"I feel that I am really useless. With such a disease, I can't even fulfill a woman's basic obligations. I feel really frustrated and feel like a useless person..." Xie Fangju said to me slowly
As she spoke, crystal tears oozed from the corners of her eyes. Her lips were as pale and bloodless as her face, and her voice was hoarse and low, revealing deep sadness and helplessness.
Xie Fangju once had an operation to remove part of her uterus due to uterine fibroids. From then on, she was not interested in sexual life.
Looking at her haggard and sad look, I felt very sad. I held her hand and comforted her softly: "Sister Xie, don't say that. You are a very good woman. You are gentle, kind and beautiful."
, you are virtuous and talented. There are many things about you that many women cannot reach in their lifetime. Please don’t do this again... belittle yourself."
I say this sincerely. Xie Fangju is indeed a very good woman. I clearly remember that no matter what the occasion, Xie Fangju gave me the impression of being elegant and generous. Perhaps because of her privileged background, she has
Naturally, she has an innate confidence and nobility that makes people look at her sideways.
Xie Fangju's outfits on various occasions are very suitable for the scene. For example, when she goes to a dinner party, she will wear an expensive and gorgeous evening dress, giving people a sense of grace and luxury. And when she goes to attend her daughter's parent-teacher meeting
, you will wear an elegant, decent, simple and low-key suit, without giving people the feeling of excessive wealth.
In the same way, she dresses her daughter Ranran very carefully. Although Ranran is only a little girl, her clothes are exquisite and beautiful in various occasions, and the brands of her clothes are all well-known brands with high value.
In life, Xie Fangju is also a very virtuous and versatile person. I remember that Xie Fangju personally decorated the birthday party every year. Every time, the decoration was unique and as beautiful as a small palace.
Every time Ran Ran celebrates her birthday, when she appears as stunningly as stars holding the moon, she will win the unanimous envy and applause of the guests present. The reason for this is, in addition to the extremely rich material conditions created by Zhu Yunxiu for her daughter, and Xie Fangju
This attentive mother’s hard work is absolutely inseparable.
Even when my daughter Tongtong occasionally visits or lives at Ranran's house, she will receive careful care and serious hospitality, which is why Tongtong has such a good impression of her Aunt Xie.
In the past, the couple Zhu Yunxiu and Xie Fangju and their family of three gave me the impression that they were a perfect combination that could not be matched by gods. The man was successful and open-minded, the woman was gentle and virtuous, and the daughter was cute and well-behaved. Who would have thought that things would be so difficult in this world?
Unexpectedly, how could things develop to this point? It really makes people sigh.
Listening to what I said now, Xie Fangju smiled helplessly at me, then sighed softly and said lightly: "Those are just some superficial glories. Every family has scriptures that are difficult to recite. Who would think that it is not glamorous?"
How about showing your side to outsiders?" As she said that, Xie Fangju's face showed sadness that could not be concealed. She whispered to me, "After getting this disease, I also know that I can't help Yun Xiu, he is still young and strong.
, ** is still very strong, I really feel sorry for him for keeping such a weak iceberg like me, so I will turn a blind eye to him looking for women outside, as long as he leaves me with a glamorous one.
It would be enough to complete the family, but I never expected that he would eventually file for divorce from me..."
At this point, Xie Fangju burst into tears again. I quickly pulled out a few tissues from the paper bucket in the cabinet next to me, tried to wipe away the tears from the corners of Xie Fangju's eyes, and comforted her and said, "Sister Xie, don't think about this now. You should take good care of yourself first."
Take a rest."
Xie Fangju glanced at me and murmured to me: "I have been holding these words in my stomach for a long time, so let me say it freely."
I had no choice but to listen quietly to Xie Fangju's continued words.
After resting for a moment, Xie Fangju continued: "When I met him, he was poor and had nothing, and his family was still in a remote area. But my uncle said to me, Fang Ju, if you can trust your uncle's vision, you will marry him. I
I am sure that this young man will be successful in the future. In fact, I liked him very much at the time because he was very handsome and talented when he was young. In this way, I married him without hesitation despite the unanimous opposition of my parents and brothers.
, but I didn’t expect that there are some things that he has never forgotten..."
Speaking of this, Xie Fangju's voice was a little choked. I advised her not to say it yet. She waved her hand gently to me and continued to say to me after a while: "My mother's family has good conditions. It can be regarded as an official family. I have been
Living in a relatively superior environment, maybe because of our different backgrounds, it put a lot of pressure on Yunxiu. I remember that not long after we got married, we once went back to my parents' house. At that time, my brother returned to China from Cambridge, England, where he studied for a master's degree in economics.
, several of his classmates and friends came to the house, and we sat down and chatted together. When my brother and others talked about the topic of the world economic situation, Yun Xiu couldn't help but add a few words of his own opinion. At that time, my brother was very
He said to him disdainfully: Do you know what the world economy is? If you don’t know, don’t do anything here, just take care of your own one-third of an acre. This sentence hit Yunxiu hard, but he was
He didn't show it, and I found out later when I peeked at his electronic diary. He said in his diary, just like Xie Fangyan, I will definitely succeed in my career in the future and show it to the Xie family who look down on me."
Xie Fangju sighed softly, and I listened to her silently, not knowing how to respond to this embarrassing topic.
Next, Xie Fangju stared at me in awe, and then whispered to me: "He also said in his diary that he likes you, very, very much, and you left a deep impression on him the first time you met, but
You hadn't broken up with your ex-husband at that time, so he could only think about it in his mind. Later, when you got divorced, Yun Xiu said that he never wanted to miss this opportunity again."
Hearing Xie Fangju say this, I was a little anxious. I explained to her softly: "Sister Xie, but I didn't do anything sorry for you."
Xie Fangju nodded at me and murmured: "I know, he wrote it in his diary, saying that you have been rejecting him and even made a new boyfriend to avoid his pursuit."
Hearing what Xie Fangju said, I felt a little relieved. It seemed that Zhu Yunxiu was not telling nonsense in his diary. Otherwise, I wouldn't be able to clean myself up if I jumped into the Yellow River.
I held Xie Fangju's hand and said to her sincerely: "Sister Xie, you must live a good life and never do stupid things again, for the sake of Ran Ran and for yourself."
Xie Fangju nodded gently to me and murmured to me: "Don't worry, you can't die twice. To be honest, when I was rescued and saw my daughter's pale face with fright, I was
It really hurts my heart..." At this point, Xie Fangju closed her eyes subconsciously, and another drop of clear tears slipped from the corner of her eyes, "In order to prevent Ranran from worrying about me anymore, I will not do anything stupid again. At that time,
It was just a thought, as if the beautiful castle that had been built for many years suddenly collapsed, and I couldn't accept it for a moment, so I became so anxious..."
At this time, I felt very uncomfortable. The woman in front of me had just experienced a life-and-death change. She had just walked to the gate of hell and been pulled back. Maybe it is only people who have experienced such great sorrow and joy that can be so enlightened.
"Sister Xie, you must be strong." I held Xie Fangju's hand and murmured to her, my voice a little choked.
Xie Fangju opened her eyes and looked at me, smiled bitterly, then nodded slightly and said: "I know, I will live well," she sighed, turned her eyes to the ceiling, and continued to murmur,
"Actually, if you think about it, it doesn't matter. Instead of continuing to make do with a false veil like this, it would be better to give him freedom early. When he is free, I feel relaxed. In the future, I will guard my child.
You can usually read books, travel, and spend time with Ranran during holidays. In fact, if you think about it, there are many happy things to do alone."
I whispered to Xie Fangju: "Sister Xie, don't say that. I don't think your marriage with Brother Zhu is irretrievable. If that day comes, with your beauty and talent, you can find a better one."
partner."
Xie Fangju stared at me, smiled and nodded. She held my hand and said softly to me: "Xiao Su, if Yun Xiu and I really break up, you just... promise him and leave him to you.
It’s much better than leaving it to those hairy little girls who don’t know the heights of the sky.”
As soon as I heard this, I quickly backed down and said, "Sister Xie, don't say that, I already have... a suitable boyfriend."
Xie Fangju smiled bitterly at me, and then continued to talk to herself: "Actually, Yun Xiu is not a bad man. He has taken my feelings into consideration. I can see that he really likes you and wants to be with you.
, he voluntarily gave me half of his career that he had worked hard for many years, and also agreed to live with me. It is not easy for a man who has reached his level to do this."
I know what Xie Fangju said is true. When it comes to divorce, Zhu Yunxiu is as good as my ex-husband Deng Wenliang.
But even so, it doesn't mean that I can accept his love, because this love is too heavy, and I, who have already suffered emotional trauma, simply cannot bear this heavy love.
Seeing that I was silent, Xie Fangju added: "Actually, no matter how much money I have, it means nothing to me. I have lived in a relatively superior environment since I was a child. I don't have much extravagant expectations for money. I just hope that I can
I will guard my husband and children and live an ordinary life, but since our marriage has reached a point where it is irreversible, I am willing to give him... freedom."
***
That day, after leaving Xie Fangju's ward, my heart couldn't calm down for a long time. It was impossible for me to accept her persuasion. At the same time, I also felt an inexplicable sense of loss in my heart.
After Xie Fangju was discharged from the hospital, Zhu Yunxiu made an appointment with me and said he wanted to talk to me about something.
The meeting place he arranged to meet was at a coffee shop. I thought that with so many people sitting around, what he said could not be too explicit, so I agreed and went to his appointment.