She pondered for a while and then said: "In the eyes of outsiders, I am a calm enough and strong enough person, because I can do things they can't do, suffer hardships they can't bear, and endure pain they can't bear.
For them, Gong Xue is synonymous with strong will and a real-life textbook. Even I am used to overloading and high-intensity training every day. It seems that only by exhausting the last bit of strength can I be free from burden and pressure.
Fall asleep. Facts have proved that hard work is rewarded. I have indeed achieved a proud record in military training subjects. However, behind every halo and every wave of applause, there is the confusion that I can’t figure out the direction.
.The feeling is like a person trying hard to climb a mountain. When he reaches a peak after all the hard work, he finds that there are higher peaks waiting for him ahead. Peaks one after another, mountains connected with each other.
, there is no end, no end, and no hope in sight.”
"I have questioned myself more than once as to why I chose the most difficult path to take, but whenever I feel lost and confused, I will automatically pull A Yuan out of the depths of my memory to be my shield. Every time,
I told myself very hard, or even forced myself, to accept and admit that everything I did was for A Yuan, to fulfill his dream, and to comfort his heroic soul..." At this point, Gong Xue
Still unable to suppress the pain and regret in her heart, she slowly closed her eyes, seemingly struggling to remember something. After a while, she turned her gaze back to Gao Lie, who had a solemn expression, "In order to atone for his sins."
"I once made an unforgivable mistake. If it weren't for my selfishness and ignorance, A Yuan... A Yuan might still be alive and well... I'm sorry for A Yuan... It's my fault..."
Her eye circles quickly turned red, and her body trembled slightly.
Gao Lie's eyes had never been silent since she began to talk. The light in his eyes flickered with her emotional changes, but never went out.
Seeing how sad and remorseful Gong Xue was, he could no longer remain silent.
He put his hand on the back of Gong Xue's hand, pressed a gentle kiss on her palm, then took her hand off and held it tightly.
His eyes were full of pity and understanding, but lacked the meaning of shock and questioning.
He picked up Gong Xue's hand again and put it to his lips, gave it a light kiss, and said in a low voice but full of emotion: "Xiaoxue, the cross of sin is meant to be broken and forgotten. It shouldn't become a part of your life."
The shackles of the world make you lose your original intention and happiness because of carrying it..."
Gong Xue trembled and stared at him in disbelief. When she understood the answer she wanted to know from Gao Lie's eyes, her red eyes were filled with crystal tears.
She sniffed and asked in a choked voice: "How did you know? Did Wang Feng tell you?" The only insiders back then were she and Wang Feng.
Gao Lie shook his head and pressed another kiss on her finger, "I overheard it from a night owl who doesn't like to sleep at night."
Gong Xue raised her black eyes, trying hard to search for possible memories in her mind with a puzzled expression...
"Have you forgotten? Do you want me to remind you, the sky eagle...the sandpit...you...and the stars..." Gao Lie said.
Her eyes suddenly lit up.
I remembered that one day, she was so angry that she couldn't sleep because of Ma Yuejiao. She sat alone on the Tianying training ground for half the night. She couldn't remember what she said at that time. In short, she was very heartbroken.
, I blame myself very much, feeling that it was her fault that caused A Yuan...
Unexpectedly...unexpectedly...
He was nearby at the time.
He knew about it but never mentioned it in front of her. It seemed that if she hadn't taken the initiative to tell the unbearable past, he would have been prepared to hide this secret for the rest of his life.
"I learned everything about A Yuan's sacrifice afterwards. His sacrifice had no direct or indirect relationship with the time you took A Yuan to see Ma Yuejiao. That mission was requested by A Yuan personally before the operation started.
Yes, Team Qin has confirmed this later. I believe A Yuan must have made this decision after careful consideration at that time. Doesn’t he want to live well? Knowing that you are still waiting for him in Mobei, how could he
He gave up his life easily. As for the accident that happened later, there were many external factors that came together to cause that tragedy. Xiaoxue, even if you don’t mention A Yuan, have you forgotten Hong Ying? Forgot him.
How did he die? Is his ultimate purpose in performing the mission to die?" Gao Lie asked Gong Xue three questions in a row, which stunned Gong Xue. A teardrop hung in the corner of his eye, and Gao Lie's heart softened.
..
"Alas...I should have made it clear to you earlier. Some things, just like what you said, what you see and think may not be true." Gao Lie stretched out his hand to help her remove the drop.
She wiped away her tears carefully, "Xiaoxue, don't be sad or blame yourself, okay? Even if you feel regretful about what happened back then, all the hard work you have put in over the years has been repaid."
Gong Xue looked at Gao Lie, her lips moving slightly. She had many, many things she wanted to say to him and to A Yuan, but when the words reached her lips, they turned into a series of suppressed screams...
After so many years...
So many years.
No one had ever spoken words of salvation to her who was trapped in hell, and no one had ever been willing to reach out to save her from the torture.
How many cold and hot springs and summers, how many ups and downs, how many shouts of sweat and tears, how many times of heartbroken tasting of the desolation in the wind and rain...
She thought that her soul could never be redeemed or forgiven in this life, but she never thought that hope would always stretch out its warm hand to take her away from suffering when she was in the most desperate moments.
Gao Lie, meeting you is the greatest luck and happiness in my life..
It was you who saved my fragile soul. It was you who turned me from a walking corpse into a human being of flesh and blood.
Thank you...
Thank you, Ariel...
Seeing Gong Xue crying, Gao Lie's heart ached...
But he did not comfort her anymore, but remained silent, passing on his care and care to her through the power of his fingers.
Cry, girl...
Cry happily...
Pour out your sadness, your grievances, and all the pain and disasters you have experienced with tears...