Chapter 145 You are the most real dream in my life
Silence, another long silence, a deathly silence in the room.
I bit my lip tightly, tears gradually filled my eyes. My conscience was fighting fiercely with my feelings. I had never experienced such a difficult decision before, even if it was to end the thirteen-year nightmare.
Before my marriage, I had never experienced such cruel suffering in my heart.
Although in my past life experience, I have never done anything that goes against my conscience and morality. Punishing evil and promoting good has been my life creed since I was sensible. But at this moment, let me personally kill this young man
Taking it to court, emotionally, I can't do it no matter what.
Because no matter how much I concealed, blocked, or evaded my words in the past, at this moment of confrontation where both of our inner worlds have been exposed, I can no longer conceal the most embarrassing secret deep in my heart, which is, that is,
I once deeply loved the boy in front of me.
No matter how embarrassed I am to say this sentence, no matter what worldly obstacles this love has, but at this special moment when I am facing life and death, I must face my heart calmly.
His fit figure, his hearty laughter, his kind and charming smile, and the smooth sound of the piano under his fingers, like flowing clouds and flowing water, have all touched my heart deeply, like the warm spring breeze.
, like the warm sun in winter, it has been stationed deep in my heart for a long time and will never go away.
"Let him go, let him go..." A voice echoed in my heart for a long time, "Although their crimes are unforgivable, they are excusable, let them go..."
Finally, this voice defeated the other noises in my heart, and I uttered three low notes in my mouth, so low that I couldn't even hear them clearly: "Let's go."
Ye Xing raised his head and looked at me in surprise, as if he thought I wasn't talking to him. After a moment, he murmured to me, "Have you really decided to let us go like this?"
I didn't look at him, I just squeezed out a few low words from my throat: "Just leave if I tell you to, what nonsense are you talking about?"
Ye Xing smiled awkwardly, then he looked at me, thinking slowly and said: "Actually, you don't have to have any... psychological burden, about how Kexin sold the secrets of Deng Wenliang Company to others, and
I don’t know the specific details of the Yang family’s car accident case. Some of the key plot points are also unknown to Xin. The law also pays attention to evidence. Without evidence, no one can be convicted... I just feel that there are some things hidden from you.
After so long, it’s time to give you an explanation, so I tell you everything..."
Listening to his words that seemed both self-comfort and self-confession, my endurance finally reached its peak. I frowned and shouted at him: "Get out of here! Stop nagging me about these useless things."
Yes!" Tears rolled down from my eyes and dripped on my clothes.
When Ye Xing heard the ultimatum I gave him, he stood up as if he had received a response. He grabbed his coat and strode towards the door.
When I looked at his tall and slender figure standing in front of the door, I suddenly realized that this farewell might be a life-or-death separation for the two of us, and we might never have the chance to meet again in this life.
At that moment, all kinds of melancholy came to my heart. When I saw his hand on the door handle, I no longer cared about my reserve and dignity. I shouted at him: "Wait a minute."
His body trembled and he slowly turned around.
At this moment, there seemed to be thousands of words in my heart that I wanted to tell him, but now they only condensed into one sentence. I looked at his back with tears in my eyes and asked with a choked voice: "Did you really...love me?" Me?"
At that moment, looking at my tearful eyes, Ye Xing also shed tears. He wiped the tears on his cheeks and said slowly to me: "Whether you believe it or not, but every word I just said to you, It's all true. I really... loved you. You were the first person in my life who awakened my conscience. Before I met you, there was no right or wrong, right or wrong in my world. There is only one difference between what is good for us and what is not good for us. It was you who made me understand the true meaning of life and awakened my desire for a plain life. The longer I stay in contact with you, the more I long to embrace you. In my arms, living with you the kind of ordinary life that you have always looked forward to, like a steady flow of water, I even..."
Speaking of this, Ye Xing's voice became a little lower. He lowered his head slightly, then raised his head again after a moment, and continued to say to me with red eyes: "Since I had that idea, I even tried to persuade Ke Xin, Said: Since Deng Wenliang treats you well and your life is very comfortable and comfortable now, then you should accompany him and live well... let the past things go by and don't think about things like revenge anymore. The present days are more important. But you know, once you take the wrong path, you can no longer look back. This is the case for Kexin, and it is the same for me. When she heard that I wanted to give up on her, Kexin treated her like crazy. I cried and shouted, and she said that without me, she wouldn't want to think about revenge at all, and she wouldn't need so much money at all, because life has no meaning to her, and hatred and money are useless to her. What meaning does it have to her?"
"So you didn't give up on her in the end and decided to follow her all the way to the end?" Here, I asked in a low voice.
Ye Xing nodded to me with tears in his eyes and murmured: "I can't look back, and the same goes for Kexin. Do you know? Whenever I think of you, sweet love will surge in my heart. It is true love, the love of a man for a woman; however, whenever I think of Kexin, I feel a pain in my heart, a pain that melts into the bones, a pain that cannot be resolved, this journey As we walked closer, she and I were already in a state of you and me, and we couldn’t tell each other apart. That’s why I said, if she went to die alone, my heart would be painful for a lifetime. If Kexin didn’t have such a tragic past , I may not care about her like this and can't let her go, but just because she has such a past, she doesn't trust anyone in the world except me. It can be said that I am the whole meaning of her life. So in this life , no matter how difficult the road ahead is, we can only move forward side by side. And you..."
When he talked about me, Ye Xing's eyes softened, and his tone became much softer: "I love you. This is unquestionable and unadulterated. You are the most true love I have ever had in my life." The dream of meeting the right person at the wrong time is the most true... interpretation of our relationship. So we are destined to have no destiny in this life. In this life, you give me to... Kexin, if there is In the next life, let’s be a couple of gods and immortals who only envy mandarin ducks but not immortals, okay?”
Hearing this, I burst into tears. I lowered my head and shouted to him with a choked voice: "Go! Go! Go!"
Ye Xing gave me one last deep look, and said in a low voice: "Sister Man, take care!" Then he opened the door and walked out quickly.
The moment the door closed, I fell down on the sofa and cried like a puddle of mud.
***
From that day on, Ye Xing lost all information, his mobile phone was shut down, and he no longer logged in to any network contact methods, such as QQ and MSN, and his avatar was always gray.
Yang Kexin never bothered me again. The two of them were like a mist-like breeze, gently passing through my space, and now they disappeared out of thin air.
My life has returned to its former calm, and has resumed its regular rhythm as it did a while ago.
I go to the store every day to patrol the store and check the accounts, and I have boring dates with Lao Wang every now and then. My daughter Tongtong comes to my place every week because Deng Wenliang sold the house and temporarily rented a place to live. According to Tongtong
They say the conditions are very poor, probably because they want to save money.
Because Tongtong thought it was dirty and messy, she refused to go there in Da Zhou, so she often came to my place in Da Zhou.
"Mom, Yang Kexin is missing!" One Sunday night, my daughter leaned on the sofa in my living room and said to me with wide eyes.
"Oh." I raised my head slightly from a clothing magazine and responded casually.
"Mom, something is unusual this time! Do you think she ran away with someone because she saw my dad became poor? Anyway, my dad's face is very bad these days. When I go to his place, he doesn't do much.
When he talked to me and asked about Yang Kexin, he looked impatient and said, "You kid, don't mind adults' business, hum!" Seeing that I didn't take it seriously, Tongtong leaned in front of me and said to me in a serious manner.
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I smiled helplessly, gently caressed my daughter's lovely cheek, and thought to myself, even if Deng Wenliang found out that he had been deceived by his beloved little wife, with his arrogant and self-righteous character, he would still fight
If you pretend to be fat, you won't admit it right away.
"Mom, if Yang Kexin runs away, do you want to remarry your father?" Her big eyes rolled, she thought for a long time, and asked me cautiously.
I put down the magazine in my hand, looked at Tongtong, and asked her softly: "Do you think it is necessary for me to remarry your father when he treated me like that?"
Hearing my question, Tongtong pouted, lowered her head, and murmured: "What Dad did in this matter is indeed... disgraceful."
I smiled bitterly, gently put my arms around my daughter's delicate shoulders, and whispered to her: "Poverty and crisis are not terrible, because as long as people are around, these can be reversed. I am afraid of the changes in people's hearts. Once people's hearts change,
, that can’t be restored no matter how hard you try. Your father’s feelings for me were like this at the beginning, and now, my feelings for him are the same. So, no matter whether he and Yang Kexin broke up or not, no matter what his current situation is, he has already and
I have no relationship anymore, and there is no possibility of remarrying him in this life."
Listening to my sincere words, Tongtong nodded to me with big eyes and said softly: "Mom, I understand you."
I smiled and held my daughter in my arms, feeling in my heart that she was the biggest gain from my marriage to Deng Wenliang.