
Without this crutch, there is no more moral restraint hidden on the crutch, which means that another layer of shackles on his body has disappeared.
It's time for him to stand on his own feet!
However, the young man, who has low self-esteem and is casual, seems not to be fully mentally prepared for that.
"Can I do it?"
It was a dark night, surrounded by thick black fog.
"I believe in you~ Just like I believe in you and I believe in you."
In this thick black fog, those eyes were so bright, like beacons in the storm.
Pan Sen: This is an additional monthly ticket to thank Dadujiang and Xiaol for their hard work for two consecutive months.
Pan Sen 2: How about adding an update every 10 months starting from next month?
Pan Sen 3: Even if this volume ends here, let’s talk about the remarks tomorrow... (To be continued...)
