The ten-square-meter room contains two military beds, a desk, a wardrobe and a washstand.
The furnishings couldn't be simpler, but there was a photo frame that belonged to her on the desk. It was a photo taken by reporters when she became the top scorer in the high school entrance examination in Mobei Province. She thought it looked pretty, so she sent them one. She
The little piece of paper was not taken seriously, but it was put in the photo frame as a treasure by her parents to express their thoughts. Thinking of this, her heart ached as if being pricked by a needle.
Captain Qin had personally packed up his parents' belongings before. The military bed was divided into three neat piles according to clothing, books, and personal items. Gong Xue looked at them silently, as if seeing the warm smiles of his parents.
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Gao Yuan helped her sort out the relics and put the necessary ones into piles. He would send them back to Mobei another day. The rest could be burned along with the ashes of the third grade martyrs when they were buried.
When sorting the books, Gong Xue found that the title page of the first introduction to war was a bit thick. She opened it and found two unsigned letters inside.
Gao Yuan was shocked when he saw it. He was so familiar with the letter that he wrote it once a month or even every week.
That's a suicide note.
It was a suicide note written by Gong Liangjun and Zeng Rulan before they participated in the Qinghe crackdown mission.
After these letters are written, they are handed over to the superiors for safekeeping. If something happens, the military leaders will hand them over to relatives.
Gong Xue seemed to have guessed their purpose. For a long time, she just held two letters and made no move to open them.
Gao Yuan silently packed other things, leaving Xiaoxue time to think and remember.
After a while, Gong Xue suddenly asked him: "Gao Yuan, have you ever written a suicide note?"
Gao Yuan was startled. He looked at her pretty face and said in a deliberately relaxed tone, "Of course I have. I always write this kind of thing before I go on a mission. I was scared at first, but now I don't feel anything anymore. You know Wang Feng, right?
He recently wrote a suicide note and turned it into a poem. After writing it, he would always read it aloud with great emotion before handing it in."
She looked at him seriously, "Then when you wrote, did you seriously consider life and death?"
Gao Yuan gradually faded his smile, pondered for a moment, and said: "I think about it occasionally, but only for a moment. No one wants to think deeply about the consequences, including Team Gong and Instructor Zeng, and they don't want the contents of the suicide note to become reality." He sighed slightly.
, looking up to the sky, "Don't blame them, if there is a glimmer of hope of survival, I believe they will never choose to abandon you!"
Gong Xue lowered her head, gently caressing the kraft paper envelope with her fingers for a while, and then said in a low voice: "When I first learned about their sacrifices, in addition to sadness, I only had grievances and anger. I was angry with them, annoyed with them.
They just left irresponsibly, leaving me and my grandfather to endure the pain of the living in this world. I really want to ask them, how can they be so cruel? Is it true that the interests of the army and the country are greater than the interests of the people?
life?”
She suddenly raised her head, and the brilliance in her eyes made Gao Yuan startled slightly.
"After coming to Dehong, I saw my parents who were unwilling to be separated until death, saw other martyrs who sacrificed their lives, saw you, saw the veteran who risked his life to defend the dignity of the soldiers, and then I realized that the former
Gong Xue, how wrong you are."
"Xiaoxue..." Gao Yuan was deeply moved...
Gong Xue smiled faintly at him, a smile of shame, rebirth, and courage...
"When I accepted the highest salute from the officers and soldiers on behalf of my parents, at that moment, I had become a real soldier..." She stared down at the letter in her hand, smiled, and opened it in front of Gao Yuan.
He said, "Soldiers must be brave first. I don't want to disappoint them and think that I am a weak and irresponsible person."
The first step to be brave is to face the suicide note left by her parents.
Gao Yuan pulled her down, let her lean on his shoulders, and walked into the space of love left to her by her parents...
Xiaoxue:
When you read this letter, it should be your sixteenth birthday. Mom and Dad wish you a happy birthday! Dear Xiaoxue, I haven’t seen you for more than a year. Have you grown taller again? Have you listened to grandpa? You
How are you studying? Do you get along well with your classmates...
Because this is a letter written to you in advance, many situations can only be guessed and imagined based on the phone call with you. When writing this letter, in addition to daily work training, my parents just miss you - my
child.
Dad knows that grandpa will celebrate your sixteenth birthday, and you also have many close classmates and friends to celebrate your birthday, maybe with warm candlelight and a fragrant big cake... But dad wants to tell you, first
Express my sincere gratitude to everyone present, thank them for their upbringing, thank them for their care, and thank them for their selfless love for you!
But when you say it, please also speak for dad, okay?
After this birthday, you are an adult. Although we are proud of you, we still want to remind you that you must be considerate of your grandfather's difficulties, your second uncle and your aunt's difficulties, and don't make excessive demands.
Learn to care about others and be considerate of others. You will work hard and your parents believe in you!
Xiaoxue, finally my father has an unkind request.
If you see this letter, please promise your father no matter what, take the military academy and become a qualified soldier, okay? This is the expectation of your parents and even your grandfather. I hope you can make a difference in the army and become a soldier.
A good and optimistic girl...
Okay. After talking so much and teaching so many lessons, Xiaoxue must be impatient, right? Sigh... I can't bear to say goodbye to you. I really wish this was just a game, a game you often played with your father when you were a child...
Yes, hide and seek.
Every time, Dad is stupidly found out by you all at once. However, this time, Dad became smarter and had to hide for a long time.
If Dad has to hide away for so long, you will definitely miss Dad, right?
Then Dad will use magic to come to you in your dreams while you are sleeping, okay?
Hahaha....
Xiaoxue, please always remember that dad loves you more than himself!
Even if you read this letter, don't doubt your parents' love for you. We all love you deeply and love our home in Mobei...
I really have to say goodbye, my good daughter. In another world, my father will also wish you and your family health and happiness...
Love you dad Gong Liangjun
The night of February 1, 2005
Gong Xue sat in silence, except for breathing, like a lifeless ice sculpture.
Gao Yuan, who looked sad, raised his hand slightly, and was about to take her into his arms, when a tiny sound that was infinitely amplified by the quiet space froze his fingers in the air.
A tear...
Falling on the white letter paper, slowly, the miracle of love swam away...