I slowly turned around and walked back. At that time, I was no longer in the mood to visit my old classmates whom I hadn't seen for a long time. I felt weak all over and just wanted to go home and lie down for a while.
Outside the community gate, I took a taxi and ran directly to my home.
In the car, I burst into tears. I hated my own cowardice. If I were a tough wife, I would have stormed into the villa angrily, scolded the shameless husband and mistress, and even slapped them. Defend your dignity.
However, I have never been such a powerful woman. My terrible face prevents me from doing such shocking things. I would rather go home and quarrel with my husband in the bedroom than risk that face in front of so many people. The faces of men expose them.
My husband has a strong psychological quality. He knows my weaknesses deeply. I can even imagine that if I appeared on that occasion, he would tell me politely and without changing his attitude that he and that woman were just participating in normal business activities. , it’s a normal relationship between colleagues, let me not make trouble unreasonably, and so on...
I know him too well, and I know that he will definitely say and do that, and I will be at a loss for words to retort, and his group of friends will definitely help him cover up and excuse it.
At that moment, my heart was filled with despair. I seemed to suddenly see through everything. I thought of the boy I slept with, Ye Xing. I thought, maybe I should accept my friend's suggestion and find someone to comfort me outside of marriage. My lonely heart abandoned by my husband.
A woman who has lost her husband's love is like a flower that has lost its water. This was the situation I was in at that time.
During that time, I found that the condition of my skin was deteriorating. There were fine lines at the corners of my eyes. My skin was not as tight as before. I didn’t know where the plump and plump collagen had gone, especially after I removed it at night. After putting on makeup, looking at that haggard woman with dull skin, I wanted to die.
You know, during college, I was the girl in our department who was famous for her good skin! What did these ten years of marriage bring to me? What made me look like this?
I want to cry but have no tears.
And the most frightening thing is that because I haven’t had sex for a long time, I found that my breasts have drooped badly. Although I usually pay attention to choosing bras and always choose some high-end bras that protect the breast shape, but this thing can only rely on external force. Protection is not enough. A girlfriend of mine who studied Chinese medicine told me that if a woman wants to stay young forever, external maintenance and care can only play a drop in the bucket. Only comprehensive internal conditioning is the best way to achieve beauty.
Take her for example, she is thirty-seven years old. Because she has a happy marriage, loving husband and wife, pays attention to her diet, and has proper endocrine maintenance, she looks quite young, and she really has that radiant feeling. And she usually chooses skin care products very simply. She basically doesn’t use makeup and only uses some basic makeup.
She once secretly told me that I must not suppress myself at my age. She married late and chose a man who was several years younger than herself. Therefore, in terms of sex life, the couple is now very harmonious.
I was actually very hesitant at that time. It felt uncomfortable to be alone in an empty room every night. Since that night, Ye Xing has actually been seducing me and often sent me some suggestive text messages, but I always refused to reply or chose to I gave him a simple reply and warned him not to contact me easily, lest my husband misunderstand me.