Gao Yuan felt a trace of heartache in his chest, but he didn't show it too much on his face. He was afraid that being too concerned and surprised would amplify her uneasiness.
Xiaoxue must have had an overreaction after being severely stimulated. She needs psychological counseling, just like the new recruits of the special brigade. When they come back from a mission, they will also have various negative reactions. It takes time and patience.
To soothe and heal the hurt.
"I tried...that night when I was alone with my parents, I didn't cry...later...when the memorial service was held, I saw you carrying them, and I didn't feel like crying either...although...
I feel very uncomfortable, and my heart hurts so much, but... Gao Yuan... I can't cry... I can't cry anymore..." She held his hand tightly, with a look of confusion on her face.
Clear and clean black eyes...
In an instant, Plateau was overwhelmed by the overwhelming sadness and pity, which made his eyes swell.
Who said Xiaoxue is stone-hearted?
It's not just mourning and crying that is painful. The real pain is the sorrow that cannot flow out, is buried deep in the heart, and has no way to vent.
He touched her slightly hot face and looked directly at her, "It doesn't matter, it will get better. At worst, we won't cry from now on, just smile happily, okay?"
These simple words miraculously dissipated Gong Xue's inner anxiety and fear. Those bright and deep eyes not only calmed her mind, but also brought her endless strength.
After a moment of silence, he asked, "Do you still want to play on the swing?" He was actually still playful.
She agreed.
It wasn't as violent as the first time, but it was pushed up again very slightly.
The night wind was gentle, and their shadows looked particularly quiet and leisurely under the moon...
She couldn't help but wonder: "How did you discover this place?"
"When I was injured and hospitalized, I walked here once and found it was very quiet and there was no one around. Later, I fell in love with it." Those cruel and bloody battle experiences were ignored in his indifferent tone.
The hidden grove was regarded by him as a paradise on earth. She felt distressed and asked, "Do you come here often?"
He paused for a moment and laughed softly, "Of course not often. If he came often, he would die!"
Her heart skipped a beat, and she suddenly looked back at him with a serious expression: "Don't say that word again."
He was slightly startled, then smiled and stroked her messy hair, "Okay, no more." Her hair was not as hard as expected, dark and shiny, and although the length was not even ear-length, she could still hold it fully.
hand..
His hand felt warm and hot, and for a moment, he forgot to let go.
Gong Xue heard her own pounding heartbeat, her face burned with red clouds, and a strange, dizzy feeling came from all around her body.
His index finger carefully touched her small, round ear and rubbed it gently a few times. Then he clasped her thin earlobe with his middle finger and index finger, pinching it playfully, then pinched it again like a toy.
When her face was so red that she was bleeding and her head was so low that she could see the back of her neck, he suddenly pulled away his rough fingers and said, "I'm sorry..."
Oh, what happened to him.
Didn't he just want to touch her hair? Why, in the end, it turned into him wanting to tease Xiaoxue.
What made Gao Yuan even more embarrassed and ashamed was that Xiao Xue shyly but happily said to him, "It's okay..."
It doesn't matter!
Is it okay?
Gao Yuan's head really hurts...
When you are tired from playing, you realize how hungry you are. Gong Xue looked around and saw the thermos bucket he brought, and her eyes lit up.
The hot chicken soup noodles, enough for four people, gave Gong Xue and Gao Yuan a long-lost taste of overeating.
Gong Xue ate two bowls, and most of the remaining barrels were basically wiped out by the lieutenant comrade.
"Wow! So full!" He finished the last mouthful of soup and looked at Gong Xue with a satisfied laugh.
There was white rice noodles stuck to his mouth, which changed the taste of his cheerful smile.
She took out the tissue in her pocket and didn't hand it to him directly. Instead, she knelt down and wiped it for him herself.
Gao Yuan felt a little uncomfortable and wanted to wipe it with his own hands, "I'll do it, I'll do it myself."
She pressed his hand and felt his body stiffen, and then he stopped moving, quietly letting her draw pictures on his face.
The faint fragrance was the smell of her body. He became a little greedy, as if no matter how he smelled it, he couldn't get enough of it.
Feeling that his breath was getting closer and closer to her, Gong Xue felt slightly flustered. She took her hand away, lowered her eyes and said, "You have rice noodles on your mouth."
Gao Yuan wiped his mouth subconsciously, and thinking that she had wiped it clean, he couldn't help but smile to himself, "Oh, we savages have always only cared about eating enough, regardless of image."
Gong Xue also smiled slightly, sat back on the swing frame, and swayed casually.
After shaking for a few times, she looked at Gao Yuan who was packing the thermos bucket, and mustered up the courage to ask him: "Are you going to continue working in the Special Forces Brigade?"
Gao Yuan's hand paused. He put down the incubator, maintained his crouching position, and looked up at her, "You want me to retire?"
She nodded slowly, "After what happened to mom and dad, don't you feel scared?" The next sentence almost used up all her courage and courage, "Can you...can you do it for me?"
....Retire early." After saying that, she quickly lowered her eyes, her thick eyelashes blinking uneasily.
Only now did Gao Yuan truly realize that something was wrong with his girl.
It wasn't that he wasn't excited about her confession, nor was he unappreciative of her thoughts. He just felt that this way of retiring was not the most suitable for Xiaoxue and him.
After a moment of silence, he stood up and walked towards her. When he got closer, he half-bent down and held on to the vines, trying to keep her eyes level with her.
"Xiao Xue."
She looked at him, "Yeah."
"Do you like me?" he asked suddenly.
Gong Xue didn't react in time, and her expression suddenly froze. She looked so stunned that it made people feel distressed. Gao Yuan didn't mean to be joking. He waited for a long time and finally got Gong Xue's answer, "I like it."
"I'm ten years older than you, and you still choose to like me. Why? Don't you think the age gap is too big?" He looked at her.
She lowered her head, covering the red clouds burning on her face, and shook her head gently.
I have identified with him since I was 12 years old, how could I change my mind four years later?
Ten years may be an insurmountable gap in the eyes of the world, but Gong Xue doesn't care at all.
"I like you because you are a plateau."
Because you are a plateau, that’s why I fall in love with you so unreservedly.