"It's okay, isn't this happy? Of course you have to drink a lot of wine to be happy. I'm very happy!"
"Is your mother seriously ill again?" Ye Zi asked with concern.
"No, it's okay, haha!" She must be really drunk.
I said: "Stop drinking, you are still young, why are you drinking so much wine? Stop drinking -"
"I don't want you to worry about it. I don't want you to worry about it. Go away and leave me alone!" She yelled, what's wrong with this little girl?
We no longer cared about her and let her drink until she drank so much that she couldn't move, and finally lay there and fell asleep slightly.
Looking at her like that, I felt a little pitiful for her.
Ye Zi seemed to be crying and said: "Hey, it's true. Ruirui is actually very pitiful. She is actually a very good person. She was not like this before. I don't know what happened tonight? Maybe her mother's condition has worsened again.
Come on, I really don’t know what to do—”
"What disease?"
"Leukemia, we can't find a bone marrow match now. Even if we find it, it will cost three to four hundred thousand. How can she get so much money? We don't have it either!"
When I heard this, I thought about it for a moment and didn't think much more about it.
After Ruirui drank too much, I opened a room above and carried Ruirui up. There was a girl who stayed with her. Ye Zi wanted to go with me at that time. She was very interested in me, but I declined.
I said I still had to go home and would contact me another day. She asked me for my number, and I gave it to her. After giving it to me, I laughed and said that it was inconvenient for me sometimes. She smiled and said, "I know, brother, I don't
He will be beaten randomly!”
After I got home that night, I fell asleep because I was really exhausted.
But that night, I had a dream, and I dreamed that Ruirui was Xiaoxuan. I thought this dream was all fake.
After this incident passed, I didn't think much about it in the next few days.
That day, I went to Shengtian International, the largest shopping mall in Chaotianmen, to buy milk powder and other things for my son.
I was walking around in the mall, pushing the car. Liu Qian has been busy recently. She needs to buy milk powder, diapers and other things for her children. I have to come in person.
There are many people in the mall every day, and it was just after 7pm at that time.
In the flow of people, I pushed the cart and just looked at children's products. Children's products are always very complicated. I looked here and there.
As I walked, I came to the non-children's products area. Of course, I haven't been to a mall for a long time, and I wanted to buy a razor. The original one was not very sharp.
It was at the place where razors were sold. Suddenly there was a voice.
"Ha, cousin!" I was looking at the razor at the time, and I thought to myself, who the hell calls me cousin? Liu Qian doesn't have a cousin. Suddenly, I felt that the voice was very familiar. I suddenly raised my head
Come, I saw a man. Just a man.
I know him. His name is Zhang Ming. When I was playing mahjong in Bai Ling, he was watching and later started fighting with me. I didn’t expect to meet him here. He even said hello to me. If it were someone else,
, definitely not, his mind is a bit different from ordinary people, but it can also be said that he doesn't care about anything.
But looking at him looking like a villain now, it seems like there is something good going on.
Of course I can't be too rude, that's not good either.
Originally, Sister Wang had already said that this open-burning fire stick had one end hot, so Bai Ling had no interest in him at all.
"Oh, it's you? What a coincidence!"
"Yeah, what a coincidence. Where are you buying razors? There are a lot of children's supplies here. Are they for your children? Liu Qian is hosting a new show again?" He said a lot in one sentence.
I smiled and said, "Well, yes, how about you, buy a razor too?"
"Oh, your cousin and I came over to have a look -"
At this time, suddenly a woman limped over from the other side in a hurry. She took a bag in her hand, which was men's clothes. She ran over in a hurry and said with a smile: "I bought it for you."
I bought it, and it’s actually not expensive!” She came over sideways, looking at the man’s clothes, while Zhang Ming kept looking at me and smiling, and finally said: “Your cousin!”
Bai Ling limped away again and turned around, and saw me.
I pushed the car there and looked at her quietly.
She staggered, her expression blank at first, then she smoothed her hair with her hands, smiled unnaturally and said, "Is it you?"
I was in so much pain that I could faint on the spot. It was like a heart attack, and if I didn't give the heart-saving pills quickly, I would collapse.
But thinking about everything that happened to her, her legs were lame, and she was beaten by Liu Qian that time. She was so pitiful and suffered so much injustice. Thinking of this, I seem to have some spiritual strength. Even if it is hypocrisy, even if it is disguise, I still sip
He opened his mouth, nodded, and said with a smile: "Well, hello, cousin, come to the mall!"
When she saw me smiling, she was stunned for a moment and then she smiled more naturally and said, "Well, you bought them for Dandan? There are so many!"
I felt that I couldn't stay. The machine in my heart was going to be paralyzed. If I didn't move, it would definitely stop turning. I hesitated and said, "Oh, yes, I, I have to go back quickly. You guys, just go shopping!"
"Cousin, why are you leaving in such a hurry? You haven't eaten yet. This is the time to eat. Let's go to eat together. We haven't eaten yet!"
"Oh, no, you can eat. I, the child is still waiting, oh, changing diapers -" I just smiled, and the woman said: "Oh, then go back early!"
"Yeah!" I turned around slowly and almost pushed the car onto someone else. It seemed that I bumped into someone, so I quickly said, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry!"
The old aunt said: "Why are you walking without paying attention?"
I said sorry a few more times, and then left in a hurry. After avoiding that place, I stopped there, gasping and thinking, what am I doing? Why didn't I do anything? Why didn't I have the courage to question in a place with so many people?
She, go crazy with him, go and keep her away from this man.
Normally, I would definitely do that, but why did I lose the courage this time?
I kept thinking about the scene of Liu Qian beating her over and over in my mind. Am I afraid? Am I guilty? Am I intolerable? Am I mature enough to care about her fate?
She is so pitiful, she is not easy, and I am like this? Why should I be so domineering to prevent her happiness? What reason do I have? That man is a university physical education teacher, and a university teacher should be okay, not too bad.
.Perhaps if you look at it from the perspective of your love rival, you will always feel that he is not a good man, but maybe he is not.
Maybe he is a very good man, how can I understand?
But, why does my heart hurt so much? ###|Damn it, I feel like I can’t walk anymore, so I hold on to the clothes hanger at a place selling clothes.
"Hey, sir, what are you doing? Are you buying clothes? Why are you holding the clothes hanger? You almost knocked me down -"
"Oh, sorry, sorry!"
I don't know how I walked out of the mall. I felt like the world was spinning and the air around me was so polluted that I couldn't breathe.
After finally getting to the car, I sat there motionless, then took out a cigarette with trembling hands and lit it like a drug addict.
Slowly and a little calmer.
Was she in a relationship or married? Did she love him? Did they live together? Was she slept with that man? They had sex...and then Bai Ling was like that to him, physically - I was going to collapse, I
Why am I no longer a child? Why is it still so difficult for me to accept this? I can't accept it.
Are the tears coming out? Damn it, Lin Jiayi, you useless man, all this is your retribution today, this is you letting someone down, you didn’t cherish yourself at that age, you have no principles,
You have slept with other women, this is the retribution you deserve!
Yes, is this really retribution? I feel my eyes are getting blurry. I smoked out one cigarette quickly, and then started to smoke the next one with trembling hands. There seemed to be no gap.
Bai Ling, do you know? Even if I am wrong, my heart hurts so much at the moment. I also know how painful it will be for you when your cousin and I get married? But you didn't even say that you endured it?
Why can't I bear it? Is it true that men's tolerance and tolerance are worse than women's? Yes, women are mothers, and women have a tolerance that men cannot possess.
This is something that men can never compare to.
I can't stand it anymore, I can't stand it.
Looking back now, it seems that I really couldn't live at that time. In fact, no matter how old a man is, how mature can he be? Maturity is for others to see. Whether it hurts or not, whether you cry or not, only you are the most mature.
clear.
Even at today's age, I still get astringent eyes when thinking about many past events. I think this is a problem I can never change.
This has nothing to do with a person's maturity or immaturity. I can bear so much suffering and so many disasters.
Have I suffered enough in these years? Those are nothing but the emotional pain that is unbearable.
I don't know how many cigarettes I smoked, and my mood seemed to be stable, but the pain in my heart didn't subside at all.
When I drove home, I couldn't cheer up at all.
Liu Qian was at home at the time. She had just returned from her shift that day.
After I gave the things to her parents, I went to the living room to smoke. Liu Qian would come out and look at me and say, "Have you lost your wallet?"
"What?" I said.
"Why are you so downcast? What happened?" Liu Qian quickly discovered something was wrong with me.
"Oh, nothing!"
"I heard that my cousin is in love, ha!" Liu Qian said with a smile after sitting down.
She did it on purpose, and I said, "That's good!"
"Are you unhappy?" Liu Qian was deliberately making things difficult for me.
I didn't answer her.
She added: "Are you really unhappy? As for that?"
I suddenly stood up suddenly and said loudly: "Is it over yet?" My voice was not particularly loud. Liu Qian also stood up suddenly and said: "It's not over, I just am not over. What's wrong? Are you unhappy?"