Chapter 158: A woman who doesn’t care much about emotions
I rubbed her cheek with my mouth and said, "Yes, I am very domineering. I am not what I want to be like today. I hate many people. Do you know? Ah?"
Liu Qian nodded tenderly and said: "I listen to you, I will find someone to fall in love with. I am not the kind of woman who is not emotional at all -"
I also nodded.
I feel a little more relaxed. I don't know why I am so overbearing. I have become greedy and overbearing. Sometimes, I suddenly wake up from my sleep. I even feel very strange to myself and don't know where I am. , I don’t know who I am, and I seem a little vague about my original self.
"I'm asking you something, and you have to tell me honestly!" Liu Qian asked me.
I said: "Okay, you ask!"
"Is the person you love most my cousin?"
I didn't answer her immediately, so Liu Qian said, "Tell me, isn't it?"
I nodded and said: "Yes!"
"Why do you love her?" She asked very carefully.
I said: "I didn't know that your cousin could seduce people -" I laughed.
"Fart, you are the one. My cousin is quite decent. You are not allowed to say that. It is disrespectful to her. She is actually a really good person. She loves you very much. Do you know? You don't want to That's not serious, I'm telling you the truth, you know?" She looked at me, looking at me seriously.
"Know what?"
She prophesied but stopped.
I smiled slightly and said, "She doesn't love her husband, does she love me?"
"Yes, actually, there is one thing. I think I should tell you. My cousin asked me not to say it at first. So, I want to ask you first, do you really love her?"
I nodded and said seriously: "I love her, of course I love her, I love her very much, and I will never forget her!"
"Then let me tell you something. You can't tell anyone. If you don't say it, it will be serious if it spreads!"
I looked at Liu Qian, and she suddenly said: "By the way, don't be sad, okay? Don't be sad, just obey me!"
I couldn't figure it out, but what she said was quite strange, so I said, "I'm not sad, just tell me!"
Liu Qian looked a little pained, and finally exhaled and said: "My cousin's child is yours, no more!"
When I heard this sentence, I didn't react at the time. I was stunned there. Liu Qian thought I was sad and said: "Hey, don't be sad. I didn't want to tell you, but my cousin is unconscious and it's possible No one will ever tell you this, I feel so pitiful for you!"
I slowly felt heartache. The sadness came from my heart and then reached my brain, just like the first time Xiao Ni told me that Bai Ling was admitted to a mental hospital. But this time, I think I am even more sad. My child? She was pregnant with my child. I felt like I woke up from a dream, and the son I had never seen before left like this. What kind of life is this, what kind of fate, it is always It catches you off guard in an invisible and invisible way, and will never tell you in advance what is going on?
The sadness sank little by little, and in the end, the corners of my eyes were a little moist, and I felt so stuffy that I couldn't breathe, and I was about to suffocate.
"Don't be sad. I'm sorry. It's all my fault. I shouldn't have told you!" Liu Qian held my hand and my tears fell. I think I am still strong. No matter how many hardships I have, they can't break me. , and I also know from my heart that I cannot be defeated, I cannot.
I closed my eyes and felt a lot of tears streaming down my face.
"Are you okay? Lin Jiayi, are you okay?" Liu Qian asked me hastily.
I said: "I didn't, it's okay! Did she tell you that?"
"Well, she was pregnant before she got married. She said that the child was yours, and did you know? After the birth, I looked carefully and found that it does look very similar to you, especially the eyes, which are very beautiful, just like him
No, I look more like you especially when I smile, very cute——"
I took out the cigarette from my arms with trembling hands and lit it with trembling hands.
Then I didn't speak.
"My cousin loves this child very much. Later when we got together, she talked about you, which made me a little annoyed. I said how old are you? You talk about others every day. Do they miss you? They are already married and have a girlfriend.
, why are you still a big boss? She is embarrassed if you are not sensible.
Si De smiled and said, what's the matter? He loves me, and it's all my fault. Besides, can't we talk about it after we break up? Have you never been in love? You know that if you love someone, even if you never meet again,
But all you think about is him, and you miss him every day, so what can I do? Besides, he
But my son’s father, in the future, he will be old and has grown into a middle-aged man. I will also be old, and my son will grow up to more than 20 years old. After he turns 18, I will tell him.
Who is his biological father? If my sister doesn’t survive that long, please tell me for her, that is, I don’t
Do you know if this little guy will regret doing this when he reaches middle age? You know men, when they are young, everything seems innocent and beautiful, but when they mature, they become bad and start to feel like they are...
You are so naive, you were deceived by women when you were young——"
When Liu Qian said this, I listened quietly. All I could think about was that woman and the son I had never seen before, and he left this world just like this.
"I told her, you should forget about him. Since we can't be together, it's so uncomfortable to think about it all the time. Besides, he must be coveting your body and feeling like having fun with a grown-up woman. Doing that kind of thing
We were so good together, but she scolded me, saying that I was too bad and didn’t understand what love was. When I asked her what love was, she was so special
Childishly, naively, love is like having ten thousand people standing in front of you and saying good things to you, but you won’t even feel anything. But there is one person, and even if he doesn’t see you, you still miss him every day. If you are with him, what?
, that’s like being a god, she also said that if I do that kind of thing with you, I’ll be so happy that I don’t dare to think about it!”
I couldn't bear to listen any more. It was full of heartache. I said, "Do you think the child will still be alive?" I asked Liu Qian with some prayers, and she said, "I don't know either. It would be fine if that were the case."
, My cousin will definitely be fine, but it seems that the child is really gone——"
Yes, if the child is still there, she will definitely be fine if she sees the child. I suddenly thought about it and said: "Tell me, can you find a child and say it is our child and show it to her? Will she suddenly feel better?"
Already?"
Liu Qian said fiercely: "Hey, don't say it, maybe it will happen. It's hard to say. We can try it. She was stimulated at the time and couldn't think about it. If she could find a child and say that the child was found, she suddenly
Okay, isn’t that okay? If you say no later, she won’t go crazy again, right?”
I just said that without thinking about it carefully. Liu Qian said excitedly: "Jiayi, can we do this? I will find a child to hold and show it to her, saying that the child has been found. However, if it is true,
The child can walk and is almost two years old. I want to find a child around two years old!"
I said: "Is that okay?"
"Whether it's possible or not, let's give it a try. My aunt's aunt's child is just that big, and it's also a boy. I'll find a way to get them to take the child to have a look. What do you think?"
I said: "Yeah, okay!"
Later, I kept thinking about Bai Ling and our children. Later, Liu Qian fell asleep in my arms and slept soundly.
As I grow older, I feel more and more lonely. When someone is with me, like Xiao Ni or Liu Qian, I always feel a sense of relief, even though in my heart, I know they are with me.
I will always be a passer-by, but this happiness is also so real.
Once, I passed by the corner of Chaotian Avenue and I had a fortune-telling. It was my first fortune-telling. Liu Qian took me there. She said the fortune-telling there was very accurate. I never believed in this.
But Liu Qian insisted on asking me to do the math.
Almost before I sat down, the fortune teller said: "You are destined to have a beautiful life!"
I think most people will understand what's going on as soon as they hear it. Liu Qian shook my back with her bag and said, "Look, people are right. How many women have you harmed over the years?"
I was a little embarrassed, so the fortune teller smiled and said, "You are lucky, you haven't gotten married yet, right?"
I nodded, and he looked at my face again and said, "I'm going to be thirty years old. Is this young man twenty-five?"
I said: "I'm thirty -"
Liu Qian said: "He looks quite young, so he can easily seduce women!"
I looked back at her, and she was smiling there, and the fortune teller said: "No hurry, no rush, it will be soon. Don't worry, young man, he may be around!"
I looked at Liu Qian again, and this time it was Liu Qian's turn to be embarrassed. She said, "Old sir, what do you mean? I, I am his cousin, I am not his friend!"
"In ancient times, there were cousins who married their cousins—"
"Uh..." Liu Qian almost fainted. When he left, I gave him thirty yuan. On the way back, I said to Liu Qian: "We didn't collude with each other, right?"
"Who colluded with me? What's wrong with me? I want to marry you? Who am I?"
I just laugh.
The fortune teller said that I will get married after I turn thirty, but I am not married yet.
Keep going back to that time.
Liu Qian got up early the next day and went to work. When I got up, I was still sleeping. After she got dressed and washed, she came up and kissed me, and then said close to my face: "My dear, I'm going to work.
I promise you that I won’t do stupid things again. If you have anything to do, call me. After I’ve sorted out my cousin’s affairs, I’ll call you and we’ll go there together!”
I nodded.
Looking at Liu Qian's figure and the peach blossom look on her face, I felt that she was like my wife, especially when she said "honey" and came up to kiss me, I had a very strong feeling. Later,
Liu Qian has thought about marrying me, but I know that is impossible. I don't care much about women's pasts, but what kind of relationship do we have? We are so familiar with each other that it is unrealistic.
That night, I met two women, yes, they were Yang Hongling and Li Chunmei.