"If you really want to talk about it, maybe it's my fault." She smiled bitterly in a low voice, "I was so obsessed with him that I lost all reason. Grandpa granted me a marriage, but Yi Ningxiu has never liked me.
But he agreed. I was so happy that I married him without even thinking about it." She glanced at Xu Zui and shook her head, "Later he told me that he married me only because Su Qingqing refused at the beginning.
I just wanted to get back at her by marrying him. If it hadn’t been for me, they would have gotten married long ago when I returned from my studies in Qingqing a year later.”
Xu Zui reached out and patted her on the head, looking at her with a bit of hatred: "Silly girl, what stupid words are you talking about? It's obviously them who did the wrong thing, what does it have to do with you? He wanted to retaliate against Su.
Qingqing, even your life's happiness has been sacrificed. This kind of man is so selfish, why do you blame yourself? Su Qingqing rejected Yi Ningxiu herself. She went abroad for a year, why should others waste time waiting for her? She thought
Who are you? What do you want to do?"
Su Qian smiled and shook her head: "I don't blame myself. I just regret falling in love with him."
I regret falling in love with a man who can't even see my own heart clearly, causing myself to fall into this miserable situation in my life.
In the past, I might have been able to tell myself that I had never regretted falling in love with Yi Ningxiu, but now, this sentence no longer holds true.
She truly regretted it.
Her life became a mess because of that man, and in the end, nothing was left.
She couldn't predict what the past would be like without Yi Ningxiu, but what was certain was that it would never be worse than now, and even her own life would not be guaranteed.
Xu Zui looked at the smile on her face and felt inexplicably distressed. Her good friend had been hurt perhaps much more deeply than she imagined. The wound was still bloody and rotting after five years.
"Do you still love him?" She held her hand and asked in a low voice.
Su Qianqian looked away from the outside. She looked at Xu Zui's face and chuckled: "Loving him may be a habit that I will never be able to quit in my life. I once wanted to find someone casually.
Fall in love, get married, have children, forget the past, and start over..." She paused and sighed, "But I know this is impossible. There is no past that can be returned, and there is no past that can be forgotten.
love."
Her love is a scar carved into the bone marrow. Life will never die and love will never stop.
If he could be forgotten so simply, it would have been impossible to love him to death.
"Xu Zui, I have never hated someone so much in my life, but I will never love someone so much again."
Xu Zui stared at her pale face. Su Qianqian's eyes were so helpless. She couldn't say anything to blame her. She was so lucky to be able to fall in love with her. Why didn't she know how to cherish that person?
She held her hand tightly and said in a helpless voice: "Qianqian... you fool."
Su Qianqian chuckled at her: "You too, Xu Zui."
Xu Zui shook his head: "How could I possibly do this to you?"
"It's just that we haven't reached that point yet." Su Qian smiled slightly, "When you get to my point, you will also..."
Before she finished speaking, the door was suddenly pushed open, and Mo Ling rushed in shouting: "Qianqian, I heard that you are hospitalized again... um..."