"I understand that in your eyes, a bastard and a scum like me will die a thousand times or ten thousand times even if it's not enough..."
"Don't be like this... Li Juefeng, get up, I don't blame you..." Gu Xiaoai interrupted him, she didn't want to bear his confession.
"Gu Xiaoai, I love you, I only love you."
Li Juefeng held her hand tightly and kissed her, his thin lips trembled slightly, and he slowly closed his eyes, his long eyelashes casting a shadow.
Gu Xiaoai listened to his voice, looked at his face, tears fell again, her heart ached so hard that she could not control herself, her throat seemed to be choked, and she spoke with difficulty, "I know... those are just the past, I thought I could
Frankly, I still feel sad when I see those photos, really sad..."
Her heart... felt like it was being cut open alive.
When she saw Li Juefeng pressing Liu Zimi on the bed with his eyes closed and kissing her passionately...
She knew that he had the habit of kissing her when she was asleep, but she didn't expect that he would do the same to others before her.
What she has is no different from what others have.
When she saw that Liu Zimi was wearing leopard print underwear...she realized that what Liu Zimi said was true.
He likes leopard print and always has.
…
"Then hit me." Li Juefeng opened his black eyes and looked deeply at her, "Gu Xiaoai, you beat me up, slap me a few times!"
If hitting him would not hurt her, she would have hit him long ago.
"What should I do? I will always remember those photos... I'm afraid I won't forget them..." Gu Xiaoai said intermittently, with bitter tears flowing to her lips.
She was really afraid, she was afraid that she would always remember those photos...
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry... Gu Xiaoai, I'm sorry..." Li Juefeng kept apologizing, holding her hand harder and kissing her hand with his thin lips.
Her hands were warmed by him.
"Have you always liked to see women wearing uniforms?" Gu Xiaoai asked, looking into his red eyes.
"I will never force you to wear it again!" Li Juefeng said immediately, his voice full of nervousness and panic, "I will never force you to wear it again!"
Gu Xiaoai continued to ask with difficulty in pronunciation, "You used to... like to watch..."
"I have forgotten everything about my past!" Li Juefeng interrupted her with an overreaction, raised his eyes and looked directly into hers, "I have forgotten everything about those women! I don't want to remember my past life anymore!
"
"..." Gu Xiaoai looked at him blankly.
"After I fell in love with you, I thought about going back to the decadent life I had before, but I couldn't. From the very beginning, I couldn't let go." Li Juefeng still knelt in front of her, with his back straight, "
The past... I have forgotten, please believe me, okay? A long time ago, you, Gu Xiaoai, were the only one left in my life."
Gu Xiaoai stared at him for a while, then nodded heavily, "I believe it."
She believed all this. No one knew better than her how much he had done for her and how much hardship he had endured...
She knew she couldn't blame him, she couldn't blame him...
Li Juefeng raised his hand and touched her face, wiping away his tears with his hot thumb. His low voice sounded in the quiet night, "I have lived for so many years. When my mother taught me, I was not tame. Later, my father taught me
, I don’t accept it even more...No one else dared to say anything to me. Only when you scolded me did I realize how out of touch I was with the world of a normal person."