Bai Ling nodded and said: "Of course I hope, I hope very much, but I also know that it is very unrealistic and impossible. I understand everything. I know that it is unrealistic and very unrealistic. I will not go there too much."
Think about it, don't be stressed, don't think about anything, we can go wherever we want, many things are not ours to say, what should happen will always happen, no one can control it, what do you think?
"
I said: "Well, yes, just take it one step at a time. Don't put so much pressure on yourself. It's best to be relaxed. I love you!"
She was happy and happy. She leaned in my arms and said very gently and obediently: "I love you too. I hope that one day, just like our short month, we live together as husband and wife."
!”
I said: "Do you most want to marry me and be husband and wife with me?"
She nodded and said: "I have always wanted that kind of happiness, but I know that in this world, there is only one man who can give me that kind of happiness. I know who that man is, it is you, and that will be my life."
Dream, and I will never stop pursuing my happiness, ever!"
I was touched by her words, especially that one, she will never stop her pursuit of happiness. I think it is like this, no matter how many times she has experienced, how many marriages, how many times she has failed, happiness will always be in her heart.
She will never lose it, and she will never stop pursuing that happiness. I think this is the woman I want to see, a woman who has experienced many setbacks and failures, but will never be knocked down by life. This is
Bai Ling is the Bai Ling I saw before.
I said: "Well, okay, I hope you do that. Only in that way can you live a happy life!"
"But that man is you. If one day I am happy, then you will be happy too. Baby, if one day, I stand in front of you and say to you, I want you to take me to Xiliang, you
Are you still willing? I really hope it lasts forever. These days, I don’t even dare to have any extravagant hopes. I don’t dare to do anything. I don’t dare to think. I don’t dare to do anything. I even think that I don’t have anything at all.
Do you know that right?"
I said, "Why don't I know? I know everything, I see everything, I understand everything. I know what's going on, and I know all your changes and every look in your eyes, my dear.
, we are all fine, if one day God lets us be together, I believe we will be together!" I kissed her forehead again, she nodded, she looked at me, I knew I would give her that day
If she does, she will be more sure in her heart where her happiness lies, and she will understand better who can give her that kind of happiness, and that person is me.
Later, whenever I think about these things, I will blame myself in my heart, why did I care so much in the first place? In fact, I did care in my heart, but I didn't tell her. I thought I loved her so much, but why did I
The older I grow, the more I care about her past. No, it’s not her past, but what happened after me. It’s hard for me to accept this in my heart. It’s hard to accept. Sometimes when I think about it, I feel like dying of pain.
I dare not think about anything.
But you know how much I regretted it later. I always blamed myself so much over the years. I felt like I was a bastard. I was an out-and-out bastard. I loved her, but I also hurt her. I was too
She is too selfish and willful. It is difficult for her to give me what I want because she cannot go back to the past. And I care so much. I always think that she has experienced too much in the past and it is difficult for her character to change.
, I even think that she will be the same as before, she will not change. Whenever I think of her sleeping with those men, getting together, and getting married, many things make me go crazy. I always keep asking myself in my heart.
, how could she do this, how could she, how could she do this? In the end, I could only torture myself and could not solve any problems. I have been tortured for many years, until one day, I no longer need to be tortured by these, I thought
I could be freed, but I was not freed after all. I would only be in more pain, more painful than ever before, and that kind of pain could almost kill me.
After dinner, I drove Bai Ling with me, and then we went back to where she and Liu Qian lived.
Back to where Liu Qian lived, she took me home and we drank some wine during the meal. As soon as I entered, she brought me slippers and took off my coat. She is very good at serving others. I think
It's just for me, a woman like Bai Ling is if
She doesn't love a man, she won't be willing to do anything for that man, she will even lose her temper, and will not consider the other person's feelings at all. She will only show her gentle side to the person she loves, except for the person she loves.
, she would not do this to any man,
This is her. She is so kind to me. I sat on the sofa and she put on the casual clothes she wore at home, loose and baggy clothes. She poured me water and her breasts were exposed when she lowered her head.
There were a lot of them. I felt very comfortable looking at them because of my drunkenness. She looked at me with that look. It was just us at this time. In fact, no matter how social a woman is, she can do anything in front of the man she loves. She completely forgot.
That society has become very simple and private, and there are only us in this world.
I held her quietly in my arms, and she suddenly said: "Baby, you can wear the clothes I brought you. They must be very suitable. Come here!" I nodded, then walked to her room,
There are many sets of clothes hanging in her room that I wear, all of which she brought to me
Mine, she wanted to help me put it on, I said: "I'll do it myself!" She said: "Does it look good?" I hugged her and kissed her, then whispered into her ear: "I like it, I feel it
I'm very happy. The woman I love buys me clothes, I'm really happy!"
She said: "Well, you look really cool in what you wear. You look like a star. You look good!"
I said: "That's right, the strength is here, no matter what you wear, you will look good, ha!"
She suddenly hugged me, and I turned around to look at her. She hugged me and suddenly said domineeringly: "I don't want you to go back, I don't want to!"
I said: "Fool, we are all people with families now, how can we be together, that is very difficult!"
When she heard what I said, she nodded and said: "Well, I know, I'm just talking. Am I very selfish? I want you. If, if you still want me, I can do anything, really.
Can!"
I know what she wants to say is that she can get divorced or abandon everything. As long as she can follow me, she is willing to do anything.
But I think I will still have some considerations. I don’t know if I should marry her. If I marry her, will I forget all the past things and not take them seriously? Of course, I think about these things now.
It's not a big deal. I didn't care about her at all in the past. Before I met her, I really didn't care at all. The problem was that she married that person again after I met her. This matter
It makes me particularly angry and desperate. I feel like this is something I can't accept.
I said: "I will think about it, baby, give me some time!"
She nodded and felt that I understood what she meant. She sat on the edge of the bed and said, "Husband, I'll massage you, come here!" She said her husband naturally, and then said she would massage me,
I felt that she was too kind to me, so I sat next to her and said, "Dear
, don’t do this to me, it’s unnatural for you to do this to me. I hope you will be the same as before. You don’t always feel guilty about me. We have done nothing wrong. You are not wrong, and I am not wrong either.
Destiny, so please be happy, come on, be natural, okay?"
She looked at me coldly and kept looking at me. Her eyes were the same as before, a little scary. She looked at me a little scary. I found her old look again. She looked at me for a while and then closed her eyes.
, then turned his head to the side and said: "I haven't changed, not at all. It's just that in your heart, you no longer treat me like that. Changes have occurred. What do you want me to do? What else can I do?"
Yes, it was her at this time. I said: "I don't, I just, I just feel a little uncomfortable and I'm jealous!"
She nodded and said with a smile: "I know it's hard for you to feel relieved. You are in much more pain than me. You are at this age and I am at this age, so we are different and our feelings are also different. I also
I know that in your heart, I am no longer noble or pure, and you will not think highly of me like that. I can't change anything. I love
You, I admit that I love you very much, Xiaolin, I can't forget you. Since I am like this, I must be good to you, otherwise you won't want me anymore. I am already old and don't have much good time left. I am almost three years old.
You are ten years old and you are still young. You said what should I do if I want to be with you? I can only bear this and treat you well. What do you think? "
I said: "Yes, it's not entirely right. I think you should understand that I love you. It's because I love you that I feel uncomfortable. But now that I see you like this, I don't feel uncomfortable anymore. I want to see you."
That's it, no matter what happens, it will be the same as before. I still want you to have that air, and I want you to be the same as before. You are noble, and you must understand it yourself!"
She smiled and said: "I treat you as a child, I see everything, I love you, I want you, little guy, I have my own ideas, you will understand in the future, I will treat you little by little
Captured, little rascal!"
I'm happy, I like her like this, I don't like her angry look, as if she owes someone else a lot of money, that feeling is really uncomfortable, I don't want to see her like that again, now I really
Okay, I hugged her and said: "I want you to be domineering, I want you to only be bad to me!" She hugged me and kissed my lips and said: "Sister, I eat you, you are so handsome, baby, let me see
I don’t want to do anything with you, just like my son!"
I said, "You really know how to take advantage of me. Don't you have a daughter?" I said it immediately.
When she heard this, her expression changed immediately. She was stunned, and I said, "I already knew it. I don't care. Baby, you should go and see her often. She must be very beautiful!" I can understand.
What she was thinking in her heart was that she seemed to be sorry for me again. Where did she come from so many pasts? These pasts made people feel extremely fucked.