Chapter 397 The only thing I hate is my cowardly self
Chapter 397: What I hate is my cowardly self
"Qiu Zixuan, it's you, it's you who caused my mother to suffer so much." Zhichen took out a knife from his arms, threw himself at Zixuan, and stabbed Zixuan clumsily in the body.
Luo Qing screamed violently and rushed towards Zixuan.
In the midst of the electric light and flint, Zixuan stretched out his long arm and pulled Luo Qing into his arms. He turned slightly sideways and swung out his other hand fiercely. Zhichen's whole body was thrown out, and the knife
, also fell on his side. He arched his body in pain and coughed violently.
"Are you going to die?" Zixuan growled at the frightened little woman in his arms, but when he touched her panicked and aggrieved eyes, he sighed, "Okay, okay, it's okay."
Luo Qing didn't know how she could be so brave and wanted to block the knife for Zixuan. At that moment, her mind went blank. Only the knife stabbing Zixuan could be seen. She pounced on it almost instinctively.
There was no time to think more.
Zixuan slightly hugged the trembling body in his arms tightly, making her almost hang on his body. What he didn't dare to admit was that at that moment, he was frightened by Luo Qing's rushing towards him. If he hadn't reacted quickly,
, that knife might be inserted into her body now. Thinking of this, he couldn't help but get angry. Can't this little woman just stay aside?
"If you can, lock me up forever, otherwise, I will definitely kill you and avenge my mommy." Zhichen covered his chest, his face was pale, and his fiery eyes were full of hatred.
"Revenge? Qiu Zhichen, are you talking about a joke?" Zixuan raised the corners of his lips, glanced at the people present, his thoughts were flowing, and he looked at him and said, "Shen Manwen brought the blame on himself."
"You're talking nonsense." Qiu Zhichen shouted excitedly, his whole body trembling, "It's you, it's your mommy, it's you who took away my mommy's happiness."
Zixuan has never been a kind-hearted person. Originally, he had some affection for this brother who had been silent since he was a child. He wanted to find an opportunity to send him to live abroad, but he did not expect that he was not who he thought he was.
That young man who blushes easily, come to think of it, how could he not learn anything in twenty years in the Qiu family? Didn't he learn how vicious and cold the Qiu family is?
"Because of your mommy's words, my mommy and daddy were separated for fifteen years. You only saw your mommy's love but couldn't get it. So what about my mommy? She was forced to leave the ground where she grew up and go to
In another completely unfamiliar country, a woman takes care of a child alone. Do you know how much suffering she has suffered in the past fifteen years? Do you know the feeling of hunger? Do you know the feeling of being so cold that your limbs hardly feel like your own?
Do you know what it feels like for a person to work 24 hours a day, do you know how hard it is for a woman to work five jobs at the same time, do you know how sad it is to be laughed at by everyone but still try to survive?" Zixuan's voice was dull.
There was a loud noise, but almost everyone who heard it lowered their heads silently. Qiu Yiqing hugged his beloved wife tightly in his arms. He didn't know everything, but he heard Zixuan speak with his own ears about the sadness of their mother and son relying on each other.
, he still couldn't help but feel sad.
"I..." Zhichen murmured, and was speechless by Zixuan. He really didn't know the taste of hunger and cold. Although he felt sorry for himself, he had never suffered real hardship. Even if he was not liked by his family, he still
He is still living a life of fine clothing and fine food, he is a descendant of the Qiu family, and he has countless servants to serve him.
"You said you are in pain? Haha, do you know what real pain is? Have you ever experienced it? A young man like you who doesn't understand anything and feels like the end of the world is the slightest setback. Do you know that every day in this world? How many people have died because they didn't have enough to eat, do you have the right to complain here?" Zixuan looked at Zhichen coldly, with disdain flashing in his eyes, "Do you know how many people Shen Manwen has brought to life? Misfortune? If it weren’t for her, my second uncle’s beloved woman would not have died. My second uncle would not have been decadent for so many years, nor would I have broken up with my grandfather for so many years. If it weren’t for him, my father and mother would not have been separated for so many years. My mommy was very lucky back then, so maybe they were separated forever. Do you really think your mommy really loves daddy? Let me tell you, not at all. She just wants the rightful lady's throne. She wants It’s the Qiu family, it’s the power, it’s the status.”
"No, it's not like that..." Zhichen fell into a trance, covered his ears and refused to listen to Zixuan's words, and screamed, refusing to listen to Zixuan's words.
"You're obviously the one who sees it most clearly, aren't you? You remember all the bad things your mommy has done over the years, don't you?" Even if you know that your words are cruel, no one would want them to Mommy is accused like this, even if she did something wrong, she is still her mommy.
"Please stop talking." Zhichen kept shaking his head and shouting.
Qiu Yiqing frowned slightly, and Su Xueyin walked out of his arms and pulled Zixuan's sleeves, "Forget it, don't irritate him anymore."
This child was actually very pitiful. A flash of distress flashed through Su Xueyin's eyes. He was originally a frail and sickly child, but now he curled up again, as if he had received a huge blow, and growled in pain, as if he had been hurt. Wounded beast.
"Qiu Zhichen, don't think of yourself as so pitiful. Compared with those truly pitiful people, you are nothing." Zixuan's contemptuous tone flew into Zhichen's ears, but he was completely unaware of it. , just kept shaking his head.
"I hate you... I hate you..." I also hate myself, my cowardice, and my kindness. I know clearly that Mommy is wrong, but I still can't help but hate those who hurt her. I hate it so much. I hurt those who hurt my mommy, but in the end I couldn’t bring myself to truly take revenge.
The remaining sense of justice and a little kindness tortured him, a man whose mind had long been blinded by hatred.
"Are you happy if you hurt others?" Luo Qing suddenly spoke, with clear indifference in her eyes. She was very angry that he hurt Nian Xuan and Mu Qing, but this one curled up into a ball and cried like a child. People like her also made her feel distressed. She thought of herself in the past, who was also so weak and helpless in pain. The person she hated the most was actually herself. She spurned her own weakness and felt inferior, wishing that she had never existed in this world. Pass.
"Happy? How can I be happy?" Zhichen smiled bitterly, how could he be happy if he hurt others? Carrying a heavy cross, he thought that he had become the kind of person he hated most, a scheming and vicious person. , venting anger on innocent people, such people used to be what he hated the most, but now, he has finally become the kind of person he hates the most.
"If that's the case, why bother?" A voice that sounded like a sigh or regret slowly came out of Luo Qing's mouth.
But Zhichen just curled up and cried silently, in pain and despair.