Su Moli didn't speak, but gently raised his hand and stroked his hair.
After the two of them clung to each other tightly for a long time, Xu Nuo said in a low voice: "Actually, I'm not as happy as you see on the surface. That's all my surface. It's what I try hard to think about."
I am just pursuing the mental outlook that I strive to present in front of you. The real me is full of haze in my heart and full of despair for this world. I wanted to live this short and meaningless life like this, but I didn’t expect you.
But you appeared. You awakened my desire to survive and made me miss living in this world. I originally thought that it would be enough for you to have me and me to have you. We would be happy and safe because of each other's existence.
Happiness. It's a pity that I thought too simply, but I still can't get rid of the shackles of my fate! I'm not afraid that I will die because of it, but I'm just afraid that I can no longer accompany you and take care of you."
"Dead?" Su Moli couldn't help but shudder when he heard this shocking word.
"Yes. All descendants of the Xu family must face a fate that no one can escape." Xu Nuo smiled bitterly, "I once thought I could selfishly escape, but I didn't expect that in the end, this fate would still fall on me.
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"Xu Nuo, what have you gone through?" Su Moli felt extremely distressed and hugged him tighter.
"Ever since I was born, I was told that I had a congenital heart disease and that I could not engage in strenuous exercise or be stimulated. However, despite this, I was sent to a very special place like other boys in the family to study.
I learned various fighting skills and learned the use of various firearms. Although my life hung on the line many times, I finally survived. I originally thought this was just because my grandfather was worried that I would be assassinated because I had no ability to protect myself, but
Unexpectedly, when I just turned eighteen, I would be publicly announced by my grandfather as the future head of the Xu family. That year, my parents died in a car accident. On the surface, it looked like an accident, but I knew that
It was not an accident, because the brake was found to have been tampered with. But my grandfather acquiesced that it was an accident. I felt very strange. I am the future leader, why were my parents killed instead of
Me. So, one night, I went to find my grandfather and wanted to know why. Unexpectedly, I overheard the conversation between my grandfather and my cousin Xu Zirao at the door of the study. Only then did I know,
It turns out that since I was born, my grandpa has regarded me as a dead person. The reason why he praised and doted on me miserably in front of everyone and asked me to practice various skills like other brothers is because he liked me more.
It’s not just for me to protect myself, but he wants everyone to think that he wants to choose me to be the head of the Xu family. Faced with a guy like me who may die from an unexpected stimulus anytime, anywhere, the Xu family
Ambitious people simply don't bother to take action themselves. They know that my death will be a matter of time, and taking action will only expose themselves prematurely. To put it simply, I am just a puppet, a puppet who wants to protect the true head of the Xu family.
Puppet. The other members of the Xu family always hope that I will die unexpectedly, but grandpa hopes that I can live for a few more years. He does not really care about me or love me, but just hopes that I can carefully cultivate the true heir of the Xu family for him.
Give me more time. You see, I am actually such a pathetic existence." At this point, Xu Nuo smiled bitterly.
Su Moli never expected that Xu Nuo's life would be so miserable. She had always thought that Xu Nuo's sunshine and gentleness were all because he had never been frustrated or hurt since he was a child. He was a person who lived up to his reputation and grew up in a honey pot.
Young Master, I didn’t expect that he, who seemed so bright and sunny on the surface, was actually hiding such huge pain.
No wonder Mr. Xu didn't want to tell her anything about the promise. Did he also feel that what he had done was too despicable, shameless and ruthless, and he felt guilty?
This time I came here to proactively help Xu Nuo. Do you want to make up for your debt to Xu Nuo?
It's just that the damage has been done, is it useful to do this now?
Su Moli wanted to comfort Xu Nuo, and wanted to tell him not to remember those things anymore and let the past go forever, but he felt that those words were too pale and weak.
She could only hug him tightly, and hug him tighter, trying to use her body temperature to tell him that he still had her.
Xunuo felt the distress in her heart, so he hugged her back tightly and continued to say slowly: "That night, I lost control. I kicked the door open and yelled at my grandfather who turned around in shock. I said a lot.
If it was too much, I would run away from home. I was penniless, and Qianmu, who was still studying here at the time, helped me. I hid in his apartment and wallowed for a full month, but he patiently accompanied me, even though
He talked little, but his company finally gave me some comfort. A month later, I sold a newly developed game software and got a pot of gold, and then used the funds to set up a job
After several years of hard work and hard work, the room has reached its current size. Life has become calmer. I thought I could finally get rid of the bad luck that was imposed on me, so when I see you, I feel happy because of you.
At the moment when my heart was pounding, I bravely began to pursue you, and therefore I had a further desire for life. I only hoped that I could protect you, hold your hand and walk through this life peacefully and happily. It's a pity.
, I thought too simply. Grandpa was not willing to let me go. He contacted me frequently half a month ago and asked me to go back and have a good talk with him, saying that he had something important to tell me. I refused because
Although I am not in the Xu family, I have always been very aware of the dynamics of the Xu family. Xu Zirao was assassinated and became a fool without any ability. Grandpa's half-life hard work was ruined, but he was not willing to fail. He wanted to
Re-cultivate a new heir, but before that, he still needs my half-dead grandson to protect him as before. Everyone thought that I abandoned him at the beginning, but they never knew that it was him who abandoned him from the beginning.
I, I, promise, am just a valuable chess piece of his that can be abandoned or sacrificed at any time. Xu Zirao’s accident made him decadent and desperate for nearly a month. I think if something happened to me, he would not
It will be a little bit sad.”
At this point, Xu Nuo stopped sadly again.
"Grandpa came here this morning, right? Is this why you sent me away?" Su Moli asked softly.