Lu Cheng allowed me to see hell, which made it possible for me to become a demon. Luo Xia allowed me to see heaven, but I couldn't become an angel... Sometimes I think about the difference between angels and demons, that is, angels have hearts, while demons
No.
It turns out that I lost my heart to the devil a long time ago.
I once thought that as long as I wait, the warmth of summer will eventually belong to me. After all, she and Lu Cheng are biological siblings, there is no possibility. Since God has brought her to me, he will definitely take care of me.
However, I was wrong, the God of destiny did not hear my prayer...
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This is a quote from a diary written by Nie Yunfeng. I don’t know when he started. He sometimes wrote down his mood at that time, but there were only a few of them. Because he understood very well that if a person has no secrets, he will never leave.
He expressed his thoughts. However, certain thoughts kept lurking in his mind, making him dizzy, so he still wrote in his diary.
Youth is a time of laughter and crying.
He also wrote this sentence in his diary. In fact, this habit started from this time. When he saw Luo Xia getting more and more haggard and he was unable to get close to her, he had no choice but to think of this way to encourage her.
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He didn't think about what he was going to write before he picked up the pen. When the pen fell on the paper, such a sentence appeared, maybe it was what he felt. Seeing the smile on the corner of Luo Xia's mouth made her whole person shine brightly.
He thought that he would read more books and look for some sentimental words in the future. He would like it in the summer.
From that day on, Nie Yunfeng would often go to the bookstore or the school library. The teachers were very happy, thinking that he could finally focus on his studies and that famous universities would not be a problem. But they did not know that he mostly read literature.
Books, and a notebook, if you see something good you will write it down.
The contact between him and Luo Xia turned into the delivery of notes, and the intermediary was naturally Wen Li. This girl was carefree, not at all impatient about being the messenger between the two of them, and was in high spirits. She would often take over his messages.
After writing the note, he jokingly called himself a "homing pigeon", which made him uncomfortable.
After laughing, she noticed that Wen Li was blinking her eyes and said nervously: "Nie Yunfeng, the way you smile is, uh, even prettier than Xia Tian." After saying that, she ran away quickly, leaving her back as strong as an athlete.
Nie Yunfeng was dumbfounded. He actually compared him with Xia Tian. Can men and women be compared like this? This Wen Li's mind really didn't understand. She picked up the bag in her hand and headed to the library. Sometimes she found it funny.
, this is the first time he has been to the library so frequently since he has been in school for so long.
Recently, he has recorded several pieces of paper in his notebook, which is full. Sometimes it is a sentence, and sometimes it is a paragraph of text.
Every time he wrote it, he felt it was too literary and often laughed at himself, but seeing Luo Xia's happy face, he continued to search.
Fall in love with a person because of a song, fall in love with a city because of a person.
A note from my heart, a quiet thought.
The dance swaying on the tip of the pen is the strongest flash of red under the spotlight.
The most taboo thing in the world is to be perfect. Look at the moon in the sky. Once it is perfect, it will soon lose its luster. Once the fruit on the tree is ripe, it will soon fall. There must always be something lacking in everything.
, can persevere.——Excerpted from Mo Yan's "Sandalwood Punishment".
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Although every word and sentence is not my own emotional perception, it is also remembered in my heart while excerpting it.
If the years were so clear and could flow quietly, he would rather maintain a simple connection with Luo Xia like this, conveying each other's feelings through pen and paper. Even if she never replied once, he could still see it.
Her smile will make him feel satisfied.
Every time Wen Li would happily describe Luo Xia's reaction after reading the note, but she didn't know that he had already stood somewhere and had a clear view. Life seemed to have become more complete, although there was no chance of getting along directly with Luo Xia.
But his life is on track and he no longer has to worry about making a living.
Traveling around school, work, and home, it’s just right and you won’t be tired. Because there is warmth in your heart and a smile in summer.
Time passed in such beautiful years, and it was another year of college entrance examination. Nie Yunfeng walked out of the examination room and saw Luo Xia smiling at him at the school gate. He was stunned for a moment. It had been one month and ten days since that day, and this was the first time.
Once she walked up to him calmly, with indescribable tenderness in her bright eyes.
He has always been alone in this city, never expecting anyone to come to take the exam for him, but he never thought that Luo Xia would come, and he came for three days in a row. Even without saying a word, he just stood at the school gate and laughed.
Watch him walk out of the examination room, wait for him to smile knowingly and then leave gracefully.
If you think my smile is so moving, then I will definitely be smiling in front of you.
Luo Xia said: Nie Yunfeng, you should become a psychiatrist in the future.
From then on, applying for psychology became his goal. Although he did not put much effort into his studies, he was still confident when he walked out of the examination room. The teachers hoped that he would go to Beijing, attend a prestigious university, and bring glory to the school, but he knew
There is only one choice to fill in, which is the university in this city, which has a special psychology department. It doesn't matter to him whether it's famous or famous, the important thing is that he doesn't want to leave Roucheng, because he is here in the summer.
Nie Yunfeng counted these things in detail in his heart, thinking that he had arranged them well, but he didn't know that fate played a trick on others.
At the moment when the wind blows and the flowers fall, I always feel inadvertently that the fleeting years have really flown away, but fate has rolled in overwhelmingly. It turns out that those memories of youth can only be engraved in the heart.
The college entrance examination at that time was in July, the hottest summer day, so by the time Nie Yunfeng finished the exam, school had already been on holiday. Three days after the college entrance examination, his involvement with Luo Xia was cut off.
Fortunately, he and Wen Li were close. He could not go to Luo Xia. He could go to Wen Li and get some information about Luo Xia from her, but the note could not be delivered for the time being. Unfortunately, at that time, the Internet was still
It was not popular, and letters and phone calls were the mainstream methods of communication. For Luo Xia, if he did these two, it would only cause her Kunluo, or in other words, gain Lu Cheng's taboo.
Nie Yunfeng didn't want to put Luo Xia into a situation where he couldn't help himself anymore. Lucheng was like a big mountain, pressing down not only Luo Xia, but also him, making him unable to breathe.
In order to bribe Wen Li for her "hard work", Nie Yunfeng would often invite her out to treat her to dinner. Fortunately, this girl was easy to deal with, so he ate from beginning to end on the snack street and felt very satisfied. He often thought that maybe this boy's personality
The girl was a noble person given to him and Luo Xia by God, so that they could find some breathing space under the gloomy sky.
Although the days are quite boring, they are not unbearable. Summer vacation will be over in another month, and his admission notice should be coming soon. If he goes to college, he will have very few opportunities to visit Luo Xia in high school.
But it's still much freer than now.
During the summer, Nie Yunfeng also worked a job during the day. When he walked to the door of his house in the evening, he saw the trembling girl with her head buried in her knees. His heart ached instantly. What happened?
Luo Xia raised his head when he heard the footsteps. His eyes were full of pain and even deep despair. His face was stained with dried tears. His eyes were red and swollen but could no longer shed tears. Is this still his summer?
Nie Yunfeng had never seen Luo Xia like this. Even when she was captured by Ma Qi's men that day, she didn't have such a panic look. Suddenly Luo Xia stood up from the ground and rushed towards him, almost hitting him with his body.
She threw herself into his arms. He wrapped his hands around her waist and immediately felt her whole body shaking violently.
There was a blockage in the throat, and she opened her mouth but no sound came out. In her ears, she heard Luo Xia crying: "Nie Yunfeng, I have no home!" Then she buried her head in his chest and burst into tears.
Nie Yunfeng was a little confused. She didn't understand why Luo Xia was so sad. What happened to her that made her collapse like this? She asked Wenli out half a month ago. At that time, she said that Luo Xia was fine and was at home every day.
I'm practicing piano and I'm in a good mood, but now I feel like the sky has fallen.
Luo Xia had cried until she was cramping, and she couldn't ask anything like this. Nie Yunfeng lowered his voice as softly as possible, "Xia Tian, let's go into the house first." But Luo Xia didn't move, just buried in his arms,
Nie Yunfeng had no choice but to lift her up and carry her towards the door. He took out the key, put one hand tightly around her waist, and inserted the other hand into the hole.
After entering the house, he directly picked her up and pressed her on the chair. Seeing that she was still crying, her hands tightly grabbed the skirt of his chest and refused to let go. She was helpless like a lamb without support. She had no choice but to
He took a handkerchief from his pocket to wipe her tears, but after wiping them dry, they would come out again.
What kind of pain caused her to shed tears in the warmth of the sun?
Life is only once for everyone. It is a beautiful light that should not be lost in the abyss of pain. If it is really painful, Xia Tian, just say it. I am here and will listen carefully.
To relieve your worries.
Whispering softly on his lips, Luo Xia was stunned for a moment. She raised her bright water eyes and stared at him, but more tears welled up in her eyes. But she no longer cried loudly or was hysterical, and her emotions gradually calmed down.
Nie Yunfeng held her in his arms, patted her back, and accompanied her silently. When a person cannot restrain his sorrow and needs to vent his emotions, just let them vent. Tears are actually the best elixir for healing. If not
Crying without speaking and pressing everything in your heart will make people worry.
Being able to cry means that the situation is not as bad as the worst, there is no obstacle that cannot be overcome, and he is with you.
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Heart-to-heart communication does not depend on the method, even if it is a sentence, it is successful if it can reach the other party's heart.