She smiled and said: "But you are so stupid. One day when you mature and experience this society, you will know. Stop being so stupid. You should be smarter. This society is not what you imagined. Be good!"
After she said that, she wanted to leave. She stood on the beach in Xiliang. Standing there, I looked at her. How could I be so unwilling to give in? Damn it, how could I fall in love with this bad woman? Why could I be so unwilling to give in?
What? I was really ruined by her, really ruined!
She was about to leave, and I said behind her: "You are still so coquettish, hum!"
She turned back and narrowed her eyes and said, "You are still such a little bad guy!"
I said: "I want to kill someone now, ###damn it!"
"Why do you like to swear so much?" she asked me.
I said: "You are a liar. You ruined me. You asked me why I love to swear so much. I tell you. I tell you why. Not only do I say swear words to you, I also want to say dirty words to you. Do you believe it?"
Don’t believe it?”
"Little madman!" She looked at me, looked at me, and finally said: "Why bother torturing each other? Why bother! Just live your life well and take care of yourself!"
She is gone, she is really leaving. I know that after she leaves like this, I don’t know when I will see her again, but she is really going to leave like this. I am filled with anger, and she leaves me with
I suffered endless pain. Only I can understand this kind of pain. Other than that, no one can understand that I was really destroyed by her. Only those who have experienced this kind of pain and the pain of a man can understand it.
Only men can understand.
I think from now on, I won't be able to live a good life. I think I will just sink. She doesn't love me. The most painful thing for me is that I fell in love with a woman, but she doesn't love me. I can't figure it out.
, how could she not love me, why didn’t she love me, why didn’t she love me.
Many years later, I think about my original state of mind. I think about how naive I was and how fucked up this kind of thing was. Why should she love me? As a man, you can only understand what a man is like when you look back after going through a lot of things.
You can’t believe anyone in the world, you can only believe in yourself, especially many years later, when I was in my thirties and I experienced so much in the colorful world, I realized this. It’s not that there is no love in this world.
There is love, but sometimes, you should not fight with love. Everything is not as beautiful as you think. There are good women in this world, and there are also bad women. If you fall in love with a bad woman, you
The pain comes, and you can't get rid of that kind of pain, and you can't get rid of it no matter what. It's better to be a smart man, that will be much better.
They were leaving. I saw them leaving, but I didn’t say anything. It was already dark, and the lights on the fishing boats were flashing. Such a night, such Xiliang, such a scenery is so beautiful, if you can
How happy you will feel if you let go of those things. If you never let go, you will feel so painful. But how many people in this world can truly let go? So you have to go over and over again.
Torturing yourself and others everywhere, playing games with life and yourself.
At that time, I didn't know where my life would be and what kind of life would be my happiness. It was late at night, and I was the only one sitting on a chair on the boat, smoking quietly.
I don't know when she stood next to me.
I turned around suddenly and saw her standing on the boat. She didn't even leave. She was standing there with her hands on her chest. I was the only one on the boat. My father and my mother didn't live on the boat, and now besides me
There was her outside, and she was also on this boat. I looked at her, and she didn’t speak and looked at the sea. In the night, the sea could only see the waves, and the moonlight shone on the sea. Everything was so quiet, and she stood there.
There, with her hair blowing in the wind, is this the life she wants? She once said she hoped to come here and live such a happy life, but she is already married. Can she still get this kind of happiness?
I looked at her body, and she was still so sexy and charming. It would be a tragedy for a man to fall in love with such a woman. Who asked me to love her? I don’t think it’s her fault, and looking at her at the moment
Body, I suddenly want it very much.
She turned back to look at me, and I looked at her. She turned her head away, and I stood up and walked behind her. Why can’t I quit her? Why do I still want to be with her at this time?
###, but I think it's best not to let me see her. I only have her body now. I don't think there will be any more love. She destroyed my happiness. She let an innocent boy start.
It doesn't matter anymore. From now on, I will never believe in love again.
My personality probably changed at that time. In fact, I was drunk when I was with her cousin. That is something that is difficult for a boy to control. The subsequent experiences were not what I wanted. I also thought about it.
Everything Bai Ling did may not be her intention. In fact, deep down she is a pure woman, just like when I went to see myself. But, you know I can't forgive her, I can forgive me.
myself, but I can't forgive her. This is such a tangled matter.
After that, I put her on the bed and closed my eyes. All this didn't seem to make me feel any better, not at all. I felt the pain in my heart, but I thought, why bother? Why should life be like this?
There is really no need for me to torture her like this, no! I closed my eyes and smoked, and suddenly I felt a little pitiful for her. She was alone there. I thought she needed a hug and a caress, just like before, I know
She is also looking forward to this, just like she was looking forward to this so much before. She is like a child in my arms, and is so loved and happy by me. She scratches me in my arms, kisses me, and gently kisses me with her little mouth.
Kissing little by little, she was so happy and happy at that time, but now? She can't get what she wants, I don't even think about whether she wants it, she always likes to get that kind of happiness up there
, but I ignored her.
I opened my eyes slightly to look at her, and I saw her lying there looking at me. I closed my eyes and said, "Come up!" She said, "No, I don't want it!" I said fiercely:
"Come up when I tell you to come up. What are you doing? Come up quickly, do you hear me?" She nodded, then climbed on top of me. She looked down at me, then held it and gently put it in.
, and I looked at her and smiled, she didn't have any expression, she moved there cautiously, and then kissed my forehead. I felt that I was indeed cruel enough, but her pity did not allow me to hurt her.
In my heart, I love her, but the pain is filled with anger. As much as I love her, I hate her. That kind of hatred cannot be resolved, but now she is as happy on top of me as before.
Entertainment, I couldn't help but forget other things. I wanted to give her happiness, give her a different happiness. This is Xiliang, this is the place where she fantasizes. I shouldn't have so much hatred, I hug her.
, loving her as before, kissing her forehead, she was held in my arms, at that moment, I became very gentle, I could feel how gentle I was, how much I loved her, treating her as a
My child, I loved and cherished her with all my heart. I even completely forgot about those things and didn’t think about anything. I just stayed with her, held her, kissed her, caressed her, and loved her.
In this way, she also felt it. She suddenly cried and cried in my arms. When she cried, I said: "Don't cry. Did you hear me? It's nothing. You know, I hate it very much, and my heart is too."
It hurts, but I can't stop loving you, I don't know what to do, I'm sorry, I can't let go, so don't take it to your heart, don't be sad, that's the kind of person I am, I'm sorry!"
She kept saying: "I don't blame you, I don't blame you for anything, I don't blame you at all, I have been thinking about you, I can't think of you, I think crazy, I thought I could forget you,
But I found that I can't forget you at all, and you are not bad, you just met a woman you shouldn't love, this woman made you crazy, you are just like this, there is nothing else, you know? You
Don't blame yourself, don't be sad, okay?" At this time, she came to comfort me. I knew she really loved me. No matter what, she fell in love with a beloved man. But why can't I forgive her? What are my principles?
To be so strong, why do I have so many principles? Can't I live without those principles? I don't want those principles, but I really don't seem to have any way, I can't control myself at all.
Bai Ling said: "Okay, I want you to stimulate me and take revenge on this bad woman. I can't forget you. I need you to torture me. I really need you. I'm going to die on you. Xiao Lin, please forgive me, okay?"
?Please, don’t hate me. I can do whatever you want me to do. I’m sorry for you, I’m sorry for you. I know everything. I beg you to forgive me. It’s all my fault. I didn’t know it at the time.
You did that for me, I don’t hate you at all, not at all, baby, baby!” She cried again, I knew what she knew, she knew that I was with Yang Hongling to save her, she
She knew this, so she came to me, but she also felt that she had no face to see me. She no longer had the face to see me. She was so willful at the time. She thought I didn't love her anymore. Didn't she think of this?
She also had doubts, but why did she still do it? Maybe it was not clear in the end.
I said: "What do you know?"
"You, in order to save me and that woman, I knew everything. I know, Xiaolin, I'm sorry for you, I will die for you, I don't want to live anymore!" I said, "Don't be so stupid, your father
You have a very high status in your heart. You have been doing it for your father all these years. If you do this, don't you also think about your father?"