Chapter 181: Bai Ling is the only one who doesn’t remember me
She wasn't getting better before, she was full of affection when she saw me, but now she is a stranger and she doesn't feel that way at all.
We shook hands, and I held her hand. She was a little embarrassed and her face turned a little red. Seeing her like this, I smiled and let go of her hand, and then sat next to her.
"Cousin, don't be nervous? I'm not introducing you to a boyfriend, why are you nervous?"
"I'm not nervous at all?" She smiled at me and said, "Hello, what is your name?" What she said was so strange that it made me feel indifferent. Once something is lost, it makes people extremely desperate.
I said: "Oh, my surname is Lin, just call me Xiao Lin!"
"Xiao Lin? Xiao Lin?" She frowned and said, "Are you the boy my cousin told me about? That we knew each other before?"
I quickly said: "Oh, I didn't know him before, I guess not!"
She smiled politely and said, "Oh, that's right. Nice to meet you. My name is Bai Ling!"
I nodded and smiled lightly.
Liu Qian said: "Cousin, what do you think my friend looks like?"
"Oh, he's very handsome. Who's your boyfriend?" What she said was really heartless.
Liu Qian said: "After considering it, he is quite interesting to me, but I am not very interested in him. I don't like his type very much, but he -"
I touched Liu Qian's leg. I felt that Liu Qian was a little too much. How could I say this? I like her? Are you chasing her? Stop being so fucking narcissistic.
I said: "Oh, no, just an ordinary friend, Miss Bai, you——"
"Oh, just call me Sister Ling. I'm not young anymore. I'm Liu Qian's cousin. You and she are friends. You can call me cousin. Don't be too polite -"
I nodded and said, "Well, hello, cousin!"
She laughed, covered her mouth with her hand and said, "Your mouth is really sweet!"
### Damn it, did you realize that I have a sweet mouth? Aren’t I sweet? Weren’t the things I did to you sweet? You are so cruel. I spent so much effort to cure you, but you actually
Don’t you recognize me? You don’t recognize me anymore?
She smiled again, smiled at me and said, "How old are you this year?"
Liu Qian curled her lips and said, "Hey, cousin, you are really bad. You ask people their age when you see them. Do you have any ideas or what?"
"Fuck you, what are you talking about? I think this brother is a very honest and good-looking boy. If you can fall in love with someone, that will be your blessing. But I
Look, with your bad temper, people may not like you!"
"If you don't like me, how can I like you?" Liu Qian then said: "You said something bad about me in front of a handsome guy, don't you just want to have it for yourself? Right?"
"I don't think like you do? How old am I? Don't joke around. I like to be mature——"
### Damn it, ### Damn it, you actually said you like mature people? Why didn’t you say it before? Didn’t you say you liked me before? Now you don’t remember me, start telling me that you like mature people, isn’t that right?
Those old men?
Okay, it doesn’t matter, I think I should like the little girl too, right? What’s so good about you? I’m so good to you, and this is what it’s like in the end?
Seeing me in a daze, she seemed a little embarrassed. She thought I really liked her, so she hurriedly said: "Liu Qian, let's talk. I'll go home first and stay with my mother -"
Liu Qian hurriedly said: "Sister, please don't leave -"
"You guys can talk, you young people can play, I can't say anything -" Then, she turned to me and said: "Xiao Lin, I will treat you to dinner when I have time in the future, but I will immigrate to Canada soon.
If you have a chance, go there and play!”
I leaned there and nodded slightly without saying anything, and then smiled softly. I felt that she did look at me seriously, but just for a moment, she left. She stood up to leave, and Liu Qian seemed to want to follow
She talked about me, but Liu Qian didn't say anything in the end and walked away.
I turned my head to the side and looked out the window quietly, feeling overwhelmed and uncomfortable.
Suddenly, I stood up, Liu Qian took my hand and said, "What do you want to do?"
I stood there, my hand being held by her, and I said, "Does she really not remember me? Why doesn't she remember me? Why?"
"She really doesn't remember you, but she knows the boy named Lin. Even if she knows, she always feels unbelievable. She said that it is impossible for her to like someone younger than herself. It feels so unbelievable. Because she doesn't
Before she met you, she would never like a boy younger than herself. Now she is afraid of meeting that boy——"
I slowly closed my eyes, and I thought of what she had said before. She said that she had never thought that she would like a boy younger than herself.
If she doesn't remember me, then all her behavior now is normal.
After listening to Liu Qian's words, I seemed to accept it in my heart. If she doesn't like it, just don't like it. It's nothing. It's not a big deal. It's really nothing. If you don't remember it, you won't remember it. Can I pray for her to remember it?
Me? This kind of thing can only be left to fate. Even if she never remembers me, it is still fate.
Should I pursue her again just to make her continue to love me?
If the time and environment were changed, would she still fall in love with that boy?
I don't think so.
"Does she have a cell phone?"
"Do you want to call her?"
"Not necessarily, I just want to get off her phone number and I want to have a chance to talk to her -"
"I think it's not necessary anymore. If she doesn't remember you, she will only make you feel more painful, what do you think?"
I smiled and said, "Forget it if you don't give it, I'm leaving!"
"Are you just leaving like this? Don't you know that I also want to talk to you?" Liu Qian said.
I looked at Liu Qian and said, "I don't think there's much need. Between us, I think, do you think it's possible?"
"Why is it impossible? I'm not young now. Why, it's impossible for us? Do you dislike me very much?"
"No, I just feel a little tired and want to take a rest!"
"Okay, but don't think that I just like you. I just feel it. Why bother? You have done so much for her, and it's quite aggrieved to get this in the end. Don't always think about me like that, people will change."
Yes, I have changed now. I hope you can find my good side. Maybe one day, who can say clearly about fate?"
I nodded and said: "Maybe, I believe there will be such a day, maybe, but I think there is not much possibility for the time being!"
"You bastard, can you stop talking? Do you hate it or not? Don't you know why I haven't gotten married after so many years? Don't you know why I haven't gotten married?"
I said: "Really?"
"How come it's not true?" Liu Qian turned around and said coquettishly: "You just don't know other people's thoughts at all. Don't think that I don't have feelings. My mother always asks me to get married. Why don't I get married? I think
No one knows these things, that, that’s all because, because——”
"Because of me?" I felt that this was really incredible, incomprehensible and incomprehensible.
She said: "That's it. Whether you believe it or not, please don't laugh at people. I can give it to you if my cousin can give it to you. Later, after several contacts with you, I, I seemed to fall deeply in love with you."
You, especially that time, after you got hurt for me, I felt particularly uncomfortable and touched. I felt that I could never be like this again. If I like someone, I have to work hard to fight for it.
Get him, and now that person, that person is you!"
After listening to Liu Qian's words, I didn't know whether it was true or not, but I felt that it seemed to be true. But if these were true, then I, didn't I hurt her? I was stunned there, really speechless.
Spoken.
When facing Liu Qian, I don’t know how to answer her. I feel this makes me embarrassed. I feel that she is serious. Usually, the more girls don’t seem to be serious, once they become serious, it will be a big deal.
She may be trapped in it for the rest of her life and never be able to extricate herself.
I don’t want her to like me or love me. I feel like I can’t give her everything she wants. I once thought that Xiao Ni would be the woman who made me extremely embarrassed, but I didn’t expect that the woman who made things more difficult for me would be Liu.
Qian.
Liu Qian cried, she was serious, she really cried.
Facing her tears, I sat back again. After sitting back, I wanted to comfort her and wipe away her tears, but my hands trembled and I did not reach out.
"Liu Qian, Liu Qian, don't be like this, it's all my fault!"
She cried even more sadly, picked up the face value on the table and cried violently: "Why don't you understand all these years? I am not the bad girl you think. Since I committed suicide that time, you go and see
Me, I changed. I told myself I would never do that again. I really had no choice about what happened next. I just wanted to save my cousin. What could I have done wrong? There was nothing wrong with me, you know?
Lin Jiayi, don't look down on me, okay? No woman in this world will make mistakes. Why do you love my cousin so much when she also makes mistakes? Why can't you do it for me? You always carry that
A kind of contempt——"
I hurriedly said: "Liu Qian, I really don't look down on you. Those are what you think. Please believe me, okay? I'm not that kind of person. I never have been. Please believe in my heart. In my heart
, you are a very excellent and kind-hearted girl, but you are not who you say you are at all. Can you understand this?"
"I don't understand, I don't understand anything, I just know that you look down on me, look down on me. If you could look up to me, you wouldn't be like this at all. You are not gentle to me at all. My cousin is gone, you
I'm about to leave, do you take me seriously?"
I really can't do anything with her.
"Listen to me, you know that these two years of prison life have made me understand a lot. I am now very afraid of feelings. I can't afford love. I feel that it is too torturous. Not only you, but also other people, anyone.
Can you understand that I am afraid of falling in love with a woman? I am not what you think. At my current age, I am nearly thirty years old, and my mentality is already old. I--"