Su Shijie's eyes finally reacted when he heard the word "death": "What did you say?!"
He was finally willing to talk to her.
Shanel narrowed her eyes and smiled faintly: "I mean if... I die, you should let go of your resentment... forgive me..."
Because only by forgiving Chanel could Su Shijie let himself go.
Chanel only knew Su Shijie's love for her before she had time to make him believe in her love.
Why does this happen?!
it hurts……
She really wanted to say she loved her right now, but it would be too cruel to express her love in this situation!
If she had just told him, she would have died... Su Shijie would never be able to get out of this relationship, right?
"You won't die!" Su Shijie roared in pain!
"I mean what if..."
"No ifs!"
"Forgive me, forgive me... I know I'm very selfish..." Chanel begged, holding his hand tightly, "But I heard... people who are concerned about themselves can't go to heaven after death...
"
Forgiving me means letting yourself go. Su Shijie, please let yourself go, please...
Su Shijie held Chanel's hand and locked it tighter.
He seemed to be extremely cold, holding her to keep warm, but it felt like holding a piece of ice, and his body was getting colder and colder.
My heart no longer even feels pain. It hurts because it is still alive, still beating, and still feeling.
But now, there is only emptiness in my heart, as if it has been dug out, leaving only a hole...
"Quickly -" he growled at the driver, veins popping up in his neck, his roar was like a beast moaning in grief in the jungle, "Quickly!"
His crazy expression gradually blurred in Chanel's sight.
Her eyelids were getting heavier and heavier, and they were slowly swollen. She tried to cheer up and tried not to fall asleep.
She wanted to see him one more time...
She wanted to say a few more words to him.
There are still many, many things she has not said to him. Those words cannot be said while she is alive, and she cannot say them even after death.
It is destined to be rotten in my heart for the rest of my life.
Chanel closed her eyes, and her thoughts gradually became chaotic. She felt as if her soul was withdrawn, and her body became very light, floating on the clouds.
She seemed to be flying, as if she saw the light of heaven opening...
It seemed to her that when she saw her father smiling at her, he affectionately called her Nelle.
"Nair, do you want to go with dad?" Xia's father stretched out his hand to her and smiled, "Away from pain, away from sadness... dad will take you to the happiest country..."
In the white light, Chanel saw her outstretched hand getting closer and closer to her father's hand——
She couldn't control her hallucinations at all.
It was the first time I felt so close to death, even that suicide was not so close now.
It was a kind of mental defeat, and the last straw was crushed in the body.
"Dad, I'm going with you."
Su Shijie was astonished, his eyes wide open in shock, and tears kept dripping on Chanel's face as if being attracted by gravity.
He began to shake her shoulders to wake her up and open her eyes.
"Don't leave, Nelle! Don't leave -" He shook her hard, "Come back! Nelle, come back!"
Chanel is about to hold her father's hand - his warm palm.
From childhood to adulthood, her father has always protected her and become her most reliable haven.