Chapter 439 Who is the person you love in your heart?
Because the special brigade does not allow team members to use communication tools, there will be long lines outside the communication room during holidays. The team members particularly cherish the few opportunities to contact their families, but they cannot bear to keep the team members behind them waiting for too long.
Therefore, those who are full of longing can only turn into a few greetings, usually after saying less than a few words, they will hang up hastily, but when they turn around, they don’t want others to see the red eyes and the back that is hiding in the dark while pretending to leave.
, but revealed too much unknown sadness and regret...
I didn't deliberately 'eavesdrop' on my comrades' phone calls, I just wanted to hear more of the calls of "Mom, Dad" and relive precious moments with my comrades...
Due to the wedding tonight, many comrades were still lingering at the wedding banquet, so there were not many people in the communication room. Afraid that her comrades would give her precious opportunities, Gong Xue did not go in, but waited outside in the cold, waiting for all the team members to arrive.
After leaving, she walked in.
The first call was to Mobei.
The second call was to Gong Tao who was far away in Germany.
The third call was to my parents-in-law.
Father-in-law Gao Rushan went to visit the remote troops as usual. Only her mother-in-law Lin Suran and the nanny were at home. Aunt Lin's voice was still so gentle. After carefully reminding her to pay attention to her health and safety, she complained about not entering the house three times.
Son Gao Lie.
"I don't know what Ariel is doing. He doesn't go home to celebrate the New Year in Beijing. Your father is even more arbitrary. He warned me a few days ago not to disturb Ariel. Xiaoxue, do you think they are too bad?
!" Aunt Lin complained...
Gong Xue smiled and said, "It may be a last resort. Don't be angry."
"Is it useful to be angry?" Aunt Lin sighed and asked, "The guy didn't even call you, right?"
Gong Xue hummed softly.
It’s not that I didn’t fight today, but it’s been many days.
There were some wet drops on the table where the phone was placed. She stretched out her index finger and connected them unconsciously.
She couldn't remember what Aunt Lin said later. Her mind was filled with scenes from the night of the quarrel. Her angry roar kept swirling in her ears, as well as the pain and forbearance that could not be concealed in Gao Lie's eyes.
She knew Gao Lie, who always showed his sharp edge. Even without weapons, he exuded the aura of an invincible king. In her memory, he will always be the strongest one, and he will always be Tianying's belief.
But that night, the man who had always doted on her and doted on her, faced his rudeness and madness, for the first time revealed his bloody and fragile heart under the tough armor.
It turns out that, like himself, he has never let go or forgotten the past mixed with blood and tears.
He asked her whether it was because she was unable to participate in actual combat missions and he was making trouble unreasonably, or... or because she felt guilty and angry because she could not fulfill her oath and could not inherit and realize that person's professional beliefs.
He asked her, who is the person she loves in her heart?
Facing the aggressive Gao Lie, Gong Xue was speechless. Yes, who did she love? And why did she finally choose the career of a soldier?
In fact, the answer has always been in her heart, but she is unwilling to admit it or believe it.
She feels like she belongs in her body but never has a destination in her heart. She often gets entangled in the predicaments she created, and even makes her marriage a bit unbearable. She hates herself like this, so she pointed out the difference between them when Gao Lie pointedly pointed out.
When there is a crux of the conflict between them, he becomes so sensitive and irritable, like a hypocritical villain who has been spying on his mistakes. When he wants to tolerate and comfort, he stabs his heart ruthlessly and ruthlessly.
It seemed that only by doing that could the self-esteem and pride that had fallen into the dust return to her body, but she ignored it. The last thing a husband and wife need is to compete and decide the winner, and there is no need for her to use cheap methods to win.
And ridiculous threats to win so-called victory.
The night of the quarrel, I tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep. Later, when it was really unbearable, I went to the training ground alone and sat on the frost-white sand for half the night.
The coldness and silence of the winter night made her mind, which had been overwhelmed by hatred and ignorance, become completely calm.
Gao Lie was right, there were indeed many small but fatal problems in her body. Because the aura surrounding her before was too dazzling, these flaws were covered up, but he was always paying attention, always paying attention.
I want to find a suitable opportunity and method to awaken her, so that she can clearly realize the blind spots in her mind, so that she can be transformed and reborn through the blending of blood and fire, and become mentally strong and indestructible.
She was too ignorant, so she misunderstood his motives; that's why she stabbed his heart with her cold and ruthless attitude several times.
Gao Lie asked her if she would accept his proposal because he resembled A Yuan?
He asked her, who is the person she loves in her heart?
Before asking, he had already guessed the answer. But, like her, he was unwilling to face the reality.
She can't lie, and she's not a woman who's good at hiding her emotions.
But the truth often makes all possibilities become illusory. She doesn't want to hurt Gao Lie, and she doesn't want to hurt a man who loves her wholeheartedly like A Yuan.
But the reality seems to be different from what they imagined.
For her, the meaning of marriage is more than just a promise.
She decided to get married and accept Gao Lie because she had clearly realized that Gao Lie had unknowingly occupied an important position in her life. This position would not cover A Yuan's position in her heart, but if she lost it
Without him, she would feel the same pain and loss as she did without A Yuan.
She didn't understand whether this feeling was love.
But she is willing to try her best for Gao Lie...
But fate likes to play tricks on people.
Early the next morning, when she had not slept all night but her eyes were as clear as a stream, she mustered up the courage to knock on the door of Gao Lie's room, wanting to say sorry to him and trying to get closer to him, but Xiao Wang, who was on duty, never
The person in the next room stuck his head out, rubbed his eyes and asked, "Xue Ying, the captain is on a business trip, you didn't know?"
On a business trip...
Then after leaving, there was no news.
"Xiaoxue...Xiaoxue..." Perhaps aware of her silence, Aunt Lin called twice tentatively on the phone...
Still stunned for a moment, Gong Xue reacted, "Ah, Aunt Lin, what did you say?"
Lin Suran is an old man with a delicate mind. During the conversation, she noticed several times that Gong Xue was inattentive and had a breakdown in her thoughts. At first, she thought that her daughter-in-law was acting abnormally because she was homesick during the New Year and Gao Lie was not in Chengdu. But chat.
Got it
At this moment, she discovered that Gong Xue had never taken the initiative to mention Ariel to her, and when she talked about her son happily, Xiaoxue almost did not respond. There were various signs that this pair of little ones who had always made her worried