"I don't see you, not because I'm afraid of death, but because I'm... afraid of bringing back unhappy memories for you. Ai Ai..." the last two words came out from Chu Shixiu's lips in a low voice, "Why did you look back just now?
?”
Strange yet familiar.
After so many years, he knew very well that he had become a bad memory for her, a... worst memory.
As long as she doesn't look back, she won't find him, she won't see him.
She could pretend that nothing had happened and not shed a single tear.
He can also pretend that nothing has changed and continue to live a humble life.
…
"I didn't want you to die." Gu Xiaoai found her voice, which was so hoarse that it seemed she didn't say it herself.
"But I am a person who should have died long ago..."
Chu Shixiu looked at her and said, his eyes were clean and he was very sad and calm.
"Then you... still hate me?"
Gu Xiaoai repeated the question he just asked, staring at this long-lost face and asked.
Still hate her?
Hate her for abandoning this relationship, hate Li Juefeng... for shooting him, hate her for... marrying Li Juefeng.
…
Hearing this, Chu Shixiu suddenly smiled. There were obvious tears on his face, but his smile was as warm as the sun. If the haze in his eyes could be concealed better, everything would be perfect.
He walked towards her and stood in front of her.
"How is that possible?"
He said it with a smile, speaking calmly and condescendingly, staring at her, "You are someone I can't afford to hate."
There is no other reason.
She is Aiai, the Aiai who is always the first to find him, the Aiai who is always there to accompany him when he is sad, the Aiai who always makes him smile unconsciously...
How could he hate her like this?
I can't regret it, and I can't forget it either.
…
Gu Xiaoai's heart was shaking, trembling slightly because of his voice.
He said matter-of-factly, how could it be possible?
After the tears, both people's emotions recovered. At least, both of them seemed calm on the surface.
Chu Shixiu invited her into the house and into the kitchen, where he was busy boiling hot water.
"Why are you...here?" Gu Xiaoai stood at the door of the kitchen and asked hesitantly without walking in.
She wanted to ask why he survived...
But when she thought of the shooting video, she didn't dare to ask. She was now Li Juefeng's wife, and she had to bear the responsibility for what Li Juefeng had done.
She couldn't imagine how he survived in such a bad situation and how much he suffered...
But Chu Shixiu seemed to know what she really wanted to ask, and his voice was elegant and gentle, "I was rescued by a friend I didn't know well, and then I came to France alone, hiding my name, and started living again."
He answered simply.
"Evan?" Gu Xiaoai thought of that person, Suzuki Nana's brother, who came back to seek revenge on her and Li Juefeng.
"Um."
Chu Shixiu nodded calmly, "I didn't tell anyone when I left."
When he left, he had no intention of letting anyone know his whereabouts.
When he survived, he thought about going to her and saying sorry.
But what he saw was the scene of her and Li Juefeng intertwining their fingers. He suddenly understood that his apology was not important, but his not disturbing... was the most important thing.
…
The water is boiling.
Chu Shixiu took a white mug and scalded it with boiling hot water. Then he poured a glass of water and turned his eyes to look at you. "I don't see you, not because I'm afraid of death, but because I'm... afraid of arousing you."
Happy memories. Ai Ai..." The last two words came out from Chu Shixiu's lips in a low voice, "Why did you look back just now?"
Strange yet familiar.
After so many years, he knew very well that he had become a bad memory for her, a... worst memory.
As long as she doesn't look back, she won't find him, she won't see him.
She could pretend that nothing had happened and not shed a single tear.
He can also pretend that nothing has changed and continue to live a humble life.
…
"I didn't want you to die." Gu Xiaoai found her voice, which was so hoarse that it seemed she didn't say it herself.
"But I am a person who should have died long ago..."
Chu Shixiu looked at her and said, his eyes were clean and he was very sad and calm.
"Then you... still hate me?"
Gu Xiaoai repeated the question he just asked, staring at this long-lost face and asked.
Still hate her?
Hate her for abandoning this relationship, hate Li Juefeng... for shooting him, hate her for... marrying Li Juefeng.
…
Hearing this, Chu Shixiu suddenly smiled. There were obvious tears on his face, but his smile was as warm as the sun. If the haze in his eyes could be concealed better, everything would be perfect.
He walked towards her and stood in front of her.
"How is that possible?"
He said it with a smile, speaking calmly and condescendingly, staring at her, "You are someone I can't afford to hate."
There is no other reason.
She is Aiai, the Aiai who is always the first to find him, the Aiai who is always there to accompany him when he is sad, the Aiai who always makes him smile unconsciously...
How could he hate her like this?
I can't regret it, and I can't forget it either.
…
Gu Xiaoai's heart was shaking, trembling slightly because of his voice.
He said matter-of-factly, how could it be possible?
After the tears, both people's emotions recovered. At least, both of them seemed calm on the surface.
Chu Shixiu invited her into the house and into the kitchen, where he was busy boiling hot water.
"Why are you...here?" Gu Xiaoai stood at the door of the kitchen and asked hesitantly without walking in.
She wanted to ask why he survived...
But when she thought of the shooting video, she didn't dare to ask. She was now Li Juefeng's wife, and she had to bear the responsibility for what Li Juefeng had done.
She couldn't imagine how he survived in such a bad situation and how much he suffered...
But Chu Shixiu seemed to know what she really wanted to ask, and his voice was elegant and gentle, "I was rescued by a friend I didn't know well, and then I came to France alone, hiding my name, and started living again."
He answered simply.
"Evan?" Gu Xiaoai thought of that person, Suzuki Nana's brother, who came back to seek revenge on her and Li Juefeng.
"Um."
Chu Shixiu nodded calmly, "I didn't tell anyone when I left."
When he left, he had no intention of letting anyone know his whereabouts.
When he survived, he thought about going to her and saying sorry.
But what he saw was the scene of her and Li Juefeng intertwining their fingers. He suddenly understood that his apology was not important, but his not disturbing... was the most important thing.
…
The water is boiling.
Chu Shixiu took a white mug and scalded it with boiling hot water, then poured a glass of water and turned to look at