Gong Xue repeated Long Zhan's original words. Although the words were hurtful, they were the most effective and fastest way to treat a broken love.
Gong Xue woke up in the middle of the night and found that the bed opposite was empty, and she suddenly broke into a cold sweat.
Afraid that Long Sifeng would do something stupid, she quickly dressed and went downstairs. While contacting Long Zhan using the phone number of the dormitory aunt, she searched for Long Sifeng all over the campus.
In the middle of the night, when Long Sifeng was found by Long Zhan and Gong Xue, she was squatting in the sandpit of the small playground, carefully building a house made of sand.
When she saw Long Zhan, there was no surprise on her face, as if she had expected him to come, and there was a hint of sadness in her dark eyes.
She pointed to the houses piled up in the sand pit and said, "Uncle, come play with me and pile sand again."
Long Zhan stood there motionless, looking at her with a complicated expression, clenching his hands tightly, and then suddenly closed his eyes.
Memories came to him like a flood. Many years ago, the scene of a young boy from a poor family leading a girl he called his brother-in-law to build a house in an abandoned sand pit is still vivid in his mind.
After a long time, he said in a hoarse voice: "Okay."
Gong Xue retreated silently at this time. She understood that some problems can only be solved face to face by the parties involved.
After Gong Xue left, only Long Sifeng and Long Zhan were left in the small playground, who concentrated on playing with the sand. Long Zhan was still responsible for transporting sand as he had done when he was a child. Long Sifeng worked hard to build his dream home. After the house began to take shape,
She suddenly stopped and said to Long Zhan in a faint tone: "Don't you forget? When I was a child, you said that when I grow up, you would marry me and live in a house like this, and treat me well for the rest of your life..."
Long Zhan's hand trembled, and a large piece of sand fell straight down. In an instant, the sand house that was about to be formed turned into a ball of loose sand that was nothing.
Long Sifeng stared at it blankly. For a long time, she lowered her head, picked up the wet sand with both hands, and put it on her face.
With the light behind her, no one could see clearly the tears falling from her eyes. They fell silently into the sand one drop at a time and turned into nothingness.
Like her love with Long Zhan, like this most useless sand house, they all turned into the mist of the past...
Long Zhan was also in despair. He originally wanted to persuade her. Who would have thought that after the Shatu house was destroyed, Long Sifeng was silent for a long time, and then she seemed to have suddenly figured out something and took the initiative to comfort him and said: "I won't let her go."
Be sensible... Coming to Kunming has caused you a lot of trouble. I'm sorry for you. If I hold you back now, then I... will really be a sinner... Originally, just think it was me talking nonsense, you
Just forget it after hearing it..."
Long Sifeng lowered her head, wiped her eyes with the back of her hand, raised her head again, tried her best to squeeze out a smile, and asked Long Zhan to look at her hand, "Look, I'm already healed. I won't shed tears for you anymore, nor will I."
I can’t think about it anymore. Uncle, please get along well with me... When the time comes... there will be good news, don’t forget to... inform me..."
"I'm back...Uncle..." The last two words were like a sharp knife cutting flesh, piercing both of them with pain in their eyes.
Maybe his legs were numb after squatting for too long. When Long Sifeng stood up, he shook involuntarily. Long Zhan subconsciously went to help her, but when he stretched his hands in the air, he saw that Long Sifeng had stumbled to hide.
On the other hand, I shook off the sand and soil on my pants and walked away hobblingly.
Long Zhan bit his lower lip so hard that he tasted a strong taste like rust between his lips and teeth.
The cry that was about to burst out in his throat was suppressed by his strong willpower. Taking a step forward would be Feng'er's hell on earth; taking a step back would be enough to fulfill her bright life.
Between darkness and light, he chose the latter without hesitation.
He deceived Gong Xue, deceived Feng'er, and even deceived his own sincerity...
He loves her so much...
Love her so much that she can't help but love her so much that she wants to abandon all human ethics and laws and be in love with her for a long time...
But, you can't...
He couldn't drag his beloved Feng'er into hell to endure the torture and worldly eyes...
He can't...
Can't do it...
Gong Xue is still waiting for the door.
Seeing Long Sifeng come back, she put the milk brewed with hot water into Long Sifeng's hand, "Don't think about anything, just drink it and sleep well."
Long Sifeng held the steaming cup, but tears dripped into the cup bit by bit. The silent crying continued for a long time. Finally, Long Sifeng drank the cup of milk mixed with tears.
Turned off the lights.
Gong Xue told Long Sifeng a shark story.
She said: "One of the most ferocious sharks and a group of tropical fish were put into the same pool by the experimenter, and then separated by hard reinforced glass. At first, the sharks kept colliding with the invisible glass every day. How could they endure this?
It was just in vain. It could never get to the other side and eat delicious tropical fish. The experimenters put some crucian carp in the pond every day, so the shark never lacked prey, but it still wanted to go to the other side from time to time to try the delicious food.
It feels like it keeps bumping against that piece of glass every day. It tries every corner and tries its best every time, but it always ends up with lots of scars. Several times, it breaks and bleeds all over the body. This lasts for a long time.
Some days, whenever cracks appeared in the glass, the experimenters immediately added a piece of thicker glass. Later, the sharks no longer collided with the glass, and they no longer cared about the colorful and delicious tropical fish, as if they were just some walls.
A moving mural.”
Gong Xue couldn't hear the response and thought Long Sifeng was asleep. Unexpectedly, as soon as she stopped, she asked: "Come down? Did the shark eat them?"
Gong Xue continued: "It began to wait for the crucian carp that would appear every day, and then used its agile instinct to hunt, as if it had returned to the sea with unparalleled ferocity and domineering, but this was just an illusion, and the experiment had reached the final stage.
The experimenter took away the glass, but the shark did not respond. It still swam in a fixed area every day. Not only did it turn a blind eye to the tropical fish, but even when the crucian carp escaped there, it immediately gave up the chase and said nothing.
Not wanting to go back, the experiment was over, and the experimenters laughed at it as the most cowardly fish in the sea..."
Gong Xue sighed: "Actually, this is a story told to people who have lost their love. The instructor is also like a shark. It is not because he is afraid of pain that he dare not fall in love, but because he is desperate for love and is facing obstacles caused by worldly pressure.
Despair... Just like that shark, it is not afraid of pain, but it is completely desperate after countless failures. It does not believe that it is really possible to get those fish, that is, the happiness that can truly belong to him.
"
"Sifeng, don't be as desperate for the instructor as you are for the shark... After all, we live in a world where spittle can drown people. Once your relationship is exposed, it will never be happiness for him or you.
It's a disaster. But I firmly believe that everything the instructor does is for you, so that you can live happily and without any burden."