Living in the hotel was really boring, so I went to sit in a nearby bar.
I never came to this kind of occasion before. I only came here occasionally after getting to know Fan Yujuan. Now I feel really depressed. Coming to such a place with feasting, entertainment, and noisy people can alleviate my troubled thoughts a little.
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I asked for a beer. Although I almost never drank alcohol before, but now when I feel extremely upset, wine is probably the best way to relieve my worries. Didn’t the ancients say that one drink can solve a thousand worries?
I really hope that after I get drunk, I will forget all the things in front of me. I really hope that after I wake up from this drunkenness, I will return to the me who I was seventeen years ago, the innocent me who just entered the university. If everything
I can start over. I really don’t want to meet Deng Wenliang again, and I never want to meet him again...
However, despite thinking this in my heart, the reality in front of me is a nightmare that I can never get rid of.
I've been sleeping with that man for thirteen years. It's a lie to say we don't have a deep relationship. Now I really have to make up my mind to part ways with him. My heart is throbbing.
I have always been a weak-tempered little woman who likes to shrink into a shell. If possible, I even want to forgive Deng Wenliang again. As long as he appears in front of me now, I even want to hug him.
Have a headache and cry, and then tell him that it's all over and let's start over.
But, I know I can't.
My repeated forbearance and retreat will not win his respect and consideration, but will only make him more and more indifferent to my existence, and step by step trample my dignity under his feet.
So this time, no matter what, I will divorce this marriage to the end.
I know that if I get divorced, it is unlikely that I will remarry. After all, I am already at this age and I am no longer young. If I get married again, I can only find someone of the same age and experience as myself.
Men of the same age and experience as me must have gone through hardships and even scars. When we start a family, we are called a half-way couple. We may have children, so we have to try our best to adapt to each other's family, but we still have to be together.
All kinds of conflicts cannot be avoided...
And that kind of life is not what I want at all.
I am tired. I have just stepped out of a dark and hopeless marriage castle. I don’t want to enter another marriage trap that may be full of thorns. Therefore, once I get divorced, I would rather choose to be alone for the next few years.
I just thought about it, and the more I thought about it, the more painful it became. I poured beers into my stomach one by one. At this moment, my cell phone rang.
At that moment, I thought it was Deng Wenliang, so my hands were still shaking when I picked up the phone. But when I saw the number of the caller clearly, my heart completely went cold.
The call was from Ye Xing.
I let the ringtone of my cell phone keep ringing and didn't answer it.
In fact, I was already a little drunk at this time. Ye Xing had contacted me during the few days I was staying in the hotel, but I didn't tell him that I was staying in the hotel. One night, I really couldn't sleep and I used the hotel when I was bored.
I was online for a while on qq.
It was already one o'clock in the morning, and I never expected that Ye Xing was also online.
Because I didn't have time to set up invisibility, he saw me all at once.
He asked me curiously: "Sister Man, it's so late, are you still there?"
Then he asked me: "Your geographical location shows that you are in city w, but you are not in this city now?"
I didn't know what was going on with this hotel's line, but it actually showed that I was in another city, so I had no choice but to tell Ye Xing that I was not at home, but outside.
He sent a "haha" over there. I don't know if he, who is so smart as Bingxue, understood my current living situation, but I didn't say much. I just chatted briefly that night and then I logged off.
Now, he called again. I watched the screen of my phone flashing, hesitating, but still didn't answer.