Seeing that I was so willful, she sobbed a few more times, and I said, "Don't cry, we have nothing to do with each other anymore. You continue to be your eldest mistress. We are not the same person, and we never have been!"
"I don't, I don't want it, I don't!" She said hysterically: "You tell me where you are, you can hit me, you can scold me, but I am very worried about you now, I want to see you, I want to see you
, if you don’t let me see you, I will find you, I will!”
I said: "Why do you want to see me? What do you want to see me for? What does my relationship have to do with you? If you want to see me, we have no relationship anymore. There is no need to see each other again. You can live a good life. From now on, my affairs will be related to
You have nothing to do with it."
"Xiao Lin, don't be like this, okay? Tell me where you are? Let me go to see you. No matter how much grudges we have or how much you hate me, just let me go to see you, okay?" She was anxious.
It doesn't work anymore, she seems to miss me so much that she can't do it without seeing me.
Why should I let her see me? Should she see me if she wants to see me? Why did she ruthlessly marry someone else in the first place? Why did she break up with me later and never contact me again? How much harm did she make to me by making these decisions?
Now that she wants to see me, do I have to see her?
I didn’t want to say anything more, so I smiled and said, “I’m sorry, Miss Bai, I still have something to do, but there is one thing I want you to tell your man. Tell him, if it’s not the last thing he did,
Well, if it was him who did it, as long as I don’t die, I won’t let go of the person who made my family what it is today, no!”
After hearing this, she said: "Xiao Lin, listen to me, listen to me!"
I said fiercely: "What's wrong? Are you still trying to defend your husband, your man, and speak for him, thinking that he didn't do this? Let me tell you, Miss Bai, you are too cruel.
You shouldn't be like this. Don't you have a heart? Don't your heart hurt? Are those past, those sweet words, and those oaths of love all fucking fake? That's it, I wish you good luck!"
I hung up the phone, and when she called again, I didn't answer. She made many calls, but when I didn't answer, she kept calling. Then I turned off the phone when I got angry. I've never seen her like this.
Of course, this has never happened before. This incident in my family is just like that big incident that happened to her. I know she is anxious, but I want her to know what it feels like. What I want is not for you to be anxious now.
But it will be like this for a lifetime, a lifetime, forever. If you can't give it, don't say that. And I hate you very much now. I don't want to see you, don't want to.
She turned off her phone and looked at the night in the hospital quietly. There was no one around at this time. She actually drove to Xiliang in the middle of the night. She must have heard from others at night that she would not be able to find anyone after she went there.
People, the most you can do is ask your neighbors.
My parents asked me to find a place to stay nearby, but I didn’t. I walked back to the corridor of the ward. Three days in a row passed. I felt very haggard. I didn’t change my clothes, didn’t wash my hair, and my whole body just looked like this.
There was a homeless beggar. I went back to the corridor and lay down on the bench. It really looked a bit like him.
The weather is still a bit cold. Although it is almost like spring here all year round, it will be obvious if it is slightly colder. Especially at night, the sea breeze blows to the island and there is a slight coolness. I don’t know if it is because my heart is cold or my body is cold.
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I lay on the bench and couldn't fall asleep. I kept thinking about those things. Later, I was really tired from thinking about it, and I was tired from the past few days, so I fell asleep on the bench. When I was woken by a man in my sleep,
When I woke up from the sound, I still felt that it was a dream, that it wasn't real, it wasn't.
I opened my eyes, and in the blur, I saw her standing next to me, with tears on her face. She touched my face with her hand and said, "Xiao Lin, Xiao Lin, you can't sleep here. Be obedient!" Her tears were clear.
She felt particularly distressed when the ground was there, and her heart seemed to be broken.
I looked at her quietly there. I didn't speak. I didn't want to say anything. I felt that I was almost sleepy and tired. Was this in a dream? I appeared.
Did you hallucinate? She appeared in front of me.
"Xiao Lin -" she said again, and then she took my hand and held it tightly next to her face. Her tears flowed onto my hand.
I murmured: "Why are you crying?"
"Xiao Lin, don't be like this. As long as I'm here, everything will be fine. The boat at home is gone. I'll give you money and we can build more boats, okay?" She said to me with great distress.
I looked her straight in the eyes and said, "Is this you?"
She nodded suddenly with tears in her eyes and said: "It's me, it's me, Xiaolin, it's your sister Lingling, the Lingling who hurt you, bullied you, and made you hate her!"
I smiled slightly, shook my head and said, "She is gone a long time ago and will always stay in the past. Is this a dream? Am I dreaming?"
"It's not a dream, this is real, it's really my sister, please touch and see, touch me -" She grabbed my hand and touched her face -
She desperately pulled my hand toward her face. Her face was cool, soft, and elastic. It had the same smell that I once touched. As soon as I touched it, my whole body and mind trembled.
A feeling like an electric shock attacks my whole body with the love, the heat and humidity of the past, and the lingering love of the past. Ah, it’s her——
She pressed my hand and touched her face, pressing it hard, as if she was afraid that I would think it was a dream or not know that she was Bai Ling.
I know this is her, but if it wasn't her, why would my heart hurt so much, why would my body be shaking so much, why would my brain still have so many fantasies, and why would I not change my mind?
My hand began to take the initiative to touch her. When she saw me touching her, she smiled through tears and said excitedly: "Yes, right?"
I was very calm and looked at her quietly, stroking her face with my hands, touching her nose, eyes, and forehead bit by bit. She closed her eyes and tears fell again.
I slowly withdrew my hand, and it slipped from her face. I blinked, and she smiled slightly, then put her hand on my face and touched it, and said very gently: "Get up, you can't be here."
If you sleep here, be good, you will catch a cold!" She said so gently that it almost melted me. I was fascinated by her voice, her extremely beautiful appearance, and her eyes. Facing such a person
Woman, at my age, how could I withstand this?
There was simply no way around it, I couldn't resist her temptation.
I think I'm being mean again, but I won't forgive those bastards, no matter who they are.
She gently patted my butt and said: "Get up, are your parents okay? I asked the doctor, and the doctor on duty said it's okay. Just stay in the hospital for a while and recuperate. Don't worry.
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I slowly sat up from the bench, raised my head as I sat there, and closed my eyes.
"Are mom and dad asleep?"
I felt that if I didn't reply to her, she would actually be a little pitiful. I lowered my head and said, "Thank you for your concern!"
She shook her head and said, "That's right. You haven't rested for many days, right?"
I looked down and just smiled and said, "I'm fine. It's getting late. You should go back early!"
"I'm not going back. I'm not sleepy. I'm going to find a nurse to help you take care of your parents. Let's go have a rest with my sister. Find a hotel nearby and have a good sleep!" She smiled slightly.
I said: "No, you don't need to take care of me at night. I can be alone. You should go back!"
"Then sister is here to help you take care of you. How can you do it alone? You can't rest well. Look, you have lost a lot of weight and are very haggard. You also need to take a bath. Be good and be obedient!" I held my arm and kept squatting.
Look at me and smile there.
I didn't say anything, and she continued: "Don't you treat me like that when my sister is in trouble? You worry so much about your sister and have suffered so many grievances for her. How can I feel at ease when you are like this? What if?
If I don’t care about you, am I still a human being? What’s the difference between a kitten and a puppy?”
I shook my head and said, "Didn't we break up? I have nothing to do, and this matter has nothing to do with you -"
"You hate sister so much? Don't you want to see me? Silly boy, even if we break up, can't we still be good friends, good sisters and brothers?" She sat next to me and still held my hand.
Hand looked back at me and said.
I looked back at her. Her chest was slightly open. She was wearing a white round-neck underwear and a black jacket. She looked very sensual. She also looked at me. Her lips were red and her complexion was very good.
Don't be moisturized less, huh.
I said: "I want to calm down alone, okay?"
"No, you don't even have anyone to talk to. You see, I can still talk to you!" She said so. I looked at her legs. She was wearing a pair of tight black pants and a pair of black pants underneath.
The high-heeled shoes, the legs are bent there, very slender, very thin, not at all like a twenty-nine-year-old woman, the figure is about the same as that of a twenty-five-six-year-old, if you don't look at the mature face.
She seemed to see me looking at her body. She suddenly approached me and said, "What's wrong?"
I was staring at her legs, and my head was lowered at this time. She didn't know that I was deliberately looking at her legs.
"Don't meet acquaintances, it's not good for you!"
"I'm not afraid of anything. It's nothing, so what's there? Could it be that if something happens to my brother, I can't be here?" What she said was really sweet. I was still looking at her legs, and suddenly I felt all over.
I felt a heat, an anger, and a desire to possess her. I needed to vent, need warmth, and get her. I thought maybe I would feel better this way.
She seemed to feel it and saw what I was thinking. She smiled, hugged me and said, "What's wrong?" She said with love and warmth, but also with some ambiguity. She felt that such ambiguity would make me feel sad.