My hand slowly went down from her buttocks and squeezed gently. Then I laughed. Why should I laugh? I am a loser. Until now, I am still alone and I have not walked my own path well.
Lu, haven’t you loved a woman properly?
Why can some people face these matters between men and women with ease, while others have such a hard time escaping?
I have read what Master Li Ao Li from Taiwan said, it is easy for a woman to abandon a man, but it is difficult for a man to forget a woman. Who said that men don’t value love? They shouldn’t value love? There are so many beautiful beauties, but you will always be your favorite.
Those one or two, how could you forget them so easily?
We are all destined to be emotional animals.
How should a man with many beauties deal with these things? Why is it always so hard to forget in his heart?
She looked back at me, and I slowly looked up at her.
Eyes meet.
There is something cold in my heart, and there are some things that you have to think about, just like you don’t belong to a woman, but only to one woman, and how can a woman only belong to you for the rest of her life? This era is not the past, if there is still a past
I think people who think about it are very sad and helpless.
But love can belong to only one person.
She didn't speak, didn't say anything. I slowly returned my gaze to her chest, where I saw a beautiful and cute rabbit covering the other one. The rabbit was a little shy, and its
The owner was not shy, but his face was red.
She slowly stood up straight, then turned to me. I sat there and stared at her chest. She came closer to me little by little, gently pressed my head up with her hands, then touched my hair and said:
"That era is over, I'm getting married, brother, Xiaoxuan is getting married!" She touched me with her body, and then dreamed
I said dreamily: "You are destined not to belong to me, so I'd better give up first. Even if it wasn't the case, I would leave you to my sister. I'm still young, and she needs you more -" The two rabbits rubbed against my body.
Forgetting, I bit her gently. She suddenly hugged my head, pressed it and gasped, "No, no!"
I was thinking about the Yao family there, and I suddenly picked up Xiaoxuan. Xiaoxuan hugged my neck and panted very quickly. I put her on the table. The table was not very high, and for my size
Said. After I put her up, the light shone on her body. She closed her eyes, grabbed the edge of the table with both hands, and bit her lip with her teeth——
I looked at her body. At that moment, my instinct as a man, that unhappiness, that resentment, I invaded her body, caressed her, kissed her, and touched her mouth with my other hand. She bit me.
of fingers.
The little sheep screamed softly there, and I seemed to see the grassy field, the memory of the innocent age, the memory of that summer, the naval base on the seaside, the villa in the base compound, Xiaoxuan's innocent eyes
, so cute. At her grandfather's house, she forced herself to lie on top of me, looking very naughty. Later, she became pregnant and had a child. Her belly was slightly raised and she was wearing a pair of overalls.
Xiaoxuan has studied abroad, and the things she has been exposed to are still different from girls in China. She has an open side, but she is also conservative like Chinese girls. Therefore, at this time, even if she is unwilling or whatever,
The things she reveals are also different, and she has a little wildness in her.
Her body has not changed much from before, but her eyes have changed a lot.
Do you know how long it has been, too long, how many years have passed, I touched Xiaoxuan's skin again, the feeling is indescribable, not familiar, not strange, it is like tearing apart a dream, entering a time tunnel, returning to
In those wonderful scenes of the past, you know that in reality, we cannot go back to the past, but a woman will have a channel for you to enter, and then go back to the past and truly feel those memories of the past.
Just when I spread her legs, she suddenly covered it with her hands and said, "No, no, I'm sorry, I'm getting married -" I knew she might not resist much, but if I continued,
She would tell me, and I understood very well that what she said was just a woman's instinct to express her thoughts. It was not a rejection.
But I didn't do that. When she said that, I suppressed all my desires and left her suddenly. Then, I walked to the bathroom, stood in front of the mirror and flushed my face. Then, I stood there for a long time,
I want to wait until she gets to bed before I go out, or I decide to leave. I don't want to stay here anymore.
I started taking a shower, stood under the shower, and looked at myself in the mirror. After washing for a long time, I went out. After I went out, I wiped my head and saw Xiaoxuan lying on the bed, covered with a thin quilt, and the air conditioner was turned on.
Low.
She fell asleep quietly, and I said, "How about I go back?"
She said: "If you can open the door, go back!"
I walked to the door and worked there for a long time without getting it open. Finally she said, "Don't do it, it can't be opened. Come up and sleep. I'll call someone to fix it tomorrow morning!"
I sat back helplessly and sat on the bed. After getting on the bed, she went inside and turned her body to the other side. I lay down gently on the bed without covering myself with a quilt.
She gently pulled the quilt towards me. When she turned around, she stared at my body. I said, "There are a lot of scars on my body. I did this later. It's nothing. It's not."
It's not like being a gangster or anything like that, trying to be cool and cool!"
"It's quite beautiful, but a bit cold!" She turned around again.
After she turned around, I looked at her back and said: "Xiaoxuan, I thought about it and I hope you can live a good life. If he loves you very much, let the past things go. They are also good memories in your heart."
, right?”
"You should marry your sister. She is very pitiful alone. Don't dislike her. She also loves you. I know you can meet many beautiful girls. Yirou is better than your sister and is also beautiful. She loves you."
It's crazy, but I just feel that my sister is pitiful. Unlike us, she will tell us everything, but she won't say anything in her heart. If you dislike her, it feels like her legs are bad and she is not as young as Yirou.
, then forget it!”
I said: "Go to sleep and we'll talk about it later!"
There is no way to talk about these things.
We didn't talk anymore. I couldn't sleep. I had been suffering from insomnia for an hour or two. She fell asleep first. Looking at her sleeping there, it was great, little one, sleeping so soundly. Later I fell asleep too.
It was probably morning, the rain was still falling, and I was sleeping, but the touch made me wake up in confusion. I saw Xiaoxuan pressing on me, her hair scattered, she was not fully awake, pressing me,
The hand was caressing vaguely, but in fact there was no need to do that.
I hesitated and said: "Xiaoxuan, Xiaoxuan-" It seemed like I was in a dream.
"You, please don't move, don't move -" She also seemed to be in a dream, her hand guided the direction, I hugged her and said: "Xiaoxuan, you will regret it, don't, don't, obey me!" She actually said because of her impatience,
With a slight cry, she said: "Don't move, no--" She quickly sat on it, then pressed me down, hugged me, kissed me, rubbed against her face, and her light body
Moving very rhythmically, my hand gently landed on her buttocks. It was very smooth and just covered her hand. The force was very strong, with me as the reaction force, her hands wrapped around my neck and body.
I was making very powerful movements. I was a little sleepy, but even so, I couldn't fully wake up.
"For the last time, don't blame me, Lin Jiayi - brother -" She bit my shoulder and pressed her chest tightly against me, and then I instinctively gave it to her. She was now on my body like raindrops falling on the iron plate outside the window.
Bounce up.
Then I seemed to bounce the raindrops faster, until the rain stopped, all sounds disappeared, Xiaoxuan pressed on me, and then she didn't kiss me or do anything, she just left me gently.
Later, I fell asleep again and woke up again. Xiaoxuan was on the phone after getting dressed, "Well, yes, please!" After putting down the phone, she turned around and I looked at her quietly outside.
The rain is still falling. I don’t know when it will rain. The sky is overcast.
I remember the rain that day very clearly. You will understand why I remember the next thing so clearly.
"Go on to sleep!" she said without any expression.
I smiled and felt a little cold. Maybe I haven’t slept with a woman by my side for a long time. Men also like this feeling, especially now. I always sleep alone. I say I am used to loneliness, but in fact it is not.
I just have no choice. If there is a woman next to me, the feeling will be very warm, but I think that she no longer belongs to me, she is getting married.
That loss is inevitable.
"Come on!" I said.
She nodded, nodding obediently. Her complexion was very good, and she was still as cute as ever.
It's just that no one mentioned it again, as if it happened in a dream. They didn't talk about it, and they didn't give each other a look to indicate that they had gone through it. They were all avoiding it. As long as each other knew it in their hearts, it would be fine.
Looking at Xiaoxuan, the kind of distant thoughts, the kind of thoughts that are separated by a layer of mist, will make people's hearts move even more. Of course, my heart is also a little hurt.
She gently opened the CD player on the table, and what came from it was "Don't Lose, Don't Forget". It seemed that everything was prepared for the scene at this moment. When I heard this music, I seemed to hear her
It's saying, don't lose it, don't forget it.
I turned my head to the side. I wonder if it was the rainy night that gave me a cold, otherwise my nose was sore and my head hurt slightly.
We no longer talk to each other. I don't like this feeling. I would rather not see her at my grandfather's place. I don't like this feeling of separation between life and death, or the feeling of reluctantly giving up love. This feeling makes me very afraid.
Someone came to unlock the door.
How could she do this? She threw away the key just to keep me here. I don't know if she planned all this.
I got up to take a shower, and she sat there quietly listening to the song, sitting quietly. I finished taking a shower, put on the clothes, and the unlocker hadn't come yet.
I took out my cigarette and walked to the window to smoke. The rain was pattering outside, the air was cool, and I felt very comfortable. But my heart felt like the cold weather.
"You can smoke less, it's not good for your health!" Xiaoxuan said.
I nodded and said, "I keep talking about quitting, but I just don't have the ambition. My dad once said, if you can't even quit smoking, what big thing can you accomplish? But how big a thing can a man accomplish? As a human being,
Once that part is settled, it’s a big deal. Eating, dressing, and living life are all big things!”
"You are much more mature than before. You are just like grandpa. You start to like to talk about truth——"
I said: "Do you love grandpa?"
"Of course -" She stopped suddenly and said no more.
I slowly looked back at Xiaoxuan. Xiaoxuan put her hands on her legs and sat there quietly, looking at me.
"Ke Jingxuan!"
She smiled and turned her head to the side.
And when I turned around again, I suddenly saw a car parked downstairs. I remember that Yirou Sange also drove this car. Maserati, there were not many people driving this car, so I saw that car
, gray, and all the same color. I suddenly became nervous, nervous because of things like the wedding.
But now the door cannot be opened.
Maybe what is supposed to come is destined to come.