I took a taxi to my godmother's place. She was already home. I saw that the door was open. I bought some gifts for my godmother on the roadside. When she saw me coming, my godmother hurriedly came up to greet me and said, "Xiao Lin——"
I put down my things, walked over and hugged my godmother suddenly. I hugged my godmother as if I was hugging Bai Ling. I hugged my godmother for a long time. After my godmother left me, her eyes were moist.
He looked at me and said, "My good son, you are making me want to die. How are you doing?" I nodded and said, "Well, mother, I'm fine, how are you?" Godmother.
I nodded and smiled. In fact, I knew that her life must be not good, and she must be thinking about her old daughter every day. I said: "Mom, sit down, I came in time, just buy something -" "You
Why are you buying these? Let my mother take a good look at it -" She looked at me and said: "You are so worried about your sister's affairs, my mother knows it, you are a stupid child, what are you doing?
Why bother!" I said: "Mom, it's nothing, I didn't do anything, don't think about it that way, everything I did was what I should do, and it really didn't take any effort at all.
It’s hard on my sister, but she can come out in less than a year. Mom, don’t worry, it’s no big deal. She’s still young. After she comes out, we won’t do business anymore, so we’ll let her live a good life.
, do nothing else, if she needs money or something, I will give it to her——"
My godmother felt uncomfortable when she heard this. She held my hand and said, "Xiao Lin, my mother is really not sad for her, but for you. You are so caring. You make me think about you day and night."
I can't sleep. Your affection for your sister is rare in the world. Even if she is in it, she should be smiling. How can anyone be as lucky as her? Mom is not sad, I really am not sad. All these years, the stormy girls have come here.
Now, do you still care about this? If you don't care, sit down quickly!" She pulled me to sit down. After I sat down, I looked at the house. Although this place has always been like this, there are no good decorations, and the house is old, but you
You know? It’s like everything is changing but here remains the same, giving people a strong sense of belonging.
"Godmother, where is uncle?"
The godmother smiled and said: "He, he went out to the park to play chess with others. Originally, he asked me to go to Xiamen with him. With your sister like this, it was hard for me to go, so I didn't go -"
I said: "Well, mother, I have found someone to take care of my sister. In this way, you can visit her at any time in the future. It's okay. As long as you want to go, you can just go -" Godmother said: "Xiao Lin
, how much did you do for your sister, and how are you doing?" She asked me this again, and I understood what she meant. She might know that I was married to someone else, and thought I must be.
I had wronged myself, but actually I had no grievance at all. I said, "That's good, mother, can you promise me something?" My godmother said, "Say it, and mother will promise you!" I said:
"My choice to get married is my choice. She is also very nice and beautiful. She has no grievances. Also, when you go to see my sister, you must not say anything about it. Even if she knows about it in the future, you must say it.
I am living a good life, I am indeed living a good life, I will show it to you one day, so there is no such thing as grievance, really!"
After hearing this, my mother said: "Well, Xiao Lin, my mother promises you that she will never say anything. And if you really live a good life, your mother will be happy. After all, she is a little girl. And her family has such ability, so my mother will be happy too."
, that's right, I'm still afraid of you. If your sister comes out in the future, you have to live a good life. You can't think about it anymore. Your sister is worth it in this life. She is content. As for you, you are
Don't think about the past anymore. What you have done for your sister is enough. Just live a good life and have another child. It would be best to have a daughter. Do you think that's okay?"
I nodded and said with a smile: "Yeah, okay, mom!"
Hearing my godmother say this, I felt very comforted. Yes, I should live a good life, and we should all feel that it is worth it. After all, we have loved and given, and it is all worth it. There are no regrets.
"Xiao Lin, when your sister comes out, I want to take her to Xiamen. Your uncle said that Xiamen is very good, it is very quiet and the environment is good. The scenery on Gulangyu Island should not be too beautiful. Last time I went to see your sister,
She said she also likes it there, and your uncle also wants her to go there. When the time comes, let her go there. If you miss your mother, you can go over and see us when you have the chance. It’s not very far from here anyway—"
I heard my godmother say this, and I thought, yes, this is good. It would be good if she could live in another place, away from Bincheng, a place of right and wrong. This place is not suitable for her, and I don’t think it is suitable for me either.
, not even suitable for us.
I said: "Well, mother, it's good. When she comes out, you can ask her to come with you. If I have time, I will go see you. My sister is still young. If there is a suitable one, you can ask her to look for her."
Personally, I feel that the environment in Xiamen is pretty good and the people are probably nice too. If I can find someone to accompany me until I grow old and live a good life, that would be great too!"
The godmother seemed to feel very sad when she heard this. She wiped her eyes and said, "Xiao Lin, why do you love others so much? Tell me, why do you feel so uncomfortable? Xiao Lin, you have to be good and know that
"I hate myself. If I had given birth to this girl a few years later, she would be as old as you -" I want my godmother to feel uncomfortable after seeing what I did to Bai Ling because of our affairs. She is also a woman.
She knows that men are so kind to women. Many times, this kind of kindness has surpassed everything. You feel uncomfortable but have no choice. Faced with such a cruel reality, you can only endure and bear it. Maybe nothing else can be done.
Do, nothing can be done.
I said: "Mom, don't be sad. It's not a big deal. Humans always have to face a lot of helplessness in their lives. And as I grow up, I know more than before and I can understand people better. Of course
As for my sister, she can also understand that she has actually given a lot to me over the years. We both know in our hearts that it is not that important whether we are together or not. In fact, we both hope that we can live well. Of course, I am living a good life now.
Very good, really good. I am living so well. I think if she knew, she would also be happy. After my sister comes out, we will basically put an end to all the bad things in the past and in the future.
Okay, you and your uncle will hold another wedding, and I will come to attend. Mom, do you agree?" After hearing this, the godmother said embarrassedly: "It's so old, why should we hold it? But it's your uncle's wedding.
I have been talking about this, and his children also want this. His children came here once, and their two sons and one daughter came to see me. They were all very good to me and treated me like my own mother. I felt very good about it.
It's comfortable, son, don't worry, if my mother still holds a wedding, I'm telling you, leave me a phone number, and if you have time, you can come over and have fun, okay?"
I said, "Yeah, okay, mom!" I gave my godmother my phone number. I thought I gave it to her in such a hurry because I still wanted to see Bai Ling again?
Perhaps I know best in my heart that I really want to see her, but maybe I won't go to see her for reasons I can't explain.
I gave my godmother my phone number. After telling her the number, I helped her go to the kitchen to see if there was any unsafe place. In the past, there was no man in the house. Sometimes the valve was loose and they didn’t know it. Sometimes the gas was not available.
Yes, of course it's better now. It's all automatic, so it's much more convenient than before.
My godmother chatted with me casually, and I walked to the room where Bai Ling lived. When I opened the door, I saw the scene in the room. Everything had not changed. It was still the same as before. The quilts were neatly folded.
, there are some books on the table, some of her cosmetics next to the books, and her clothes in the closet next to them——
You know? When you see these things for the person you love, things used by women, and now she is not here, she is in prison, how do you feel? It's very complicated, uncomfortable, and also a little warm, like
Leaning on her clothes and lying quietly on her bed is like holding her and being with her. It feels very beautiful and warm.
I walked to her desk quietly and looked at everything on the desk. I looked at the drawer and found that the drawer was not locked. When she was arrested for the second time, I was not with her. My godmother said that she was
She was taken away from home. At that time, she could have left alone and gone abroad. But I disappeared at that time. How could she leave? It was impossible for her to leave. If she left, it would not be her. She chose
Stayed and chose to wait.
The godmother said: "By the way, your sister asked me to tell you when she left. She said that the child was still there, and one day someone wrote her a letter telling her about it. This letter is here -" I
He hurriedly asked: "Where is it?" The godmother said: "I don't know where it is, and I don't know who wrote the letter. It just told her that the child was still there, and didn't say anything else-"
My godmother found the letter from the drawer, and she brought it to me. I took the letter suddenly, and then looked at the content of the letter. It was very short, just one sentence, and it said: I
Knowing that your child is still alive, I can only tell you this. The child is very cute, but I really can't bear it.
There are no other words except these. I wonder who the person who wrote the letter is? There is also a sense of conscience. The words look a bit like a man's words, not quite like a woman's. But there is no address on the letter.
There is not even a contact number or any contact information, so why did this person write this letter? Is it really just out of his heart? Of course, no matter what, this news is happy. I think if I can find this
Child, Bai Ling will be very happy if she has this child by her side in the future. Even if the man she loves is not around, she will definitely be extremely happy. I know her very well.
I sat on the bed and put the letter into my pocket, and then said to my godmother: "Mom, don't worry, I will look for the child, and my future sister will come out. If you want to find the child, or what happened to the child,
Do you want to tell me in time?" The godmother nodded, "I don't intend to go see Bai Ling. I think the godmother also felt it, but she didn't say anything. I don't think I can go see her, I
I can't face the scene when I go to see her, and she will definitely question me. In that case, I don't know how to answer. Those are all things I can't face. It's better not to go see her and never see her again.
Well, in that case, no matter what happens in the future, everyone will understand in their hearts.
I sat at my godmother’s house for a while. Later, I was afraid that Xiaomo would leave after waiting too long. My godmother wanted to keep me there for dinner, but I didn’t stay. When I left, my godmother said: “Hey, look at me.
I forgot all the important things. Your mother was hospitalized. I went to see her once. She didn’t ask for anything she bought. She brought it all back to me. Xiaolin, take this thing to your mother. Your mother
He is a good person. Even though we two sisters met for the first time, we are still destined to be together -" I smiled and said: "Godmother, you said you let me take care of you, you are also my mother, and there is also my mother over there, so I will.
You should be filial, mother, no need, I'm leaving now and I'll come see you in a few days. I'm not in a hurry to leave when I come back this time. I'll come over at any time -" "Then you can come over. If you come over, you
Bring my daughter-in-law here, and then we’ll go to a big hotel for dinner—" I smiled and nodded.
After coming out of my godmother's place, I didn't take a taxi and leave immediately. Instead, I walked around the park opposite for a while. At my godmother's house, I started to miss Bai Ling a little. I thought I should go see her. I really wanted to go.
Look at her, I really want to, but I’m afraid to look at her. How easy it is to look at her. I can go at any time, but why can’t I use those legs? I know what kind of problems I will face if I go to see Bai Ling.
, I was really scared of that scene. I was afraid of seeing those eyes of hers. It can be said that I was particularly scared.