After we both calmed down, we realized how embarrassed each other was at this moment.
I had just been raped by him, and my whole body was naturally not much better. Because I resisted, and also because his actions were too reckless, that area was sorely burned by this bastard. During the resistance process, my body also hurt.
Inevitably, he left some bruises and bruises, which looked shocking.
And Ye Xing is not much better than me. I didn't show any mercy when I hit him just now, so now half of his face is completely swollen, and his ears are also swollen; the place on his arm where I bit him is also red.
It was very swollen, and the area with the tooth marks in the middle seemed to be covered with blood scab.
Seeing this scene, I was really angry and helpless.
I gently touched his wound and asked him, "Does it hurt?"
Ye Xing grinned in pain and murmured to me: "How about I bite you?"
I rolled my eyes at him hard and replied angrily: "You deserve it! Who told you to be rough with me..." However, although I scolded him that he deserved it, I was worried that he would be infected with tetanus or something.
So I asked him without worry: "How about we go to the hospital?"
Ye Xing smiled helplessly and said: "Let's forget it," and then asked me, "I went to the doctor and asked how the injury was caused. What should I say? Could it be that you bit it?"
I glared at him hard and said bitterly: "Then I said you raped me!"
Ye Xing smiled even more heartily. He smiled and said, "Okay, then we don't need to go to the hospital. We can go directly to the police station."
I glared at him again, jumped out of bed angrily, went to the bedside table and found a small medicine box containing anti-inflammatory drugs and alcohol gauze.
I returned to bed with the medicine box and began to disinfect Ye Xing's wounds and apply medicine.
When applying the medicine, Ye Xing grimaced in pain, but even so, he didn't forget to take advantage of me, because at the moment I was only wearing a loose nightgown, which naturally couldn't cover anything, and the beauty was blooming inside, so he was
While I was taking the medicine, my eyes kept wandering to places I shouldn't have looked at.
Looking at his malicious eyes, I pinched his uninjured arm and said angrily to him: "What are you looking at? The beating just now wasn't enough?"
Ye Xing pretended to grin in pain, and at the same time he hugged me into his arms, smiled in my ear and said: "I have just seen everything I should see..."
I'm so angry that I really want to strangle him to death!
But as Ye Xing held me, his eyes gradually became serious. He looked at me steadily for a long time, and then he said softly to me: "Actually, I have thought about our future..."
His words surprised me, and I subconsciously asked: "What future?"
Ye Xing looked at me, his eyes became deep and reserved, and he said to me seriously: "I really didn't think about it at first. After all, I thought we wouldn't have any development at that time, but later... when I really thought
After I married you, I thought about this issue carefully."
Looking at his slightly serious and sad eyes, I knew that this guy was really interested, but do we really have a future?
I avoided his burning eyes and murmured in a low voice: "Is it really...possible between us?"
Ye Xing grabbed my shoulder and said persistently to me: "As long as we think about it, it will be possible!"
I looked at his firm eyes and sighed softly.
Seeing me like this, Ye Xing said to me tentatively: "Actually, there is no pressure on my family anymore. You also know that my family has ignored me for a few years. It is mainly on your side..."
Hearing him say this, my eyes became sad. Yes, how could my family allow me to be with a boy who is more than ten years younger than me? There are also all aspects of society.
The pressure of public opinion gives me a headache just thinking about it...
Seemingly reading my thoughts, Ye Xing said what he was thinking: "Actually, I have been thinking about these issues these days. I think if you are not so tired in this fast food restaurant right now, you can work on it first, but I think we
I have longer-term plans for the future. I am now teaching two courses in this school. When the class schedule is full, I can earn more than 7,000 yuan a month. If I am not afraid of hard work, I can play some music in bars in my spare time and still earn a lot.
It will increase. At the same time, I usually help my friends write some music and lyrics, so that I can also earn some income. I want to work hard for two years, and then take you to a medium-sized city where no one knows us to develop, where I will
You can use the accumulated funds to open a small music school and recruit a few children who love art as students. I have no problem teaching piano. I can also use the accordion, violin, and flute freely. In this way, a little will add up to a lot. In the beginning, I may only have
There will be three or four students, but gradually there will be more. If there is not enough manpower, I will ask others to help. In short, I am very confident about our future and believe that my idea will be successful."
Looking at Ye Xing's confident eyes, I was a little moved. It seemed that he was indeed serious and his ideas were beautiful, but could his beautiful ideas really be realized?
Looking at my hesitant and melancholy eyes, Ye Xing hugged me and said to me: "I understand that if we continue to live in this city, you will be under a lot of pressure and the public opinions from all aspects will be overwhelming for you, so I
I just imagined that we would go to live in another city. As long as no one around us knows us, then no one will make irresponsible remarks when we are together, and no one can take care of us."
I nodded helplessly at Ye Xing and murmured: "But how could I leave here? Tongtong is here, and my parents and family are also here. How could I abandon them and just leave?"
Looking at my disappointed eyes, Ye Xing comforted me and said: "We can go to a city not too far away from here, such as a medium-sized city only three or four hundred miles away from the city. Nowadays, the transportation is so developed that it takes two cars to get there."
It'll be there in an hour, and then you can use the holiday to come back and visit them!"
Looking at Ye Xing's sincere and persistent eyes, I nodded to him subconsciously.
He smiled happily, held me in his arms, gently stroked my hair, and said softly to me: "By then, you don't have to go out to work. I will make money to support the family. You just need to give me money at home every day."
I'll do the cooking, just wait until I come back, and then we can also think about... having a baby."
I closed my eyes deeply in his arms, hugged him tighter with my backhand, and said nothing.
Even if it is just a beautiful dream, if there is a man willing to plan this dream for you, I am satisfied.
***
From that day on, the relationship between Ye Xing and I was revived.
This time, I don't know how far we can go, but I am really in love with him. I can't let him go and want to be with him, even if it's just a short walk.
I think he treats me the same way...
Of course, because of the huge age gap between the two of us, we cannot be together blatantly like other lovers. We still pay more attention to the scale in our daily interactions. Ye Xing will not come to my place during the big week, because
He knows that I have to spend time with my daughter during the Chinese New Year, so he usually comes to my place on non-holiday evenings, and then we cook, eat and watch TV together.
In order to allow my daughter to relax enough after studying, I bought an old Wendelong piano from the second-hand market for her to practice. I took Ye Xing with me when I bought it, and he helped me choose this piano.
He said that the piano was in very good condition and was definitely worth buying.
This piano has not been used for a long time and is very new. The original owner originally bought this piano for their daughter to practice piano, but because the whole family is immigrating to the United States, they resold it to us at a low price.
We hired a car to bring the piano back and placed it in a bright spot by the window in the living room. This way, when my daughter comes on New Year's Eve, she can practice on this piano while she is not studying.
, Ye Xing can also play some beautiful songs for me on this piano, which can be said to kill two birds with one stone.
During this period, we were like a real couple. Ye Xing would come to my place after get off work. Because I didn’t have to keep the shop very often, I had more free time at home. Before he came every day, I would usually have cooked the food.
Okay, just wait for him to come and you can enjoy it together.
After dinner, sometimes we would go for a walk around. I had not lived in this community for a long time, so few people around knew me. In addition, under the cover of night, Ye Xing and I didn’t attract anyone’s attention when we were together.
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Ye Xing would sometimes stay at my place at night, and inevitably, of course, we had sex again.
Unlike before, this time, I don't have any psychological burden, because I am now single and I have the freedom to choose who to be my sexual partner.
His skills are very good, and he is more gentle and considerate towards me. Maybe he has learned a profound lesson from the last time he used force on me. From then on, every time he moved, he was extremely gentle and tried his best to take care of my psychological feelings.
It can be said that in bed, Ye Xing is definitely the best partner. He is both fierce and powerful, but also gentle and affectionate. He is strong and soft at the same time, giving women the ultimate enjoyment.
He is getting better and better towards me. As long as he is present, he will not let me do housework, mopping the floor, washing dishes, he will do it all.
In the midst of love, he felt sorry for me and would let me lie down to rest immediately afterward. He would clean up the soiled sheets and other items, and then he would sleep sweetly with his arms around me.
I never asked further questions about the past where he had hurt me and betrayed me, as well as the "unspeakable secret" he mentioned. I thought he would definitely tell me.
I always thought that the unspeakable secret he was referring to was financial pressure. After all, Ye Xing grew up in such a cold and special environment. Such an encounter can completely change the mind of a growing child. Maybe it is because I am also a mother.
As a person, I understand Ye Xing’s special mental journey better.
So, I chose to forgive for that past.
I believe that Ye Xing was able to approach me and protect me in this atonement-like way later, which is enough to prove that he is not a complete bad person in essence.
Maybe there is an evil side in him, but I believe that when he developed feelings for me and became truly affectionate himself, the brilliance of kindness in him has greatly covered up the evil side.