I had a premonition that I would leave tomorrow, and then I didn’t know when I would be able to come back. I decided to leave, and in that long dark night, I decided to leave, leaving my most beloved women. I knew that this farewell, I immediately
Not only them, but also the past events and life of so many years, I have to leave.
How reluctant you are, how nostalgic you are, but you have to leave. For that lover, I don’t want to flaunt my greatness. A man like me is not a good man, but how many men can do it in front of them?
To that kind of traditional good man
What about people? I always ask myself, am I bad? How bad am I? Why, after so many years, I still can’t be free and easy, and I still can’t let go, but the primitive things in my bones keep coming back again and again.
Facing me and facing them, why should I be sentimental?
But when I think about it, I find it ridiculous. Since ancient times, how many men have been able to handle this matter well?
I didn't fall asleep, so I lay in the living room and called Da Mao. I asked Da Mao to pick me up. After Da Mao arrived, I waited for him downstairs. When I came out of the room, I stood in the living room for a long time.
Finally he reluctantly left.
After seeing me downstairs, Da Mao said: "Brother, do you really want to go?"
I sat in the car and smoked a cigarette and said, "Well, I don't know what to do here. Even if nothing happens to her, I don't know if I should exist among them. This is okay -"
"Aren't you afraid that they will be sad?"
I said: "Life is a sad process. There will always be sadness. Sooner or later, there may be as much pain as there is happiness. This may be good for each of us!"
"A bit cruel——"
I smiled and said, "Maybe, let's drive, go to the airport, and take the early flight!"
"Brother, I'll go with you!" Da Mao said.
I hurriedly said: "Da Mao, no, Xiaoye is pregnant. You have to stay by her side. I'm safe now. Also, I'm afraid my eldest brother won't be able to arrange a wedding for you. Let's organize the wedding while Xiaoye hasn't given birth yet."
, you can’t listen to her, her family must be anxious, you have to understand this!”
Da Mao nodded and said: "Brother, our matter is not a big deal, but after you go, he will definitely make more demands. What if he asks you to marry his daughter?
"
I said, "Wouldn't that be great? Is there anything?"
Da Mao looked at me and said, "Maybe, but in that case, eldest sister will not forgive you!"
I said: "I don't ask her to forgive, I just want her not to go to jail. She can do whatever she wants. If she can come out, she will go to see a man every day. I won't care. Don't say she hates me. I hate her."
I, I can’t feel it either, so what’s the matter!”
"Brother, you have changed——"
I said: "I haven't changed. I'm still me. It's because I'm still me. Things changed too fast and I was too slow. Da Mao, don't blame me. I know you are good to your eldest sister and have feelings for her.
But what should I do? Should I watch her go to jail for ten years? Is there anything I can do? At this time, we can accept everything, have passion, love, and have everything.
, why do you still care so much?”
"But women don't think like that, women have women's thoughts!"
Da Mao is right. Yes, a woman has a woman’s thoughts. She will definitely hate me and blame me, but can she understand a man? Men also have men’s thoughts. Who can understand a man’s thoughts?
?In short, these are very helpless things.
Da Mao drove me to the airport. Sitting in the car, I looked at the dark night sky outside. There were no people on the streets. The whole Bincheng seemed so quiet. For the first time, I felt that Bincheng can be lonely too.
, I think this night is just like Bai Ling, she is in prison, how should she survive? It is such a lonely and miserable night, she is alone in prison, is she cold? Has she eaten? Can she sleep?
The bed board inside must be very hard. She was suffering inside. Thinking of this, I didn’t dare to think about it. My heart was broken. I couldn’t stay for almost a moment. I couldn’t bear to let her suffer like this for a day.
My heart will hurt so much. As long as I can save her, I will do anything.
Thinking about it this way, I only have one thought, which is to let her come out. This is my belief and this is what I must do.
When we arrived at the airport, I had to take the five o'clock flight in the morning. Da Mao was waiting for the plane with me. He bought some wine and we drank it in the resting area.
While chatting there, Da Mao thought I should make a call to Xiaoxuan and Yirou, but I didn’t know what to say. I knew I couldn’t make this call. But having said that, I don’t know how things will develop in the future.
No one can say for sure. Maybe I can come back easily, Bai Ling comes out, and we can still live together. Such a happy thing is not impossible.
When I got on the plane, Da Mao hugged me. I saw his eyes were moist. He finally shed tears and said: "Brother, you really don't know how much the eldest sister and Xiao Xuan Yirou love you. You do this."
, Really, you can't marry that woman, you will hurt them, my eldest sister will risk her life for you, do you know?"
I nodded, patted his shoulder and said: "Brother, having you as a good brother in this life is worth everything. Da Mao, take this card, think of it as a red envelope from me to you and Xiaoye, take it
!" Damao looked at the card and said: "Brother, I don't want it. I'm not with you for money or getting rich. I'm not short of money either. You know, if you think it's because of money, then we brothers still do it.
What-" I nodded and said, "Okay, you can do it. In the end, the eldest brother is no longer a human being, so go back!"
Da Mao nodded, and when I was about to walk away, Da Mao said to me: "Brother, don't forget eldest sister!"
I nodded, and then we disappeared from each other's sight.
I got on the plane. On the plane, I was really sleepy, and then I fell asleep. I didn’t think about anything anymore. I knew that since I left like this, I should throw away all the memories and become someone else.
Go on your own.
The plane landed in Beijing, and someone sent by Uncle Long came to pick me up. After I got in the car, I felt in good spirits. I looked at the sunshine outside. When the car drove through the central gate, I looked at such a majestic building and felt that the south
It's so far away from me.
Xiao Zhang said to me: "Brother Lin, the leader said yesterday that you wouldn't be able to come today. I didn't expect you to come so soon -" I laughed and said, "Yes, do I dare not to come? How is the second lady?"
"
"I miss you every day and look for you every day. If you don't come, she will go crazy. She is in love with you. This is the first time I know that a woman falls in love with a man and needs a man like this. Brother Lin
, to be honest, there is nothing wrong with it. The second lady is so beautiful. Besides, this is something that many men dream of, don’t you think?"
I said, "That's right, but I don't quite understand what it means. You want me to marry her?"
"I'm afraid the chief has this intention. One day, the second young lady said that I want to be with you forever. The chief seems to have told me, but it depends on you. If you don't agree, it's impossible. You will definitely be with me now.
It’s not the past, it’s freedom and equality now!”
That's what I say, but many times there will be a way to make it impossible for you to choose.
Finally, we arrived at the villa. Xiaomo was still living there. She didn't live with her family, but the villa was very lively. She could already walk around. She looked particularly sunny and healthy. Her sister and her parents were all happy.
Now, when she saw me getting out of the car, she stood there for a long time, then ran towards me wearing a skirt and holding the skirt in hand. Looking at her, I felt so familiar!
It's so familiar, so familiar that I have a hunch that maybe I will have a different story with her.
One day, I believe in fate. I believe that everything that happens when a person comes to this world is destined. Which step to take and when to take are not something you can control. They all have to be experienced step by step.
And where will the story develop next?
I started to have too much curiosity and expectations about my life.